On My Way: Journey of Fulfillment 03.06.04

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Copyright Tam Black 2014
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Guiding Thought

My Self wills only to extend itself. Extending, sharing, and creating as Divine Love, through Divine Mind, is my sole purpose. My Self knows its fullness in Divine Love and wills only to liberate me to fulfill my purpose and my joy.


My Self is the True Reality of “me”. My Self is my Divine Self–always One with God.

God is the Great Creator. Love is both God and the energy of God’s creations, the force or vehicle by which God extends.

Everything is One with God. There is nothing God/Love did not create.

My Soul Purpose is to Know myself as this Self–One with God, One with Love, an extension of Love, created in, by, and through Love.

When this becomes my sole purpose (here’s that 100%), I will Know both Fullness and my Self as that Fullness.

If I do not know myself as full, if I am not aware of myself as One with God, One with Love, then I have limited and separated a part of myself, which then sees itself as less than 100%.

Love wants only to liberate me and bring me to 100% of understanding and knowing myself as Itself (Love).

Seek no More: A Journey of Fulfillment: 03.06.03

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Guiding Thought

What is fulfillment but knowing my Self as an expression of Divine Love? My Self wills to create! My Self wills to share! My Self wills to extend itself! My fulfillment is creation; my joy is sharing; my peace is extension.


Last night I did a meditation on my Soul’s True Purpose. It took me “down” within, to where my highest purpose resides, where no outer disturbance can reach it, and then aligned my outer world with that purpose.

During this process, I had a series of thoughts that came all together, as they do sometimes in meditation. Here is the summary of those thoughts, “Yeah, what is my true Purpose? I used to know my purpose– my purpose used to be focusing on seeking God, seeking the Divine. I’ve spent almost my entire life seeking the Divine, becoming an individualized expression of the Divine. My “I”dentity has been colored by the seeking. Who am I as someone who has found the Divine?”

It was an “I”dentity crisis of sorts. Who am I now? Who am I without seeking?

What is my purpose, now, if not to seek? What is my purpose now without the seeking?

But that is what I am now telling myself to do: Seek no More. Find. Know. Be.



Ordinary Miracles: Journey of Fulfillment 03.06.02

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Copyright Tam Black 2014
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Guiding Thought

I now invite, welcome, and receive the effects of Divine Love, and I am Truly grateful.

I experience Divine Mind as I experience these effects, and Divine Presence confirms itself in my life, activities and affairs.



I wrote this Journey in 2014. At that time, I had only just begun thinking how important it is to invite Divine Love and Divine Presence into my life and affairs. Now, six years and 3 Fulfillment Journeys later, after I’ve been using the phrase, “I invite, welcome, receive…” regularly, frequently, and I look back and remember there was a time when seeing the effects of the Divine in my life was not a regular, common occurrence.

Leonard Orr used to say, “the Divine is so ordinary It’s often overlooked”.

When I was studying with Leonard, 25 years ago, I took this to mean that I should pay more attention to ordinary, common things that I would often overlook in order to become more aware of the Divine in my Life. It became a mindfulness practice, to notice the Divine, to find the Divine in small things, in the base happenings of my life.

Now I understand this phrase very differently, and I am certain that it has to do with consciously inviting the effects of Divine Love into my normal, ordinary, base life more and more frequently over the past 6 years.

The way I now understand Leonard’s phrase is very akin to the Sixth Principle of Miracles, “Miracles are natural. When they do not occur something has gone wrong.”

I experience miracles every day. It’s hard to explain; it’s not like big things are happening. It’s not like time stands still or the heavens open, or I am “cured” of anything, or anything like that. There are basically 3 categories that I notice “miracles” in my life:

