From Becoming to Being and Being Back While still Becoming. -Healing (1.4.14)

Copyright Tam Black 2018
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Guiding Thought

To heal and be healed is to be aware, to understand, and to Know Wholeness.  Thus, seek Wholeness, Unity, Oneness within your own mind and heart, and in all your actions and affairs. Focus on uniting the fragments within yourself, so that you see only Oneness, which is the Truth of your Self. As you Know yourself as the Oneness you are, this Truth reflects in the world around you, confirming what you Know through your experience and life activity.

Reflection

There are three distinct parts to this Guiding Thought. 1) What “healing is” 2) Uniting fragments 3) the Truth reflected in the world.

Number one affirms the journey, the “becoming”, by using the words “to heal” and “healing–indicating that we are in this process. And it also affirms the destination (“being”), by intimating that the answers already exist in your own mind and heart.

And I might add… being (which can only exist here and now), as the destination, means you’ve already arrived. You know this: You already are what you seek. Seeking becomes the being seeking Itself while being.

Wait, what?

Let that stew a minute or two.

This brings us to number two, and why we do not realize that we already are what we seek. And that is because we do not see ourselves as Unified and Whole (healed); instead we distinguish “parts” of ourselves and separate those parts into “this” and “that” or “not this” or “not that”. It’s like looking at one puzzle piece one moment, identifying as that piece (“oh, I am RED; that’s what I AM” or “I am  BLUE, that is my identity; how could I have thought I was red?”), without understanding that there are all one picture, with various colors–all the time.

How, then, does one go about uniting the fragments?

Here are some ideas to answer this:

  1. Some people simply “wake up”. I think Eckhart Tolle is a good example of this: When Eckhart Tolle was 29, he says, he underwent a cataclysmic and terrifying spiritual experience that erased his former identity. One evening, he was a near-suicidal graduate student, living in a Belsize Park bedsit; by the following morning, he’d been flooded with a sense of “uninterrupted deep peace and bliss” that has never left him since. That morning, he writes, “I walked around the city in utter amazement at the miracle of life on earth, as if I had just been born.”
  2. Some people are born into it, for example Anandamayi Ma: “My consciousness has never associated itself with this temporary body. Before I came on this earth ‘I was the same’. As a little girl ‘I was the same’. Ever afterward, though the dance of creation change around me, in the hall of eternity ‘I shall be the same’.”
  3. Some people work at it. Lao Tzu comes to mind; he taught that living and practicing certain teachings can open you to higher wisdom and greater happiness, as they realign you to the source and enable you to access all the powers that source energy has to offer. (Emphasis mine, “realign” is another way of saying “unite”.) His teachings can be found in the Tao Te Ching.

In my humble opinion, working at it is the most practical approach (Journey, anyone!?). There are lots of ways, and lots of people to learn from, spiritual leaders and guides abound (check credentials, look for quality, follow your heart and higher Self).

Finally, there is number three: receiving affirmation of your Truth, and of unifying your fragments through your experiences in the world. This is a very rewarding place to be. From personal experience, I can confirm that life gets lighter, more joyous, with more confidence in being in the right place at the right time–not worrying so much about what will or should be.

Peace. Peace. Peace. May we all Know Peace in Unity.

Good Enough -Healing (1.4.10)

Copyright Tam Black 2018
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Guiding Thought

I give today to Light. I feel the Light within pour forth; I feel my radiance, my glow. I see—with my inner eye—this light envelop and infuse all I encounter, all my words, and all my actions. I watch as others resonate with me, their light growing brighter in the sanctity of my own. To all beings and all situations today, I offer only light, and learn, as I do, the Wholeness of my Self.

Reflection

One follow-up comment from yesterday: Yesterday, I mentioned feeling angry and embarrassed at being wrong about a practice I have been doing for a very long time. There is a flip side to those feelings: I also feel more free and very grateful. I acknowledge that doing the practice in the way that I was doing it (the “wrong” way), I learned, I grew; it lead me; it got me to a new place; ultimately, it accomplished what practices accomplish–moving me through ego-burdens and showing me a new level, or state, of Freedom. But then I outgrew the “wrong” way, and I’ve have now been given the next level, the next step.

