“How Does It Feel”–Journey of Freedom 02.12.01

Guiding Thought

Love is my natural state; In Love I remember who I truly am; I remember my holiness, my innocence, and my infinity. Love enlightens my mind and lifts my heart. I feel buoyant and expansive! I am now aware of my Self as Infinite Love, unbounded and free.

Reflection / Contemplation

There is a writing of Saint Germain, I recall, which goes something like, “What is meditation, after all, but feeling“?

In other words, relevant to the Guiding Thought:

  • What does Love as my natural state feel like?
  • What does it feel like to be in Love and remember who I truly am?
  • What do holiness, innocence, and infinity feel like?
  • What do an enlightened mind and a lifted heart feel like?
  • What is the feeling of being buoyant and expansive?
  • What is the feeling of awareness of my Self as Infinite Love, unbounded and free?

Every day when I do the Journey, I do my best to feel it.

So often I fall short.

I focus. I read with intention. I concentrate.

But, so rarely do I feel it. 

My logical brain steps in and says something about “agreeing with the premise”. (At least it agrees!)

My little-brain finds some distraction that leads me down an unintended stream-of-consciousness path before I realise I am there, but then pull myself back to focus.

I think about “wanting to get it” —- “I should be able to do this by now” —- “Why don’t I feel it?—-

And so on…

For 5 minutes of reading the Guiding Thought were these little, very subtle nudges of “you’re not there…you’re not there yet…you don’t feel it…you’re not getting it…”

All because I don’t feel it.

So I ask:
Does the striving to feel it just get in the way?
Or does the striving–even with the back talk and distractions–work through my objections so that when the time comes, I can just feel it naturally, without thought?



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