“Chambers of Dross Magma”–Journey of Freedom 02.12.02

Guiding Thought

I freely release patterns, habits, and thoughts that inhibit Freedom. My thoughts and feelings transform through remembrance of Freedom through Love. I was born with everything I need to be free in Love. I allow Love to lead me. I trust Love and surrender to its wisdom.

Reflection / Contemplation

These Journeys help people arrive at a “destination” through two means: 1) filling the mind/heart with spiritual nutrition in the form of the Guiding Thoughts 2) providing a stimulus for releasing the mental emotional dross* that can get in the way of the spiritual nutrition anchoring itself within the consciousness.

*Dross is the waste, the dregs, the unusable material that floats to the surface
when metals are heated. The dross can then be poured off, leaving only the pure metal. 

I take both of these very seriously. I reach to Nourishment and I release the things that get in the way of my reaching.

But I take it even a step further.

I excavate my inner depths for the waste, the dregs, the unusable material. I look for it. I dig it up. I find and pull out as much as I can.

Sometimes I pile so much up it crowds out my faith, overshadowing what I know that I know, pushing me to a limit that has me feeling as if I were to find…one…more…thingI would tip…and fall into a fear that would be difficult to climb out of.

I began excavating the dross yesterday. The Journeys seem to affect me like that; I’ve been doing them long enough that my consciousness knows what to do to progress me along my path, and it just jumps in and starts shoveling the waste for me.

I feel like in the past 24 hours I was pushed to that limit. I feel raw, uncertain, doubtful, distanced from the truth, faithless, unable to feel peace about my life and circumstances.

Physically this is felt like a dense mass in the area from my heart to my throat.

All the while, over the past 24 hours, I’ve been maintaining repetition of Truth thoughts and mantra to keep a steady stream of Love-Truth-Oneness flowing in, while the dross is rising to the surface like…magma.

It’s kind of this precarious balance. On the one hand, Truth-thoughts pour in. But on the other hand, it’s those very thoughts that loosen, displace, and “bring up” the fear thoughts to the surface to be released and transformed.

This is why you can’t buy into your own fear thoughts.

Maybe the fear you’re feeling is legitimate and has to do with whatever you’re experiencing.

But maybe it’s something washing up to be released.

What would you rather choose? Holding on to fear thoughts and approaching a situation or circumstance through that fear? Or, releasing it and creating more space for Love to fill you?

I was very thankful today that the Guiding Thought focuses on release and transformation.

My fears–that dense mass in that area from my heart to throat–did not have a defined form. I could not tell you what that fear is about or how it got there.

So in my contemplation it took the form of caged birds, caged animals, and fish on hooks.

The release was the cages opening, the fish being taken off the hooks and thrown back into the water.

Transformation was these foul, fish, and other animals remembering and loving their freedom, with a lot of gratitude!

I felt so assured knowing I already have everything I need to be free in love.

I was able to come away from the precipice and remember I want love to lead me, and I do trust It.

And, at least a part of my little mind was able to breathe in and surrender to Its wisdom.

I still have more releasing to do, but that’s what today is about!



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