Working Toward Embodying Light -Fulfillment (1.6.40)

 

Copyright Tam Black 2018
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Guiding Thought

I am light. My body is light. I am free. I know my fulfillment: I feel it rise within me, expand out from me.

Sharing

Welcome to day 40! How did you do? Were you consistent daily? Did you contemplate your ideal (or the Guiding Thought) for at least 5 minutes per day? Did you dig deep, expand your self-knowledge, and learn about how you approach life? Whew. That’s a lot to do and expect of yourself. If you did anything at all toward self-awareness, and learning about how you choose to live life…give yourself a hug, or at least a pat on the back. You’ve done some good work. Now it’s time to take a break. Breathe for a few days, normalize a bit, then take some time to read back over what you have written over the past 40 days, and reflect on where you were, where you are, and what you think you learned over the course of this Journey. I’ll do the same. But now…day 40!

Just in the past two weeks, I’ve been trying some new things to increase my inner-light-awareness.

I have always wanted to be light. I used to–and I suppose I still do–draw myself with so much inner light that it radiates outward everywhere. I used to feel the light bubble up within me, and flow out my eyes and hands. I’ve always believed somewhere deep down, that I am light. Of course, I’ve had to reconcile this with my experience of being a dense, 3rd-dimensional, material body/person…which is what I live with day after day after day… yet for some reason, I still think I am light. I think some how, some way, I can be light, not this heavy, dense, material body. So today’s Guiding Thought has special significance for me–I’ve been working at this since I was a teenager!

I am not daunted that I haven’t figured it out yet. I will. We all will, sooner or later. I just keep working at it and trying stuff.

So in the past two weeks, I’ve started taking a fish oil that is high in anti-oxidants, which is supposed to cleanse (de-calcify) the pineal gland. There are those who believe the pineal gland is the seat of the third-eye, the spiritual eye. It is the seat of true vision, manifestation, and higher communication. Apparently, things like chlorine, fluoride, and bromine calicify the pineal gland and inhibit its proper function. So I’m trying it out. It’s only been a few days, and I have nothing to report, but if all goes well, my third eye will open and I will be that much closer to giving/receiving light!

Secondly, I’ve been carrying around crystals. I have this beautiful quartz crystal that fits across the palm of my hand (about 4″ x 1.5-2″)–and I can wrap my fingers around it…So I’ve been carrying it, sleeping with it. This behavior is not completely new; I’ve had this crystal for over two decades, and it accompanies me during certain times in my life.

Finally, I’ve been sleeping with music which entrains the mind with delta brainwaves. That’s “just” a sleep entrainment, nothing fancy–no binaural beats or subliminal affirmations, but since cleaning the pineal gland is supposed to open the vision/dreaming faculty, I figure better sleep won’t hurt.

All of this is to continue progressing upward. Call it frequency, call it sound, call it light, call it vibration, call it consciousness, call it what you will. It’s about embodying more and more energy, love, and light. Being able to handle it and then radiate it.

 

 

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Ways to support this work:

  1. Hire me as your Spiritual Coach, you may sign up for a personalized Journey with me Click here for more information. Or I offer 1-on-1 spiritual coaching sessions. This is non-religion specific, and open to everyone, even atheists, though of course we would call something like “self-analysis coach” for a self-identified atheist.
  2. Indulge in one of my healing services: Jharra, Reiki, Fire Ceremony (see withpearls.com for more information).
  3. Send me a monetary gift via paypal: paypal.me/SusanBillmaier (please note “gift” in the transaction).
  4. Tell a friend about this site, the coaching or healing services.
  5. Invite me to interview on a podcast or for an article.

All proceeds go toward increasing love, light, and a consciousness of Oneness in the world. Thank you for your contribution that benefits All.

These Journeys are always available on this site at no charge. I also provide Jharra, Reiki, and Fire Ceremonies at no-charge to those who ask.

How Can I Be Right for Somebody Else? -Fulfillment (1.6.38)

Copyright Tam Black 2018
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Guiding Thought

My motivation is my choice. My intention is my choice. My will is my choice. In Peace, I listen within for guidance so that my actions are motivated by joy, my intentions are love, and my Will is simply to share Joy and Love.

Sharing

Any wavering in motivation or intention potentially opens you up to influences to persuade you (or manipulate you) in a direction that you may or may not want.

If you are not clear about the direction you are headed, you are susceptible to being lead down anyone’s path.

It is so important for you to know yourself. What do you want, really want? Do you have material goals or spiritual goals? Do you want to serve yourself or serve others? Do you care about your own progress, your own evolution? What direction are you going? What are you doing to go in that direction?

