Journey of Peace, Final Reflection, Mary — 02.13.41

The final task for each Journey is to take some time and space after the daily writing has ended and reflect on the Journey, on your process, and on yourself. Here is Mary’s reflection (Lita’s reflection was posted yesterday, Steve’s reflection will be posted tomorrow, and my reflection the day after that):

Reflections on the Journey of Peace

It’s nearly Christmas. People are busy shopping and decorating and gathering near to loved ones. Carols of Peace on Earth and good will to all are filling the airwaves all around us. I think again how sad it is that we often pack away our Christmas spirit along with all the decorations at the end of this season of kindness and joy. I am determined not to pack away my Christmas spirit, not ever! Taking the Journey of Peace was an extremely timely experience for me. My father had passed shortly before the Journey began. I had knee replacement surgery and was in the beginning stages of recovery at the onset of this Journey.  The Guiding Thoughts went a long way in helping me to be at Peace with the curveballs life sometimes throws our way. I was getting comfortable with feeling I had done a good job of embracing Peace in my day-to-day living, then day 39 rolled around, the end of the Journey was in sight,  and I had a moment of disharmony. I realize I have a long road yet to walk, and have the intention of carrying on this Journey of Peace to the end of the road. These Journeys claim a daily commitment for 40 days. What I’ve learned is that, for me,  those 40 days are only the beginning of a Journey that will endure for the remainder of my life. As Lita, another Journeyer, states, we have the opportunity to be Big. These Journeys encourage us to be as Big as we choose, in a safe and supportive environment. I have great love and gratitude to Dr. Susan Billmaier for presenting the Journeys and to Steve, Lita, Amy and all the others who Journey with us. The Journeys are an exploration and a vehicle for Self-realization. I invite and welcome all fellow travelers on the path. Let all our hearts join in the prayer for Peace on Earth. If it is to be, it is up to me! (and you, too!)

Journey of Peace, Final Reflection, Lita — 02.13.41

The final task for each Journey is to take some time and space after the daily writing has ended and reflect on the Journey, on your process, and on yourself. Here is Lita’s reflection (Mary’s reflection will be posted tomorrow, and Steve’s the day after that, and my reflection the day after that):


Journey of Peace – Reflection

This is my second round of Journey writing.  At this juncture, I can say that the process of reflection and writing is that of un-layering: the sorting and removal of thoughts, memories, and emotions which no longer serve my way of thinking and being in the world. It is core work for sure. And then comes the re-layering: new thoughts and practices for living.

This Journey of Peace has been but another opportunity for un-layering and re-layering. In some respects, it has been more challenging, I think because the longer and deeper my commitment to this process becomes, the more I am faced with my own edges.

The daily writing and posting keeps me honest and accountable. My commitment to the exploration of consciousness and to the greater good has certainly helped me to find/create ways to stay big. This forum holds my feet to the fire, so to speak, but in a kind and nudging way.

In this period of rest and reflection, I experience Peace as a gentle mist or soft sun – available to me, to all – settling into the marrow of my being. This is the re-layering bit, informing how I move and interact with the world around me. I can stay big while staying kind.

I return again and again to Wendell Berry’s, The Peace of Wild Things:

When despair grows in me
and I wake in the night at the least sound
in fear of what my life and my children’s lives may be,
I go and lie down where the wood drake
rests in his beauty on the water, and the great heron feeds.
I come into the peace of wild things
who do not tax their lives with forethought
of grief. I come into the presence of still water.
And I feel above me the day-blind stars
waiting for their light. For a time
I rest in the grace of the world, and am free.


Seeking Guest Journeyers for January, Journey of the Heart

Journey of the Heart is about connecting with your heart, meaning, your deepest inner Self, your Highest dreams, wishes, Purpose; your Inner Truth.  If this is something you have been pulled or pushed to want, to seek, to pursue, this might be a great opportunity for you.
Guest Journeyers do their Journeys here, live, daily. Meet the recent Guest Journeyers here. Read their Journeys here.

This is what is required of Guest Journeyers for Journey of the Heart:

Step One (one day): Think about and decide why you want to connect with your heart. Write about this. The writing can be 100 or 1000+ words. The main point is to spend some time reflecting, then writing.
Step Two (one day): Decide to commit to the Journey–committing to a minimum of 10 minutes each day to do the contemplation/reflection. Write down your commitment. Also, if you choose, add a dedication (“for the benefit of all sentient beings”).
Step Three (40 days): Using Guiding Thoughts to focus your mind into your heart, listen to the words, while you draw/paint/color or write. Since the heart does not use words to communicate, this is a creative connective endeavor; the words merely lead you into what the heart wants to communicate. A minimum of 10 minutes is recommended daily for this Journey. You may listen to the Guiding thoughts here:
they loop automatically. Alternatively, you may read the Guiding Thoughts for 5 minutes prior to drawing/coloring/painting/writing, or you may record the Guiding Thoughts in your own voice and loop that while  drawing/coloring/painting/writing.
Step Four (one day): After the 40 days are complete, take some breathing room for a few days. Then, reflect on your Journey–an overview, self-assessment, “progress report” so to say–and write a bit.
Those are the basics of the Journey.
To be a Guest Journeyer there are additional administrative considerations, which we would have to work out: You’d have to either send me your reflections (drawing/coloring/painting/writing) or you may use your WordPress account, and I would add you as an admin on susanwithpearls, so you can log in and post the reflections yourself.

