What is Your Truth Meter? –Journey of Creation 02.11.09

Guiding Thought

In the Light of Truth, perceptions and non-reality dissipate as fog in the sun. Only Truth is True. When I am aware of my reality in Truth, I understand how flimsy and meaningless are my perceptions. Only the Oneness of the Knowledge of Truth brings Peace.

Reflection / Contemplation

Only Truth is True…
I just spent the last few days in a workshop exploring creation stories. What I came away with predominantly was a desire to list and examine what it is I have been taught to believe, and then, fact check!

Today in meditation there was stillness and Light. My hands are still pulsing from the energy. My heart and my palms feel like they have been on a charger! No words, symbols or metaphors.

The communication today was Light and energy.

We live in a time where small “t” truths are broadcasted everywhere. Opinions posed as truth are used to try to bully, persuade, even enlighten. I find myself stepping back from much that I hear in order to take the space to listen to my own heart. What is True for me?

The sensations within my body are my best Truth meter. My body transcends my mind and impresses the Truth for me. My hands energy today may have been to represent giving and receiving. They are the physical aspect of me that takes in or holds at bay, all that I come in contact with. Discernment is a constant necessity down to what I eat, read, ingest in all forms.

If I truly awaken and utilize my opportunity to be a Spiritual Being having a human experience, a requirement is looking beyond face value and hearsay. I must develop a relationship with my innate…that is my bedrock.

In that, I walk the earth in tune with the Love that I uniquely express, the Love that I Am. I don’t look to you to agree or validate me. I Know. You, uniquely expressing the Love that is your beautiful octave and all other Beings embodying/expressing their unique Love, will create a coherence of being that is Peace on earth.

Guest Contributor Amy Castillo

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Perfect Love is Present Always –Journey of Creation 02.11.07

Guiding Thought

I use my free will joyfully to create the good, the beautiful, the Holy, and the Perfect. This is appropriate use of my mind and will, and directly in-line with Perfect Love. As I experience my Holy creations in my life, I strengthen my conviction to Truth, and to my ability to co-create with my Divine Self.

Reflection / Contemplation

I am reminded today of an inner journey I took through a Shamans drumming. The intention set was to experience the love that I am.

At the first drum strike I was swallowed deep inside the earth! All was dark and quiet. I found myself inside a stillness and an emptiness that were potent with the matrix of creation.

I remember that sensation vividly. The personality of me wasn’t in there, yet my soul essence was in a formless state. Timeless potent empty space. Then a shift and I was taking form–manifesting!

What I became was like the tree from the Avatar movie. I was enormous and in tune with all life! My heart beat was a member of life’s symphony. My breath process was different. I felt the pulse of life throughout me, me as One with all life.

A shared experience.

I was in the form of the tree yet felt no separation, no “otherness”. It was incredible! Throughout the time I was in this I just kept growing and connecting even deeper to all life. The ocean, the stars, creatures of all forms, the sun and moon, all my playmates almost-the joy of connection and being life was my reality. And then, just as quickly as it began, I was being drummed back.

What happened next was so astonishing! The All of Life that was my reality a second before froze into a 1 dimensional image, like a poster. Beginning with the edges it began folding into a beautiful origami crane. When completed it tucked into my heart and I was back in the room, in my personality.

I experienced a wave of grief that nearly extinguished me! What was so clear was that I Am all life. Perfect Love is present always, is the Truth.

The truth of my behavior is that I daily deny that, minimize myself and yet carry the Truth like a secret gift inside my heart.

This aha was profound and overwhelming.

The grief I have worked to process, the behavior I have worked to change. I, and most others, live out a lie daily. The lie of denying the Holy Being who is the life within me.

I haven’t thought about this in many years. Upon reflection I see that although progress has been made I am still walking in the desert. This journey of creation is awakening my inner Life. It is like magma below the surface. It has power, potency and will not be held back from Its next form.

I’m older now. The Life I have been withholding to accommodate normalcy for all, is no longer obedient to my denial. If I am wiser, I will succumb to the Truth and live free.

