Fig Tree and Mountain -Abundance (1.5.37)

Copyright Tam Black 2018
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Guiding Thought

My consciousness is the gateway through which Divine Love flows, materializing my infinite Supply. I am now conscious of my own Inner Divine Presence—Infinite Love—expressing through me, providing me with the means to be aware, to understand, and to know It as my Self– more and more!

Sharing

For assuredly, I say to you, whoever says to this mountain, ‘Be removed and be cast into the sea,’ and does not doubt in his heart, but believes that those things he says will be done, he will have whatever he says. Therefore, I say to you, whatever things you ask when you pray, believe that you receive them, and you will have them. (Christian Bible, Mark 11:23, 24)

I was thinking about the fig tree earlier today, (the verse immediately preceding the above, in which Jesus withers the fig tree on command…), and how it relates with abundance.

I am sure I am not the only one to ask, “how does this stuff (Jesus’ miracles) work“? Faith the size of a mustard seed…speaking…believing in one’s heart….believing you have received what you ask for…people puzzle over these, and how they work together (I don’t know of a better phrase), to accomplish such things as Jesus did. What does it take? How did He do it?

As an aside…has anyone ever wondered why Jesus withered the fig tree, instead of asking it to produce figs for him? I mean, if he can feed the thousands on a few loaves and fishes, he can make a fig tree produce figs, right?

One thing I realized, when thinking about the fig tree and the mountain, is that Jesus spoke directly to the fig tree and the mountain. Just like when He raised Lazarus from the dead–he spoke to Lazarus. He did not speak to God; he did not ask God to wither the fig tree; he did not say to his disciples, “ask God to move the mountain for you”; he did not ask God to raise Lazarus. This is a clue that I have never before considered. His directive is to speak, as though commanding, to the person, tree, mountain, or situation.

[Which, BTW, makes me wonder about the loaves and fishes…did he actually command them to multiply, and we just don’t get that side of the story? or was his prayer, and asking for God’s blessing of the loaves and fishes, the vehicle for that miracle?]

Having “no doubt” in the heart comes first–having faith, then the words. I think what actually happens, internally, is that when there is faith, everything else just flows naturally. Faith is the power: it’s the power behind the speaking, it’s the power behind the command; it’s the power to not even have to consider what to say or how to say it. Faith is the knowing confidence that directs words through you, so you don’t even have to think. When you have faith, you don’t need to formulate a command, it just flows out of you, because what you know in your heart (and here’s the kicker) is aligned with the Will of God, and when it flows out of you, it produces the results that you’ve spoken because those results are Divine Will.

And this is how it fits with Journey of Abundance: Aligning the consciousness with Divine Love brings a person closer to the Truth–Divine Will. When that person is aligned with Divine Love and Divine Will, those things materialize easily, naturally, and infinitely.

“I” am the vehicle through which Divine Love and Divine Will flow. This is how I “know” It as my Self–It comes through me, but is not me, but “I” must create the conditions for It to come through me.

 

Circulate Wealth! -Abundance (1.5.20)

Copyright Tam Black 2018
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Guiding Thought

The Divine Presence of Love is the most natural energy in the world and beyond. Through the wisdom of Love, understand Love as True wealth and an expression of your Divine nature; cultivate It in your consciousness; express It! Share It! Your Love is infinite. Your wealth is infinite. Realize this as your reality and circulate wealth with joy and gratitude.

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In the last line where it says, “circulate wealth with joy and gratitude”, what is the picture that enters your mind?

Do you see yourself circulating money or Love?

There is still a part of my brain that sees myself circulating money, even after reading, contemplating, and feeling the intensity of Love as True wealth.

That’s how ingrained it is to equate money with wealth.

That’s why shifting one’s consciousness to encompass wealth as so much more than money is important.

Here’s what I mean.

If Love is True wealth, and we circulate Love, how many ways can you think of to do that?

  • Smile at a stranger.
  • Hug…anyone, or an animal, or a tree.
  • Bake someone cookies!
  • Give someone flowers.
  • Bring someone who you know is eating gluten-free a gluten-free muffin.
  • Be sensitive to someone’s needs.
  • Give a sincere “thank you”.
  • Be nice to wait staff.
  • Listen
  • Forgive someone / release an old hurt

This is a short list! There are so many ways to show love. Each demonstration of love circulates wealth.

