Journey of Gratitude–Commitment (2.8.00)

Today is the second preparation day. Yesterday, you thought a bit about why you care about gratitude, what it means to you, why you would like to spend 40 days engaging with it, and perhaps you even wrote about what you would like to accomplish.

Today is the day you commit. This is where you tell the universe that you are serious. You are serious about what it takes to integrate higher levels of love, joy, peace, and good will into your life–through gratitude. You are serious about change, about becoming, about evolving into your best/highest self.

It is less important what words you use, how long you spend thinking about it, or how much you write.

It is more important to feel it, to go within to your own motivation, your own initiative, and claim the vision that you have for yourself of who you truly are, who you are remembering, who you are becoming. This is yours. Write your truth of commitment to your Self.

Commitment

I declare, with great enthusiasm, excitement, and absolute joy of life, that I am committed to letting Life know how grateful I am for It. I commit to increasing my awareness and understanding of the presence of Life, which is already mine, and to expand my presence of Life through gratitude for It! It is my intention to maintain a constant awareness of the Life that animates me, which I experience through my consciousness– through my awareness. I commit to remembering as often as possible every day to be thankful for the Divine Grace that sustains me.

I am committed to contemplating the Guiding Thoughts for at least 5 minutes each day, and to writing my response.

Dedication

I dedicate this Journey to Oneness and the Unity of All Life. May each step I take serve to uplift all of humanity; may my thoughts, words, feelings, and actions be a vehicle through which Divine Grace may enter the world to love and serve all life.

Journey of Gratitude– Why? (2.8.0)

Greetings in Love and Light! Welcome to a new year.

Today begins Journey of Gratitude. Let’s go! I’m glad you’re here. I’m glad I’m here. I am already so thankful to be here, with you now, doing this work.

Think and write about why you would like to spend 40 days thinking about, contemplating, and practicing gratitute. Feel free to share with me privately by email, or publicly below.

Why

Back in December, during Journey of Rest, I was having intense waves of gratitude almost daily. I would think about my life, about the support and love that I have, about my relationship with the Great Mystery; I thought about Jesus and what He brought into the world; I thought about being a drop in an infinite ocean, aware of itself, of the ocean, and of its relationship with all the other drops; I would think about how beautiful this life is, the inter-connectivity of everything, and how amazing and wondrous it all is,  and I would (sometimes) just weep with love and joy at how thankful I felt.

At that time, I recognized how gratitude was a doorway for Love. If I didn’t feel Love, I could focus on feeling thankful, and then Love was a breath away.

I thought, “I got this. Journey of Gratitude is going to be so easy. Do I even need a Journey of Gratitude? I just need to stay in this space forever!”

But you know, “this too shall pass”. I usually say that when something is a struggle, but really, it’s true otherwise, as all things are impermanent and changing (until we realize and live our True, eternal selves, anyway).

For the life of me, I have not been able to re-capture that intense feeling of gratitude since around December 23 (right before Christmas). I’m not saying that I haven’t felt thankful. But there’s a difference in mental-practices of gratitude and recognizing things to be thankful for, and the kind of gratitude that overwhelms with emotions of love and joy so much that tears flow.

I think my experiences in December (pre-December 23) were the teaser. “You see? This is what is possible. Are you there yet? No? Keep going.”

So here I am, an ideal in mind as a carrot on a stick, slogging toward it.

I knew I was going to have to write Why today, and I’ve been thinking and thinking about where I’m at with this, juxtaposing my recent loving/joyful gratitude experiences with how I actually feel right here right now.

It would be a cop out to say simply, “I want to work toward that (the ideal, mindlessly following a carrot on a stick). Yeah. It is that, but it’s also more than that.

I want to open my heart to expand in giving and receiving more love.
And gratitude does that.

I want to be of True Service–recognizing and living in the space of knowing what an honor (and responsibility!) it is to serve All in Love.
And gratitude does that.

I want to serve joyfully, inexhaustibly, according to my True, Highest Purpose.
And gratitude does that.

I want to remember my commitment–remember what I really want–which is to continue reaching every day, every hour, every minute with 100% of my being toward Infinite Love and Light.
And…I’m not sure if gratitude does that, but I’m going to treat this like an experiment to find out.

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Tomorrow is the commitment and dedication! Then we start the 40-days of contemplation. Remember with this Journey  to get out your crayons, markers, pencils, and get ready to draw/create. Gratitude is especially pre-disposed toward the right/creative/aesthetic brain.