If you do not decide these things for yourself, so that you know in your heart what is right for you, then how do you know if you are on your path, or on a path that someone else is suggesting for you?

There is no “right” path. There is no “wrong” path. You do not need to be altruistic, dedicating yourself in service to humanity. You do not need to be a saint or a buddha. You do not need to have no bad habits, no vices.

But it is becoming very important for you to become aware of who you are, as a person. What motivates you? What are your core intentions? What direction are you heading, what direction do you want to head? Where do you find peace? Where do you find Joy? Where do you invest your time? Do you care about other people? Do you care about the world we live in?

Who are you as you walk through this life?

This life is here for you to learn and grow and go as far as you can within this personality that you have the opportunity to experience.

Why should you know yourself? Because life is more fun when you understand who you are, how you interact in the world, and live consciously, making choices that benefit you and your path. You are the most important person in your life. Be a person you love, and would love to be around.

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Ways to support this work:

  1. Hire me as your Spiritual Coach, you may sign up for a personalized Journey with me Click here for more information. Or I offer 1-on-1 spiritual coaching sessions. This is non-religion specific, and open to everyone, even atheists, though of course we would call something like “self-analysis coach” for a self-identified atheist.
  2. Indulge in one of my healing services: Jharra, Reiki, Fire Ceremony (see withpearls.com for more information).
  3. Send me a monetary gift via paypal: paypal.me/SusanBillmaier (please note “gift” in the transaction).
  4. Tell a friend about this site, the coaching or healing services.
  5. Invite me to interview on a podcast or for an article.

All proceeds go toward increasing love, light, and a consciousness of Oneness in the world. Thank you for your contribution that benefits All.

These Journeys are always available on this site at no charge. I also provide Jharra, Reiki, and Fire Ceremonies at no-charge to those who ask.

Hangry Hangry Ego -Fulfillment (1.6.27)

Copyright Tam Black 2018
Designed for susanwithpearls.com

Guiding Thought

Our Joy unifies! Accepting our Joy—acknowledging it, sharing it, and expressing it—heals us and All. To be wholly Joyful means to be wholly Love…means to be wholly our Self.

This day, first Journey of Fulfillment, 2014
This day, second Journey of Fulfillment, 2016
One year ago–
The Hum of Harmony Journey of Peace 2017– Day 24

Sharing   

I’ve had a very enlightening breakthrough, unlike any other I’ve experienced in 5 years of Journeying. This breakthrough is threefold.

  1. The content of the breakthrough
  2. My awareness of the content
  3. My understanding of how I have been lead to this point

All three of these go together, so here’s the story:

This begins all the way back on Day 1 of this Journey, when I was working out why this Journey is important to me. I wrote, “I must do nothing, and in doing nothing All is well. Everything is fulfilled. This, then, is Why a Journey of Fulfillment: Because All is fulfilled. All is filled full. I must do nothing. I have no goal, no sense for accomplishment, no want, no desire, beyond recognizing what is.”

This has been very difficult to maintain. Try doing nothing. Try taking no action to accomplish anything, taking no action to change a situation, doing nothing because “it’s good for you”. Try not doing anything spontaneously, impulsively, or habitually. Try to have no intention, other than living in the moment and recognizing Truth in that moment.

This is how I’ve been (not) acting. I have removed intention; I’ve removed having a goal; I’ve stopped wanting something, anything. I desire no particular outcome. Just over 3 weeks I’ve been doing this.

I feel the tug to do something. I stop myself from doing it. I feel like “this would be so cool”, and I stop myself from doing it. I think, “OH, but wouldn’t it be nice if >this happened< as a result of me >doing this<” and I don’t do it.

I can’t say it’s been hard, so much as it has taken great vigilance to recognize all the times that I want to do something in order to get something, then stopping myself. This speaks to #2 above: my awareness of  the content. I have had to really stay on top of myself, on top of my impulses, my reasons for wanting to do something, so that I could make an informed decision in the moment. 3 weeks of this, day in, day out.

Then, (this is the being lead part), I was listening to A Course in Miracles, and I heard this (I will distill this for you below…):

Everything the ego tells you that you need will hurt you. For although the ego urges you again and again to get, it leaves you nothing, for what you get it will demand of you. And even from the very hands that grasped it, it will be wrenched and hurled into the dust. For where the ego sees salvation it sees separation, and so you lose whatever you have gotten in its name. Therefore ask not of yourself what you need, for you do not know, and your advice to yourself will hurt you. For what you think you need will merely serve to tighten up your world against the light, and render you unwilling to question the value that this world can really hold for you. (Text is here.)

