My Beauty –Journey of Beauty 02.09.03

Guiding Thought

Do I know how beautiful I am? Do I have any idea what Beauty created me, what Beauty adorns me, what Beauty permeates and surrounds me? Do I know all Beauty is a gift of Love, leading me to Itself?

Reflection / Contemplation

It was over 20 years ago in my reading of the work of Stephen Levine, the Buddhist author whose work around death and dying provided great insight and comfort as my husband’s father was on hospice. Levine’s work took me to a place of Beauty I had never before gone. A therapist had tried to take me there once, prior to my reading his work. I could not go on that journey until Stephen Levine words offered this particular pathway to me.
 
His statement was that when we experience or feel love, it is actually a mirror that is being held up to us.  We are being reflected back upon ourselves. The Divine we see in others is, in truth, a reflection of the Divine in us. WHAT?!! And here I had thought the love that I feel and express is just me be a good person, and one that I am supposed to be. Knowing that the Divine is in me is one thing, owning it is altogether another thing.
My knowing and owning my Beauty has been and continues to be a work in progress. There are parts or ways of my knowing that are easier to navigate. Maybe it is because I have given them more attention or there are less societal and cultural judgments to navigate. My taking ownership of my own Beauty has implications too, and that I know is part of future conversations with this project
For now, this intention piece keeps showing up. I periodically re-enter the world of “Mirror” work, both for personal development and application to my body work practice. I am finding how much work it takes for me look into the mirror without judgement on my appearance or give attention head noise, and maintain a steady focus on the heart energy exchange, that deep connection with my own inner beauty/Divine. To be honest, I know I am just dipping my toe in the mirror’s waters right now.

Guest Contributor Lita Artis

 

 

 

 

 

 

Journey of Beauty is now available as a free book.
You no longer need to wait for the Guiding Thoughts to be posted here daily–you may move at your own pace. This link will take you to the document in Dropbox; you may download it from there.

I accept donations and gifts via paypal: paypal.me/SusanBillmaier Thank you for the energy exchange!

Here is the schedule:

Apr 18 Preliminary day Introduction: Why A Journey of Beauty (02.10.0)
Apr 19 Preliminary day Commitment and Dedication (02.10.00)
Apr 20 – 29 Days 01-10 Round One (02.10.01-10)
Apr 30 – May 9 Days 11-20 Round Two (02.10.11-20)
May 10 – 19 Days 21-30 Round Three (02.10.21-30)
May 20 – 29 Days 31-40 Round Four (02.10.31-40)
May 30 – June 8 Reflection days Gently care, de-fuse, and write one day of reflection on the Journey (02.10.41)

Inner Beauty –Journey of Beauty 02.09.02

Guiding Thought

What is inner Beauty? How do I recognize it in others? How do I recognize it in myself? How do I cultivate inner beauty, especially when there are questions about what it is and how to recognize it?

Reflection / Contemplation

I wonder if inner beauty is just that? It is just because it exists; we exist.  I recognize it in what is around me, in others, and even myself. I am inclined to think it exists even when it is not of my focus.
Last summer I participated in a course on the Spectrum of Love which over the course of a week’s time took us through a meditative process of engaging objects, people (including ourselves) and situations.  We started out very simply, with observation and moved through a myriad of states of recognition, acknowledgement, and others on the way to Love at the end. It was a building exercise that started small by way of awareness of location and engagement that eventually included the difficult and challenging areas of our lives (people and situations), both personal and on the world stage.
I came away from this course with a reinforced understanding that all things, beings, people, etc., have some inherent Beauty in their very existence. I was presented with an opportunity to notice and take the experience deeper if I so chose.
There is an apple tree outside of my studio. I am lucky enough to have it in view throughout a portion of my treatment sessions.  And right now the blossoms are in early bloom. In the last few years I have really paid attention to the cycles of the seasons and the steady and varied expressions of this tree. What I really admire about this tree is its ability to be and stay a tree. When I remember, or move into an awareness, I send appreciative thoughts to this tree. We had a bumper crop last summer. Was this tree saying “thank you” back to me?
Back to the cultivation of inner beauty, it requires that intention and attention that I wrote about yesterday. That is the action piece, the day to day work. The how varies. But underneath all that, I have to choose to do it. Like that tree, I know I will get something in return.

Guest Contributor Lita Artis

 

 

 

 

 

 

Journey of Beauty is now available as a free book.
You no longer need to wait for the Guiding Thoughts to be posted here daily–you may move at your own pace. This link will take you to the document in Dropbox; you may download it from there.

I accept donations and gifts via paypal: paypal.me/SusanBillmaier Thank you for the energy exchange!