But if a person limits themselves to thinking wealth is only money, the ways to circulate wealth become very limited: give money.

And the problem with this is that because the word “circulate” implies that it comes back to you at some point, once you give money, there’s a part of your brain wondering, “when am I getting it back?”.  In other words, there is an implicit expectation of quid-pro-quo, but with money, unless you have passive income and/or several income streams, the ways that money can come back to you are also limited.

Circulation of wealth is an energy exchange. Wealth is simply an aspect of the law of karma: the energy you put out comes back to you. The more you give Loving energy, the more Love will return to you, supplying you with Its energy, which is all-sufficient, all-caring, all-nurturing.

 

Becoming Materialistic? -Healing (1.4.35)

Copyright Tam Black 2018
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Guiding Thought

My own Loving Presence is my personal connection with Divine Mind. Attuned to my own Loving Presence, I Know myself as Whole and Holy. As I feel my Inner Unity, I know: this is all I want; I have found all I seek.

Reflection

I have had some real push-pulls (i.e. inner conflicts) lately.

  1. I am doing a Journey of Healing, but have really been enjoying my summer with ice cream (which is “unhealthy”), and I have not been exercising as much as I want to.
  2. I want to be productive, motivated, inspired, but I feel like I fritter away a lot of time.
  3. I write about being attuned, Inner Unity, “finding all I seek”, but I feel a void, unfulfilled.
  4. I am keeping the commitments that I made to myself (time for this Journey, Fire Ceremonies), but I don’t feel like that’s enough.

Do you ever feel like things just don’t match up?  You’re not where you want to be, where you think you “should” be? Do you ever wonder what the future holds for you, and how you will arrive at it? Have you ever been in a stalemate with yourself, wanting something to “give”, but everything coasts along without change?

I just found that last line a bit ironic, because “change is the only constant” has been a fairly recent theme. How is it that I can feel stagnant, if change is the only constant?

I wonder what is going on. I tune in to my life, and I listen, I look for guidance and direction, I pray…but I don’t have or get answers…not ones that I can recognize, anyway.

I keep doing the work, but it seems like the work isn’t working.

Do I need to change tactics?

I spent some time (frittering away) on some sales sites just earlier today. You know the stuff: Dale Carnegie, Norman Vincent Peale, Og Mandino, all the “how to be a salesperson” hype. Who wants to do that? Yet, I was oddly drawn to it, even thinking, “maybe  I need to get out, hit the pavement, and make some cold calls”. There’s something appealing about learning persistence, going out and talking with people directly instead of online, having a product to sell, and getting immediate feedback. Old fashioned, isn’t it? Why do that instead of just setting up an online store?

It felt like a way to change tactics, to become involved in my own life in a different way, to interact with real people and to build relationships. How counter-intuitive in this digital-information age!

One of the things that I am working on (since Saturn entered Capricorn in December, 2017) is my material life–because Saturn in Capricorn is all about material progress. I spend a lot of time and energy on my spiritual life, but in order for that to “mean” anything the spiritual must come in to tangible (material) expression. At least, that is my opinion.

I have been a monk in many lifetimes, alone in a cave, not worrying about the material aspects of my spirit. But this life? It matters. Experiences matter. Relationships matter. Using the spiritual to live in the material world matters. The monk in me does not care…really. I don’t care about cars or wealth or material things, except to the extent that I need to live in this world. And I feel like that mindset–my monk’s past–has put me at a disadvantage. Sometimes I wish I could be more materialistic, in the sense of being motivated by material things.

I know enough about NLP, affirmations, and mental patterns that I believe I could just “shift” into caring about material things if I wanted to. But then, who would I be? Would I leave behind all I value if I did that? Not having these answers is a reason I haven’t tried this.

This theme has been in the background of my mind/life for this entire Journey. Maybe I should have shared it sooner. But it did not occur to me that becoming more materialistic has anything to do with healing.

But healing has to do with Inner Unity…and this is a part of me that is disparate, in conflict, and in need of reconciliation.

The Only Choice Today -Healing (1.4.34)

Copyright Tam Black 2018
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Guiding Thought

To heal and be healed is to be aware, to understand, and to Know Wholeness.  Thus, I seek Wholeness, Unity, Oneness within my own mind and heart, and in all my actions and affairs. I focus on uniting the fragments within myself, so that I see only Oneness, which is the Truth of my Self. As I Know myself as the Oneness that I am, this Truth reflects in the world around me, confirming what I Know through my experience and life activity.