If you are interested, please email me.

Questions, curious inquiries, requests for more information welcome.

Beyond Understanding — 02.13.40

Guiding Thought

Knowing the essence of All as my Self, I respect and revere All Life. I love my Self; I love All Life. I bring this Love regularly, sincerely, and thankfully to all my activities and interactions. I now Know the Peace inherent in Oneness. I Know All as my Self. I Know my Self as Love.


Peace is timeless. In the Peace of Oneness, there is no time and space. No beginning, no end. As a dear friend once wrote to me, Peace is Beyond understanding. It’s not that we don’t understand. Beyond understanding is Where we will find peace. Beyond understanding is of the heart, not of the mind.

I started this reflection by reading the guiding thought, and nothing came up. I read the words, my brain/mind don’t have a clue how to respond. I wait, I pause, I let go of wanting to sound smart, of wanting to have just the right response for this Day 40 reflection.

I re-read an email discussion with a dear friend from 2013. It is here that I get my inspiration. This is where the Beyond Understanding comes from. Over 6 years ago, we were in discussion about Peace. I was struck by how the message “peace be with you” is totally absolutely non-denominational. Peace be with You. A little email, a big discussion. Now 6 years later, it comes back to me, and the message is timeless. I am Peace, I must Be Peace. I make a difference, we all make a difference. Just a little discussion of Peace has rippled through time, to touch us again. I know myself, ourselves, as Love, and we make a difference.

May Peace be with us All.


Cat as Teacher — 02.13.39

Guiding Thought

The purpose of Life for all beings is to experience happiness, peace, contentment, and safety, Knowing the Oneness and Immortality of the Divine Self. Such Knowledge is beyond speech, beyond thought; it is found in the depths of the heart where communion (co-union) with All is reality. I bring the unifying force within my heart to all people and experiences and thus Know myself as the happiness, peace, contentment, and safety I Am.


We are at the ocean for 3 days, and our cat Red is at home inside. All by himself. He has lots of food and water, and 2 clean potty boxes. So he is safe, contented, very peaceful, I am sure he is getting lots of sleep. But is he happy? He can’t go outside, which is a normal daily activity for him. He often spends the night outside. He has no one to cuddle up to, no lap to sit on. I know he will survive; we’ve done this before. Yet I worry for him during our absence. What is his experience like, how long does 3 days by himself seem?

The potentially missing experience for him is happiness. His humans are gone, his routine has been limited. When we return he will meow up a storm, and then run around outside, then eventually he will return, and want to be petted. We like to think he is pissed at us, of course we really don’t know.

What occurs to me about all this?

  1. We are all One In the depths of our heart. This crosses all races, all genders, all species, all living and even non-living things. All sentient beings want happiness, peace safety and contentment, A snake basking in the hot sun on a rock I like to think is content.
  2. Love is forgiveness. Our cat will not hold a grudge for how we confined him. Although possibly troubling, he won’t take his frustration out on us (at least, not for long). I know I may be anthropomorphizing here, but even the Dalai Lama gives blessings for animals. It is sometimes simpler to understand our emotional complexities in our relationships with non-human sentient beings. There is a purity in their responses. Many animal lovers will attest to this.
  3. The Oneness of our Divine Self crosses all barriers, and thus we share our infinite peace, contentment, happiness, and safety with all.



Life Around and Within — 02.13.38

Guiding Thought

When I lift my vibration into Peace and Harmony, all are lifted with me. With this awareness comes great responsibility: I am a Peace steward of all humanity, of all Life. Eternal Peace is my natural state. I joyfully and easily share it with all, and fulfill my Divine Purpose in the world.


What is my divine purpose in this world? I am not sure I know, but being a peace steward and working to bring more peace and harmony into the world feels very worthwhile to me. To this end, learning how to lift my vibrations into peace and harmony is a prerequisite to sharing this with others. One way that works for me is to ground myself in the natural world. As I look out at the ocean before me, I can see that Mother is still alive and well, in spite of the injuries from man’s touch. When I simply gaze at the waves, see the sparkles from the sunlight, and feel the windy air all around us, my filters slip away, and I become a part of the grand vista surrounding me. My vibrations lift into harmony, no thinking, just experiencing Life.

It is letting go; of the need to describe, to name, to keep myself separated from reality. It is letting go of the need to think, to approve or disapprove.  When I let go, I become a drop in the ocean of Peace.  I become a Peace steward.


Just Look Out the Window — 02.13.37

Guiding Thought

The Peace of God is stronger than my self-constructed obstacles to it. I open my mind to Holy Communion with the Divine. Brought to union with God, obstacles crumble. Peace stands victorious. I am that Peace.


We have moved today, from our home environment, to a 3 day stay at the ocean. With a 3rd floor room, we have an awesome view of the ocean, and the limitless sky, and of course the sun. We just watched the sunset. And there were no obstacles in the way, no trees, no houses, no power lines. It is an unobstructed view clear to the horizon. Perhaps the Peace of God is like that. No obstacles.

I went for a walk, and found a potential path to the beach. I followed it for a while, through sand dunes covered with grasses, and bushes. I did not get up high enough to see the waves. It is low lying topography here. I gave up the struggle before I could get to the beach. I am sure the rustic path would get me to the beach eventually, but I wanted to get back before sunset.

That rough path reminded me of my struggles to find the Peace of God, when all I had to do was look out the clear window, to see the manifestation of the light of God in all its glory. No obstacles.