 

 

 

Working Toward Embodying Light -Fulfillment (1.6.40)

 

Copyright Tam Black 2018
Designed for susanwithpearls.com

Guiding Thought

I am light. My body is light. I am free. I know my fulfillment: I feel it rise within me, expand out from me.

Sharing

Welcome to day 40! How did you do? Were you consistent daily? Did you contemplate your ideal (or the Guiding Thought) for at least 5 minutes per day? Did you dig deep, expand your self-knowledge, and learn about how you approach life? Whew. That’s a lot to do and expect of yourself. If you did anything at all toward self-awareness, and learning about how you choose to live life…give yourself a hug, or at least a pat on the back. You’ve done some good work. Now it’s time to take a break. Breathe for a few days, normalize a bit, then take some time to read back over what you have written over the past 40 days, and reflect on where you were, where you are, and what you think you learned over the course of this Journey. I’ll do the same. But now…day 40!

Just in the past two weeks, I’ve been trying some new things to increase my inner-light-awareness.

I have always wanted to be light. I used to–and I suppose I still do–draw myself with so much inner light that it radiates outward everywhere. I used to feel the light bubble up within me, and flow out my eyes and hands. I’ve always believed somewhere deep down, that I am light. Of course, I’ve had to reconcile this with my experience of being a dense, 3rd-dimensional, material body/person…which is what I live with day after day after day… yet for some reason, I still think I am light. I think some how, some way, I can be light, not this heavy, dense, material body. So today’s Guiding Thought has special significance for me–I’ve been working at this since I was a teenager!

I am not daunted that I haven’t figured it out yet. I will. We all will, sooner or later. I just keep working at it and trying stuff.

So in the past two weeks, I’ve started taking a fish oil that is high in anti-oxidants, which is supposed to cleanse (de-calcify) the pineal gland. There are those who believe the pineal gland is the seat of the third-eye, the spiritual eye. It is the seat of true vision, manifestation, and higher communication. Apparently, things like chlorine, fluoride, and bromine calicify the pineal gland and inhibit its proper function. So I’m trying it out. It’s only been a few days, and I have nothing to report, but if all goes well, my third eye will open and I will be that much closer to giving/receiving light!

Secondly, I’ve been carrying around crystals. I have this beautiful quartz crystal that fits across the palm of my hand (about 4″ x 1.5-2″)–and I can wrap my fingers around it…So I’ve been carrying it, sleeping with it. This behavior is not completely new; I’ve had this crystal for over two decades, and it accompanies me during certain times in my life.

Finally, I’ve been sleeping with music which entrains the mind with delta brainwaves. That’s “just” a sleep entrainment, nothing fancy–no binaural beats or subliminal affirmations, but since cleaning the pineal gland is supposed to open the vision/dreaming faculty, I figure better sleep won’t hurt.

All of this is to continue progressing upward. Call it frequency, call it sound, call it light, call it vibration, call it consciousness, call it what you will. It’s about embodying more and more energy, love, and light. Being able to handle it and then radiate it.

 

 

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Ways to support this work:

  1. Hire me as your Spiritual Coach, you may sign up for a personalized Journey with me Click here for more information. Or I offer 1-on-1 spiritual coaching sessions. This is non-religion specific, and open to everyone, even atheists, though of course we would call something like “self-analysis coach” for a self-identified atheist.
  2. Indulge in one of my healing services: Jharra, Reiki, Fire Ceremony (see withpearls.com for more information).
  3. Send me a monetary gift via paypal: paypal.me/SusanBillmaier (please note “gift” in the transaction).
  4. Tell a friend about this site, the coaching or healing services.
  5. Invite me to interview on a podcast or for an article.

All proceeds go toward increasing love, light, and a consciousness of Oneness in the world. Thank you for your contribution that benefits All.

These Journeys are always available on this site at no charge. I also provide Jharra, Reiki, and Fire Ceremonies at no-charge to those who ask.

It’s Okay to Be Yourself -Fulfillment (1.6.39)

Copyright Tam Black 2018
Designed for susanwithpearls.com

Guiding Thought

May those who seek help others find;

May those who sorrow be compassionate;

May those who are lost, light a path for another;

May those who question or doubt give guidance;

May those who worry lift the burden of another;

May those who hide see their own light in the eyes of a stranger;

May we all give peace, no matter what.

Sharing

Today, I just finished reading The Law of One, by Ra, a humble messenger of the Law of One, Book I.

After reading this book, I recognize that concepts like today’s Guiding Thought are not going to appeal to many people–the ideas are nice in theory, but hard in practice to many. Very few people, apparently are oriented toward service to others; more people are oriented toward service to self (as in their individual self), and “giving peace, no matter what” is not an easy or a natural extension of service to self.

