We are worth the effort it requires to move our minds to Love. We are worth the time of waiting, in patience, for Knowing to arrive. Every moment, every second that we open to simply being willing for Love to enter is a moment offered to Eternity; a moment offered to healing, a moment offered to Unity.
Love simply settles slowly, quietly, gently, beyond sense-perception. So we must wait in patience and take the effort to move our minds to join the quiet stillness of Love. Here we rest. Here is Peace. Here is all we want and need.
I affirm: I am willing for Love to enter. I wait in patience. I move my mind to join the quiet stillness of Love.
The past four weeks have felt like an emotional roller coaster. Seriously. In all of the Journeys I’ve done, I’ve had ups and downs, but those were like a gentle roller coaster, with just a single track.
This Journey it’s been sharper, more frequent ups and downs, happening on several different levels and in a variety of areas.
Good thing I like roller coasters.
I’ve been reminding myself of different times in my life when I’ve experienced personal struggle, how I dealt with it (much of what I write about here), and how everything turned out fine.
I’ve been reminding myself that God always takes care of me–and everything works out really fine, as in ways that I would never be able to orchestrate, if I were figuring it out. And, that when I have tried to figure it out, I’ve been disappointed. Letting God do it is really the way to go. You would think I would not have to remind myself of this at this point… but, well, see the post a few days ago.
What is really humorous to me, is that this “struggle” isn’t even a struggle. It’s my mind playing tricks on me, and me buying into them. I’ve got so much going on that is exactly what the sages and gurus tell us happens in our minds, which things like meditation and spiritual practices help to tone down: my mind is full of chatter; it is telling me things that I know “aren’t real”; I’m “seeing” illusion; I’m feeling things that have absolutely no basis in either reality or my experience (even in the illusion). And yet, I’ve been buying into all of this to varying degrees. Thus the roller coaster.
This is humorous, because I can see it. I see exactly the tricks that my mind is playing with me, but I still buy into them. What is up with that?
I have reinvigorated some more of my mind-practices–japa mainly. I had slacked off of this when I began doing more fire ceremonies, and different daily prayers. And what’s funny about this is that I wrote about this very thing at the end of the last Journey.
The more I do these Journeys, the more they flow into each other, the more there are connections between them and within them.
Maybe the current roller coaster is because I’ve reached a point where I can deal with the convergence of more aspects, more layers, more dimensions of my being. But because this is a new point, and I’ve never actually dealt with this many aspects, layers, and dimensions of my being, it’s a bit of a challenge.
I’m going to go with that. And enjoy the ride.