Reflection

First I make a choice; I generate the thoughts that correspond to that choice, and then I experience the outcome of my choice through my perceptions of my activities, affairs, and interactions.

The Guiding Thoughts work through these three steps over and over and over, encouraging the choice of Wholeness, encouraging the thoughts that support Wholeness. Thoughts then direct the interpretation of experience so there can begin to be recognition of Wholeness/Unity/Oneness in life activities.

The recognition of Wholeness (awareness) in life activities strengthens the resolve to make the choice for Oneness and increases willingness to have thoughts of Unity and Oneness. This in turn brings greater awareness of Wholeness in life activity…and the cycle repeats.

For as long as there is any part of anyone that thinks it is separate…for as long as any choice is not aligned with Oneness…for as long as there is perception which precludes Knowing…I choose again and again and again to be One and Whole, with you, with All. It’s really the only choice there is.

Dropping Patterns, Clearing Karma -Healing (1.4.28)

Copyright Tam Black 2018
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Guiding Thought

Today we decide to be aware of our Whole and Holy Self working within us, expressing through us. As we move through the affairs of our lives, with open minds and empty hands, we look first to our Whole and Holy Self for guidance. Our only decision today is to be aware of our Whole and Holy Self—all other decisions arise out of this, in conjunction with our Self.

Reflection

Remember, obstacles are part of change and change is the law of nature. If you react, then the obstacle becomes larger. If you observe, pure observation, then the obstacle passes, as quickly as it was created.

As for serious problems. Consider these problems as opportunities for growth. Change is not easy. The ego rejects change, yet change is the law, change is the real. Obstacles to the higher path are many. That is why few arrive. If obstacles are non-existent then the ego will create them. Understand? Your ego is creating obstacles. Maya creating maya.

~Haidakhan Baba

I’ve been falling apart the past couple of days. At least as far as the Journey is going–my deep introspection, and working out my stuff.

I’ve been thinking a lot about karma lately, because I have been experiencing stuff that does not have an immediate cause. It’s just kind of coming up. 

I’ve had a lot of really good reminders to keep me on track, though. First (obviously), the Guiding Thoughts. I’ve been pretty focused to day on my Whole/Holy Self, so that has been keeping my feet on the path, and preventing my mind from straying (my mind has done a lot of straying over the past 48 hours).

Second, a friend of mine was describing another friend, who has been on the path of the Higher Self for about 40 years (about 15 years longer than I have). This person, apparently is able to just shift out of an emotional pattern/habit in a second. She is, literally, able to simply drop whatever the pattern/habit is that comes up for her, and walk away from it. wow.

I often think about people who are “further along” than I am, and I admire what they are able to do, that I can’t yet do. I feel very inspired, because I know how far I’ve come in 25 years. Looking to them assures me that I will go even further in the next 25 years. This work compounds, after all. Once you have the momentum, just a tiny effort keeps that momentum, and you can use more energy to clearing away even more and more.

Clearing away. Oh, yeah! That’s the point I wanted to make about karma. Karma gets cleared away. It really does. There are actual things a person can do to evaporate karma. I’ve sort of known this for a while– doing bathing, breathing, fasting, praying, mantra…all that stuff does it. But finally, I think, I’ve gotten to a point where I’ve done so much (and added more) stuff that is clearing, that I can feel (and see) it moving out. This is still new, but it’s an actual experience, something I can watch as I am going through it and releasing it. And I gotta tell you, it’s really cool. Now I want to dive in to this as an experiment and see what more I can do to have tangible experiences of clearing karma. Stay tuned…

Third, the above quote by Haidakhan Baba was a wake-up reminder, especially the last line: Your ego is creating obstacles. Maya creating maya. I knew this at one point, it seems like a long, long time ago. I remember specifically having a conversation with my dear BuddhaBrad who said this exact thing to me, in Buddha terms. It was basically, “The mind does not like things to be easy. The mind likes to struggle. So, when things are going along smoothly, the mind says, ‘wait a minute…something’s wrong; this is too easy. I need to jump in here and perceive a problem somewhere just so I can be comfortable again'”.