Often, ACIM is pretty dense, and I can only process bits and pieces of it at a time. Here are the bits and pieces that sunk in, deeply:

Everything the ego tells you that you need will hurt you…Therefore ask not of yourself what you need, for you do not know, and your advice to yourself will hurt you.

This happened maybe 3 days ago. These words have been playing over and over in my head since then.

And then I realized. This is why I must do nothing. Anything I choose will hurt me, because my wants and needs are still dominated by ego. Or, in terms of ACIM, my mind still contains conflict, and while the conflict persists I cannot choose clearly, wholly (Holy), and purely. [FYI, the solution to this, according to ACIM, is to turn decisions over to the Holy Spirit, saying something like (for example): “The Holy Spirit leads me unto Christ, and where else would I go? What need have I but to awake in Him?”]

Then, over the past 24 hours, my impulse to do something shifted. Doing, as I’d been thinking of/experiencing it, meant taking an action, something physical. Over the past 24 hours, I began recognizing mental and emotional habits that were arising in order to get me to feel or think something.

It was not immediate, but after a relatively short time, I realized these thoughts/feelings were very similar to the physical impulses I’d been aware of these past three weeks. They have the same energy signature, so to say.

They were trying to convince me that my feelings were right (righteous), and that I needed to hold a grudge, feel used/abused/confused, feel put upon, angry, betrayed, and isolated. And do you see how those feelings are pretty obviously of the lower self? And yet, there was a part of me trying to convince me that I should claim (as in act upon) those feelings. That if I just let myself feel (and feel self-righteous in those feelings), I will gain, I will get something, I will win.

Thank goodness for my vigilance of the past 3 weeks; I called bullshit, and halted the “action” associated with those feelings.

Then, just today I had another amazing realization. By doing nothing, I am starving my ego. It has no control, it has no power, I am taking away what it feeds upon. I would not have understood this, if I hadn’t just spent 3 weeks denying it food. By diligently halting all actions associated with my lower self (including thoughts/feelings), I have loosened its power in ways that I don’t think I can even understand right now. I can just feel it. My lower self is pissed off, and hungry. Hangry. And it is doing everything it can in a last-ditch effort to try to get me to feed it, to strengthen it.

Thank God for awareness, understanding, and vigilance.

I don’t know where this now will lead. There are 12 days left to this Journey. A lot can happen. I look forward to finding out, and sharing with you!

I’ll leave you with this quote, in gratitude to you, from the same page of ACIM:

Healing in time is needed, for joy cannot establish its eternal reign where sorrow dwells. You dwell not here, but in eternity… Give thanks to every part of you that you have taught how to remember you. Thus does the Son of God give thanks unto his Father for his purity.

 

 

Ways to support this work:

  1. Hire me as your Spiritual Coach, you may sign up for a personalized Journey with me Click here for more information. Or I offer 1-on-1 spiritual coaching sessions. This is non-religion specific, and open to everyone, even atheists, though of course we would call something like “self-analysis coach” for a self-identified atheist.
  2. Indulge in one of my healing services: Jharra, Reiki, Fire Ceremony (see withpearls.com for more information).
  3. Send me a monetary gift via paypal: paypal.me/SusanBillmaier (please note “gift” in the transaction).
  4. Tell a friend about this site, the coaching or healing services.
  5. Invite me to interview on a podcast or for an article.

All proceeds go toward increasing love, light, and a consciousness of Oneness in the world. Thank you for your contribution that benefits All.

These Journeys are always available on this site at no charge. I also provide Jharra, Reiki, and Fire Ceremonies at no-charge to those who ask.

Love Expresses Through Us, As Us -Fulfillment (1.6.24)

Copyright Tam Black 2018
Designed for susanwithpearls.com

Guiding Thought

Our Self wills only to extend itself. Extending, sharing, and creating as Divine Love, through Divine Mind, is our sole purpose. Our Self knows its fullness in Divine Love and wills only to liberate us to fulfill our purpose and release our Joy.

This day, first Journey of Fulfillment, 2014
This day, second Journey of Fulfillment, 2016
One year ago

Sharing

The Self wills only to extend Itself because the Self is, itself, an extension of Divine Love, created by Divine Love as an extension of Itself, that Original Divine Love.

The Self was created by Divine Love, as Divine Love, with the Will of Divine Love.

The Will of Divine Love is… you guessed it…to extend Itself.

Because we are the expressions of our Self, we are the vehicles through which our Self Wills to extend Divine Love. And we are the vehicles through which that Original Divine Love extends Itself.

Because our Self knows its fullness in Divine Love, we would, too, because we are our Divine Self.

