Refresher -Fulfillment (1.6.13)

Copyright Tam Black 2018
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Guiding Thought

What is fulfillment but knowing your Self as an expression of Divine Love? Your Self wills to create! Your Self wills to share! Your Self wills to extend itself! Your fulfillment is creation; your joy is sharing; your peace is extension.

Sharing

Before we get to this, let’s have a bit of a refresher about the process by which one’s consciousness is expanded (after all, that’s the point of these Journeys).

First comes awareness. Awareness means paying attention, and where you direct your attention. What do you notice? What do you want to notice? What are the thoughts you have that you can identify, that you can also notice influencing your attitudes, actions, emotions, and even other thoughts?

As you notice the interplay of your inner world (thoughts-emotions) with your outer world (actions, interactions, behaviors) understanding increases. Understanding takes awareness a step further. Understanding connects dots so that you have a more complete picture, (so to say). For example, in the context of this Journey, the Guiding Thoughts are focusing your awareness, bringing your attention to Fulfillment. As you contemplate the Guiding thought, you begin to look for fulfillment in your life. As you look for it and find it “out there” that sparks a new connection in your brain about how you experience fulfillment, allowing you to see it in that way easier in the future, and opens up your brain to be able to see other new connections.

Finally, the repetition of this process (awareness-noticing-understanding-experiencing) brings about certainty and confidence in the connection between your internal processes and your external experiences. When you are certain about something, you know it. (There is also a more mystical-metaphysical dimension to knowing that I won’t go into here, just note that what I’ve written is the “nutshell” version).

How does this apply to the Guiding Thought?

First, it brings awareness to a definition of fulfillment: Fulfillment: knowing your Self as an expression of Divine Love. And it does it in such a way that invites your opinion or thoughts (asking a question), but also sets it out as nearly inarguable. In other words–you have to come up with something better than the definition given (can you?).

Next, it describes some of the qualities of Divine Love, but does so in a way that applies to your Self. See that? It is Love that creates, and since your Self is an expression of Divine Love, your Self loves to create. It is Love that wills to share Itself, and since your Self is an expression of Divine Love, your Self wills to share. It is Love that wills to extend itself through you, and since your Self is an expression of Divine Love, your Self extends Divine Love.

This is why and how you are fulfilled: by living in the Reality of your Self, as Divine Love. Your fulfillment is creation; your joy is sharing; your peace is extension. Any time you live in the Reality of your Self, you experience fulfillment, joy, and peace.

 

 

 

Doing Without Doing -Fulfillment (1.6.3)

Copyright Tam Black 2018
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Guiding Thought

What is fulfillment but knowing my Self as an expression of Divine Love? My Self wills to create! My Self wills to share! My Self wills to extend itself! My fulfillment is creation; my joy is sharing; my peace is extension.

Sharing

Again…today I feel in perfect alignment with my initial approach to the Journey. This has never happened before: I have never begun a Journey feeling like I’m in sync with mySelf. All other Journeys, it was like mySelf wrote the Why–with very high expectations and standards–and I then had to pedal really fast to catch up to it.

When I said a few days ago in the Why, “I must do nothing. In order for Divine Perfection to work in Its time, I need not interfere: I must do nothing, and in doing nothing All is well”, the subtext of that was that I must not do something with the intention that it has specific results.

Let me give a very simple example. If I read an article that says kale is a superfood, and that in order to rid my body of every possible known toxin, I must eat kale…and then I go out and buy a bunch of kale, and eat it every day in order to rid my body of toxins….  What I have done is given my actions a meaning. All my actions (including my thoughts) which are associated with kale have the intention that I rid my body of toxins. My actions take on a meaning that I have ascribed to them, with results that I have decided I want. This is doing something.

The alternative (doing nothing) is to remove decisions about what something means or does not mean, to remove doing things in order to achieve a result, and to not prejudge how I desire an action to turn out.

This is the actionless action, the doing without doing. I still take actions. I still work, eat, watch TV, play with my cat (who happens to be very unhappy right now, since I gave him a crushed up pill in his food, and he made it very clear how it smelled, when he covered it up, refused to eat it, and has been complaining for the past 10 minutes.) But I do not try to determine what the actions mean, or the result they will bring in advance.

I’ve been “practicing” this for about two weeks. It’s not easy. First I have to notice when I have a motivation. Then I have to either a) get clear to remove the motivation or b) decide not to take the action, that has a specific motivation behind it. So far, usually, it’s been easier to go with b). I am not yet good enough at this to know when I have cleared my motivation enough to take action without having it.

But I’ve also had new awareness and action. There are now more times when I am acting without thinking. I skip the mental option of motivation or intention altogether, and simply do something. What is interesting to me is that many of the actions I have done in this “state” have been things that are “of mySelf”. They have been things that are creative, expressive, and embodying my Divine Presence.