This goes right along with the karma thing. While releasing some karma, we also create it. All action has a re-action. That is basically the law of karma. Being free of karma means No action. But as long as we have a body, and are not transcended beings, we are acting, and creating re-actions. This means mentally, emotionally, physically.

This is why it’s in our best interest a) to take “good”, “positive” actions, so that the re-action is “good”, “positive”. b) Do the best we can to observe actions as they happen, rather than re-acting. When we simply observe, we break the pattern. Think of actions as a ping-pong being hit back and forth across a table. We are the players, the ball, and the observer. If we become only the observer, and stop being at least one of the players, the ball stops going back and forth.

 

 

Yours in the Work -Healing (1.4.26)

Copyright Tam Black 2018
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Guiding Thought

As we unite in consciousness with our own Loving Presence, we unite with Divine Mind. Divine Mind is Infinite Being—it is now, here, always. We exist in Divine Mind, as It does in us, united forever—One. It leads us to Itself through our consciousness of our Self: our consciousness of Self, as Infinite Being, is Oneness with Divine Mind, is our Peace, is our wholeness, is our Unity with All.

Reflection

I feel like something is wrong with me.

Even just acknowledging that is difficult.

It’s just one area of my life. It has to do with accomplishment: what I thinkshould be doing vs. what I am doing.

There are several projects that I am working on. I think that I should be giving priority to (let’s just call it) project A, but I spend a whole lot of time on project C (or B or D…), which means I don’t “get around to” working on project A.

It’s not that I am lazy, or unproductive. I’m just being productive on something other than project A, that is less meaningful (or so I think).

Project A has been on my plate a long time and has lots of components and things to work on, things to work out. It’s both a bit complicated and time consuming…neither of which is generally prohibitive for me. I like working out complex ideas, and I don’t mind taking the time to do so. In fact, project B is also complicated and time consuming…So, why now, are these factors a point of resistance for project A?

I just can’t seem to get my sh** together to  work on project A. I have no motivation. I have no investment. I can’t see the purpose, the long-term. I wonder, “if I do project A, is that not just feeding and rewarding my lower-self, my ego?” Then that becomes prohibitive.

Yet on the other hand…project A is incredibly important in a big picture kind of way. So I wonder, “am I afraid of the impact? am I afraid of how big this is? am I afraid of success? of failure?”

I honestly don’t know.

The other day, I wrote about alignment. Project A was on my mind during that writing. Something is out of alignment. Or so I think. Maybe I just think something is out of alignment, and in reality everything is exactly as it should be.

That describes my entire mental conflict: “I think something is going on, and I feel wrong“….”but maybe it’s not what I think”. And I don’t know which it is. 

If something is going on and there is a reason that I feel wrong…then all I need to do is take the steps in the direction of feeling right, which means (pretty simply) working on project A.

And if things are exactly as they should be, then I should just relax. I’ve let this get too far. My mind spins. …and now I feel like something is wrong.

OK. All of this is context for the point I really want to make. There are two big ideas at play and these ideas are relevant to the project A situation and to this Journey. They are:

  1. Thought is creative
  2. What you seek you find

(1) Thought is creative both in imaginative (future) content (what informs your mind to work out as “reality”) and in attitude (how you approach content as it comes to you). This is why the daily Guiding Thoughts matter. They give imaginative content that your mind can then align with (create) in your experience, and they offer a framework through which to interpret experiences you are already having. The ultimate goal is to have congruence between the vision and the reality, so that the content you imagine is the content you experience.

Thus, it has concerned me that I have a new thought popping up recently that says, “something is wrong with me”. That is not content I want to either imagine or experience.

(2) What we seek on the Journeys, generally speaking, is Unity, Oneness, Peace through seeking the Truth of our Selves. We can find it precisely because Unity, Oneness, and Peace are the Truth of who we are. Again, this is a role of the Guiding Thoughts–they point you toward the direction that the You of you already knows exists, and It knows you are looking for It, so once you give five minutes a day to looking for It, It can help you find It so much faster and easier. The Journeys guide you to the only real direction there is, and in doing so make it easier for you to both seek and find the Truth of You.

But when someone has thoughts like, “what is wrong with me?” Guess what? A part of that creative mind takes that literally, and starts looking for what is wrong. And make no mistake…if you look for something –whether you mean to or not– you will find it.