When our Self wills to liberate us to fulfill our purpose and release our Joy, it only wants for us what It knows is the Truth of us–Divine Love.

As we simply surrender to being the vehicle through which Divine Love enters the world, our Self comes through to guide us, extending Itself, which is extending our Self, which is extending Original Divine Love.

Allowing our expression of Divine Love is our purpose, and is filled with so much Joy…because this is who we are.

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Ways to support this work:

  1. Hire me as your Spiritual Coach, you may sign up for a personalized Journey with me Click here for more information. Or I offer 1-on-1 spiritual coaching sessions. This is non-religion specific, and open to everyone, even atheists, though of course we would call something like “self-analysis coach” for a self-identified atheist.
  2. Indulge in one of my healing services: Jharra, Reiki, Fire Ceremony (see withpearls.com for more information).
  3. Send me a monetary gift via paypal: paypal.me/SusanBillmaier (please note “gift” in the transaction).
  4. Tell a friend about this site, the coaching or healing services.
  5. Invite me to interview on a podcast or for an article.

All proceeds go toward increasing love, light, and a consciousness of Oneness in the world. Thank you for your contribution that benefits All.

These Journeys are always available on this site at no charge. I also provide Jharra, Reiki, and Fire Ceremonies at no-charge to those who ask.

Why can’t we just get there already? -Fulfillment (1.6.21)

Copyright Tam Black 2018
Designed for susanwithpearls.com

Welcome to Round 3!

We’re halfway done! How are you doing? Seriously…how is your life going? How’s your Journey going? I feel like this week I have felt the weight of the world…so much going on politically and environmentally; have you felt it? There’s a lot of “fear” in the air. I don’t know…I’ve never been “sensitive” to that sort of thing, like feeling those etheric emotions that hover about, but I have no other explanation for this heaviness I’ve been feeling this week. It’s like there is a part of me that is my usual happy self, and this other part of me that wants to run and hide. The “usual” part can identify that the other part is “not me”, but at the same time the person who’s feeling the fear identifies as “me”… Someone said to me today that I should not “let it get me down”. I get that, and I don’t let it get me down. But at the same time, I feel like the awareness of this “fear in the air” brings me responsibility. I am not blissfully ignorant: if I am aware of these less-than-loving emotions, it’s my responsibility to bring light and love to them. So…I’ve been especially vigilant about “my” own emotions, and I’ve been playing mantra on very low volume all day. The more light and love I bring to it, the faster we will move through it. Join in. Add your light and your love, let’s get through this.

See this page for information about how this round changes.

Guiding Thought

Everywhere fulfillment is, we are. Fulfillment is everywhere. Fulfillment is. We are.

Sharing

(Q) Why can’t we just get there already? If Fulfillment is everywhere, why aren’t we there? If we are All One, and Love is Oneness why are we not All living in Love right here, right now? I don’t get it.

(A) People use and have used their free will to deny the Love they Are. In doing so, they have forgotten who they are. In forgetting, they have made a substitute and believed in the substitute (sometimes called “ego” or “lower self” or “lower mind”).

To rectify this, people must choose to use their free will to stop denying the Love they Are, or in other words, to accept the Love they are.

People are at various degrees–or percentages–about how much they are willing to do this. Some people have more ego than others; some egos have a stronger hold.

We are all moving in the same direction, to 100% Love. But we all must participate at 100% in order for us all to be there.

If one person participates at 75% s/he has 25% to go, and probably has very strong momentum toward that 100%. This person is probably unaffected by most “worldly cares”, and has good habits and practices that maintain the momentum.

If another person participates at 25%, s/he probably has more trouble staying the course than the person at 75%, often waylaid by upsets and distractions.

Since we are All One, even if one person reaches 100%, there is still work to do! Until everyone reaches that 100%.

Everyone is both an individual expression of Divine Consciousness and the Unity of Divine Consciousness. In order for the Unity of Divine Consciousness to be expressed in every living being, every living being’s individual expression must choose Divine Consciousness as its own.

 

Golden Rule Specifics -Fulfillment (1.6.19)

Copyright Tam Black 2018
Designed for susanwithpearls.com

Guiding Thought

May those who seek, help others find;

May those who sorrow, be compassionate;

May those who are lost, light a path for another;

May those who question or doubt, give guidance;

May those who worry, lift the burden of another;

May those who hide, see their own light in the eyes of a stranger;

May you give peace, no matter what.

Sharing

What do you want when you are seeking?

What do you want when you are sad (or lonely)?

What do you want when you are lost?

What do you want when you question or doubt?

What do you want when you worry?

What do you want when you are afraid of revealing yourself?

