Big Decision –Gratitude 2.8.?

Last night I came to a decision. Since I missed two more days of Journey of Gratitude over the weekend, I am going to call it a wrap with Journey of Gratitude, at day 35–the last day published.

This is the first time in six years that I have not completed a Journey on time, much less, simply not completed the Journey. It was a big decision, which I do not take lightly. After all, I made a commitment on January 5th, 2019 to complete this Journey.

It’s also a big decision to intentionally decide not to keep a commitment, no matter how small or big. I wonder about the energetic repercussions. I wonder about what this means.

And, yet, I am not dwelling on it. I am forgiving myself and moving on. This is the best decision; I know it in my heart, even if my mind wants to make a big deal about it.

To satisfy my mind, however, I did think about the reasons, which I would like to share with you.

  1. I was consistently inconsistent.  Clearly I struggled with maintaining my daily practice with Journey of Gratitude, not just once, but several times, and not during one particular round. I missed days 5, 13 (which I did, but just realized I never published it), 15, 16, 18, 21… etc.  Some days I tried to “make up” the following day, other times, I just let skipped the day. This reminds me of the saying, “Moderation in all things, even moderation”. This is saying, it’s ok to be a little bit radical once in a while, as long as moderation is the norm. So, maybe it’s ok to be inconsistent in some things, as long as consistency is the norm (did I mention this is the first time I’ve not completed a Journey in six years?).
  2. The struggle became more harmful than beneficial. Sometimes struggle is motivating. Sometimes struggle is a catalyst to push through something, to come out on a new level, a new plane, a new perspective. Sometimes struggle strengthens me. That wasn’t what was happening. I have pushed through enough, been motivated by struggle enough, dug into my crap enough that I know the difference. I felt demotivated and weakened. There was no point where I felt like I had gained ground, there was no break.
  3. I am happy with what I did accomplish. For the first 21 days, I limited myself to writing on one index card. For those 21 days, I had to feel more deeply to distill the feeling into words. This was intense work. I give myself credit for that. I’ve also been happy with the insights that I have had not only during those first 21 days, but since then.
  4. I feel like I have arrived at a new place. I cannot quite put my finger in it, but in the past 14 days, I feel like I have received/given a stronger call to action. Something has shifted, and it’s time for something new. Are you ready? Here it is:

I am ready for my next step. This means that someone out there–or several someones out there–are ready for their next step. If this resonates immediately with you, you may be someone I am looking for. If it does not resonate immediately, keep reading and see how it feels…

My next step began in November of 2017. I have been building a platform for people to work with me directly on their own Journeys. In other words, I would act as a guide for others who are interested in their own spiritual growth/ascension. I’ve been building this platform, working out the kinks, thinking about it… then more thinking about it… then more thinking about it.

It’s a big step, and a bit scary.

No not just a bit scary…it’s terrifying. I can feel my trepidation swell in my chest as I write.

So here’s what I am looking for, there are two options:

  1. I am looking for 1 to 10 people who would like to do a 40 day Journey, with me as their guide. You would be both guinea pig as well as a member of my “development team”. We would work out the details together, but I’m thinking you would receive written input and encouragement, with a few phone calls for processing. Check out the platform here, and if you are interested in Journeying with me as your guide, email me, and I will give you free access. The next Journey is Courage, and it begins on Feb. 24. If that is too soon, or you want to do a different Journey, email me and we’ll work something out.
  2. One person who would like to do a “public” Journey on this site. If you have been reading this blog, you know the deal: one post per day based on your process with the Guiding Thought (plus the Whyplus the commitment/dedication).  You would be the lead writer, as a guest on this blog for the Journey. Your voice would be heard, your Journey would be “out there” for other people to follow and learn from; you would take a step into a new role, if you have only ever done the Journeys privately. I would be with you daily, for support and encouragement, and we could phone call to help you process, if you feel like you’d like that. If you are interested, email me The next Journey is Courage, and it begins on Feb. 24. If that is too soon, or you want to do a different Journey, email me and we’ll work something out.

Both of these would be huge for me. If they feel huge to you, perfect! We will be in this together. That’s how this “works”…we may be at different places, but energetically, we are working out similar things. If this feels right to you, email me.

Much love and peace.



The Biggest Challenge –Gratitude 2.8.35

Guiding Thought

When I am aware of my Self of Love, I see the world through new eyes. Love is the Source of all I see, all I experience; it is the very activity of Life itself. I place my faith in the Principle of Love and receive with gratitude all my experiences.

Reflection / Contemplation

When I identify the experiences in my life with my Self of Love, I am invoking the Principle of Love to come forth into my life.

What is this Self of Love? This is key.

Please note that it is more important to feel what this concept means for you, than to define it with words, or to read what I think about it. Please take a moment to do whatever you do that connects you with your deepest/highest Self, then continue reading.