They have also been things that will increase my awareness and expression of my Inner Divine Presence, which will be experienced as peace, love, joy, gratitude.

I am suddenly reminded of these two Guiding Thoughts, from previous Journeys:

Increasing my thoughts of Love and my attitude of service dispels all fear of lack and limitation. As I serve more people with Love, money and wealth flow abundantly to me. I use money and wealth with love and wisdom to create a life I love through my highest vision. (Journey of Abundance days that end in 6)

I awaken to my Inner Divine Mind and invite It to express itself as every person and event that will increase my awareness of It. (Journey of Purpose, days that end in 5)

You see, I have been working on creating, sharing, and expanding (as in today’s Guiding Thought). I find it very fascinating how a Journey of fulfillment is bringing Abundance and Purpose together for me…without me doing anything!

Love to you, dear ones. Walk your path! Love yourSelf. Be your Self.

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Fig Tree and Mountain -Abundance (1.5.37)

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Guiding Thought

My consciousness is the gateway through which Divine Love flows, materializing my infinite Supply. I am now conscious of my own Inner Divine Presence—Infinite Love—expressing through me, providing me with the means to be aware, to understand, and to know It as my Self– more and more!

Sharing

For assuredly, I say to you, whoever says to this mountain, ‘Be removed and be cast into the sea,’ and does not doubt in his heart, but believes that those things he says will be done, he will have whatever he says. Therefore, I say to you, whatever things you ask when you pray, believe that you receive them, and you will have them. (Christian Bible, Mark 11:23, 24)

I was thinking about the fig tree earlier today, (the verse immediately preceding the above, in which Jesus withers the fig tree on command…), and how it relates with abundance.

I am sure I am not the only one to ask, “how does this stuff (Jesus’ miracles) work“? Faith the size of a mustard seed…speaking…believing in one’s heart….believing you have received what you ask for…people puzzle over these, and how they work together (I don’t know of a better phrase), to accomplish such things as Jesus did. What does it take? How did He do it?

As an aside…has anyone ever wondered why Jesus withered the fig tree, instead of asking it to produce figs for him? I mean, if he can feed the thousands on a few loaves and fishes, he can make a fig tree produce figs, right?

One thing I realized, when thinking about the fig tree and the mountain, is that Jesus spoke directly to the fig tree and the mountain. Just like when He raised Lazarus from the dead–he spoke to Lazarus. He did not speak to God; he did not ask God to wither the fig tree; he did not say to his disciples, “ask God to move the mountain for you”; he did not ask God to raise Lazarus. This is a clue that I have never before considered. His directive is to speak, as though commanding, to the person, tree, mountain, or situation.

[Which, BTW, makes me wonder about the loaves and fishes…did he actually command them to multiply, and we just don’t get that side of the story? or was his prayer, and asking for God’s blessing of the loaves and fishes, the vehicle for that miracle?]

Having “no doubt” in the heart comes first–having faith, then the words. I think what actually happens, internally, is that when there is faith, everything else just flows naturally. Faith is the power: it’s the power behind the speaking, it’s the power behind the command; it’s the power to not even have to consider what to say or how to say it. Faith is the knowing confidence that directs words through you, so you don’t even have to think. When you have faith, you don’t need to formulate a command, it just flows out of you, because what you know in your heart (and here’s the kicker) is aligned with the Will of God, and when it flows out of you, it produces the results that you’ve spoken because those results are Divine Will.

And this is how it fits with Journey of Abundance: Aligning the consciousness with Divine Love brings a person closer to the Truth–Divine Will. When that person is aligned with Divine Love and Divine Will, those things materialize easily, naturally, and infinitely.

“I” am the vehicle through which Divine Love and Divine Will flow. This is how I “know” It as my Self–It comes through me, but is not me, but “I” must create the conditions for It to come through me.

 

Circulate Wealth! -Abundance (1.5.20)

Copyright Tam Black 2018
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Guiding Thought

The Divine Presence of Love is the most natural energy in the world and beyond. Through the wisdom of Love, understand Love as True wealth and an expression of your Divine nature; cultivate It in your consciousness; express It! Share It! Your Love is infinite. Your wealth is infinite. Realize this as your reality and circulate wealth with joy and gratitude.

Sharing

In the last line where it says, “circulate wealth with joy and gratitude”, what is the picture that enters your mind?

Do you see yourself circulating money or Love?

There is still a part of my brain that sees myself circulating money, even after reading, contemplating, and feeling the intensity of Love as True wealth.

That’s how ingrained it is to equate money with wealth.

That’s why shifting one’s consciousness to encompass wealth as so much more than money is important.

Here’s what I mean.

If Love is True wealth, and we circulate Love, how many ways can you think of to do that?

