From Becoming to Being and Being Back While still Becoming. -Healing (1.4.14)

Copyright Tam Black 2018
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Guiding Thought

To heal and be healed is to be aware, to understand, and to Know Wholeness.  Thus, seek Wholeness, Unity, Oneness within your own mind and heart, and in all your actions and affairs. Focus on uniting the fragments within yourself, so that you see only Oneness, which is the Truth of your Self. As you Know yourself as the Oneness you are, this Truth reflects in the world around you, confirming what you Know through your experience and life activity.

Reflection

There are three distinct parts to this Guiding Thought. 1) What “healing is” 2) Uniting fragments 3) the Truth reflected in the world.

Number one affirms the journey, the “becoming”, by using the words “to heal” and “healing–indicating that we are in this process. And it also affirms the destination (“being”), by intimating that the answers already exist in your own mind and heart.

And I might add… being (which can only exist here and now), as the destination, means you’ve already arrived. You know this: You already are what you seek. Seeking becomes the being seeking Itself while being.

Wait, what?

Let that stew a minute or two.

This brings us to number two, and why we do not realize that we already are what we seek. And that is because we do not see ourselves as Unified and Whole (healed); instead we distinguish “parts” of ourselves and separate those parts into “this” and “that” or “not this” or “not that”. It’s like looking at one puzzle piece one moment, identifying as that piece (“oh, I am RED; that’s what I AM” or “I am  BLUE, that is my identity; how could I have thought I was red?”), without understanding that there are all one picture, with various colors–all the time.

How, then, does one go about uniting the fragments?

Here are some ideas to answer this:

  1. Some people simply “wake up”. I think Eckhart Tolle is a good example of this: When Eckhart Tolle was 29, he says, he underwent a cataclysmic and terrifying spiritual experience that erased his former identity. One evening, he was a near-suicidal graduate student, living in a Belsize Park bedsit; by the following morning, he’d been flooded with a sense of “uninterrupted deep peace and bliss” that has never left him since. That morning, he writes, “I walked around the city in utter amazement at the miracle of life on earth, as if I had just been born.”
  2. Some people are born into it, for example Anandamayi Ma: “My consciousness has never associated itself with this temporary body. Before I came on this earth ‘I was the same’. As a little girl ‘I was the same’. Ever afterward, though the dance of creation change around me, in the hall of eternity ‘I shall be the same’.”
  3. Some people work at it. Lao Tzu comes to mind; he taught that living and practicing certain teachings can open you to higher wisdom and greater happiness, as they realign you to the source and enable you to access all the powers that source energy has to offer. (Emphasis mine, “realign” is another way of saying “unite”.) His teachings can be found in the Tao Te Ching.

In my humble opinion, working at it is the most practical approach (Journey, anyone!?). There are lots of ways, and lots of people to learn from, spiritual leaders and guides abound (check credentials, look for quality, follow your heart and higher Self).

Finally, there is number three: receiving affirmation of your Truth, and of unifying your fragments through your experiences in the world. This is a very rewarding place to be. From personal experience, I can confirm that life gets lighter, more joyous, with more confidence in being in the right place at the right time–not worrying so much about what will or should be.

Peace. Peace. Peace. May we all Know Peace in Unity.

We can get through this. -Healing (1.4.13)

Copyright Tam Black 2018
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Guiding Thought

Rely on your own Loving Presence to lead and guide you toward the meaning of healing. Seek the meaning of healing and allow it to frame all your activity and to give context to all your interactions. Though you may encounter disturbances throughout your daily activity, lay them at the feet of your own Loving Presence and continue to ask, “What is healing”? Your own Loving Presence directs you, as you listen in the stillness.

Reflection

Today is a step-by-step day. So much of this Guiding Thought feels immediately relevant…one piece at a time:

Rely on your own Loving Presence to lead and guide you toward the meaning of healing. 

I think of my Loving Presence as that which connects me with God. Sometimes I feel like I cannot connect directly with God, and so my Loving Presence acts as an intermediary. Sometimes I feel open enough and worthy enough to communicate directly with (what I think of as) God, and so my Loving Presence becomes that relationship, without the need for an intermediary.

Either way, I am constantly praying/talking to/looking up/in for my own Loving Presence and/or God.

I commented to a friend earlier today that I have begun to trust–and rely on–the guidance and direction that I receive from my own Loving Presence/God. This has not always been the case. Have I been guided and directed in the past? Yes. Absolutely. Have I trusted it? Yes–even then, yes. But here’s the clincher: in the past, when I have trusted the guidance and direction, there was not so much at stake; somehow life was “easier”, so trusting was “easier”.