In A Course in Miracles, there is a reassurance that not only does the Holy Spirit unify all, but It also utilizes everything for Its Highest Purpose, when those things are given to It. Even in doing the practices “wrong”, my intention has always been: purification, nearness to God, for the benefit of All, with everything offered to God. I feel like I’ve received a tangible demonstration for “how this works”. And for that I am truly grateful.

Today

want to be a vehicle through which the Divine enters the world to love and serve All Life. But, there is a bit of a paradox here that I have been mentally working through (on and off) for a while, and today’s Guiding Thought has brought it up.

Here it is, as best I can explain it: “I” cannot do anything for the Divine to enter the world or, as the Guiding Thought indicates, to give Light. If “I” do something, then whatever I give is not of Light, or of the Divine. “I” must put myself aside, so that IT (the Divine, or Love, or Light) is doing what It does naturally, without me, yet through me.

There are two examples that I turn to when mulling this over. The first is something my Reiki master says: Reiki is always available. You do not “push” the energy, you do not “give” the energy. You make the energy available, simply by being. It’s the other person’s body/energy that recognizes the energy is available, and then pulls it through you”. 

The second is the fifth Principle of Miracles: Miracles are habits, and should be involuntary. They should not be under conscious control. Consciously selected miracles can be misguided. 

In both of these examples “I” am not in control; “I” am not doing anything. If “I” do something the energy is impure, or misguided.

But have prepared. I have attuned my energy and my chakras to receive and transmit Reiki; and I have purified, and continue to do so, to allow the Holy Spirit to direct miracles through me (the seventh Principle of Miracles: “Miracles are everyone’s right, but purification is necessary first”).

Even though I understand these things intellectually, through these two examples, I find that in a more general sense–like the Guiding Thought– “I” continue to want to do something…which would only inhibit what I really want to accomplish, because if “I” do something, we’re back to impure or misguided.

It does not help that with Reiki, with Miracles, and with being a vehicle for the Divine to enter the world it often happens that you don’t get to see (or perceive) the results. Speaking for myself, this leads me to wonder, “Is anything happening?” “Did ‘I’ do anything?” “Was anything accomplished?” “Why do I spend so much time purifying/praying/making myself ‘ready’?”

I never actually “see—with my inner eye—this light envelop and infuse all I encounter”; I never “watch as others resonate with me, their light growing brighter in the sanctity of my own.” To me, these are visualizations that promote the feeling of what happens, but they are not literal (have you had a different experience?).

This is why it’s easy (I think) for people to not be diligent, to not be faithful, to think that this energy-stuff is all hooey. I get it, really I do.

What I can do–and what is important to me today about the Guiding Thought–is that I can give today to Light–all my thoughts, words, feelings, and actions can be dedicated and devoted to Light.

As for me, I choose to believe it. I choose to believe that when I invoke light, light shows up. When It shows up, it’s available for Everyone, should their bodies and energy choose to pull it in, should their Higher Selves choose to utilize it (and why wouldn’t they!?), should the Holy Spirit choose to direct it on behalf of the Divine.

I have to admit, I believe also that I have come a long way in learning about Love, learning about Wholeness, learning about my Self, because I practice this. Maybe this is merely a self-fulfilling prophecy, maybe nothing is “happening”. But I would rather spend my time and energy promoting Love, Peace, Wholeness, Healing than anything else. That’s good enough for me.

Satchitananda, Divine Mind -Healing (1.4.6)

Copyright Tam Black 2018
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Guiding Thought

As I unite in consciousness with my own Loving Presence, I unite with Divine Mind. Divine Mind is Infinite Being—it is now, here, always. I exist in Divine Mind, as It does in me, united forever—One. It leads me to Itself through my consciousness of my Self: my consciousness of my Self, as Infinite Being, is Oneness with Divine Mind, is my Peace, is my Wholeness, is my Unity with All.

Reflection

I must unite in consciousness with my own Loving Presence. This is my responsibility. My Loving Presence resides in Divine Mind, which exists eternally, everywhere–waiting for me to unite with It in consciousness. 

In Sanskrit, there is a word for consciousness. That word is chit. Most often, it is used in conjunction with the word sat, which means Truth, or absolute existence, and with the word ananda, which means absolute bliss. Together, these three words form the word satchitananda, which is a description of God: Absolute Truth and existence, Pure consciousness, and total bliss–joy beyond words.

