Working Toward Embodying Light -Fulfillment (1.6.40)

 

Copyright Tam Black 2018
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Guiding Thought

I am light. My body is light. I am free. I know my fulfillment: I feel it rise within me, expand out from me.

Sharing

Welcome to day 40! How did you do? Were you consistent daily? Did you contemplate your ideal (or the Guiding Thought) for at least 5 minutes per day? Did you dig deep, expand your self-knowledge, and learn about how you approach life? Whew. That’s a lot to do and expect of yourself. If you did anything at all toward self-awareness, and learning about how you choose to live life…give yourself a hug, or at least a pat on the back. You’ve done some good work. Now it’s time to take a break. Breathe for a few days, normalize a bit, then take some time to read back over what you have written over the past 40 days, and reflect on where you were, where you are, and what you think you learned over the course of this Journey. I’ll do the same. But now…day 40!

Just in the past two weeks, I’ve been trying some new things to increase my inner-light-awareness.

I have always wanted to be light. I used to–and I suppose I still do–draw myself with so much inner light that it radiates outward everywhere. I used to feel the light bubble up within me, and flow out my eyes and hands. I’ve always believed somewhere deep down, that I am light. Of course, I’ve had to reconcile this with my experience of being a dense, 3rd-dimensional, material body/person…which is what I live with day after day after day… yet for some reason, I still think I am light. I think some how, some way, I can be light, not this heavy, dense, material body. So today’s Guiding Thought has special significance for me–I’ve been working at this since I was a teenager!

I am not daunted that I haven’t figured it out yet. I will. We all will, sooner or later. I just keep working at it and trying stuff.

So in the past two weeks, I’ve started taking a fish oil that is high in anti-oxidants, which is supposed to cleanse (de-calcify) the pineal gland. There are those who believe the pineal gland is the seat of the third-eye, the spiritual eye. It is the seat of true vision, manifestation, and higher communication. Apparently, things like chlorine, fluoride, and bromine calicify the pineal gland and inhibit its proper function. So I’m trying it out. It’s only been a few days, and I have nothing to report, but if all goes well, my third eye will open and I will be that much closer to giving/receiving light!

Secondly, I’ve been carrying around crystals. I have this beautiful quartz crystal that fits across the palm of my hand (about 4″ x 1.5-2″)–and I can wrap my fingers around it…So I’ve been carrying it, sleeping with it. This behavior is not completely new; I’ve had this crystal for over two decades, and it accompanies me during certain times in my life.

Finally, I’ve been sleeping with music which entrains the mind with delta brainwaves. That’s “just” a sleep entrainment, nothing fancy–no binaural beats or subliminal affirmations, but since cleaning the pineal gland is supposed to open the vision/dreaming faculty, I figure better sleep won’t hurt.

All of this is to continue progressing upward. Call it frequency, call it sound, call it light, call it vibration, call it consciousness, call it what you will. It’s about embodying more and more energy, love, and light. Being able to handle it and then radiate it.

 

 

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Ways to support this work:

  1. Hire me as your Spiritual Coach, you may sign up for a personalized Journey with me Click here for more information. Or I offer 1-on-1 spiritual coaching sessions. This is non-religion specific, and open to everyone, even atheists, though of course we would call something like “self-analysis coach” for a self-identified atheist.
  2. Indulge in one of my healing services: Jharra, Reiki, Fire Ceremony (see withpearls.com for more information).
  3. Send me a monetary gift via paypal: paypal.me/SusanBillmaier (please note “gift” in the transaction).
  4. Tell a friend about this site, the coaching or healing services.
  5. Invite me to interview on a podcast or for an article.

All proceeds go toward increasing love, light, and a consciousness of Oneness in the world. Thank you for your contribution that benefits All.

These Journeys are always available on this site at no charge. I also provide Jharra, Reiki, and Fire Ceremonies at no-charge to those who ask.