Guest Contributor Amy Castillo

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Claiming My Origin –Journey of Creation 02.11.04

Guiding Thought

In Perfect Love there is no lack, only complete abundance. Perfect Love is Perfect Fulfillment. When I am aware of my Oneness with Perfect Love, I have everything; I am everything. With a mind fully aware of its own Fullness in Perfect Love, I have perfect faith in my creations, as they are of the same mind as Perfect Love.
Reflection / Contemplation

Closing my eyes and turning within to consider today’s thought, I was greeted by the picture of a crosscut section of a tree. I was able to see the tree’s life journey from center outward-each ring representing another year of growth. For a tree, the environment is its shaper–the weather, water supply, and external atmosphere impact its development. For us, too, different factors impact our life’s journey. We begin as the embryo–a bundle of incarnated Perfect Love! Our mother’s nutrition, even her thoughts impact the environment we are growing and developing in. Then we are born and enter into a this new life’s journey. The family-tribe we are born into, begins to imprint us. Even those who grow up without a family experience bear the imprint of their caretakers and environment. This can be called history, belief systems, or programming. The Origin of all of us is Perfect Love. I’m not sure how many families set out with the intention to make that the priority teaching! Jesus said that we can enter the kingdom of heaven as little children. What I understand that to mean is that when we are able to transcend the programming of other, of fear–anything other than the truth that at our origin, our core being, we each are only Perfect Love. If you witness little children of a certain stage-they know and live the truth of their origin, Perfect Love. They are Pure life and love, expressing! Yet I find I have spent many years of my life suffering from the false truths I have subscribed to: lack, other, imperfections. To get back to my ability to claim my origin I have had to unlearn what my family, environment and history taught me. For me, learning meditation began the path to penetrating the veils that all of those aspects created. Source Is. My Origin of Creation is Source. Prioritizing that Truth, being vigilant inside my own kingdom to create in that knowing, is my life’s purpose now

Guest Contributor Amy Castillo

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Commitment and Dedication –Journey of Creation 02.11.0

And we’re off! Welcome to Journey of Creation, and to the reflections of Amy Castillo. Today, take some time to think about your commitment to this Journey, to your own reaching toward the Light, and to what you are practically able to accomplish as far as reading and responding to the Guiding Thoughts. Let’s do this…

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My commitment is to daily read and respond to my hearts interpretation. I am here to discover what moves deeply within me.

I dedicate this journey to Source. You are the origin of all creation and my non-biased, ever potent, power source. I walk this journey of creation, aware of the ever present co-creator. I open wide to you!

This Journey is being written by Guest Contributor Amy Castillo

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Feel free to share your Journey in the comments section…That’s where I’ll be. 

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In Touch with the Truth –Journey of Creation 02.11.01

Guiding Thought

Love is everything. Perfect Love is Original Source, from whence I came. I return to the awareness of the Love I AM by simply releasing anything and everything which inhibits my consciousness of my True Self. I release those inhibitors now, and Know myself as the Love I AM.

Reflection / Contemplation

Today is my birthday! The Love that I am has been present on the planet for 51 years! Memories from childhood remind me that I have been in touch with this truth all along, yet other memories trigger grief that I lost sight of it. The Love that I, and all others are, is a fact I interact with throughout each day. I talk to the Love that I am in my body cells. I breathe into the Love with intention and my breath takes on a companions weight. Each healing session I facilitate, Love is the main focus. Love Is. We can attempt to block it, we can attempt to hide it and hide from it. We can ingest fear to a gluttonous degree yet can never extinguish the Love that we are. It is our Origin.

My devotion to the Love that I am has taught me that the power of the Love I am transcends what I have been taught by this reality. The Love that I am, it’s potency and precision are my radiant life force, ever-present.

My vibrational frequency, heart, mind, body and consciousness all resonate with this truth.

I am Love.

Guest Contributor Amy Castillo

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Feel free to share your reflections in the comments…

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Transformation in Love –Journey of Creation 02.11.02

Guiding Thought

When I am aware of my own consciousness as Perfect Love, I am aware of everything as Love, and of Love as everything. In this state of awareness, I create naturally and easily in unison with Perfect Love, with all of existence.

Reflection / Contemplation

Last summer I learned about an ancient Buddhist meditation practice, Tonglen. In it you breathe in the pain and suffering of others and breathe out what would support and comfort. Basically I breathed in the pain I saw, and what was matching within me and breathed out compassion, love, and peace for all humankind. My life had done a polar flip, the proverbial rug had been pulled out from beneath my feet. I found myself with an opportunity to embrace groundlessness. This practice began as a way for me to get a bit of room from my personal despair and discomfort and support the global I AM-at the same time. It was life saving and life changing. Perfect Love is what we innately are, in my belief. Otherness, isolation, silent suffering are all veils to that truth. The willingness to be with others in their suffering and with myself in my own; to name it, partner with it in breath, move into it to be transformed by the willingness to love anyways. This merging with compassion blew open my perspective on love. It began to grow a strength within my soul that became a new backbone. Through it I discovered a visceral relationship with the Love that I am, a unison with all humanity and the potency of grace in action. The thought of Perfect Love was one I believed in, spoke of, possibly even preached to others. Practicing breathing into the fire of my personal pain, connecting with universal suffering and being met with the ultimate Power of Divine Love, was beautifully humbling. Groundlessness now means I am grounded in Divine Love wherever I am. That my attachment to how things have to be has been surrendered and in its place the liberation of Love without conditions is alive in my cell tissue. Perfect Love is the constant conduit of creation. From our origin, throughout this life and beyond.