Why does this matter?

One aspect of God, from the Vedic (Hindu) tradition is the quality of pure consciousness, and since this Guiding Thought has a lot to do with consciousness, it seems important today.

Why is it important today?

Because we, as individual “drops” in the Ocean of the Divine are naturally, inherently One with pure consciousness. “I exist in Divine Mind, as It does in me, united forever—One.” We are not separate from Divine Mind, not separate from that Ocean of Pure Consciousness.

We only think we are separate from It. Or, in other words, our consciousness is too limited to think of ourselves as Infinite and Eternal.

This is what it means to unite in consciousness with Divine Mind–it means to begin to expand our awareness of who we are to coincide with how that Infinite and Eternal mind already Knows us–as Infinite and Eternal.

This is why it’s our responsibility, and why Divine Mind is waiting patiently. It already Knows us as who and what we really are–Infinite drops in an Infinite Ocean (yes, take a moment to wrap your head around that one). We are the ones who cannot see ourselves as our True Reality; we are the ones who are limited by our minds, perceptions, senses, thoughts, and beliefs.

We are One with Divine Mind. We are the satchitananda of Satchitanda.

 

1,000 Words -Healing (1.4.5)

Copyright Tam Black 2018
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Guiding Thought

My own Loving Presence is my personal connection with Divine Mind. Attuned to my own Loving Presence, I Know myself as Whole and Holy. As I feel my Inner Unity, I know: this is all I want; I have found all I seek.

Reflection

This is what I see today:

Remember that yesterday I found that “seeking Wholeness” is another way of saying “Healing”. Being Attuned with my Own Loving Presence–through the seat of Inner Unity and the Seat of Thought is that Wholeness–Oneness with Infinite Divine Mind, where there is only Oneness-Wholeness-Unity.

Gratitude for- Healing (1.4.2)

Copyright Tam Black 2018
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Guiding Thought

I go deep within my inner stillness, and feel Divine Mind’s presence within me. I hold out my empty hands, symbolic of leaving preconceptions behind, symbolic of seeking True answers, and I ask, “What is the essence of healing?” These words resonate within me, as though in a vast cavern.  The word essence reverberates with these thoughts, “For what do I care most deeply?”; “What is my own essence?”; “What is my Truth?”; “Where is my deepest hurt, my pain, my sorrow, that all may be healed?”

Reflection

May I begin by saying that I am so very grateful to be doing this Journey of Healing at this time. It feels so right.

First, in not defining what I want to heal, or what I want to focus on, I’ve opened myself to allow (it seems) miscellaneous stuff that needs to be released. I’ve been having a lot of thoughts about my childhood, and it seems I am working through some alone-ness, some “ignored”, and some “not-heard” issues.

Second, I’ve given myself permission to make healing the #1 priority in my life. Nothing else is important to do. What is most important is to do my healing practices, which include but are not limited to, this Journey. This is not to say I am not doing other things–I am still working, doing my household chores, taking care of my family, but the perspective is that of first making the healing practices a priority.  I feel almost like I have established (or at am working at establishing) the energy of a “retreat” within my daily schedule. If you’ve been on a retreat, call to mind how it felt to have the time and space every day to breathe into your Self. That’s it.

Third, just a note about the healing practices I mentioned above: I have committed to doing earth, air, water, fire, and mind every day for this Journey. These are my standard practices, but I do not always do all of them every day. So for this Journey, the schedule is: First thing in the morning bathe and breathe (water, air). Then a fire ceremony before 10 am (fire). Some time later, exercise for at least 30 minutes (earth). And at some point during the day, do the Journey, and mantra/japa (mind). This is how I have created a retreat-like atmosphere for myself–it does not matter what else I do, as long as these things get done.

Finally, for many years, I have understood that when I am working with spiritual energies, and spiritual practices, there are often things that I “learn” that are not conscious, and not a product of what I think I am intending. I’ve learned that much of the time, I need to simply listen to the energy or the practice; it has more to teach me without words and in silence, if only I pay attention. This is especially true of fire. I have learned to silently say to It (whatever the practice at hand is), “Tell me of You”. Then I listen with my body, so to speak. I feel the movement within, the energy, the flow. This is not always something that I even have to focus on, or be intense about. Just asking asking for It to “tell me”, is enough for It to teach me at very subtle levels. Especially with yesterday’s and today’s Guiding Thoughts, I am feeling this especially.