  1. Something potentially really tragic or dangerous unfolds in front of me and I meet it with Peace, clarity, and equanimity. For example: When I was on the highway at 70mph and the truck ahead of me lost it’s tire, with one huge piece flying at me and several smaller pieces flying every which way. I just notice, breathe, and “see” where I can drive safely and do so. Or, another driving example: It was a dark and stormy night (yes, really), I was driving up Route 1 (NJ), with people in a hurry all around me going 50-55 bumper-to-bumper traffic. A car on my right cuts me off to pass the guy in front of him, then immediately slams on his brakes because traffic ahead is slowing down. Just before that happened, I “knew” he didn’t see me, knew he was going to cut me off, and I was prepared and slowed down in advance–he still almost hit my front bumper… I have several more of those kinds of stories. I always know that I am safe, that all is well, and–sometimes–I feel like I was put into those kinds of situations to remind people to slow down with “near misses”, to help them avoid a much worse situation in their future.
  2. My life works…perfectly. What I mean is that big things in my life work out perfectly. Moving. Job. Finding a place to live. Meeting “the right” people. This is why/how I know that whatever happens with my relationship, it will be perfect. All is well. (This is not to say that I am immune to tough emotions, mind-disturbances, or uncomfortable situations–I have these, too, and I simply remain vigilant in keeping my mind focused as best I can on the Divine through these situations).
  3.  I notice that when I do have disturbed thoughts or feelings, or am in a disturbed situation, when I change my mind to invite the Divine, I handle the situation better than “I” could ever handle the situation. I’ve experienced this over and over. I turn my mind to God in the moment, and all is well. The situation smooths out, tensions dissipate, emotions reconcile, the other person becomes more peaceful. “Om Namah Shivaya”.

When the effects of Divine Love become usual, common, and ordinary, Miracles are experienced naturally, as life. When Miracles are experienced often, usually, as common, daily, ordinary interactions, it’s easy to “overlook” them. One way I notice the miracles in my life is by reminding myself, that others don’t experience life the way I do; other people have hardship and struggle. My life is good. So very good.

And one day, this will be the experience of everyone. Miracles are natural. Divine Love is Who We ARE. Divine Perfection is what we can expect. Always. All ways. This is Life.


I just had an unrelated thought that I’d like to share:

I’ve always thought of A Course in Miracles to mean something like, “A class-type format, which through study will teach a person what miracles are and how to live a miraculous life”. And, it is that.

My new thought changes the meaning of the word “course”, to mean “a route”, a path, a direction. So not only is A Course in Miracles a learning format, but it is also a course/route to Miracles. Not much different than a Journey, eh? 🙂



RAW(RRRRR). Journey of Fulfillment 03.06.01

Guiding Thought

Everywhere Fulfillment is, I am. Fulfillment is everywhere. Fulfillment is. I am.


First, I’m changing my Why a little bit. Yes, all that I said in my Why is true and correct, but after an emotionally raw and rip-me-open past 48 hours, I have some foci I had not thought of before.

  1. I want to use the Journey simply to stay sane for the next 40 days. 2020 has been a bear, and it’s not over yet (especially with the election coming up, and people losing their marbles with all the Covid stuff).
  2. I want to use the Journey to reflect on my relationship, and process the bear-of-2020 relationship stuff through Journey of Fulfillment. Although the past 48 hours ripped me open (the kind of emotion that produces a nausea in me; I feel strong emotions very physically), I had some really solid insights about who I am in relation with my partner, and what I need/want out of a relationship. Tough stuff–for me, anyway. (kind of a new realization: I’ve never actually had a fulfilling relationship (present relationship included), but it’s possible, now more than ever, with this partner or no one.

Now, the sharing…

The first thing that occurs to me with the Guiding Thought, especially after what I just wrote about my relationship, is that Fulfillment stands apart from the relationship. “Fulfillment is“. There are no qualifiers here; it’s not here sometimes and not other times. Fulfillment is.

But it’s not now; I may be fulfilled in my Divine Self, but the unfulfillment in my relationship glares too brightly in my face, and in this physical body/relationship, the Divine Fulfillment does not come through.

By my own understanding and teaching, if the “out there” (in this case the relationship) is not right, there’s something in here (inside myself) that needs to change. If I open enough to Love, the Divine will pour forth, righting all, straightening all paths. It has not done this for me in the past because I’ve never thought that I could; I’ve never even thought that I could actually have a fulfilling relationship. What does that even mean!??

I’ve just never thought that something was not right out there. I’ve never thought about trying to be fulfilled in a relationship. I’ve always just taken what has come and tried to be happy (and I’ve been pretty happy, afterall, my moon is in Sagittarius–we are resiliently happy folks).

Here’s my thinking: I should be able to simply be fulfilled, with no reference to anything or anyone. I should be able to rise above worldly cares, be all, bring love and light to a situation and be fulfilled. I should be able to call forth my Divine Self and be all that I need or want, because I already am all I need or want. I AM. 

Four thoughts come to mind.