Here is the schedule:

Apr 18 Preliminary day Introduction: Why A Journey of Beauty (02.10.0)
Apr 19 Preliminary day Commitment and Dedication (02.10.00)
Apr 20 – 29 Days 01-10 Round One (02.10.01-10)
Apr 30 – May 9 Days 11-20 Round Two (02.10.11-20)
May 10 – 19 Days 21-30 Round Three (02.10.21-30)
May 20 – 29 Days 31-40 Round Four (02.10.31-40)
May 30 – June 8 Reflection days Gently care, de-fuse, and write one day of reflection on the Journey (02.10.41)

Why a Journey of Beauty 02.09.0

Why Beauty?
Thus begins my exploration into the interior states of Beauty. Certain family members and close friends have heard me say, on multiple occasions, that I must be exposed to Beauty every day. My soul/being requires such, whether it is something I observe or experience outside of myself or something that I create. Why does my soul place such a demand on me? Or have a loud enough voice that tells me that if I do not pay attention to this, that my inner light will diminish? 
I am not quite sure how many times I have made this claim, but enough so that if I say it once again, its meaning will drop to the level of triteness and the important folks in my life will look at me with eyes glazed over. So what does it really mean to me when I say that I must be exposed to Beauty daily? It’s time to pony up.
What I know right now, or rather what is true for me now, is that my experience of Beauty is relational: giving and receiving, or rather, receiving and then giving.
My experience of and with Beauty gives me a sense of “Awe”, access to something that is bigger than me. I am not alone in this Universe. What flows from my experience of Awe is gratitude or appreciation for whatever has been offered to me, be it by way of a visual, sound, physical, or taste experience. Even an idea or a conversation can be beautiful to me. Something inside of me gets jostled and stirred. I am different for or because of my experience and I am grateful for it.
I am old enough, curious enough, and introspective enough to know these things about myself: I have to be in relationship.  I have to be in relationship with something greater than myself. I like to stir and be stirred, especially in relationships. I have to be in relationship with that which makes me a better, more conscious human being.
Beauty attends to these requirements; at least I believe it does
What I do not know and am not so clear in expressing, is why this drives me so. Is Beauty a want or a need? Why or how does Beauty invoke the “Awe” response in me? I am willing to be engaged and challenged by this upcoming process.
Let the adventure begin!

Guest Contributor Lita Artis

 

 

 

 

 

 

Journey of Beauty is now available as a free book.
You no longer need to wait for the Guiding Thoughts to be posted here daily–you may move at your own pace. This link will take you to the document in Dropbox; you may download it from there.

I accept donations and gifts via paypal: paypal.me/SusanBillmaier Thank you for the energy exchange!

Here is the schedule:

Apr 18 Preliminary day Introduction: Why A Journey of Beauty (02.10.0)
Apr 19 Preliminary day Commitment and Dedication (02.10.00)
Apr 20 – 29 Days 01-10 Round One (02.10.01-10)
Apr 30 – May 9 Days 11-20 Round Two (02.10.11-20)
May 10 – 19 Days 21-30 Round Three (02.10.21-30)
May 20 – 29 Days 31-40 Round Four (02.10.31-40)
May 30 – June 8 Reflection days Gently care, de-fuse, and write one day of reflection on the Journey (02.10.41)

Dancing with the Stars –Journey of Courage 02.09.40

Guiding Thought

I am aware, I allow, and I accept What Is. I go within to my silent Self which Knows and follow my Inner Wisdom to Truth. I practice Divine Balance in thought, word, and action. I Am! I Am my Self! I Am my Self of Love!

Contemplation / Reflection

Wow, day 40, Finally! Already! I don’t quite know where to put that. I thought this would be the end of this Journey of Courage. Instead, I find that What Is, is that I’ve made new commitments to myself through this Journey. Yes, I’m getting up a little earlier every morning. The Divine Balance in my thought, word and action is evaporating the obscuration of the thought “I am not a morning person”. It’s also changing my actions regarding clutter, particularly where the papers on my desk are concerned. But that’s not all. On a deeper level, I am more in touch with my “inner Wisdom” and truth. It’s hard to hide from the truth when you challenge yourself to find the courage to tell the truth. The clutter on my desk is only the outward manifestation of a level of clutter in my thoughts and actions. I’ve uncluttered my closet. I’ve uncluttered my bookshelf. A nice start, perhaps, but I haven’t uncluttered my desk. In terms of this Journey, I obviously still have lots of work to do. In the meantime, I AM my Self of Love! I Love the changes taking place. While I’m completing the commitment of 40 days of responding to these Guiding Thoughts, I find I have new commitments now. The beauty of this is that it’s commitments to my self, and my Self. Practicing Divine Balance is just that – a dance with Divine Balance. I intend to continue dancing as if no one is watching. But I’ll be watching! You may look for me dancing with the Stars, but not on television!

