If I am to be my Self in the world, I must be for others as well as myself. There is no other. I am willing to be receptive to the Infinite Love of All. I am willing to understand how I must rise above the struggles and pains of the world. I am willing to rise again and again with each call for help, each outstretched hand. I am willing to be the one to choose to change. I offer my pain, suffering, guilt, and blame up for transformation, into the light of Love, that I may see and give only the light of Love always.
“If you go out far enough, you turn back in; if you go in far enough you turn back out” a friend said recently.
When I began these Journeys seven years ago, they were only about me. I created the first Journey to help me figure out my own purpose. Each Journey thereafter was a way for me to dig deeply into the barriers and obstructions that hindered my upward (ascension/enlightenment) progress. I didn’t care about you or your process, even though I knew the deeper I go, the more I pave the way for you to go deeper. Yes, these Journeys can and will benefit you; my own upward growth lifts humanity just that much more. But I didn’t do it for you. I did it for me.
Then I shifted and suddenly it felt right to do the Journeys on behalf of everyone on the planet, all 7.5 billion of us. The inner-direction became the outer-directed. I didn’t plan it; I didn’t intend it. I came across the idea that in doing it for myself I was able to do it for everyone, so I said, “sure, why not; same effort, larger results. I’ll do that”. I spent two years in that frame of mind while doing the Journeys.
I feel like I have taken another turn inward. Again, it’s not intentional or planned; it’s just happening. Just now, I find it very difficult to feel like I can do much for anyone beyond myself, much less for 7.5 billion people.
I feel like something new has been planted within me. It’s still small and not well rooted. I need to take care of it, nurture it, give it love and encouragement so that it will grow and become stronger. My focus and my attention must be given to this part of me; I must maintain my vigilance within in order to nourish this.
This does not mean I am not here for you. There is no other; we are One. Every direction leads back into itself, like a mobius strip turning, turning and changing with each turn.
With each turn, we become stronger together lifting each other, breaking each others’ fall. And together we rise.
If you are curious here’s my writing from The very first Journey of Worth, seven, years ago Day 10.