New Beginnings– Worth (1.3.29)

Copyright Tam Black 2018
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Guiding Thought

We extend the Love that we are, for that is all we truly are. As we learn to be aware, to understand and to Know our own will as Love, and make choices according to that will, our life experiences become worthy of us. Expressing our Self that is wholly Love and United with All is the only choice that is worthwhile. It is the only thing that brings us satisfaction, the only choice that allows us to experience our Self—the Love that we are. My-your-our- freedom depends on our right choices, depends on our choosing what is worthy and what is not; it depends on me, depends on you, depends on us.

Quick check-in: How are you doing? Have you had a smooth and steady Journey, or has it been a bit tumultuous, like mine, or somewhere in-between? What types of insights have you had? Do you have any themes that have popped up? What feels significant to you? Don’t worry if you have no answers right now. When I first started doing the Journeys, I did not have any insights or connections until day 38, 39, or 40, or even after the Journey was over. The main thing is to get through the Journey. 40 days is a long time (at first), but you’re worth it!

Reflection

I really needed today’s Guiding Thought. While reading it, I just relaxed, and let out a huge sigh, thinking, “yes. yes. This is it. This is exactly what I want”.

I was also reminded of / reinvigorated with commitment. That is: my commitment to you.

This past month, I’ve really been in a haze of self-interested worry. “What about me?” “What am going to do?” “really need this >thing< to happen, so I feel better.” “How does this affect me?” and on and on.

And I owe you an apology. I’ve been self-absorbed (that’s the little self, the selfish self…), when I should have been Self-absorbed (in my higher Self, which universally cares for the highest good of every being). So, I apologize. My-your-our- freedom depends on our right choices, depends on our choosing what is worthy and what is not; it depends on me, depends on you, depends on us, and I have not done a good job being dependable for the past few weeks.

I do feel like I am back on track–especially today, after this Guiding Thought’s kick in the ass.

It was a gentle kick, reminding me exactly of why I am doing this Journey. This is exactly what I want:

As we learn to be aware, to understand and to Know our own will as Love, and make choices according to that will, our life experiences become worthy of us. Expressing our Self that is wholly Love and United with All is the only choice that is worthwhile.

I want to Know the Will of Love. As I’ve been doing my prayers over the past 48 hours, the subtext has been, “Thy Will be done”. And sometimes, I include, “Thy Will be done also in me, a sinner”. (Just a quick explanation: worthiness, or unworthiness, for me is tied up in feeling the guilt of having “fallen”. I mean this, “fallen”, as both in a Catholic sense, but also in a broader sense, of simply having forgotten who I am, and forgotten my divinity. I find that acknowledging this helps me move through/past it. You may read this  for more detail from earlier on this Journey.)

I want my life to be worthy of my Highest Divine Self, worthy of the Holy Spirit, worthy of God. It seems ironic, or a bit of a paradox that in order for “me” to have a life worthy of the Divine, “I” cannot do anything. I have to let the Divine operate in me, through me, as me. If “I” do something, invariably, I screw it up (I’ve been reflecting on this a lot lately, too.) Yet, “I” am the recipient of the results, that is, the “me” that experiences this life. It feels so counter-intuitive to do nothing, yet receive everything. I still don’t really understand…and yet…I do.

Finally, I do not often talk about astrology, mainly because I don’t really know that much. But I do pay attention, and think about “what’s going on out there” and “what’s going on in here” to see what kind of reflection/learning I can see.

Here is a short description about today’s New Moon:

May 15th 2018 is the big day. We have a New Moon in Taurus and just 3 hours later, Uranus enters Taurus! New Moon = new beginnings and Uranus changing signs = major new beginnings…just keep in mind that this is BIG. Something in your life will shift. If you have planets or angles in the first degrees of the fixed signs (Taurus, Leo, Scorpio, and Aquarius) you will feel the shift even stronger. (from astrobutterfly.com)

“New beginnings…and major new beginnings”. With this is mind, I dedicate today’s post to the new beginning of focusing, with renewed vigor, on making choices according to Divine Will, and creating life experiences that are worthy of US. I dedicate this to you, and your freedom in Divine Love.

Peace. Peace. Peace.

 

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