I have worked with this idea “Self of Love” labeled in different ways.

The first label that I began with, when I was a teenager was “higher self”. Those words just made sense to me when I began exploring my spirituality. I am me, but there is part of me that has a higher perspective, which is more loving, more kind, more wise than “I” am. This higher self is accessible to me, and when I connect with it, I can experience it as me.

A second label that I have used is my “I AM Presence”. This also has just made sense to me. Coming from a Judeo-Christian background, and knowing that the name God gave to Moses was, ” I AM that I AM”, it feels like I AM connecting my little self with God, when I think about I AM. (There’s a whole lot more to this for me now, but this isn’t the time to go into it.)

A third label that I use, but mainly within these Journeys is my “Divine Presence”. This also connects my mind/heart with God, the Diving, with me–this personality living this life.

A fourth label that I am aware of, but do not use very often, is “Christ Presence”, and along these lines, also, “Krishna Presence”. Personally, I just do not connect with these labels. They don’t resonate with me.

And of course, there is “Self of Love”, which is used in today’s Guiding Thought.

As I said, the labels are less important than feeling the concept: that there is a part of you that is you that knows you better than you know yourself, and is wiser, more loving, more connected with All, more everything that is Love, than you are, but that as you, can be invoked into your being, into your life, and into your experiences, so that you can be and live as that part of you.

Whew. Ok, that was a long preface, just to say this:

There’s a situation in my life currently, in which there is so much to do, so many things to figure out, so many paths which need to converge at all of the exact appropriate times, and so many pieces/scenarios to figure out, that I (little me) cannot do it. I just can’t. I don’t have enough information, I can’t see all of the (infinitely) possible options and scenarios, I can’t work out the timing, because there’s too much involved.

So, I have been doing a lot of work with my Higher Self, my Self of Love, my I AM Presence, my Divine Presence, my Christ/Krishna Self.

Here is what I have been doing: I connect with my I AM Presence. Then, I identify my I AM Presence as the perfect fulfillment of this situation. Then I affirm, “I AM that I AM” (where “that” signifies the perfect fulfillment of this situation).

The situation is very involved; there is a lot going on and a lot to do (a lot of activity). But the biggest challenge for me is not time management, or stress of getting everything done. The biggest challenge for me is keeping my mind identified with my I AM Presence, and continuing to identify my I AM Presence as the perfect fulfillment of this situation.

I feel like this is a step in my progress, and it relates to this verse, from Malachi (3:10):

prove me now herewith, saith the LORD of hosts, if I will not open you the windows of heaven, and pour you out a blessing, that there shall not be room enough to receive it.

Keeping my mind on the Divine Presence within, as the Source of the Perfect Outcome is how I “prove”. It is up to me to maintain my mind and heart steadfast in faith in the Divine Presence within. It’s not up to me to figure it out. It’s not up to me to think about the details and how they are all going to work together. It’s not up to me to plan (because I don’t have all the information). It is up to me to prove the Divine Presence is active in my life and affairs.

Did I mention this is a big challenge?

Every thought, word, action or feeling we express affects the whole of Creation –Gratitude 2.8.34

Guiding Thought

Through gratitude, my consciousness of Love expands, connecting me with All. Gratitude increases my awareness of unity; gratitude shows me our Wholeness. Gratitude is the bridge to knowing others as my Self. What a gift you are!

Reflection / Contemplation

I mentioned recently that I’ve been reading the Saint Germain I AM Discourses. Through this reading, I’ve been reminded repeatedly of the work done by the man who inspired these Journeys, John Randolph Price.

Though there is much in the Discourses that I find inspiring, the thought about decreeing something through the I AM Presence is the one I am currently associating with Mr. Price.

In The Abundance Book, Mr. Price is very clear that at the beginning of the 40 days, one should make a forceful declaration to end poverty consciousness, and to establish a consciousness of abundance:

On this day, I cease believing in visible money as my supply and my support, and
I view my current world of effect, as it truly is simply an out picturing of my former beliefs. I
believed in the power of money, therefore I surrendered my God-given power and authority
to an objectified belief. I believed in the possibility of lack, thus causing a separation in
consciousness from the source of my supply. I believed in mortal man and carnal conditions,
and through this faith gave man and conditions power over me. I believed in the mortal
illusion created by the collective consciousness of error thoughts, and in doing so, I have
limited the Unlimited. No More! This day I renounce my so-called humanhood and claim my
divine inheritance as a Being of God. This day I acknowledge God as my supply and my

No more! No more.

I feel like this is where I’m at. No more. Let us be done with nonsense of cruelty, of pettiness, of greed, of vanity, of power over others. Let us empower each other. Let us be kind to each other. Let us meditate together on the highest possible ideas and ideals that we can in every possible moment. Let us share; let us take care of each other, the earth and all her creatures and flora.