  • Smile at a stranger.
  • Hug…anyone, or an animal, or a tree.
  • Bake someone cookies!
  • Give someone flowers.
  • Bring someone who you know is eating gluten-free a gluten-free muffin.
  • Be sensitive to someone’s needs.
  • Give a sincere “thank you”.
  • Be nice to wait staff.
  • Listen
  • Forgive someone / release an old hurt

This is a short list! There are so many ways to show love. Each demonstration of love circulates wealth.

But if a person limits themselves to thinking wealth is only money, the ways to circulate wealth become very limited: give money.

And the problem with this is that because the word “circulate” implies that it comes back to you at some point, once you give money, there’s a part of your brain wondering, “when am I getting it back?”.  In other words, there is an implicit expectation of quid-pro-quo, but with money, unless you have passive income and/or several income streams, the ways that money can come back to you are also limited.

Circulation of wealth is an energy exchange. Wealth is simply an aspect of the law of karma: the energy you put out comes back to you. The more you give Loving energy, the more Love will return to you, supplying you with Its energy, which is all-sufficient, all-caring, all-nurturing.

 

Becoming Materialistic? -Healing (1.4.35)

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Guiding Thought

My own Loving Presence is my personal connection with Divine Mind. Attuned to my own Loving Presence, I Know myself as Whole and Holy. As I feel my Inner Unity, I know: this is all I want; I have found all I seek.

Reflection

I have had some real push-pulls (i.e. inner conflicts) lately.

  1. I am doing a Journey of Healing, but have really been enjoying my summer with ice cream (which is “unhealthy”), and I have not been exercising as much as I want to.
  2. I want to be productive, motivated, inspired, but I feel like I fritter away a lot of time.
  3. I write about being attuned, Inner Unity, “finding all I seek”, but I feel a void, unfulfilled.
  4. I am keeping the commitments that I made to myself (time for this Journey, Fire Ceremonies), but I don’t feel like that’s enough.

Do you ever feel like things just don’t match up?  You’re not where you want to be, where you think you “should” be? Do you ever wonder what the future holds for you, and how you will arrive at it? Have you ever been in a stalemate with yourself, wanting something to “give”, but everything coasts along without change?

I just found that last line a bit ironic, because “change is the only constant” has been a fairly recent theme. How is it that I can feel stagnant, if change is the only constant?

I wonder what is going on. I tune in to my life, and I listen, I look for guidance and direction, I pray…but I don’t have or get answers…not ones that I can recognize, anyway.

I keep doing the work, but it seems like the work isn’t working.

Do I need to change tactics?

I spent some time (frittering away) on some sales sites just earlier today. You know the stuff: Dale Carnegie, Norman Vincent Peale, Og Mandino, all the “how to be a salesperson” hype. Who wants to do that? Yet, I was oddly drawn to it, even thinking, “maybe  I need to get out, hit the pavement, and make some cold calls”. There’s something appealing about learning persistence, going out and talking with people directly instead of online, having a product to sell, and getting immediate feedback. Old fashioned, isn’t it? Why do that instead of just setting up an online store?

It felt like a way to change tactics, to become involved in my own life in a different way, to interact with real people and to build relationships. How counter-intuitive in this digital-information age!

One of the things that I am working on (since Saturn entered Capricorn in December, 2017) is my material life–because Saturn in Capricorn is all about material progress. I spend a lot of time and energy on my spiritual life, but in order for that to “mean” anything the spiritual must come in to tangible (material) expression. At least, that is my opinion.

I have been a monk in many lifetimes, alone in a cave, not worrying about the material aspects of my spirit. But this life? It matters. Experiences matter. Relationships matter. Using the spiritual to live in the material world matters. The monk in me does not care…really. I don’t care about cars or wealth or material things, except to the extent that I need to live in this world. And I feel like that mindset–my monk’s past–has put me at a disadvantage. Sometimes I wish I could be more materialistic, in the sense of being motivated by material things.

I know enough about NLP, affirmations, and mental patterns that I believe I could just “shift” into caring about material things if I wanted to. But then, who would I be? Would I leave behind all I value if I did that? Not having these answers is a reason I haven’t tried this.

This theme has been in the background of my mind/life for this entire Journey. Maybe I should have shared it sooner. But it did not occur to me that becoming more materialistic has anything to do with healing.

But healing has to do with Inner Unity…and this is a part of me that is disparate, in conflict, and in need of reconciliation.

The Only Choice Today -Healing (1.4.34)

Copyright Tam Black 2018
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Guiding Thought

To heal and be healed is to be aware, to understand, and to Know Wholeness.  Thus, I seek Wholeness, Unity, Oneness within my own mind and heart, and in all my actions and affairs. I focus on uniting the fragments within myself, so that I see only Oneness, which is the Truth of my Self. As I Know myself as the Oneness that I am, this Truth reflects in the world around me, confirming what I Know through my experience and life activity.

