Why? (Steve) Journey of Purpose – 03.02.00

Welcome to Journey of Purpose! Today, we begin with Why? The first day is always a reflection about what this Journey is about for you. Why do you care about purpose? What does it mean to you? What do you hope to learn? What would you like to gain? What would you like to release? Below are Steve’s reflections on Why;  See mine here:

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Steve (Meet Steve here.)

Why? Why am I committing to participating in this Journey of Purpose?

In some respects, I have no idea what my purpose in life is. I worked for a living from the time I was a young teenager, until 2 years ago, when I “retired” at age 63. (I don’t like that word. I prefer to think of it as an opportunity to “restructure”).  While I was working for a living, that was purpose enough. Now, my time is less structured, and I have more time for walks, reading, doing some volunteer work. Exploring my spirituality, and how does that show up in my life. The question comes up, “what is my purpose in life?” I have no ready answer for that.

I hesitated committing to this Journey of Purpose. I’ve just  participated in two other Journeys, and felt ready for a break. And I worried for a time about what happens if I go on this journey, and don’t find my higher Purpose?

I came to realize that I wanted to do this journey of purpose. Not to “find” my purpose, but to explore the concept of Purpose, what does it even mean? My purpose changes moment by moment, to be awake, and available to live in life, to respond to whatever is needed in the moment, whether It’s washing dishes, cooking a great meal, helping a young person with their reading lessons. What do I call these purposes?

I am doing this journey to have Fun! I enjoy the process, and the commitment to the journey. I find there is purpose enough in the process of living, and taking on a journey of exploration. I want to have fun on the journey, and not get bogged down in seriousness. I want to give myself a break, and not buy into my self-critic’s judgments. I want to have fun with this exploration.  That’s why I am committing to this Journey of Purpose.

Why? (Susan) Journey of Purpose – 03.02.00

Welcome to Journey of Purpose! As always, I will be here for the next 41 days, sharing my Journey. Also for this Journey, Steve will be Guest Journeying–he will be sharing his thoughts and reflections daily, also. Meet Steve here. If you are so inclined to be a Guest Journeyer, it’s not too late! Just email me susan@withpearls.com. It’s helpful to others to see how you may approach and process the Journey, to see the variety of reflections. By sharing here, you are helping others.

Today, we begin with Why? The first day is always a reflection about what this Journey is about for you. Why do you care about purpose? What does it mean to you? What do you hope to learn? What would you like to gain? What would you like to release? Below are my reflections on Why; Steve’s will follow shortly:

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Susan

Journey of Purpose was the very first Journey I ever created. I was at a good place in my life; there was nothing “wrong”, yet I didn’t feel like I understood my higher purpose. “How do I figure that out?” I asked myself. “How do I always figure such things out?” “I ask!” I responded to myself. “I seek (and find) my answers”. That’s how Journey of Purpose was born. Every day for 40 days, I asked the question of my Higher Self: what is my highest purpose? What I discovered on that first Journey was that doing the Journeys was my higher purpose. Since then, I’ve completed a total of three Journeys of Purpose; this is my fourth one since 2013.

The point of this scenario is that this is a really good example of why these Journeys are called Journeys. Even though I “found” one answer to my question, “what is my Purpose?”, I kept asking the question over the next 7 years, and I keep getting new answers. There is never one answer. Each time the question is asked, I am new and different, never the same person. Therefore, the answer I get is never the same. The more you ask, the more closely you hone the answer…but on this Journey of connecting with your Higher Self, there is no destination…or if there is, it’s way too far ahead for you to even imagine it!

Since I have done this several times, and have honed my Purpose more than someone just beginning, my Why is very clear and very specific:

I am doing Journey of Purpose to be my Highest Purpose, which is…doing the Journey.

I know…this sounds like I’m talking in circles, so let me explain. My purpose is the Journeys. I have been working on getting the Journeys out as books for several years. But, it has not yet happened and that is the next step for the Journeys. It now must happen.

Each day, my Journey is going to be working on the Journey books.

Yes, I will listen to/contemplate the Guiding Thoughts (more on this tomorrow in my commitment), but the writing that will happen will be (mostly) private, as it will be writing the books.

Final Reflection, Susan. Journey of the Heart – 03.01.41

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When I began Journey of the Heart, I intended to open my heart in order to heal humanity. This stemmed from a mourning for humanity, and how far we have fallen into violence (that even Disney Movies now have violence as core plots).

Then, the Journey began, and I felt like my heart literally split open, broke open. It was a physical feeling, like someone punched me in the chest. The feeling did not go away for the entire Journey, and in the breaking open, there was release and renewal. It’s hard to explain, but it was like I was able to feel and experience new levels/layers of suffering in order to heal them. This was not just “for me” but for all of humanity, so I see this as a correspondence with my intention. (“you get what you ask for”)

With all of this going on energetically in my chest, I think that my head and my emotions were not up to thinking and feeling on a conscious level. Too much was going on energetically that I was unable to process much of anything mentally or emotionally.

The way I addressed this while drawing/painting was to find a way to paint so that I did not have to think or feel. I repeated a water color technique which produced very sweet little flowers. All I had to do was follow the technique, while listening to the Guiding Thought for the day. I found it relaxing and stimulating.

With this technique, I also gained confidence in my ability to produce or create something specific, intentionally. This is an unusual approach for me. I usually let my art come spontaneously, and just “see what comes out”. So, to intend to paint for a specific result was new. During the Journey, I likened this to the microcosm of learning to Create (capitial C) in the macro. That is: intentionally co-creating with my Divine Self.

This was an intense Journey for me, on many levels–especially that whole energetic thing with my heart breaking open. And, by the end, I was eager and excited to move forward with Journey of Purpose. Journey of the Heart helped me to really clarify how I want to approach Journey of Purpose.

And you’ll read about that a little later today!

Love to all. I am thankful for you being here, doing the work of becoming aware of and living from and through your Higher, Divine Self. See you again soon…

Journey of Purpose begins later today.