Guiding Thought

My mind and heart focus entirely on the Divine Presence I Am. I think, I speak, and I act in accordance with Divine Will, releasing Divine Substance into all my activity and all my financial affairs.

Reflection

With today’s Guiding Thought, I’ve had a “real” clash. What happens when the will to acknowledge Divine Presence becomes undermined by perceived “real” physical pain? I mean the kind of sudden, stabbing, muscular pain that makes you unable to move. What happens when just focusing on anything, much less Divine Will, or Divine Presence, is difficult? What happens when The Truth of Divine Reality comes face to face with the body’s limitations? Is this what death is like: facing the unknown, clinging to the body?

This has been my situation:

I got one of those severe muscle cramps in my neck that is (I believe) caused by a micro muscle somewhere else tensing up. My first experience with this was about 10 years ago, when I stepped over my dog (a very normal, non-rigorous action) and my lower back absolutely screamed in pain. I went from a zero to a 7 in an instant. I could no longer walk; I could barely move. Fortunately, I visited my sister (who at the time lived 550 miles away; the correspondence of the visit and the pain was completely coincidental), and she told me that when small muscles (micro muscles) freeze up, they can cause severe pain in other, seemingly unrelated muscles. She did her non-professional version of trigger-point therapy on me, poking and prodding my hip and hamstring until I felt another different severe pain. At that point, she took the eraser-end of a pencil and pushed down on that pain even harder. Payback for being the bratty little sister is a bitch. I howled, it was SO painful. But. it only took about 25 seconds. The pressure with the pencil eraser “unlocked” the frozen micro-muscle, which then released my lower back. It was, absolutely a miracle. My sister performed a miracle. Wow.

My current situation is similar. I did absolutely nothing to provoke pain, but all of the sudden, out of the blue, my neck was giving me sharp pains whenever I moved to the right, or up. It’s excruciating. When I laid down, I could not lift my head it hurt so much. I used tuning forks on my neck for about 15 minutes; it helped, but only for a few hours. I had to sleep sitting up. I did about 5 hours of reiki, and that did not stop it. I slept for an hour on my bed of nails. That did not stop it.

I reminded myself of the Truth of my Being. That I am Perfect, Whole, Complete. That Divine Will is Perfect Health. I did mantra. I listened to meditations. Still there was pain. How can one believe in the Truth of Being, when there is so much pain? How did Jesus do it?

Then my sister said, “roll your back on a small, hard ball against the wall. Find the frozen muscle, and push.” So I did. She was right again. The pain is not gone, but it’s a lot better. May back is sore from pressing so hard all over it, but I’m going to do it again, and again, and again, until the pain is gone.

I could not focus entirely on Divine Presence today. But I still have faith that one day… the Truth of Divine Presence will so-fill my mind and heart (100%) that all body-ego-earth trappings will be unnoticeable.