Now… there is a lot going on in the world. The energy is amplified. Emotions are amplified. There is more “good” and more “bad” visibly mixing–and not always in peaceful ways. For many people there is so much at stake. Whether it is belief systems, political systems, a way of life, integrity, ego, families, jobs, the future…whatever it is for each individual person…something big is at stake. So everyone’s self-interest (or perceived self-interest) is clashing.

Now, trusting the Loving Presence to guide and direct is not easy, because there is so much swirling, constant chaos. How does one slow down enough from all of this crap going on in the world to listen, to pay attention, to follow any guidance?

It is within this context that I can say, “I have begun to trust–and rely on–the guidance and direction that I receive from my own Loving Presence/God”.

know that I am being guided. It is still hard for me to wrap my head around it, or to know exactly what to do or when to do it. But my faith and trust are stronger than they’ve ever been.

Seek the meaning of healing and allow it to frame all your activity and to give context to all your interactions.

Why? Why do this? Why seek the meaning of healing and allow it to frame all my activity and interactions?

Because sickness is Lovelessness. Sickness is separation. Sickness is apathy. These things permeate the world right now. It is up to us to eradicate them. How do we eradicate them? By seeking healing. Every moment. Every day. Every interaction. Seek Love. Seek Unity. Seek Care and Compassion.

Though you may encounter disturbances throughout your daily activity, lay them at the feet of your own Loving Presence and continue to ask, “What is healing”?

Today I have not “encountered disturbances”. Today has been one continuous disturbance. What is wrong with people? What is wrong with the World–with the United States in particular–that children are traumatized as families are torn apart?

This is not a time for attaching to these emotions. It’s a time to be aware. be alert. and seek healing.

I have laid these disturbances at the feet of my own Loving Presence through constantly reminding myself

  • I do not understand anything I see
  • These thoughts do not mean anything.
  • My meaningless thoughts are showing me a meaningless world.
  • I am upset because I see a meaningless world.
  • A meaningless world engenders fear.
  • God did not create a meaningless world.

All of this crap going on in the world is a mass purging. Vomit is not pleasant, but generally you feel better afterward. What we are experiencing is the vomit–and who knows how long this will go on. But see it for what it is, let it all out, and know that the vomit is not the end game–it’s just a way to get us to feeling better.

Your own Loving Presence directs you, as you listen in the stillness.

Just keep on with this. It can be difficult to listen in stillness when there is so much high-emotion going on everywhere, with everyone. It’s hard to get centered, hard to remain centered. Just do the best you can. Listen as best you can. Know that your own Loving Presence is directing you. All is as it should be (believe it or not). Do your best. Keep seeking. Keep going. Have faith, as you have never had it before.

Choose your attachments carefully -Healing (1.4.12)

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Guiding Thought

Go deep within your inner stillness, and feel Divine Mind’s presence within. Hold out your empty hands, symbolic of leaving preconceptions behind, symbolic of seeking True answers, and ask, “What is the essence of healing?” Let these words resonate within you, as though in a vast cavern.  The word essence reverberates with these thoughts, “For what do you care most deeply?” “What is your own essence?”; “What is your Truth?”; “Where is your deepest hurt, your pain, your sorrow, that all may be healed?”

Reflection

Here’s what I see today:

The essence of Life is movement and change.

Sickness comes either when we try to “pluck” a thing out of its constant motion, and freeze it to make it permanent or when we attach ourselves to the things we perceive and experience.

First, the body is the “thing” we most often “freeze”. Sickness in the body arises because we have frozen thoughts or feelings that try to convince us that if we hold on to them, the body will be reliable for us as a permanent thing.

Healing the body comes in three parts. 1) Recognizing and releasing those thoughts and emotions that we have frozen in order to maintain the reliability of the body 2)  Allowing Life Itself to flow in and through the body–keeping the flow of Life energy at all times (being attuned with the constancy of change, Truly “going with the flow”) 3) Being both a participant in and an observer to the flow of Life.

Second, my essence, at its core participates in the movement and change, but from a point of stillness. Movement happens around my essence, but it does not affect that core.

You’ve heard the phrase, “we are spiritual beings having a human experience”. Just so. Our Spirit–our essence–is unchangeable, unmovable.