Reflection

First I make a choice; I generate the thoughts that correspond to that choice, and then I experience the outcome of my choice through my perceptions of my activities, affairs, and interactions.

The Guiding Thoughts work through these three steps over and over and over, encouraging the choice of Wholeness, encouraging the thoughts that support Wholeness. Thoughts then direct the interpretation of experience so there can begin to be recognition of Wholeness/Unity/Oneness in life activities.

The recognition of Wholeness (awareness) in life activities strengthens the resolve to make the choice for Oneness and increases willingness to have thoughts of Unity and Oneness. This in turn brings greater awareness of Wholeness in life activity…and the cycle repeats.

For as long as there is any part of anyone that thinks it is separate…for as long as any choice is not aligned with Oneness…for as long as there is perception which precludes Knowing…I choose again and again and again to be One and Whole, with you, with All. It’s really the only choice there is.

Dropping Patterns, Clearing Karma -Healing (1.4.28)

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Guiding Thought

Today we decide to be aware of our Whole and Holy Self working within us, expressing through us. As we move through the affairs of our lives, with open minds and empty hands, we look first to our Whole and Holy Self for guidance. Our only decision today is to be aware of our Whole and Holy Self—all other decisions arise out of this, in conjunction with our Self.

Reflection

Remember, obstacles are part of change and change is the law of nature. If you react, then the obstacle becomes larger. If you observe, pure observation, then the obstacle passes, as quickly as it was created.

As for serious problems. Consider these problems as opportunities for growth. Change is not easy. The ego rejects change, yet change is the law, change is the real. Obstacles to the higher path are many. That is why few arrive. If obstacles are non-existent then the ego will create them. Understand? Your ego is creating obstacles. Maya creating maya.

~Haidakhan Baba

I’ve been falling apart the past couple of days. At least as far as the Journey is going–my deep introspection, and working out my stuff.

I’ve been thinking a lot about karma lately, because I have been experiencing stuff that does not have an immediate cause. It’s just kind of coming up. 

I’ve had a lot of really good reminders to keep me on track, though. First (obviously), the Guiding Thoughts. I’ve been pretty focused to day on my Whole/Holy Self, so that has been keeping my feet on the path, and preventing my mind from straying (my mind has done a lot of straying over the past 48 hours).

Second, a friend of mine was describing another friend, who has been on the path of the Higher Self for about 40 years (about 15 years longer than I have). This person, apparently is able to just shift out of an emotional pattern/habit in a second. She is, literally, able to simply drop whatever the pattern/habit is that comes up for her, and walk away from it. wow.

I often think about people who are “further along” than I am, and I admire what they are able to do, that I can’t yet do. I feel very inspired, because I know how far I’ve come in 25 years. Looking to them assures me that I will go even further in the next 25 years. This work compounds, after all. Once you have the momentum, just a tiny effort keeps that momentum, and you can use more energy to clearing away even more and more.

Clearing away. Oh, yeah! That’s the point I wanted to make about karma. Karma gets cleared away. It really does. There are actual things a person can do to evaporate karma. I’ve sort of known this for a while– doing bathing, breathing, fasting, praying, mantra…all that stuff does it. But finally, I think, I’ve gotten to a point where I’ve done so much (and added more) stuff that is clearing, that I can feel (and see) it moving out. This is still new, but it’s an actual experience, something I can watch as I am going through it and releasing it. And I gotta tell you, it’s really cool. Now I want to dive in to this as an experiment and see what more I can do to have tangible experiences of clearing karma. Stay tuned…

Third, the above quote by Haidakhan Baba was a wake-up reminder, especially the last line: Your ego is creating obstacles. Maya creating maya. I knew this at one point, it seems like a long, long time ago. I remember specifically having a conversation with my dear BuddhaBrad who said this exact thing to me, in Buddha terms. It was basically, “The mind does not like things to be easy. The mind likes to struggle. So, when things are going along smoothly, the mind says, ‘wait a minute…something’s wrong; this is too easy. I need to jump in here and perceive a problem somewhere just so I can be comfortable again'”.

This goes right along with the karma thing. While releasing some karma, we also create it. All action has a re-action. That is basically the law of karma. Being free of karma means No action. But as long as we have a body, and are not transcended beings, we are acting, and creating re-actions. This means mentally, emotionally, physically.

This is why it’s in our best interest a) to take “good”, “positive” actions, so that the re-action is “good”, “positive”. b) Do the best we can to observe actions as they happen, rather than re-acting. When we simply observe, we break the pattern. Think of actions as a ping-pong being hit back and forth across a table. We are the players, the ball, and the observer. If we become only the observer, and stop being at least one of the players, the ball stops going back and forth.