Journey of Gratitude–Commitment (2.8.00)

Today is the second preparation day. Yesterday, you thought a bit about why you care about gratitude, what it means to you, why you would like to spend 40 days engaging with it, and perhaps you even wrote about what you would like to accomplish.

Today is the day you commit. This is where you tell the universe that you are serious. You are serious about what it takes to integrate higher levels of love, joy, peace, and good will into your life–through gratitude. You are serious about change, about becoming, about evolving into your best/highest self.

It is less important what words you use, how long you spend thinking about it, or how much you write.

It is more important to feel it, to go within to your own motivation, your own initiative, and claim the vision that you have for yourself of who you truly are, who you are remembering, who you are becoming. This is yours. Write your truth of commitment to your Self.

Commitment

I declare, with great enthusiasm, excitement, and absolute joy of life, that I am committed to letting Life know how grateful I am for It. I commit to increasing my awareness and understanding of the presence of Life, which is already mine, and to expand my presence of Life through gratitude for It! It is my intention to maintain a constant awareness of the Life that animates me, which I experience through my consciousness– through my awareness. I commit to remembering as often as possible every day to be thankful for the Divine Grace that sustains me.

I am committed to contemplating the Guiding Thoughts for at least 5 minutes each day, and to writing my response.

Dedication

I dedicate this Journey to Oneness and the Unity of All Life. May each step I take serve to uplift all of humanity; may my thoughts, words, feelings, and actions be a vehicle through which Divine Grace may enter the world to love and serve all life.

How Can I Be Right for Somebody Else? -Fulfillment (1.6.38)

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Guiding Thought

My motivation is my choice. My intention is my choice. My will is my choice. In Peace, I listen within for guidance so that my actions are motivated by joy, my intentions are love, and my Will is simply to share Joy and Love.

Sharing

Any wavering in motivation or intention potentially opens you up to influences to persuade you (or manipulate you) in a direction that you may or may not want.

If you are not clear about the direction you are headed, you are susceptible to being lead down anyone’s path.

It is so important for you to know yourself. What do you want, really want? Do you have material goals or spiritual goals? Do you want to serve yourself or serve others? Do you care about your own progress, your own evolution? What direction are you going? What are you doing to go in that direction?

If you do not decide these things for yourself, so that you know in your heart what is right for you, then how do you know if you are on your path, or on a path that someone else is suggesting for you?

There is no “right” path. There is no “wrong” path. You do not need to be altruistic, dedicating yourself in service to humanity. You do not need to be a saint or a buddha. You do not need to have no bad habits, no vices.

But it is becoming very important for you to become aware of who you are, as a person. What motivates you? What are your core intentions? What direction are you heading, what direction do you want to head? Where do you find peace? Where do you find Joy? Where do you invest your time? Do you care about other people? Do you care about the world we live in?

Who are you as you walk through this life?

This life is here for you to learn and grow and go as far as you can within this personality that you have the opportunity to experience.

Why should you know yourself? Because life is more fun when you understand who you are, how you interact in the world, and live consciously, making choices that benefit you and your path. You are the most important person in your life. Be a person you love, and would love to be around.

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Success -Fulfillment (1.6.11)

Welcome to round 2! Thank you for being here. I wish for you waterfalls of Divine Flow, beautiful insights, and Joy on the Journey! With this round, the pronouns change from “I” to “you” (see this page for detailed explanation).

Guiding Thought

Everywhere fulfillment is, you are.  Fulfillment is everywhere. Fulfillment is. You are.

Sharing

“Journey” in the context of these Journeys means the Journey of ascension. Did you know that already? Had you figured it out? I seem to have stopped reminding people of that; when I started these Journeys, I used to talk about it a lot. I mean, I say it sort of offhandedly sometimes now, and I did say it pretty outright during the Why of this Journey…but it’s not like I write about it regularly.

So, yeah. I am on the path to ascension. These Journeys guide me daily. I don’t know how long it’s going to take for me to ascend, but I’ve mapped out a 50-year plan with these Journeys.

It is my personal belief that we are all ascending…whether we know it or not, whether we like it or not. What this means to me is that there is a way to grow/evolve our spiritual self, so that we become In-Light-ened, where we transcend the materiality of the world, and literally become light. Jesus did it. The Theotokos did it (according to the Eastern Orthodox tradition). Elijah did it. Enoch did it. Elisha did it. And that’s just from the Hebrew and Christian faith. There are also lots of examples from Buddhism (specifically Dzogchen), Taoism, and Hinduism.

If they can do it, I can do it. So can you.

You know all those motivational phrases you see that people most generally apply to making their lives better or growing their business?