My mind has really opened to the many, various paths that people are on, after reading this book. Prior to reading the Ra Material, I now recognize that I thought there were “better” or “higher” paths–and that ideas such as those contained in the Guiding Thoughts represent those “better” or “higher” paths. But now… I am re-thinking, reconsidering, re-working, integrating new ideas and concepts. Expansion and growth, now that’s what the Journey is about–finding unexpected surprises and integrating those understandings into a greater/deeper understanding of the variety of life-experiences.

Let me be clear: This does not mean that I would necessarily integrate ideas or concepts into my own “identity”, or accept the energy or vibration for myself, but it does mean that I am more accepting (non-judgmental) of others who might think/feel/behave differently than I would on my path.

Here is how the ideas from the book break down for me, regarding this:

There is only one law: the law of One. This is not a difficult concept for me; I’ve been working with this idea for several years now. “I am not the ocean, but the ocean and I are one”. We are all not the ocean, yet one with the ocean. This is a hard concept for a lot of people. One way to warm up to it, is to let your mind wander into the ideas of infinity and eternity. Just muse about those concepts on a daily basis, they will plant seeds to help in accepting the law of One.

We all serve God, regardless… Everyone serves God. Period.

There are two orientations that people can take to serve God: Service to self (as in the individual self) or Service to other (as in other people, what could be called “humanitarian” in the most expansive sense).

Although we choose which orientation we want, we do so consciously only after we have been in the habit or behavior of it for some time.

Because we have free will, we can always switch our orientation.

These two orientations balance each other. Service to self is known as the “negative” orientation; service to others is known as “positive” orientation. These are not value-judgments of “good” or “bad”, because everyone serves God regardless of which orientation they choose.

Service to self seeks God because service to self is service to All. Service to self uses manipulation, control and power to seek God.

Service to others seeks God, through service to others and uses love, understanding and compassion. This orientation increases the learning/growth exponentially because rather than a 1 to 1 relationship (as with service to self, which only serves self), there is a 1 to many relationship, which spreads out like roots or branches, to all those served.

There are far fewer people currently on the planet who are oriented toward service to others. Both paths are difficult–and we humans have been through so much in our history, dampening our consciousness of seeking God.

This is what encourages me about this:

We are all serving God.  This may be hard to swallow, especially with all of the social-political-ideological disagreements going on these days. But what if you could view everyone as serving God? What if you knew in your heart that regardless of external polarities and disagreements, that everything and everyone is unified in God?

God is with us. God is paying attention. God wants us to seek him, and wants us to realize our oneness with him/her. S/He has not abandoned us–we are all serving the One Infinite Creator.

Know yourself. Be yourself. Walk your path. Be aware! Understand your choices. Choose consciously. Whatever you do, whoever you are, dig deep into yourself and be yourself. Be authentic. Follow your heart. Don’t worry, there is no wrong…just learn, and seek, and learn, and seek.

 

 

 

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Ways to support this work:

  1. Hire me as your Spiritual Coach, you may sign up for a personalized Journey with me Click here for more information. Or I offer 1-on-1 spiritual coaching sessions. This is non-religion specific, and open to everyone, even atheists, though of course we would call something like “self-analysis coach” for a self-identified atheist.
  2. Indulge in one of my healing services: Jharra, Reiki, Fire Ceremony (see withpearls.com for more information).
  3. Send me a monetary gift via paypal: paypal.me/SusanBillmaier (please note “gift” in the transaction).
  4. Tell a friend about this site, the coaching or healing services.
  5. Invite me to interview on a podcast or for an article.

All proceeds go toward increasing love, light, and a consciousness of Oneness in the world. Thank you for your contribution that benefits All.

These Journeys are always available on this site at no charge. I also provide Jharra, Reiki, and Fire Ceremonies at no-charge to those who ask.

How Can I Be Right for Somebody Else? -Fulfillment (1.6.38)

Copyright Tam Black 2018
Designed for susanwithpearls.com

Guiding Thought

My motivation is my choice. My intention is my choice. My will is my choice. In Peace, I listen within for guidance so that my actions are motivated by joy, my intentions are love, and my Will is simply to share Joy and Love.

Sharing

Any wavering in motivation or intention potentially opens you up to influences to persuade you (or manipulate you) in a direction that you may or may not want.

If you are not clear about the direction you are headed, you are susceptible to being lead down anyone’s path.

