Guiding Thought

Your worth is inestimable, beyond compare!

Always know: you have everything to give—as such, you may always give freely! Know your worth! Give it! Give it freely! Know in the giving!

As you give, you learn; allow Joy and Peace to lead and to guide you. Follow willingly because you know: Where there is Joy and Peace, there is Love; where there is Love, you are; where you are, you are giving your inestimable worth.

Reflection

When I started this Journey, I stated my intention as opening to the Holy Spirit (and also the Divine Mother). The two themes that have come up so far have been change and connection. I just realized there is another very practical reason for doing this Journey…I realized this when I read the first line, “Your worth is inestimable, beyond compare!”

You see, my self-esteem has taken a beating in the past few years, regarding a particular situation in my life. I’ve known it more or less, that my esteem has been slowly degraded; I’ve been aware of it. I’ve protected myself against it, not yet being able to “just walk away” from the situation. Doing this Journey is helping me stay afloat, above the barrage taking its toll on my esteem.

At different times in this particular situation I have felt like there is no way out, that I am helpless, that I’ve lost all hope, that there is no other way, that I am completely at the mercy of being in this situation.

I am a reasonably “positive” person; I have had amazing people in my life; I have had support, love, and encouragement in my life. If it weren’t for the momentum of these things from my past, I would be navigating this “negative” situation a whole lot differently. But I’ve lived and experienced such love, encouragement, and support, that its >perceived< -opposite won’t/can’t envelope me and drag me down.

I’ve been learning something through this situation: I can now better understand how people get stuck in abusive relationships, in ongoing “negative” situations, and repeat them; translate this more generally to being stuck in the illusion or appearance of the phenomenal world (maya), and I can see how people get stuck in believing in this particular reality, not able to reach up to our Divine Self.

I was given a gift. I experienced a glimpse of something outside (and “opposite”) my current situation. I was literally breathing a sigh of relief and gratitude when I encountered this alternative. I knew this alternative exists (one that is loving, supportive, encouraging), but it’s been so long since I’ve seen it, or experienced it. I was so incredibly grateful. It was like I was thinking, “I am not crazy…the situation I am in is crazy…but there are sane people who exist outside my situation… there is a different reality available to me…”

I wonder how people will be when we collective experience love, support, and encouragement. What are our possibilities? Where can we go, when we are not beaten down? What can we accomplish when our hearts and minds are free? When we know how beautifully worthy we are of Joy and Peace and Love?