I use my free will joyfully to create the good, the beautiful, the Holy, and the Perfect. This is appropriate use of my mind and will, and directly in-line with Perfect Love. As I experience my Holy creations in my life, I strengthen my conviction to Truth, and to my ability to co-create with my Divine Self.
Reflection / Contemplation
I am reminded today of an inner journey I took through a Shamans drumming. The intention set was to experience the love that I am.
At the first drum strike I was swallowed deep inside the earth! All was dark and quiet. I found myself inside a stillness and an emptiness that were potent with the matrix of creation.
I remember that sensation vividly. The personality of me wasn’t in there, yet my soul essence was in a formless state. Timeless potent empty space. Then a shift and I was taking form–manifesting!
What I became was like the tree from the Avatar movie. I was enormous and in tune with all life! My heart beat was a member of life’s symphony. My breath process was different. I felt the pulse of life throughout me, me as One with all life.
A shared experience.
I was in the form of the tree yet felt no separation, no “otherness”. It was incredible! Throughout the time I was in this I just kept growing and connecting even deeper to all life. The ocean, the stars, creatures of all forms, the sun and moon, all my playmates almost-the joy of connection and being life was my reality. And then, just as quickly as it began, I was being drummed back.
What happened next was so astonishing! The All of Life that was my reality a second before froze into a 1 dimensional image, like a poster. Beginning with the edges it began folding into a beautiful origami crane. When completed it tucked into my heart and I was back in the room, in my personality.
I experienced a wave of grief that nearly extinguished me! What was so clear was that I Am all life. Perfect Love is present always, is the Truth.
The truth of my behavior is that I daily deny that, minimize myself and yet carry the Truth like a secret gift inside my heart.
This aha was profound and overwhelming.
The grief I have worked to process, the behavior I have worked to change. I, and most others, live out a lie daily. The lie of denying the Holy Being who is the life within me.
I haven’t thought about this in many years. Upon reflection I see that although progress has been made I am still walking in the desert. This journey of creation is awakening my inner Life. It is like magma below the surface. It has power, potency and will not be held back from Its next form.
I’m older now. The Life I have been withholding to accommodate normalcy for all, is no longer obedient to my denial. If I am wiser, I will succumb to the Truth and live free.
Guest Contributor Amy Castillo
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