It is so important for you to know yourself. What do you want, really want? Do you have material goals or spiritual goals? Do you want to serve yourself or serve others? Do you care about your own progress, your own evolution? What direction are you going? What are you doing to go in that direction?

If you do not decide these things for yourself, so that you know in your heart what is right for you, then how do you know if you are on your path, or on a path that someone else is suggesting for you?

There is no “right” path. There is no “wrong” path. You do not need to be altruistic, dedicating yourself in service to humanity. You do not need to be a saint or a buddha. You do not need to have no bad habits, no vices.

But it is becoming very important for you to become aware of who you are, as a person. What motivates you? What are your core intentions? What direction are you heading, what direction do you want to head? Where do you find peace? Where do you find Joy? Where do you invest your time? Do you care about other people? Do you care about the world we live in?

Who are you as you walk through this life?

This life is here for you to learn and grow and go as far as you can within this personality that you have the opportunity to experience.

Why should you know yourself? Because life is more fun when you understand who you are, how you interact in the world, and live consciously, making choices that benefit you and your path. You are the most important person in your life. Be a person you love, and would love to be around.

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Ways to support this work:

  1. Hire me as your Spiritual Coach, you may sign up for a personalized Journey with me Click here for more information. Or I offer 1-on-1 spiritual coaching sessions. This is non-religion specific, and open to everyone, even atheists, though of course we would call something like “self-analysis coach” for a self-identified atheist.
  2. Indulge in one of my healing services: Jharra, Reiki, Fire Ceremony (see withpearls.com for more information).
  3. Send me a monetary gift via paypal: paypal.me/SusanBillmaier (please note “gift” in the transaction).
  4. Tell a friend about this site, the coaching or healing services.
  5. Invite me to interview on a podcast or for an article.

All proceeds go toward increasing love, light, and a consciousness of Oneness in the world. Thank you for your contribution that benefits All.

These Journeys are always available on this site at no charge. I also provide Jharra, Reiki, and Fire Ceremonies at no-charge to those who ask.

Intention and Flow -Fulfillment (1.6.30)

Copyright Tam Black 2018
Designed for susanwithpearls.com

Guiding Thought

We are light.

Our Bodies are light.

We are free.

We know fulfillment and can feel it rise within and expand out.

This day, first Journey of Fulfillment, 2014
This day, second Journey of Fulfillment, 2016
One year ago–
I Want Control!: Journey of Peace 2017– Day 27

Sharing

When I was a child, I had moments of knowing I was connected to something greater than myself. Today, with my adult brain, I would describe these moments as feelings of Oneness or Unity or Whole Love. At the time though, I was not thinking of it in quite that way—I was a kid; all I knew is it felt right, it felt like my body was in a current of flow that went on forever. I remember thinking, “I want to be light; I want my body to transform into light.” I think children in general have greater access to feeling “in the flow” than adults: they have not built up the emotional and mental barriers that get in the way of this flow.

One such moment for me was when I decided to try to meditate. I was probably 13 or 14, and had never been formally introduced to meditation or eastern philosophies. My sister was my biggest influence; she was reading the Seth books by Jane Roberts, the “Tao Te Ching” by Lao Tzu, and other such books and I, as the little sister, followed and wanted to know what these things were about. I read about Tao and flow, and consciousness and “reality”. There was something there I was learning, that was shifting something in me.

Somewhere, I don’t even really know where, I came across a description of meditation—upside down. It seemed as though the meditation posture was intended to be uncomfortable and since I come from a Catholic background, where pain is incorporated into the atonement of sins, it just made sense to me that meditation would be the same way. I had already had feelings—moments—of feeling the flow, and thought meditation would help me figure out how to do it more often, so I tried it. My head on a pillow, up against a wall in my bedroom, I did a headstand.  I had not read any “instructions”, any pointers, or any warnings of “don’t try this at home.” In other words: I did not know what I was doing! But I knew what I wanted to achieve. I closed my eyes and sat (stood?) there… And sat there… And sat there… I may have passed out. I may have fallen asleep. I don’t know…but I knew when I “woke up” (returned to consciousness; re-entered my body?) that I had succeeded! I was so calm, peaceful, and happy. My body hurt like heck, but that to me was just a symbol of the success—I achieved surpassing the bodily aches and was totally absorbed in the flow of the mind—and I had done it intentionally.

I have been practicing and learning to cultivate that feeling of lightness ever since. The effects are the overwhelming feelings of being in a flow, of clarity, of love, peace, wholeness, completion, trust, and happiness (not always all at the same time). In a broader sense, the feeling is connected to a very solid, practical, purposeful goal, applicable to life. I noticed that when practiced and pursued consciously, the effects slowly expanded, making life’s activities, relationships, and choices clearer, more peaceful, more gentle.