I Got That Joy Joy Joy Joy -Fulfillment (1.6.17)

Copyright Tam Black 2018
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Guiding Thought

Your joy unifies! Accepting your joy, acknowledging it, sharing it, and expressing it heals you and heals others. To be wholly joyful means to be wholly Love…means to be wholly your Self.

Sharing

What does it mean to heal in this context?

It’s more than a physical healing, like healing a scrape, or broken bone. It’s more than healing from a virus or a bacterial infection. It’s more than psychological healing; it’s more than emotional healing. These types of healing address a body, a mind, or emotions–just one facet of a human being. These things are what most people are talking about when they talk about “healing”.

In the context of the Guiding Thought, it’s really unification that heals. If joy unifies, then by accepting your joy (acknowledging it and sharing it), you are sharing its quality of unification. And remember, when you give something not only are you confirming to yourself that you have it in the first place, but you are expanding and intensifying it. So, as you give joy to others, you simultaneously make it stronger within yourself, and spark another’s joy within them.

This type of healing does not address a body, a mind, or emotions each independently, but rather addresses anything that is perceived as separate or fragmented, regardless of where it resides in a person’s being.

The Truth of your Being…is Love. Being Love is being Wholly ourselves. This is our “healed” state–our natural state of being the Love we are. Anything else is “illness”.

“Healing” in the context of the Guiding Thought simply means to be the Self you are, the Love you are. Love makes us whole because Love is wholeness, and is what we are.

This wholeness is the healed state, in which everyone understands and Knows their Self in Love, which is the same Love as everyone else. No one is “other. No one is “separate”. No one is “less than”. We are all that beautiful, all-pervading, all-encompassing, infinite Love.

What’s not to be Joyful? If you were there, wouldn’t you want everyone to Know themselves as that Love, to join you in that joy?

 

 

 

Repetition’s Usefulness -Fulfillment (1.6.15)

Copyright Tam Black 2018
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Guiding Thought

In Divine Mind, you are filled full! All are equally filled full. All are equal in Love. Fill your mind with thoughts of fulfillment and remember what you already know. Be determined to fulfill your purpose, to know your Self as Divine Love, and to share the fullness you are.

Sharing

Sometimes this feels so repetitious. I know that’s the point to some degree: hearing the same thing in different ways for various brain-pathways to be activated all around the same topic, increasing the brain capacity and energy allocated to that particular topic.

And I know that another reason to repeat a concept through different words is to encourage the feeling of the words. Anyone can intellectualize an idea over and over and over, but if it does not seep in deeper–to the feeling level, to the level of being an innate, natural response–it is not going to be that person’s lived reality.

That’s the point of the repetition, of approaching a topic (like Fulfillment) from various perspective, through different lenses, with different words. It’s to encourage me/you to live the words.

To live a life of Fulfillment.

Fulfillment lives with us, whether we know it or not. Fulfillment is ours, immediately, every moment. If there is any thought of someone else having more than you, or something being inadequate or insufficient in your life, then there is something in your consciousness that is filtering out your All-sufficiency, your total overflowing fulfillment.

It’s your responsibility to find those blocks in your filters and clean them out, so that all the Fulfillment that is there, waiting for you, will flow into your life.

This also means checking yourself and stop falling into patterns of envy, guilt, blame, or shame. If any of those feelings are in your life–either giving or receiving them, and you don’t have the Fulfillment that you want, those patterns are a good place to begin cleaning out.

There’s never a reason for guilt. You are forgiven, and thereby innocent…right now, and always.
There’s never a reason for blame. Everyone else is forgiven, and thereby innocent…right now, and always.
There’s never a reason for shame. Everyone is perfect…beautifully, divinely perfect.
There’s never a reason for envy. There is enough for everyone, always. Including you. In Divine Order, through Divine Love, for Divine Purpose.

 

Easier -Fulfillment (1.6.12)

Copyright Tam Black 2018
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Guiding Thought

Invite, welcome, and receive the effects of Divine Love now… and be truly grateful. Experience Divine Mind as you experience these effects; allow Divine Presence to confirm itself in your life, activities, and affairs.