 

Guest Contributor Mary Wallace

 

 

 

 

 

Journey of Courage is now available as a free book.
You no longer need to wait for the Guiding Thoughts to be posted here daily–you may move at your own pace. This link will take you to the document in Dropbox; you may download it from there.

I accept donations and gifts via paypal: paypal.me/SusanBillmaier Thank you for the energy exchange!

Journey of Beauty Begins April 18!

Apr 18 Preliminary day Introduction: Why A Journey of Beauty (02.10.0)
Apr 19 Preliminary day Commitment and Dedication (02.10.00)

Apr 20 – 29 Days 01-10 Round One (02.10.01-10)
Apr 30 – May 9 Days 11-20 Round Two (02.10.11-20)
May 10 – 19 Days 21-30 Round Three (02.10.21-30)
May 20 – 29 Days 31-40 Round Four (02.10.31-40)

May 30 – June 8 Reflection days Gently care, de-fuse, and write one day of reflection on the Journey (02.10.41)

Hobbies as a Doorway to Peace –Journey of Courage 02.09.39

Guiding Thought

I accept my light and my lightness! I feel my Self expand! As I perceive change around me, I remain anchored in my Being of Light. I allow myself to sit peacefully in the still place of nothingness as life moves quickly around me.

Contemplation / Reflection

Light and lightness. I’m feeling a lightness about this Journey. Only one more day of commitment. My husband has already congratulated me on a “job well done”. I asked him to save his congratulations until tomorrow. The lightness I’m experiencing is about demonstrating that I can make a 40+ day commitment and keep it.  Sometimes that’s a big deal.

And then, of course, there’s the actual light around me. It’s been one of those days where it’s gray and pouring rain one minute, with the sun shining brightly the next. Sometimes the lack of daylight can impact my sense of my “Being of Light”.

I’ve been playing with a new hobby today. I realized afterward that it required a single focus of attention, a “still place of nothingness” as life was moving around me. It seems like many hobbies are like this. We can remove ourselves to a more still place, somewhat removed from the life moving around us. Perhaps that’s why we gravitate toward hobbies in the first place. When we get really involved with them, the rest of life goes on around us. We sit peacefully. While I was working on my project, I was distantly aware that my husband was playing his guitar, involved in his own still place. Perhaps, when we find that place in ourselves, it radiates outward and impacts those around us. I plan to practice carrying my lightness, my expanded Self, into my days as I interact with others. I’d like to notice if, “anchored in my Being of Light”, I can shed some of that light on those around me, helping slow the pace of the life that moves so very quickly around all of us.

Guest Contributor Mary Wallace

 

 

 

 

 

Journey of Courage is now available as a free book.
You no longer need to wait for the Guiding Thoughts to be posted here daily–you may move at your own pace. This link will take you to the document in Dropbox; you may download it from there.

I accept donations and gifts via paypal: paypal.me/SusanBillmaier Thank you for the energy exchange!

Journey of Beauty Begins April 18!

Apr 18 Preliminary day Introduction: Why A Journey of Beauty (02.10.0)
Apr 19 Preliminary day Commitment and Dedication (02.10.00)

Apr 20 – 29 Days 01-10 Round One (02.10.01-10)
Apr 30 – May 9 Days 11-20 Round Two (02.10.11-20)
May 10 – 19 Days 21-30 Round Three (02.10.21-30)
May 20 – 29 Days 31-40 Round Four (02.10.31-40)

May 30 – June 8 Reflection days Gently care, de-fuse, and write one day of reflection on the Journey (02.10.41)

How To: Embrace Your Heart’s Love –Journey of Courage 02.09.38

Guiding Thought

I allow myself to connect with my pure Inner Divine Heart of Oneness. I am aware of the expression of the Divine Heart through me, as me. I connect with my heart, and am aware of embodying its pure Love intention for All. I am filled with Joy as I embrace my heart’s Love.