From this day forward, let us decree that our own, individual consciousness (and thus the consciousness of Humanity), which used to be focused continually on conflict, fear, and antagonism, will flow in a new direction—toward peace, harmony, divinity and spirituality.

If you do not feel like your consciousness has these impressions, then decree this for the world consciousness, because I hope you can’t deny that you see it “out there”.

Let us decree this transformation in consciousness is manifest. Energy accumulates where we direct our attention, and the energy of consciousness causes everything to take shape.

As we meditate together today for a world free from conflict and discrimination, free from injustice and oppression,  a world filled with love, respect, and gratitude toward one another and toward all life on Earth, we join in consciousness with millions and millions of people around the world doing this work in their own way.

Let us be the wave of concentrated energy working for the transformation of Humanity’s consciousness. Let us awaken peace, harmony, and gratitude within all Human Beings.

You are probably already doing this work. Thank you for that. Thank you for being here. Thank you for being the Love Presence you are. I cannot express how grateful I am for you.



Affirming the Divinity of Humanity–Gratitude 2.8.33

Guiding Thought

I fill my mind with the Light of the Truth of Love. What more is there? In the Light of the Truth, I am Free. What more is there? My consciousness expands in the Truth of Love, forever One, forever Joyful, forever in Peace.

Reflection / Contemplation 

(expletive warning: I use some language which I do not often use, below. Do not read this, if you are offended by “strong” language” though it is just one word, to make a point).

Greetings in Peace: May Peace Prevail on Earth!

It occurs to me, that people readily believe “history repeats itself”, that “there is nothing new under the sun”.

Maybe that’s because people are just still doing what they have always done, not changing, not growing, not learning.

When applied to our current state of the world, these phrases point to wars, violence, slavery and oppression, greed, conflict. And people shrug their shoulders, non-commitally, and say, “This is the world we live in. What can I do?”

Here’s an idea: let’s try Peace.

Let’s try justice, fairness, and equality.

Let’s try supporting and encouraging our children.

Let’s try taking care of the earth.

Let’s try taking care of each other.

Let’s tryEveryone can do these things. There is no excuse. 

History only repeats itself because we don’t try something different. It’s not like peace is a new concept. We just don’t try it. Collectively. It takes all of us to get on board the peace train if we are going to change History’s trajectory. We have a lot of undoing to do, in order for history to not repeat itself.

But we won’t know if we don’t try.

And Peace, justice, fairness, equality…these things are just the tip of the iceberg. Think where we can go when we have these things under our belts. When we devise social systems that encourage all people, when the earth is treated with respect, when we have such a reverence for all life that we cannot even imaging violence toward each other, any living thing, or the earth.

Fuck History repeating itself. Let’s do something different.

Let’s put all those grand ideas that have been around forever and make them the dominant ideas in our lives. Let’s apply those ideas to all of our relationships, to our work, to our families…and see if we can’t change the course of history. Let’s make the ideas of violence, conflict, rudeness, greed, avarice, disrespect the stuff of the past, the stuff that is so unacceptable people are socialized away from them.

Do you see from the title where I am going with this?

If we can make violence, conflict, rudeness, greed, avarice, disrespect a thing of the past, then we can realistically make the Divinity of Humanity the stuff of the future. That would be the logical next step, once we all treat each other and the earth with respect, reverence, and kindness.

Seven Steps:

  1. Letting All Thoughts Fade Away
  2. Extinguishing Self-Doubt
  3. Accomplishing Aspirations
  4. Thinking Light-Filled Thoughts
  5. Thanking the Earth & Environment
  6. Affirming our own Divinity
  7. Affirming the Divinity of Humanity

We make history. We can change history, by changing ourselves now.


Truth and Free Will. –Gratitude 2.8.32

Guiding Thought

I lift my mind and heart to the Truth of Being, to all that Is, to All I Am. I accept my Self in Truth and offer my Self to All in gratitude for Its Being.

Reflection / Contemplation

Truth does not care if you believe in it or not. Truth does not try to convince; it does not manipulate, or connive.

Each of us was given the gift of Free Will at the moment we were first breathed forth. With that Free Will, we can choose Truth, or not. And Truth does not try to persuade us either way. It allows us our Free Will, and waits.

In the meantime, also at the time of our inception, we were given the creative faculties of thought and feeling. As we walk through this relative reality, seeing disparities, feeling strong emotions, thinking that what we think or feel is right, we are using our Free Will to create through those perceptions, emotions, and thoughts.

But perceptions, emotions, and thoughts which are not informed by Truth bring about (or create) effects disconnected from Truth. Then we chase those erroneous effects. Imagine a game of telephone through all of your creations: you create a relationship, full of opinions, effects, results, then you look at those opinions, effects, and results and create new opinions, effects, and results (or strengthen those you have), which just keep creating situations that are only tethered to a situation which was previously based on an erroneous perception, emotion, or thought.

