I rely on my own Loving Presence to lead and guide me toward the meaning of healing. Seeking the meaning of healing frames all my activity and gives context to all my interactions. Though I may encounter disturbances throughout my daily activity, I lay them at the feet of my own Loving Presence and continue to ask, “What is healing”? My own Loving Presence directs me as I listen in the stillness.
All I know right now is that “healing” means keeping my commitment to healing. I don’t have any expectations, any goals, any desires for “an outcome”, anything I want to heal.
I have no need to “feel better”, no corrections that I want made, nothing to ask for.
And yet, healing does frame all my activity and gives context to all my interactions. How can this be? How can I have no thoughts or expectations about healing, and yet find it everywhere, and in everything?
I am not sure I have the answer to that question right now. I can’t explain it.
What I can tell you is that as I maintain my attention on healing, every moment is filled with gratitude. Looking back over my day, I was grateful for everything.
This gratitude was not the kind of gratitude that I had to think about; it was not as though I was taking a silent moment to intentionally give thanks for everything. It was more like a subtle joy and appreciation that permeated everything–every action, every interaction, every experience.
Let me repeat that: it permeated everything.
Looking back over my day, there was not one single moment that did not have this buzz, or hum, or vibration of joyful gratitude. I was just happy to be where I was. All day.
It is so subtle. If I hadn’t been looking for something called healing, I may have missed it.
And now I am grateful for the impetus of looking.
What a day.