Contemplation / Reflection

Some of the most inspiring and personally rewarding experiences of my life have been, and continue to be, volunteer activities. One of the earliest I recall was called “Holiday Hospital Project”. Participants visited local hospitals on Christmas day, singing carols and delivering gifts to those who were hospitalized during this holiday. It was an amazing experience. I’ve also volunteered with a local hospital’s hospice patients. As a hospice volunteer I would visit with a terminally ill patient while their primary caregiver received a few hours of respite. The caregiver could go shopping, take in a movie, connect with a friend, enjoy a walk or simply disappear into another room for a well-deserved nap. Sometimes my task was to read to the patient, or watch a sport on TV, or just to be there sitting with them while they napped. I served on the board of a local environmental group. I wrote newsletters for a Native American action group. Currently, I’m a “chemo angel”, committed to sending weekly notes or small gifts to people experiencing chemotherapy. (visit chemoangels.com If you want to know more, or if you know someone experiencing this treatment who would like to receive snail mail encouragement.) Before doing much volunteer “work”, I used to think that volunteers were the “givers”. But, once I got into ANY volunteer task or activity, I was the recipient – filled with joy as I “embraced my heart’s Love”. Such “work” is so personally enriching and rewarding, it’s not something that can easily be put into words. I encourage anyone and everyone to find a volunteer outlet and to participate. There are so many options, something for everyone. Volunteering is an opportunity to discover your own personal creativity. You can express your Self in ways you may not have opportunity to do in a “job”. You can set your own hours and boundaries. (Just a warning that protecting your personal boundaries is one of the earliest lessons in volunteering. You will be SO appreciated and any organization will just want MORE of you. SET YOUR OWN BOUNDARIES.) That being said, when you “give” yourself to a volunteer role that suits you, you will find yourself connected with your heart and its pure Love intention, you will “embrace your heart’s Love” in beautiful ways you never anticipated. I know I have, every time.

Guest Contributor Mary Wallace

 

 

 

 

 

Journey of Courage is now available as a free book.
You no longer need to wait for the Guiding Thoughts to be posted here daily–you may move at your own pace. This link will take you to the document in Dropbox; you may download it from there.

I accept donations and gifts via paypal: paypal.me/SusanBillmaier Thank you for the energy exchange!

Journey of Beauty Begins April 18!

Apr 18 Preliminary day Introduction: Why A Journey of Beauty (02.10.0)
Apr 19 Preliminary day Commitment and Dedication (02.10.00)

Apr 20 – 29 Days 01-10 Round One (02.10.01-10)
Apr 30 – May 9 Days 11-20 Round Two (02.10.11-20)
May 10 – 19 Days 21-30 Round Three (02.10.21-30)
May 20 – 29 Days 31-40 Round Four (02.10.31-40)

May 30 – June 8 Reflection days Gently care, de-fuse, and write one day of reflection on the Journey (02.10.41)

Teachings of Starbucks –Journey of Courage 02.09.33

Guiding Thought

Love is unconditional. I choose to be unconditionally devoted to the love which is unconditionally devoted to me. I embrace life in love as my True nature. Connected with All in Love, I stand boldly in my heart-center, unwavering in my dedication to Unity of Life in Love.

Contemplation / Reflection

I do my best to write my responses to the daily Guiding Thought from an experiential perspective. The Thought itself seems often to be heavily based in a spiritual or philosophical light. When I think about the seeking many of us do in looking for God, the Creator, answers to the unknown, I wonder at what value such seeking can do us if we don’t find ways to apply it in our day-to-day lives. As far as experiences today, there have been only a handful of inter-personal activities. When I look at those, though, I see heart-centered, unwavering dedication to a Life of Love. We went to Starbucks. We go there often enough that we know most of the baristas and they know us, including our “usual” beverages of choice. These wonderful individuals are always cheerful, friendly, patient and tolerant of their client base. There’s a rule about “no sleeping”. Unless it’s very crowded and/or a person is snoring loudly, a patron’s peaceful nap is quietly embraced. When someone acts out in a disruptive way, one of the staff steps out from behind the counter and sits next to the disruptor, speaking softly, calming, encouraging more settled behavior. When the power is out for hours, the manager sends her staff to another location to work so they don’t lose the income they anticipated. If the lock on the door is broken and the door can’t be opened, this same manager sits in her car near the door and cheerfully points out another nearby shop. She appears calmly accepting of an uncomfortable situation. Each of these incidents, and many others, shows unwavering dedication to Unity of Life in Love. I choose to use these employees as role models for embracing life in love as true nature. Sometimes I wonder if my unwavering dedication to Unity of Life in Love would be solid enough that I could qualify for a position at Starbucks!

 

 

Guest Contributor Mary Wallace

 

 

 

 

 

Journey of Courage is now available as a free book.
You no longer need to wait for the Guiding Thoughts to be posted here daily–you may move at your own pace. This link will take you to the document in Dropbox; you may download it from there.

I accept donations and gifts via paypal: paypal.me/SusanBillmaier Thank you for the energy exchange!

Journey of Beauty Begins April 18!

Apr 18 Preliminary day Introduction: Why A Journey of Beauty (02.10.0)
Apr 19 Preliminary day Commitment and Dedication (02.10.00)

Apr 20 – 29 Days 01-10 Round One (02.10.01-10)
Apr 30 – May 9 Days 11-20 Round Two (02.10.11-20)
May 10 – 19 Days 21-30 Round Three (02.10.21-30)
May 20 – 29 Days 31-40 Round Four (02.10.31-40)

May 30 – June 8 Reflection days Gently care, de-fuse, and write one day of reflection on the Journey (02.10.41)