Guest Contributor Amy Castillo

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Cultivate Audacity; Show Up As Love –Journey of Creation 02.11.03

Guiding Thought

I choose only to create with Perfect Love. Since Perfect Love is all I AM, and all there is, I accept Perfect Love as the only Source for all my creations. I project Perfect Love outward, shining with inner radiance.

Reflection / Contemplation

Perfect Love is the Source of all creation. In the land of humanity, the experience and expression of the Divine varies. Not because we have each gotten different access to It, or have behaved according to programs written to justify that allotment. We are made of Perfect Love. A Truth that for some is an acceptable idea, one worth opening to. Yet for others, it is just a bit too much. Walking as a spirit having a human experience in a dualistic world reveals contrary experiences and information. Perfect Love is alive within us. It is the Source from which we come, and Is us throughout our eternal lives. We have a tendency as humans to assign human attributes to the Divine. Many of us grew up with a God who could view us like Santa Claus-that is the omnipresence. The omnipotent part has been assigned a judge, jury and executioner role. Perfect Love, God, is everywhere and everything, as us. Being an invisible force it calls us to open to another language-one that engages all of our senses and sensibilities. If we are willing to allow the idea that we are Perfect Love, we then take the next step to show up as that Love in our lives. Jesus spoke of the power where two or more are gathered and said that is where I Am. Did he mean that he the man pops up? I don’t think so. My understanding is that Jesus had reached a capacity of allowance enabling him to walk this earth as the Christ/Perfect Love presence. My thought is he gave his life to being the Love in action I refer to as the Christ presence, Perfect Love, Source. It matters not what you call it. What is of value is to consider cultivating the audacity to open up to It and live that radiance in your human life.

Guest Contributor Amy Castillo

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Share your reflection in the comments section.

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Visceral Experience of Perfect Love –Journey of Creation 02.11.05

Guiding Thought

Perfect Love, the Source and Truth of my Self, imbues me with the will to create with Love. I am able to create through my own free will, extending Perfect Love.  Loving creation was given freely to me; I give freely my own loving creation. I Joyfully create through Perfect Love, with Perfect Love, as Perfect Love.

Reflection / Contemplation

Breathing into this thought initially revealed resistance. That may be too mild of a description…my small self was launching a revolt!
I even saw the armies strategically organizing. There was my “falls short” group, my “not enough”, my “try harder”.

What was interesting was that my body didn’t join in with a classic punch in the stomach response. Another breath and I relaxed a bit more, just an observer.

The scramble for oxygen in a fear-induced state can be your ticket for a deeper plunge; yet today my breath filled me.

The heaviness of my True Self companionship was felt–I was not alone on this expedition! It was a fascinating scene I was seeing because the “real” fear I have experienced before was revealing itself in all its blatancy, yet it had absolutely no effect on me. I received its pageantry as just that–drama. Almost like on television where what originally appears when it is turned on probably isn’t the show you intended to watch!

Instead of immediately changing though I explored it with curiosity. This was a creation, my creation of pain. Compassion filled my heart! From the inner horizon a beautiful feminine being was appearing. Her radiant light was breathtaking! Her movement was steady and deliberate as the sun’s as it rises, illuminating the ground as it goes. As she and her light came closer anything in the path just seemed to absorb into it! Not with screams of destruction but with a joyful sound. I continued to breathe and observe, completely fascinated! My Perfect Love had taken form for me in this moment. It moved with beautiful grace and a power that was awe inspiring! She is my vision and is my essence. She didn’t go to war on the level of the fear, she appeared in all her glory, and her presence evaporated any hint of other! The light behind my eyes was so brilliant! At this point it seemed to infuse my cells with its message of Love. In me, through me, as me! Perfect Love revealed itself to me today! It also cleared my field of remnants of past pain ghosts. Imbued with her grace I step into this day with a visceral experience to support my creation. I am grateful to have this image to emulate! My Self created from the Source of Perfect Love is my Truth.

Guest Contributor Amy Castillo

Amy Castillo. In the yurt with two grand babies.