Sharing

Here’s the sequence:

You invite and welcome Divine Love to enter your life, and be willing to let it operate in your life.

The final sentence of a prayer of Saint John Damascene says this, “But on me a sinner, show the wonder of Thy mercy; in this reveal Thy love for mankind, lest my wickedness prevail over Thine ineffable goodness and merciful kindness; and order my life as Thou wilt”. (emphasis mine).

When you sincerely invite Divine Love to enter your life, be prepared for your life to change. Anything that is not of, in, by, and through Love in your life will be turned upside down, emptied, burned away so that Love may enter purely.

I often say, “I have to remember that I asked for this”. If you are asking for Love, it will come. It may not (at first) feel warm and fuzzy. It may feel chaotic, tumultuous, confusing. Hang in there–that’s Love clearing you out. I recommend breathing a lot, and having some affirmation, prayer, or meditation that you can turn to in an instant to remind you to let go of everything. When you consciously participate in letting go in the moment, every moment, that makes Love’s work faster, and you can get through it (to the warm and fuzzy….) faster.

You: be truly grateful.

This is especially important to remember as/if you experience what I mention above. Be grateful for everything.

YouExperience Divine Mind as you experience these effects.

As often as you can, acknowledge Divine Mind working in your life. Especially after you have asked Divine Love to enter.

Look for instances of Love, acts of kindness, grace, beauty. Set your mind to seeing Love operating in your life. If you can, see everything as Love operating in your life.

Do your best. Find your gratitude, even if it’s by wrote, or by repetition, or totally in your head, or rehearsed. Say small “thanks” throughout the day. Do it for everything. Acknowledge. Acknowledge. Acknowledge.

This brings you more to be grateful for.

All of these add up to: allow Divine Presence to confirm itself in your life, activities, and affairs.

You lay the groundwork.

You set the stage.

You keep the channel clear for Divine Love to work in you and through you.

Divine Presence cannot confirm itself in your life, activities, and affairs unless you have done the work so that It wants to express itself in you and through you.

The good news is, once you have some repetition with this:

invite and welcome — be truly grateful — Acknowledge. Acknowledge. Acknowledge — invite and welcome — be truly grateful — Acknowledge. Acknowledge. Acknowledge — invite and welcome — be truly grateful — Acknowledge. Acknowledge. Acknowledge.

You create this pattern in your consciousness, which gives momentum to the energy behind the Presence of Love, which makes it easier (yes, it gets easier) to be in Love, allow Love, and experience Love’s confirmation of your hard work.

 

Extension of Reality -Fulfillment (1.6.6)

Copyright Tam Black 2018
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Guiding Thought

Why would I choose to limit my Self? To limit my reality? All of reality is mine, and mine to give! In giving and sharing, my joy increases, expanding my Love, expanding Life!

Sharing

The first sentence today is both rhetorical and impossible.

It’s rhetorical because the obvious answer/response is: I wouldn’t choose to limit myself. 

It’s impossible because your Self cannot be limited by you, by anyone.

This goes back to the discussion on day four and difference between “you” and “You”–your lower (personality) self, and your Higher (Divine) Self.

“You” (your lower, personality self), can try to limit your Self. And it can succeed in your experience of It, but not in the reality of It. You experience your Higher Self through the filters your lower self has put into place. Your lower self dictates its own experience of your Higher Self, and since it is both the developer, architect, and construction worker, it also puts into place the idea that it (your lower self) is the reality of you. Then it believes what it has made.

Once you begin to make decisions that recognize the reality of You (i.e. once you begin to wake up to the Truth of your Self), you begin to see where the lower self has made decisions about your experience of the Reality of your Higher Self without you even knowing it. This is “how” you can think that you can limit yourself.