  1. “Don’t should on yourself” (thanks, Judy).
  2. I’m not a monk–as my partner recently reminded me. Monks sit in a cave with no relationships. There are no dynamics, no bumps, no surprises, no mutual feelings, no stimuli, no push-pulls that prod and nudge and swiftly kick a monk. A relationship has all these…and more.
  3. The fact that I am thinking about that I could have a fulfilling relationship is huge. I mean…really. Think about that. I bet there are lots of people who go through life assuming that there is some fulfillment in a relationship. Not getting fulfillment but expecting it is very different than having no concept what so ever that a relationship can actually be fulfilling.
  4. I feel like I have found a place where I have restricted the flow of the Divine in my life. have limited the Divine. I have been unconscious about all of the possibilities for fulfillment, and all of the good the Divine wants to flow forth from me. I now have an opportunity to expand and allow more of the Divine in my life.

Thank you for being here. Do you think it might be an intense Journey?





Commitment and Dedication, Journey of Fulfillment– 03.06.0

Welcome to Journey of Fulfillment! Today, the second preliminary day, we “get serious” with our commitment. Now is the time to think about what you are willing and able to do, in order to fulfill your Why. Then commit to it. Today in the dedication, we also offer our efforts to something greater than ourselves.

Commitment Statement

Today I commit to being aware, to understanding, and to knowing my Divine Nature, my Self of Infinite Love and Oneness, as the Source and Substance that animates my mind and body, and governs all of my Life and affairs. Today, and for this Journey, I commit to focusing my mind and heart on my own Divine Self, my True Nature. I deny the prodding of my lower mind which would have me believe I am less than I am, that I am separate and alone. I place my faith in Infinite Love and claim my authority over financial and material situations, interactions, and affairs in all areas of my experience.

I commit to contemplating the Guiding Thoughts for a minimum of five minutes each day, then writing an response for a minimum of five minutes each day.

Statement of Dedication

I dedicate any and all good that may result from this Journey of Worth to the benefit and enlightenment of all sentient beings. May we all Know our Selves together in Love.

Journey of fulfillment: Why? 03.06.00

“I look within and uproot anything that is imperfect.”

This statement is the theme for this Journey of Fulfillment. I’ve been noticing things in my life, let’s call them personality defects, that I am dissatisfied with about myself. I won’t go into details, but let’s say they have to do with criticism, judgment, and lack of acceptance within myself.  Then, there are also some practical habits that I want to change, particularly how I currently lack organization in some areas of my life and my space.

Simply put, there are things about myself that I want to change. It’s not that I find these habits or characteristics problematic, but I can do better. I can be better. And that is what I want.

I figure, there is not perfect fulfillment where there are imperfections. And so since I’m going for 100% Filled Full, I need to correct these little things in my personality traits and in my habits.

In addition to the uprooting, I’m going to reach, and stretch myself a little bit more on this journey. I’ve been thinking about this concept of 100% for a while now. And I really want to reach more into that. I want 100% fulfillment, 100% alignment with Divine Will, 100% Harmony within my body mind and Spirit. I want that 100% with my Divine self.

So these are my two goals, uprooting the imperfections while reaching for greater perfection. Let’s do this.

You with me?

Fulfillment. The Final Journey of 2020. Class begins Tomorrow

You know the saying, “if at first you don’t succeed…try, try again”.

This has become my anthem during 2020. Nothing has worked out to the completion I had anticipated at all this year. At least not with the Journeys. Yet, I keep going…and keep going…with what is before me, to the best of my ability.

That’s about all we can do, right? Especially this year. I know you know what I’m talking about.

I did however unexpectedly begin something new, that has come to completion.

The Journeys are now offered as classes. 7 weeks. $35 (soft-launch price). You get the workbook, an hour a week with me, my insights and encouragement, as well as the wisdom of any other people who show up for the class (on ZOOM–join from anywhere in the world).

Journey of Fulfillment might be a nice way to stimulate your end-of-year. Amidst all that is going on, tune-in to the Truth of your own Divine Fulfillment. ‘Cause it’s who and what you are, and it’s waiting for you.

Anywhoo…I’m not much of a sales person, but I am a sincere supporter of your spiritual journey. I will do whatever I can to help support your spiritual seeking, your inner work, your contemplation, your muddling through this world as the beautiful divine being you are.

Click here for more information, and the registration. I’d love it if you’d join us. https://www.evenstarschalice.com/store/p249/With_Pearls_Journey_of_Fulfillment.html

And, I’d also like to thank Evenstar’s Chalice, in Ypsilanti Michigan for hosting my classes. This would not be possible without those great folks.

AND (finally) for those of you who won’t be joining the class, but want to follow along online, the online Journey will begin on Thursday, Sept 24… but I highly recommend the class….ijs