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

Journey of Creation (June 20 – August 08) is now available as a free book.
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Mind Blown. Zapped. Not Able to Return –Journey of Creation 02.11.06

Guiding Thought

When my mind and will are free, they recognize only truth. My mind and will are free in the Knowledge of union with Perfect Love. When I am in the state of One Mind and Will of Perfect Love, I create freedom and truth for myself and All.

Reflection / Contemplation

Awe. Allowance. Infinite Possibilities.

Turning within I discovered the most potent shaft of Light–I mean like an enormous elevator shaft! It’s potency sizzled! It was an alive Light that catapulted me into a state of awe I hadn’t yet experienced. The awe was experienced physically–like struck with awe!

My small mind was blown quiet.

I asked it to be my scribe for this journey.

I was in the presence of One mind.

It was like I had opened into a high voltage power plant. For some time I was stunned by this Presence. Such beauty and power to behold! Breathing and allowance of the possibility of this magnitude shifted things and I began moving into It. From the inside it reminded me of a bug zapper! I could see debris like litter blowing in the wind yet when it got near to the edges, the litter was instantly destroyed-instantly! No judge and jury or reasoning, just poof-gone. I imagined that litter to be anything we create as other than this Source, Perfect Love.

As witness, I was experiencing it through my humanness and my Divinity, giving me a unique perspective.

We play so small!

We want to believe in this, work to be in It yet spend SO much time fretting over minutiae. This potency Is and we are in union with It! It Is and we are able to be in It if we can allow that possibility. That litter was all the fear–it’s funny isn’t it? I’ve spent 50 years trying to be good enough to be in union with something that doesn’t even have that measure up framework!

This Power exists and is operating whether we agree with/align with It. Infinite Possibility is its language. I was able to sense every connection–Heart, Mind, Will. This is the gateway to every expression of Its manifestation.

My alarm rang that I had set for my meditation time. I instantly tipped over and lay face down on the floor! My physical body right now is still buzzing from the top of my head through to my blazing heart, solar plexus and through my feet! My mind-Amy’s mind-has been blown and some bits have been zapped, not able to return. I’m writing this from the floor-grateful to be struck by the awe of all We are.

The me that gets up is anew in the freedom of the Truth ❤

Guest Contributor Amy Castillo

Amy Castillo. In the yurt with two grand babies.

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

Journey of Creation (June 20 – August 08) is now available as a free book.
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Love is My Highest Value –Journey of Creation 02.11.08

Guiding Thought

What do I value? How much do I value it? When I clarify these questions, I establish the value of my goal. I then consciously bring this value to all my thoughts and actions, measuring my behavior against the criteria set by my values. The means for accomplishment reveal themselves as I clarify my intentions.

Reflection / Contemplation

When Trump was elected, I spent days in agony. It seemed like a dam had been breeched and I watched in horror as venom infected the land!

Working as a massage therapist, politics was not a topic I allowed into the sacred healing space. What was coming through my door wasn’t political opinion–it was deep wounding from indignant righteousness. There was no one side or political party. What I saw was that everyone had lost their minds and hearts!

One client and her husband were heading for divorce, another had almost lost her lease where she conducted her business because she had displayed her political affiliation and was being victimized for it. What the heck was happening to all of us?

At that point I remembered my own value and importance.

If I succumb to the darkness I/we are in a lot of trouble!

This is when I declared kindness as my highest value.

I took a deep dive and turned my volume up! It yielded incredible results. This morning I went into meditation with the idea that I knew what was coming…and, of course, I was mistaken.

What I saw when turning within was a soil profile with a highlight on the bedrock. I asked for clarification, possibly another perspective. What came next was an all encompassing Light that communicated the Power, Presence and ferocity of Love! The blast was intense and a bit frightening, if I’m honest.

I have believed for years that Love is all there is, Love is God, Love has no opposite. Today’s blast of Light brought that Truth to every fiber of my Being. The time is not for lip service or fluff. The time is now to walk through this life as the Love that has no opposite.

My Light education today came with the challenge of reevaluating what that lives as. Spending these past few years focusing on kindness has helped me to redefine kindness. I have found that kindness doesn’t always mean agreement, isn’t always about others. Redefining kindness has meant an entirely new definition of who I am and how I move in my world.

I’m a bit shaky in this moment. Not quite trembling with fear yet the magnitude has me shaken. I am clear I have just stepped into a new relationship-a core, bedrock level relationship, with Love. My prayer is to surrender to it. Yield to its carving of my existence. Today I declare my intention to live and breathe Love in all of my thoughts, actions and interactions with all of life. I am being called deeper into all there is. Love is my highest value.

Guest Contributor Amy Castillo

Amy Castillo. In the yurt with two grand babies.

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

Journey of Creation (June 20 – August 08) is now available as a free book.
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