When we attach to Our Spirit-Self and observe from Its place of Its Truth (unchangeable, unmovable),  the perception of movement ceases, and is replaced with the experience of being Spirit.

From this, healing can be approached in these two ways: 1) Learn to observe from that point of our Spirit-Self, where we are the observer to the movement, being truly our Spirit, but having a human experience or 2) we can experience the flow, the movement, the change, but not be attached to it. As anything arises–thoughts, emotions, interactions, just let them go and move on.

 

 

 

Everyone is Atypical -Healing (1.4.11)

Copyright Tam Black 2018
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Welcome to Round 2! We’ve completed 10 days, WHOOO HOOOOO! How are you doing? How’s your Journey? Are you understanding anything in your life from a new or different perspective? Have you had any “Ah-ha-s”? My Ah-ha-s usually come mostly during the last round. I seem to spend a lot of time stewing in my own juices first, then…boom, things come together. So… don’t worry if you don’t think you’re “getting it” yet.

The Guiding Thoughts change slightly for this round. If you are new here, please see details under “Four Rounds” on this page. Here we go!

Guiding Thought

Clear your mind of all past notions of what you think healing is. Erase all memories and stories from your thoughts, leaving only a clean slate. Turn your attention to your Inner Divine Mind and ask, “What is healing”? Wait and listen in silence; take your attention deeper into the vastness of Divine Mind and ask again, “What is healing?”, “What is wholeness?”, and “What is holy?” Wait and listen. Feeling stillness, simply pause in the quiet and await your answer.

Reflection

“What is healing” can be interpreted in two ways. 1) The emphasis is placed on “what”: “What is healing?”–what are things or actions that bring about healing. Some answers could be (for example): “Eating fresh fruit is healing”. “Relaxation is healing”. “Saunas are healing”. 2) The emphasis is placed on “healing”: “What is healing“, which points to the essence of healing: What does it mean to heal?  What does healing feel like; how is it experienced; how is the mind comported to induce healing? 

The first is physical, the second is beyond the physical. The first responds to symptoms or conditions, the second, when understood, addresses everything.

I always regard the Guiding Thought as asking the second type of question, looking for the essence of healing.

For this answer, healing must speak for itself. This is why letting go of preconceptions is necessary, and why stillness and quiet are necessary.

Healing must tell me of itself.

One of my most beloved animals was a Jack Russel Terrier. This breed is known for having boundless energy and keen intelligence:

My dog, Spot was an atypical Jack Russell. He did not run around, crazy; he never really wanted to play; and he was very sensitive (not aloof like most Jack Russells).

I could not approach him like a typical Jack Russell. I had to forget everything I thought I knew about Jack Russells, and let Spot teach me about himself. I had to be attentive and sensitive right back to him, otherwise, he would look at me with such expressive eyes as though I had completely misunderstood.

There are so many things/people that are not what we think they are. How often are we disappointed because we have misunderstood? How often have we projected what we thought someone or something should be rather than asking it or them to tell us about themselves?

What can we learn of healing by listening to each other?

Spot (2004-2016)

 

Good Enough -Healing (1.4.10)

Copyright Tam Black 2018
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Guiding Thought

I give today to Light. I feel the Light within pour forth; I feel my radiance, my glow. I see—with my inner eye—this light envelop and infuse all I encounter, all my words, and all my actions. I watch as others resonate with me, their light growing brighter in the sanctity of my own. To all beings and all situations today, I offer only light, and learn, as I do, the Wholeness of my Self.

Reflection

One follow-up comment from yesterday: Yesterday, I mentioned feeling angry and embarrassed at being wrong about a practice I have been doing for a very long time. There is a flip side to those feelings: I also feel more free and very grateful. I acknowledge that doing the practice in the way that I was doing it (the “wrong” way), I learned, I grew; it lead me; it got me to a new place; ultimately, it accomplished what practices accomplish–moving me through ego-burdens and showing me a new level, or state, of Freedom. But then I outgrew the “wrong” way, and I’ve have now been given the next level, the next step.

In A Course in Miracles, there is a reassurance that not only does the Holy Spirit unify all, but It also utilizes everything for Its Highest Purpose, when those things are given to It. Even in doing the practices “wrong”, my intention has always been: purification, nearness to God, for the benefit of All, with everything offered to God. I feel like I’ve received a tangible demonstration for “how this works”. And for that I am truly grateful.