  • Your positive action combined with positive thinking results in success.
  • Success is the result of perfection, hard work, learning from failure, loyalty, and persistence. Colin Powell
  • Success is no accident. It is hard work, perseverance, learning, studying, sacrifice and most of all, love of what you are doing or learning to do. Pele
  • Some people dream of success, while other people get up every morning and make it happen. Wayne Huizenga
  • Success comes from what you do consistently, not from what you do occasionally.

You’ve heard these before, right? And many, many, many more.

Every time I see one of these, I apply it to my spiritual success. Seek ye first the Kingdom of Heaven and all that. I put my energy, time, and effort into my spiritual evolution.

I may not make it. I get that. But I also believe that no effort is wasted, and that seeking is rewarded.

But more than that, this is how I want to live my life. I want to be the kind of person who strives to live a higher life, and in so doing to bring higher ideals into the world.

How do you feel about your spiritual evolution? Do you feel fulfilled? Do you know yourself as fulfilled? Do you want to?

Let your ideals lead you. Let your highest values guide your life. Always strive higher and higher. Become better. You are amazing just as you are right now, but don’t settle, don’t get complacent, don’t ever think you’re done. We have a long way to go, together…but more than that…we have a lot of people who are just beginning to think about this stuff, and they need us solidly on the path, clearing the way.

 

I AM, but who am I? -Abundance (1.5.39)

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Guiding Thought

Divine Abundance expresses infinitely through my own Divine Presence. When I identify with my Divine Presence, I open the floodgates and Divine Abundance flows naturally, easily, and effortlessly through me, materializing all good in my life and affairs.

Sharing

I am my I AM Presence.

I am my Christ Presence.

I am my Divine Presence.

Koham?” is Sanskrit for “Who am I?”

The answer to this question is “Soham“, which means “I am That“. “That” means the Self of the self, the Universal Self, the Christ Self. I am the “That” which is everywhere, and belongs to everyone; the oneness of humanity, Love, the Oneness of All that Is.

My Divine Presence is the abundance of the universe, because I am that universe, and that universe is me.

All I have to do is understand this…and be it. 

It sounds so simple. It feels so right…and at that level of feeling right, it makes so much sense.

All I have to do is be it. Then, effortlessly, the floodgates open.

Effortlessly.

Because I AM that abundance and that abundance is me.

I think the part that trips me up is a language/concept problem, having to do with I.

When people say “I”, their reference–for most people, most of the time–is the non-Divine I, the non-Christ-Presence-I. It is the I which identifies with a single body, instead of with the Universe, or ALL “bodies”; it is the I which identifies with being time-bound (and associated with that single body, which lives and dies), instead of with Eternity; it is that I which thinks of itself, instead of Its Self.

So that when people say, “I am >fill in the blank<“, their identity is with that lower/smaller/lesser I.

Even when people say: I am my I AM Presence. I am my Christ Presence. I am my Divine Presence, their concept of is with that lower/smaller/lesser I.

The whole point of saying/thinking I am my I AM Presence or I am my Christ Presence or I am my Divine Presence is to shift our concept of “I”.

To think about “I” in these terms– “I” am all that is. “I” am the Presence of Love. “I” am the very Divine Presence– means to identify with that which lives in everyone, and is present here, now, in this body, through this body, as this body, living in time and space, yet not of time and space, living through this body, but not being this body.

Do you see?

You are not that body. You are not those thoughts. You are not those feelings. You are your Divine Presence. You are the presence of Love that fills the universe. The universe is also the presence of Love, which fills you, which fills itself. We are. We are ALL. Always. Now. Forever. Here. Everything. Love.

More than Attitude, ACTION -Abundance (1.5.36)

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Guiding Thought

Increasing my thoughts of Love and my attitude of service dispels all fear of lack and limitation. As I serve more people with Love, money and wealth flow abundantly to me. I use money and wealth with love and wisdom to create a life I love through my highest vision.

Sharing

Check. I have been increasing my thoughts of Love and my attitude of service. I mentioned a few days ago about opening my heart; this has meant increasing the love I am able to feel and give–specifically opening my heart and love to God. I’ve also been increasing my attitude of service. I have several ways that I can serve people, and I have been developing and increasing my ideas about how to let people know that I am here to serve.

So here’s the sticking point: It’s easier to develop an attitude of service than it is to serve; what I mean is, “it’s easier said than done”. Please note, I do not mean that it’s difficult to serve people. I love serving people. The problem (I think) is that I am one of those air signs that likes being in my head better than being grounded on the earth (ideas as opposed to action).

I am well able to take action, and I love to take initiative.

The sticking point has to do with what it means to put myself out there–or, to be very clear, it’s what I think it means to put myself out there. It means marketing and “selling”–not things that I have much interest in doing.

Plus, as I mentioned on day 16, Love is great, but it does not pay the bills. And I have yet to reconcile wanting to truly serve with purity, and asking for money for spiritual services.