Love to you. Happy Healing. Be well. I am glad you are here.

Divine Perfection- Healing (1.4.1)

Copyright Tam Black 2018
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Guiding Thought

I clear my mind of all past notions of what I think healing is. I erase all memories and stories from my thoughts, leaving only a clean slate. I turn my attention to my Inner Divine Mind and I ask, “What is healing”? I wait and listen in silence; I take my attention deeper into the vastness of Divine Mind and ask again, “What is healing?”, “What is wholeness?”, and “What is holy?” I wait and I listen. Feeling stillness, I simply pause in the quiet and await my answer.

Reflection

Welcome to Journey of Healing!

In case you missed the dedication, this Journey is dedicated to you. Before I begin each day, I invoke healing, and ask for you to receive it (in alignment with your Highest Purpose, for the benefit of All). I’d like to encourage you to do the same…it’s easy…just say this: I am my I AM presence and I am One with the I AM presence of All Humanity. As One breath, One heartbeat, One voice, One energy, vibration, and consciousness of Pure Divine Love, I invoke the highest, most intense healing energy available to humanity at this time. I ask the I AM presence of every man, woman, and child (and name specific people if you want to) to utilize this energy for the most intense healing possible for every person, and the entire planet, in alignment with Highest Divine Purpose, for the benefit of All. 

Imagine if everyone did that: 7.5 billion people invoking Divine Healing for 7.5 billion people. The world would change in an instant…

Now, let’s get busy!

I think I “began” the Journey when I wrote the Why. I had all these preconceived ideas about what I wanted for this Journey, how I wanted to approach it, what I thought healing should be. Then at the last minute, that all changed. I just want to take care of myself, whatever that means for the next 40 days. I love it when I am synchronized with the Journey without even knowing it.

Even now, I can think of things that I recognize as “healing”, or thoughts I have had about healing (like Wholeness, or Holiness), but I don’t even care; I don’t want to think about those things. I simply want to be here, happy to be alive, happy to know that for the next 40 days I can nurture myself, be gentle with myself, go easy on myself, and just let everything be OKAY. And if I do that, I am doing exactly what I am “meant to do”, as far as my commitment to this Journey.

It sounds so simplistic, so basic…and so right! I don’t even have to think! I wonder how that’s going to work out.

When I got to the second half(ish) of the Guiding Thought, and went inward to commune with Divine Mind, I felt as though I was immediately experiencing the answers to the questions, “What is healing?”, “What is wholeness?”, and “What is holy?” Going within to Divine Mind is/was the answer. Being in that space , communing with Divine Mind was the answer. The answer was not going to be a description or a definition. The answer was how it felt to commune with Divine Mind in stillness, in silence.

Communing with Divine Mind is the space of Wholeness, and Holiness. In that space, there is no need to even ask what healing is…it’s a moot point. When we know ourselves as, or in, the space of Wholeness and Holiness, we are Whole and Holy…”healed” in Divine Perfection.

The point is (for me at the moment), to bring that Whole-Holy space with me when I am not making a conscious effort to go within to that space. The point is to have such a strong connection with the Inner Divine that it does not take any special effort to be in that space.

That is, after all, the Truth. We are Whole. We are Holy, Divinely perfect…with nothing to heal.

 

 

 

 

 

Commitment and Dedication- Healing (1.4.00)

by Susan Billmaier for susanwithpearls

Commitment

Because I choose to be loving and gentle with myself…

Because I wish to increase my connection with the Holy Spirit, and to live and act from and with Its intelligence…

Because I want to engage passionately in life and with my work of Divine Service…

Because I want to remember my Self, and be the Joy of Being…

I commit to reading and contemplating the Guiding Thoughts for a minimum of 5 minutes each day, for 40 days, then write about my learning, my evolution, my inner thoughts.

Dedication

This Journey of Healing is dedicated to you. The world and everyone in it needs so much love, healing, gentleness, and care. For this Journey, you are in my thoughts and prayers each day. Each day, I invoke the Light of Love for you on your journey, for your healing, whatever that may mean to you, in alignment with your Divine Purpose, and for the Highest Good of All.

Are you ready to start? Tomorrow we begin! 😀