The Truth is: All of reality is yours, and is You. That is…Real reality, not the so-called reality that your lower self has developed and constructed as its own kingdom that it rules.

The way you prove the reality of your Self is by giving and sharing it. You cannot give something you do not have. You have everything in Reality. You can give everything in reality without sacrifice to either your self or your Self (but your self can feel threatened  by lack and limitation, scarcity and not-having enough).

When you give and share from Reality, your joy increases, and expands your Love, expanding Life! This is because you are sharing what is Real, what is Constructive, what is created in Love, with Love, by Love, for Love.

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Ways to support this work:

  1. Hire me as your Spiritual Coach, you may sign up for a personalized Journey with me Click here for more information. Or I offer 1-on-1 spiritual coaching sessions. This is non-religion specific, and open to everyone, even atheists, though of course we would call something like “self-analysis coach” for a self-identified atheist.
  2. Indulge in one of my healing services: Jharra, Reiki, Fire Ceremony (see withpearls.com for more information).
  3. Send me a monetary gift via paypal: paypal.me/SusanBillmaier (please note “gift” in the transaction).
  4. Tell a friend about this site, the coaching or healing services.
  5. Invite me to interview on a podcast or for an article.

All proceeds go toward increasing love, light, and a consciousness of Oneness in the world. Thank you for your contribution that benefits All.

These Journeys are always available on this site at no charge. I also provide Jharra, Reiki, and Fire Ceremonies at no-charge to those who ask.

Doing Without Doing -Fulfillment (1.6.3)

Copyright Tam Black 2018
Designed for susanwithpearls.com

Guiding Thought

What is fulfillment but knowing my Self as an expression of Divine Love? My Self wills to create! My Self wills to share! My Self wills to extend itself! My fulfillment is creation; my joy is sharing; my peace is extension.

Sharing

Again…today I feel in perfect alignment with my initial approach to the Journey. This has never happened before: I have never begun a Journey feeling like I’m in sync with mySelf. All other Journeys, it was like mySelf wrote the Why–with very high expectations and standards–and I then had to pedal really fast to catch up to it.

When I said a few days ago in the Why, “I must do nothing. In order for Divine Perfection to work in Its time, I need not interfere: I must do nothing, and in doing nothing All is well”, the subtext of that was that I must not do something with the intention that it has specific results.

Let me give a very simple example. If I read an article that says kale is a superfood, and that in order to rid my body of every possible known toxin, I must eat kale…and then I go out and buy a bunch of kale, and eat it every day in order to rid my body of toxins….  What I have done is given my actions a meaning. All my actions (including my thoughts) which are associated with kale have the intention that I rid my body of toxins. My actions take on a meaning that I have ascribed to them, with results that I have decided I want. This is doing something.

The alternative (doing nothing) is to remove decisions about what something means or does not mean, to remove doing things in order to achieve a result, and to not prejudge how I desire an action to turn out.

This is the actionless action, the doing without doing. I still take actions. I still work, eat, watch TV, play with my cat (who happens to be very unhappy right now, since I gave him a crushed up pill in his food, and he made it very clear how it smelled, when he covered it up, refused to eat it, and has been complaining for the past 10 minutes.) But I do not try to determine what the actions mean, or the result they will bring in advance.

I’ve been “practicing” this for about two weeks. It’s not easy. First I have to notice when I have a motivation. Then I have to either a) get clear to remove the motivation or b) decide not to take the action, that has a specific motivation behind it. So far, usually, it’s been easier to go with b). I am not yet good enough at this to know when I have cleared my motivation enough to take action without having it.

But I’ve also had new awareness and action. There are now more times when I am acting without thinking. I skip the mental option of motivation or intention altogether, and simply do something. What is interesting to me is that many of the actions I have done in this “state” have been things that are “of mySelf”. They have been things that are creative, expressive, and embodying my Divine Presence.

They have also been things that will increase my awareness and expression of my Inner Divine Presence, which will be experienced as peace, love, joy, gratitude.