Today

want to be a vehicle through which the Divine enters the world to love and serve All Life. But, there is a bit of a paradox here that I have been mentally working through (on and off) for a while, and today’s Guiding Thought has brought it up.

Here it is, as best I can explain it: “I” cannot do anything for the Divine to enter the world or, as the Guiding Thought indicates, to give Light. If “I” do something, then whatever I give is not of Light, or of the Divine. “I” must put myself aside, so that IT (the Divine, or Love, or Light) is doing what It does naturally, without me, yet through me.

There are two examples that I turn to when mulling this over. The first is something my Reiki master says: Reiki is always available. You do not “push” the energy, you do not “give” the energy. You make the energy available, simply by being. It’s the other person’s body/energy that recognizes the energy is available, and then pulls it through you”. 

The second is the fifth Principle of Miracles: Miracles are habits, and should be involuntary. They should not be under conscious control. Consciously selected miracles can be misguided. 

In both of these examples “I” am not in control; “I” am not doing anything. If “I” do something the energy is impure, or misguided.

But have prepared. I have attuned my energy and my chakras to receive and transmit Reiki; and I have purified, and continue to do so, to allow the Holy Spirit to direct miracles through me (the seventh Principle of Miracles: “Miracles are everyone’s right, but purification is necessary first”).

Even though I understand these things intellectually, through these two examples, I find that in a more general sense–like the Guiding Thought– “I” continue to want to do something…which would only inhibit what I really want to accomplish, because if “I” do something, we’re back to impure or misguided.

It does not help that with Reiki, with Miracles, and with being a vehicle for the Divine to enter the world it often happens that you don’t get to see (or perceive) the results. Speaking for myself, this leads me to wonder, “Is anything happening?” “Did ‘I’ do anything?” “Was anything accomplished?” “Why do I spend so much time purifying/praying/making myself ‘ready’?”

I never actually “see—with my inner eye—this light envelop and infuse all I encounter”; I never “watch as others resonate with me, their light growing brighter in the sanctity of my own.” To me, these are visualizations that promote the feeling of what happens, but they are not literal (have you had a different experience?).

This is why it’s easy (I think) for people to not be diligent, to not be faithful, to think that this energy-stuff is all hooey. I get it, really I do.

What I can do–and what is important to me today about the Guiding Thought–is that I can give today to Light–all my thoughts, words, feelings, and actions can be dedicated and devoted to Light.

As for me, I choose to believe it. I choose to believe that when I invoke light, light shows up. When It shows up, it’s available for Everyone, should their bodies and energy choose to pull it in, should their Higher Selves choose to utilize it (and why wouldn’t they!?), should the Holy Spirit choose to direct it on behalf of the Divine.

I have to admit, I believe also that I have come a long way in learning about Love, learning about Wholeness, learning about my Self, because I practice this. Maybe this is merely a self-fulfilling prophecy, maybe nothing is “happening”. But I would rather spend my time and energy promoting Love, Peace, Wholeness, Healing than anything else. That’s good enough for me.

What do you do when you’re wrong? -Healing (1.4.9)

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Guiding Thought

I am the Light of Love. Light saturates my mind and body, surrounding every thought, and radiating out to All. Everything radiates Light in return. Everywhere is Light. I rest in Peace, Being Light.

Reflection

Have you ever thought, “What if everything I think is true is false?” or “What if everything I believe is wrong?”?

I ask myself such questions sometimes to keep me on my toes.

For everything I believe, or for everything I think is true, there is someone who believes the opposite, or thinks that I’m wrong. But it’s also more than that.

There are people who have been in long term relationships, even marriages, who wake up one day to find that everything they had been believing in, and building their lives on, was not what they had thought. The other person did not feel the same way–and suddenly the relationship was over. I know people who have gone through this.

I wonder–in my current relationship–what would I do, if this was all false? What if I were to become one of those people who wakes up one day to find my life turned upside down?

So, you see…this is a fairly practical reason to keep myself on my toes and ask “what if things aren’t what I think they are”.

This is not an exercise to promote fear or suspicion–I hope it does not come across that way. It is, rather, an exercise in expanding how I live, think, and make choices.

People do not always share the same opinions, the same perspective, the same understanding–even when it seems like they do. People are people, living the best way they can. Not everyone is honest with other people. Not everyone is honest with themselves. Sometimes people are simply uninformed. Sometimes they are taught something that is not correct. Sometimes they stand adamantly by something they have learned, without even thinking they could be wrong.