When there is intention and flow to the practice, life-activities have a “flow” to them.

I now know that it is the continual cultivation and intention that allows those moments into experience, because transcendence does not just arrive, it must pursued, invited, and welcomed. We are all capable of transcendence.

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Ways to support this work:

  1. Hire me as your Spiritual Coach, you may sign up for a personalized Journey with me Click here for more information. Or I offer 1-on-1 spiritual coaching sessions. This is non-religion specific, and open to everyone, even atheists, though of course we would call something like “self-analysis coach” for a self-identified atheist.
  2. Indulge in one of my healing services: Jharra, Reiki, Fire Ceremony (see withpearls.com for more information).
  3. Send me a monetary gift via paypal: paypal.me/SusanBillmaier (please note “gift” in the transaction).
  4. Tell a friend about this site, the coaching or healing services.
  5. Invite me to interview on a podcast or for an article.

All proceeds go toward increasing love, light, and a consciousness of Oneness in the world. Thank you for your contribution that benefits All.

These Journeys are always available on this site at no charge. I also provide Jharra, Reiki, and Fire Ceremonies at no-charge to those who ask.

Umbrella Motivation -Fulfillment (1.6.28)

Copyright Tam Black 2018
Designed for susanwithpearls.com

Guiding Thought

Motivation is a choice. Intention is a choice. Direction of will is a choice. In Peace, we listen for guidance so that all our actions are motivated by Joy, all our intentions are Love, and the direction of our will is simply to share Joy and Love.

This day, first Journey of Fulfillment, 2014
This day, second Journey of Fulfillment, 2016
One year ago–
Choosing is Easy, When You’re not Stuck in a Pattern: Journey of Peace 2017

Sharing

What motivates you to follow a spiritual path–to meditate, to do yoga, to pray, to read inspired writings? Why do you do it?

This is my new favorite question. I want to hear how people answer this. It’s so interesting, and everyone is different.

Here are two responses I have received recently:

  1. “I have had experiences of and with the divine. It’s mostly been with people around the time of death, a confirmation that there is something bigger than me, bigger than us, and bigger than this life that we live. These experiences from the past confirm the Divine to me, and motivate me to seek more experiences with the Divine.”
  2. “I can’t imagine any other way of being. I sort of fought it for years, not embracing that ‘spiritual’ side of myself. But now, I’ve given in to it. I seek the Divine to live with the Divine, because anything else no longer makes sense to me”.

How would you respond?

In a way, this question is an umbrella question for all these Journeys, much like the Why at the beginning of each Journey, but encompassing an overarching Why, looking at the big picture, rather than individualized answers to specific Journeys. Such motivation encompasses everything, bringing perspective to all of your actions, all of your seeking, not just the why for one Journey.

There’s no wrong answer; there is only awareness. My answer has changed over the years. My idea of what “enlightenment” is has changed over the years. My motivation has changed…At no point did I ever feel that what motivated me, or what directed my actions was wrong. In fact, at every point, I felt pretty confident in my reasons for being motivated in the way I was.

This, to me, is how I have moved along the path, and how I have evolved. I have to embrace where I’m at in order to move past that point.

Yeah, sure I can work at being motivated through Peace, and listen for guidance so that all my actions are motivated by Joy, all my intentions are Love, and the direction of my will is simply to share Joy and Love. 

But if that does not work for me today, that’s ok. I can tap into my overarching reason of motivation, and evolve myself from where I am. It just takes me to be willing to do it.

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Ways to support this work:

  1. Hire me as your Spiritual Coach, you may sign up for a personalized Journey with me Click here for more information. Or I offer 1-on-1 spiritual coaching sessions. This is non-religion specific, and open to everyone, even atheists, though of course we would call something like “self-analysis coach” for a self-identified atheist.
  2. Indulge in one of my healing services: Jharra, Reiki, Fire Ceremony (see withpearls.com for more information).
  3. Send me a monetary gift via paypal: paypal.me/SusanBillmaier (please note “gift” in the transaction).
  4. Tell a friend about this site, the coaching or healing services.
  5. Invite me to interview on a podcast or for an article.

All proceeds go toward increasing love, light, and a consciousness of Oneness in the world. Thank you for your contribution that benefits All.

These Journeys are always available on this site at no charge. I also provide Jharra, Reiki, and Fire Ceremonies at no-charge to those who ask.