The point is that the Guiding Thought does not address the very practical leap from Love to money. Don’t get me wrong–the Guiding is correct, there is just a gap that I have yet to cross, and until I do, the Guiding Thought does help me cross it (that’s what the rest of the Journey if for).

So, yes, increasing my thoughts of Love and my attitude of service dispels all fear of lack and limitation. That’s true and correct, but in my current state, I also need more than an attitude of service. I need to serve, in Truth and Purity, and be open, willing, and able to receive money for that service.

And, yes, as I serve more people with Love, money and wealth flow abundantly to me. However, this statement presumes that the service is accompanied by money, in exchange for that service. Until there is a natural and easy exchange of money, as representative of the Love and energy that is exchanged, then at least the money part of the Guiding Thought will not materialize practically.

And, yes, I use money and wealth with love and wisdom to create a life I love through my highest vision. In this context, there is no need for a direct exchange of money for service–I can use any money in the service of my highest vision; it does not need to be directly connected with a service I am providing (and this is how I use my income from my j-o-b). This part of the Guiding Thought simply points out that any money used to create a life I love through my highest vision will be used in such a way to open me to more of that money (I explained how this works on day 4).

I am getting close to getting this. I can feel it.

Critical Mass of Faith -Abundance (1.5.35)

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Guiding Thought

My Inner Divine-Love Presence Knows what I need or desire before I do. It is constantly providing me with ideas, material goods, situations, and interactions to fulfill all my needs and desires. I relax and allow the Presence Within to supply me with everything I need.

Sharing

I’ve been very conscientious about doing/following the idea of this Guiding Thought, and having faith that it is true for the better part of this year.

I honestly don’t know how well I am doing. I refer us back to Day 29, which says, “The instant the vision is being empowered with the Critical Mass (51% or more) of our energy, vibration and consciousness, it will become a physical, tangible reality.” I don’t know how close I am to that critical mass with this Guiding Thought.

can tell you that in my heart of hearts I do believe that God, who knew me before I was created, knows my heart and my needs better than I do. I just don’t know all of the areas in my sub-conscious, in my suppressed emotions, or in the corners of my mind and heart that are contrary to this, which may oppose or are contrary to that belief.

These are the two things that I continue to work with: 1) positive reinforcement of the belief, to build critical mass 2) finding and releasing opposing or contrary thoughts and emotions.

It’s up to me to accept where I am, what I have, to affirm that I really believe It is constantly providing me with ideas, material goods, situations, and interactions to fulfill all my needs and desires. If I ask for something different, or if I say I want something different, then I showing/telling God that am not convinced that what I have actually is fulfilling my needs and desires within the vision of the Divine. I have to have faith and trust.

 

Swaha! -Abundance (1.5.32)

Copyright Tam Black 2018
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Guiding Thought

I choose to expand my consciousness and open my heart to Divine Love’s flow within me. Realizing my own Divine Presence, I know God as the Source and Fulfillment of all my good.

Sharing

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This is the (approximate) image that I have had lately about opening my heart.

It’s a bit corny for a spiritual journey, I know.

I see myself ripping open my chest, to expose my (energy) heart, as though it is growing too large for my chest to contain.

On the one hand, I have been feeling bombarded by emotion–some of which is “mine”, but a lot of it feels like it’s coming through me from the past, from my relatives, from other people, from the very air.

The emotion that is “mine” generally has to do with my relationship with God, and doing what S/He wants me to do: being assured that I am on the right path. These emotions generally are connected with letting go of ego/the lower self. It doesn’t matter what the specific emotion is (doubt, anger, confusion, etc), the overarching feeling is a ripping away. Imagine a child not wanting to go >wherever< and being dragged by the parent. That child is my lower self, the parent is God.

Despite all my asking for spiritual evolution, there are still parts of me (the child…) which cannot seem to let go, that want to stay stuck.

And

It’s only because of my persistent, consistent, heartfelt, sincere, intention and determination to evolve spiritually, that I am being blessed with this dragging-away of my lower self.

It does not always feel like a blessing, but it is.

The emotions that are not mine, sometimes take me a while to identify as not mine. I’ll be feeling an emotion intensely (most recently: lost, alone, unloved, confused about why I am not loved, not taken care of…), and at the same time thinking, “what is this?” because these emotions are not familiar to me–you know what I’m talking about? There are emotions that you are used to, patterns, if you will, that when you have them, you know what they are, and you know why you have them, so….no surprise. These emotions were a surprise. When I looked at them more closely, I realized they did not originate within me (i.e. this physical body, this personality as it has grown up as “me”), but I could see a family pattern of these emotions. So I did some ancestral healing.

The main thing I’ve been focusing on, to continue to open my heart, despite the intensity and tumultuous emotions is saying/thinking, “Swaha” or “Not mine, Yours”… in other words, giving everything to God. Continuously. Keeping my heart open to allow the flow, giving everything up, opening to more flow.

It really is a blessing….