That is why, sometimes, I play this game, wondering “what if I’m wrong?” I give myself that space, that option. I play it out in my head…what would I do if I am wrong?

There are two ways then, to approach this: 1) Would I regret my actions from the past, if I found out everything I thought was wrong? 2) Would I change my future if I learned something I believed was wrong?

As for #1: If I woke up tomorrow and found out that my relationship was not what I thought it was, would I regret anything? Would I think I had wasted my time? Would I feel resentful? No. I would not change anything. Of course, life would change because I would no longer make the same choices, but I would not regret anything about the past.

As for #2: I just learned that some things (spiritual practices) that I have been doing have been “incorrect”. I am in no way a traditionalist, and I have learned my practices mostly through reading and practicing. But in these, I either had not read enough to find more-correct information, or I missed it if I did read it. What I thought was correct- isn’t. I feel a bit embarrassed and angry with myself…but how was I to know? I was ignorant, uninformed; I was doing the best I could with who I am and what I have. Now I feel like I must change my behavior; I must forego habits that I have developed for years and do something new and different. Will I see a difference? Do these spiritual practices make that much of a difference? (FYI: I generally believe that what is in my heart is what translates to the Divine, and my heart has been in the right place. I also believe the Divine is very forgiving!)

What is “right”? How do we learn? What do we do when we are wrong? Can we change? Can we grow? Can we do something different?

Change is the only constant. Being “right” or “wrong” is part of that territory.

I may be wrong, but…

There are things that I believe in so strongly that they are the cornerstones to my personal philosophy, and they help to assuage me, when I find I am wrong, and I need to evolve my thoughts, actions, or beliefs.

  1. Living with pure intentions establishes all actions in the right (higher) direction.
  2. Love does not mislead. Anything done with Love is worthwhile. Doing things with Love is a way to live with no regrets.
  3. The heart is the best guide. People can only make decisions for what is true and right for them at any given moment. This is the best we can do.
  4. Learning matters. When I am willing to learn–even if it means acknowledging that I’ve learned something “wrong” in the past–I can learn and grow into better and better versions of myself.

 

Remember! -Healing (1.4.8)

Copyright Tam Black 2018
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Guiding Thought

Today I decide to be aware of my Whole and Holy Self working within me, expressing through me. As I move through the affairs of my life, with an open mind and empty hands, I look first to my Whole and Holy Self for guidance. My only decision today is to be aware of my Whole and Holy Self—all other decisions arise out of this, in conjunction with my Self.

Reflection

Today I fell short. I feel critical of myself for it. Instead of feeling inspired by today’s Guiding Thought, I feel it’s showing me what I didn’t do, telling me what I should have done, showing me how unaware I was today.

I have been succeeding in “moving through the affairs of my life with an open mind and empty hands”. Today, it occurred to me that moving through life in this way, can feel a lot like being unaware, being “asleep”.

Here’s what I mean: I have not been planning my days; I have not been making lists, prioritizing, and deciding in advance how I should spend my day. I’ve been going with the flow, keeping an open mind, approaching life with empty hands. This has been going on for about two weeks.

At first, it was going very, very well. I wrote earlier about how I had no expectations for myself except to do earth, air, water, and fire, and how good that felt. I remember feeling that way; I know what I felt then was right.

But it seems now I am at a different point in the process; “going with the flow” no longer feels good. I feel uninspired, unmotivated, like I am doing a lot of meaningless things that feel like a waste of time (though, let me say, that I recognize these are feelings, and the reality is that I am getting things done that have needed to be done for a while; it’s just taking longer than I want it to–probably why I did not jump to do them before).

Also at this point in the process, I feel more disconnected from the actions (I feel like this has to do with feeling uninspired). I feel like I am lamenting those earlier days in this process, when flow felt good. Am I now out of the flow? or is this part of  the flow that I am unfamiliar with?

How quickly things change; that was less than two weeks ago.

I am currently questioning what I am doing, why I am doing it, how I “get back” to feeling good in the flow, and if these feelings are part of the process that I am supposed to “go with” to work through, or if I am supposed to do something to “get out of” feeling this way.

All journeys have ups and downs (so to say). What I know by now is that everything is the Journey. Everything matters. Everything is showing me something, directing me, guiding me on the Journey. So, I’ll take this; I’ll take these feelings of uninspired, spinning my wheels, unmotivated. It’s all Healing.

One of my intentions for this Journey was to be gentle with myself, to not be too hard on myself, to nurture myself. This is a good day to remember that.