This is how we keep ourselves bound to our lives, our mental attitudes, and our convictions. (more like running in circles).

We have misinformed ourselves, and we believe our own misinformation. We are not the victims of circumstance, we are the creators of circumstance.

Being a creator of circumstance is why we are here. With our Free Will, we can choose to create with the Light of Truth. Light is infinitely more powerful than any fear-based, fragmented efforts or misinformation.

When we focus our attention on the surfacing chaos, it is easy to feel discouraged and overwhelmed, until we realize that we have done this. This is my doing. This is my responsibility.

How do I undo what I have done? How do I undo the chaos in my life? How do I create anew? 

Lift your mind and heart to the Truth of Being, to all that Is, to All You Are. Accept your Self in Truth and offer your Self to All in gratitude for Being.

You are the Way, the Truth, and the Life.  Focus your attention on the the Truth which resides in your Heart of hearts.

You are the Divine Light of the World. Divine Light of Truth is ALWAYS Victorious and WE are that Light.

The World is Upside Down. –Gratitude 2.8.31

Welcome to day 31 and the final round! I’ve been reading a lot of different things on this Journey: The Ra MaterialDancing with Shiva, Hinduism Basics – Traditional Overview- The Most Organized Eternal Way Of Life, and now I am reading the Saint Germain I AM Discourses. Maybe a little all over the place, ya think?

If you believe (or know) that every outer thing is a reflection of your inner self, and/or your inner state, then this Journey has also been reflecting a little all over the place. We are just now beginning Round 4, which of course is 10 days long, but it’s supposed to end on Thursday this week. Have I really missed that many days this Journey?

I guess I have. No rest during the “rest period” on this Journey. Must….complete…. the Journey…..

For this round, we return to “I” as the subject of the Guiding Thought. The idea is that after going through the rounds of “you” and “we”, you will have a different understanding of “I” that takes into account what you have learned through “you” and “we”.

Thanks for sticking with me. I am glad you are here!

Guiding Thought

I remember my Self and recognize the Love within me, the Love I Am. I see this Love as all I am and all there is, the reality of me, the reality of you, and the reality that is the Life of All. I honor this Love and this Life, and offer my gratitude for Its Being. What Joy there is in Being!

Reflection / Contemplation

Being Love is the most natural thing in the world.
As the most natural thing, it is easy…effortless!
Who needs to think about something, when it’s just the way it is?

Do birds think about flying?
Do cats think about playing?
Do you think about laughing when you hear something funny?

But…you may say…being Love is not easy. If it were easy, I would always be in Love, always be in Peace, always be happy…and I am far from all those things.

Yes. The world is upside down.
We believe things about ourselves that are not true.
We believe we have been wronged…
We believe we are victims…
We believe we have no control…
We believe in our own pain and suffering.

While we may experience the world through these lenses, they are not the Truth of who we are. But we believe these lies. And so, we live the lies.

Believing the lies, we disbelieve the Truth. We deny the Truth, because we’ve made the lies our home, our comfort, our identity.

So, yes. Until you believe the Truth, and deny the Lies, Being Love feels hard. But it’s not the Being Love that is hard. Letting go of the lies is what is hard, we just blame Love, so we can continue to hold on to the lies. The world is updisedown.

The solution?

Focus on the Truth. Attend to Love. Take time each day to invite, accept, and receive Love. Deny the lies you tell yourself. If you feel a lie whispering or shouting to you, think Love. Blast that lie with Love, and transform it with Divine Perfection to Divine Perfection. For every lie, is simply a distortion of the Truth waiting to return Home to Love.

Once you become proficient at invoking love daily, hourly, you will see: it’s the easiest, most natural, effortless thing in the world.



I’m Rooting for You, Too. –Gratitude 2.8.30

Guiding Thought

Love is always with us. We focus our whole Self on being entirely with Love. We tune out distractions and place our entire focus on simply being with the Love that is always with us. This is the return. This is eternal Comfort and Peace: Being with Love, as Love is with us.

Reflection / Contemplation

If you believe that Love is truly all there is,
that Oneness (the Unity that is Love) lies behind every appearance of difference

If you believe that differences or polarization, experienced through those appearances
are merely distortions of the Oneness of Love

If you believe that Love has no concept what so ever of anything unlike itself,
that in Love’s world all really is Peace, Harmony, Joy, and Gratitude

Can you not see
Love yearning for us to get it?
Love waiting patiently as we discover It and our Truth?
Love excited, on pins and needles–each time we come closer to understanding our True Nature?
The whole universe and multiverses rooting just for you, as you experience Love?

We are returning. Ultimately, there is no choice but to return. There is only Love, which underpins everything, uniting All within itself. And It is waiting for you to be with It as It is with and as you.