I am suddenly reminded of these two Guiding Thoughts, from previous Journeys:

Increasing my thoughts of Love and my attitude of service dispels all fear of lack and limitation. As I serve more people with Love, money and wealth flow abundantly to me. I use money and wealth with love and wisdom to create a life I love through my highest vision. (Journey of Abundance days that end in 6)

I awaken to my Inner Divine Mind and invite It to express itself as every person and event that will increase my awareness of It. (Journey of Purpose, days that end in 5)

You see, I have been working on creating, sharing, and expanding (as in today’s Guiding Thought). I find it very fascinating how a Journey of fulfillment is bringing Abundance and Purpose together for me…without me doing anything!

Love to you, dear ones. Walk your path! Love yourSelf. Be your Self.

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Ways to support me so I can do more of this work:

  1. Hire me as your Spiritual Coach, you may sign up for a personalized Journey with me Click here for more information. Or I offer 1-on-1 spiritual coaching sessions. This is non-religion specific, and open to everyone, even atheists, though of course we would call something like “self-analysis coach” for a self-identified atheist.
  2. Indulge in one of my healing services: Jharra, Reiki, Fire Ceremony (see withpearls.com for more information).
  3. Send me a monetary gift via paypal: paypal.me/SusanBillmaier (please note “gift” in the transaction).
  4. Tell a friend about this site, the coaching or healing services.
  5. Invite me to interview on a podcast or for an article.

These Journeys are always available on this site at no charge. I also provide Jharra, Reiki, and Fire Ceremonies at no-charge to those who ask.

I AM, but who am I? -Abundance (1.5.39)

Copyright Tam Black 2018
Designed for susanwithpearls.com

Guiding Thought

Divine Abundance expresses infinitely through my own Divine Presence. When I identify with my Divine Presence, I open the floodgates and Divine Abundance flows naturally, easily, and effortlessly through me, materializing all good in my life and affairs.

Sharing

I am my I AM Presence.

I am my Christ Presence.

I am my Divine Presence.

Koham?” is Sanskrit for “Who am I?”

The answer to this question is “Soham“, which means “I am That“. “That” means the Self of the self, the Universal Self, the Christ Self. I am the “That” which is everywhere, and belongs to everyone; the oneness of humanity, Love, the Oneness of All that Is.

My Divine Presence is the abundance of the universe, because I am that universe, and that universe is me.

All I have to do is understand this…and be it. 

It sounds so simple. It feels so right…and at that level of feeling right, it makes so much sense.

All I have to do is be it. Then, effortlessly, the floodgates open.

Effortlessly.

Because I AM that abundance and that abundance is me.

I think the part that trips me up is a language/concept problem, having to do with I.

When people say “I”, their reference–for most people, most of the time–is the non-Divine I, the non-Christ-Presence-I. It is the I which identifies with a single body, instead of with the Universe, or ALL “bodies”; it is the I which identifies with being time-bound (and associated with that single body, which lives and dies), instead of with Eternity; it is that I which thinks of itself, instead of Its Self.

So that when people say, “I am >fill in the blank<“, their identity is with that lower/smaller/lesser I.

Even when people say: I am my I AM Presence. I am my Christ Presence. I am my Divine Presence, their concept of is with that lower/smaller/lesser I.

The whole point of saying/thinking I am my I AM Presence or I am my Christ Presence or I am my Divine Presence is to shift our concept of “I”.

To think about “I” in these terms– “I” am all that is. “I” am the Presence of Love. “I” am the very Divine Presence– means to identify with that which lives in everyone, and is present here, now, in this body, through this body, as this body, living in time and space, yet not of time and space, living through this body, but not being this body.

Do you see?

You are not that body. You are not those thoughts. You are not those feelings. You are your Divine Presence. You are the presence of Love that fills the universe. The universe is also the presence of Love, which fills you, which fills itself. We are. We are ALL. Always. Now. Forever. Here. Everything. Love.