And this is why I’ve shared this with you. This project A situation directly opposes the goal of the Journeys on these two points…and I need to change. I need to figure this out. I need get aligned, become congruent, root out the “wrongs”, do whatever it takes to free myself of these thought patterns, the inconsistency, the whatever this is.

Thanks for being here,

Thanks for your support,

Yours in the work,

swp

 

 

“Journey of Alignment” -Healing (1.4.24)

Copyright Tam Black 2018
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Guiding Thought

To heal and be healed is to be aware, to understand, and to Know Wholeness.  Thus, we seek Wholeness, Unity, Oneness within our own minds and hearts, and in all our actions and affairs. We focus on uniting the fragments within ourselves, so that we see only Oneness, which is the Truth of our Self. As we Know ourselves as the Oneness we are, this Truth reflects in the world around us, confirming what we Know through our experience and life activity.

Reflection

What are different ways to “unite fragments”? Here are some thoughts:

1. Identify with the fragment (and change it in myself).

Koham?” is Sanskrit for “Who am I?” The answer to this question is “Soham“. “I am That“. Most often the “That” means the Self of the self, the Universal Self, the Christ Self. I am the “That” which is everywhere, and belongs to everyone; the oneness of humanity, Love, the Oneness of All that Is.

But when we are talking about uniting fragments, I must also see myself as the “that” which I may find unpleasant or unsavory–the parts of myself that I am denying, excluding, shunning, or hiding.

I’ve long thought that whenever something “out there” disturbs me, it’s because I have not accepted or integrated that thing within myself; something “in here” is not At One with Itself.

When I feel bothered by something, I ask myself, “How do I do that”? “What behaviors or thoughts do I have that are the same as that”? This takes a lot of honesty, and willingness to see beyond the thing itself to the meaning or symbolic representation of it.

For example, if I feel bothered when I think someone is dishonest with me, I ask myself, “When am I dishonest with other people”? This does not just mean dishonest in the same way someone was dishonest to me, it means any dishonesty. Every. Tiny. Bit. Then I do everything I can to eliminate that behavior from myself. I’ve been doing this for years. This practice really eliminates “dishonesty” and attracts “truth and honesty”. Guess what kind of people I have in my life?

Another example is that recently, I have felt bothered because I have felt that someone is representing something of high integrity and value with very little responsibility. I feel bothered that this person is acting irresponsibly both to the information being presented and to the people it is being presented to (I am one of those people). To counter this, I am assessing how present information, and working at doing it responsibly and with integrity–researching, getting different viewpoints, and offering ideas in a neutral way, not as absolute fact or rigid rules. I am also being aware of the impact that information has on people, and my responsibility to them. If I represent myself as a teacher, friend, mentor, or responsible adult, I have to take that seriously, and act in such a way to deserve to be a teacher, friend, mentor, or responsible adult.

No, this is not an exact science. It’s only about working on myself. This is also a valuable tool to remove blame. I can’t blame someone else for how they behave if I have the same behavior.

2. Aligning pieces. Most of the time when I think about Oneness and uniting fragments, my visual image is something like two soap bubbles meeting and being absorbed into each other to become one bigger bubble.

But recently “uniting” has more to do with “aligning”, and the visual image is more like hitching up a trailer to a ball mount. To do this, the hitch has to be the right height, the right distance, and the right angle (that is–no angle).

This image implies two things that the bubble image does not 1) a much more proactive approach to uniting fragments 2) a more linear process. In other words, with the trailer approach, I am the one who has to make sure things line up. If I say I want a glass of water, then never get up to get a glass and fill it, but still complain because I’m thirsty, it’s only because I haven’t taken the appropriate steps to be and do what I say I want. I’m both the cause and the solution to my thirstiness. If I say I want to learn to heal, but then never explore what that means, never do things that improve my quality of life/mind, then what I say and what I do are not in alignment.

This approach has a lot more trial and error. It also has greater and greater levels of refinement, as I continually figure out things that are out of alignment, then figure out how to get them into alignment. I think once things are aligned, a merging into oneness (like the soap bubbles) happens easily and naturally.

Since the Truth of my Self is Infinite, until I experience All as One, I am on a journey of alignment, actively creating the circumstances through which alignment naturally allows merging.