What do you want always, and forever?

I am not asking these questions rhetorically. Think about your feelings, and what you want in order to relieve that feeling. The examples in the Guiding Thought are meant to be both specific ways that you can act when you are feeling those emotions, and also springboards for you to come up with other ways to give when you are feeling certain emotions.

These are specific examples of the Golden Rule, “do unto others as you would have them do unto you”.

In order to fulfill the Golden Rule, you need to know for yourself what you would want someone to do unto you, so that you can then do that.

Go as deeply as you can into your feeling. Think about where it came from, and when you first started feeling that feeling. What does it relate to? Who was involved? Can you remember feeling that feeling at other points in your life? With other people? What did you want when that emotion was triggered, that you did not get? How did you then respond? Did your response soothe the situation or escalate it?

Most people today do not live by the Golden Rule. Instead, they live by the rule, “Do unto others as you think they have done unto you”. This means: if someone thinks they have been betrayed, they betray; if someone feels put-down, put-upon, or burdened, they treat someone with disdain, cruelty, or disrespect. The overarching theme is, “When I make you feel bad, I feel better”.

But the “feeling better” in this case is not a true feeling better. It’s a band-aid for deeper emotional hurt, a momentary salve to forget how deeply one is wounded.

The true healing comes when you give what you would want to receive. Remember, when you give something you are a) confirming that you already have it b) extending it, growing it, expanding it.

The good news is you can begin small, with people you don’t even know, just to try it out. If you are feeling lonely, and you wish for a true connection, go to the grocery store and give the checkout person a genuine smile; feel it from your heart, and make eye contact. You don’t even need to say anything… or if you say, “have a nice day” (again) feel the words genuinely in your heart, that is enough.

You and other people are not separate–if you are feeling something, then at some level everyone else is, too. You don’t need to know what to say to someone else. You only need to know what you would want to hear and say that.

You heal yourself, when you give to others what you would want to receive. When you heal yourself, you heal the world.

 

Where do you stand? -Fulfillment (1.6.16)

Copyright Tam Black 2018
Designed for susanwithpearls.com

Guiding Thought

Why would you choose to limit yourself? To limit your reality? All reality is yours, and yours to give. In giving and sharing, your Joy increases, expanding Love, expanding your experience of Life!

Sharing

I have moments of being in love with some of the people I work with. Now is one of those moments. Every year at this time, I initiate a project and connect via email with about 75 people…we work on the project for about 7 months via email,  then go our separate ways until this time again next year. I’ve just sent that initiating email, and begun the re-connections. Each and every one of these people is so dear to me–so gracious, kind, and caring. I just love them ALL.

This is just one area of my work-life. Not all my work-related relationships are like this. I still work in an office-atmosphere full of ego and lower-minded pettiness–most of which I do well to avoid (keep my head down…do my job). The contrast is clear to me, though–what is possible, vs. what lower-minded-ego-assertion creates.

The first (loving my colleagues) is full of mutual respect, good/positive communication, caring about the work, cooperation, and a sense of personal responsibility. The second is full of undercutting, backstabbing, non-or-false-communication, competition, and blame.

What is ironic to me is that these are not two separate workplaces. It’s all the same place, just different personalities that create the two atmospheres and experiences.

It only takes a few lower-minded-ego personalities to depress the morale of a place…but it also only takes a few higher-minded, loving, positive personalities to raise it.

Most people are not one or the other. Most people are neutral, and just go with the dominant energy-force, swayed by whatever is in front of them Most people are asleep. Zombies. Unaware that they have a choice.

But everyone has a choice–and more and more people are waking up to that every day. The balance is shifting. More and more people are tired of the Debbie-downers, the competitive personalities that want to win, which means smashing anyone in their path.

I heard a great phrase today: be committed to the process, not to the result.

People who are committed to a result are usually committed to it because they see that result as something that is good for themselves, not for a group, not for another. The result they seek is selfish and self-serving.

People who are committed to a process encourage each other, share with each other, learn from each other–and use those dynamics to unfold a result, rather than impose a result.

So much more is possible with an unfolding–anything can happen, the possibilities are endless.

Do you see, in this extended example how love opens up interaction, communication, and relationships, and how ego-mindedness shuts it down? Do you see how people limit themselves when they don’t choose love? Do you see the possibilities that open up when people bring cooperation, good will, and helpfulness to work, and to relationships? Do you see how joy increases with love, how your experience of Life can increase with Love?

More and more people are waking up. More and more people are noticing the difference in a workplace when there is cooperation, or when there is competition. More and more people are choosing to be positive, to be uplifting, to not just go with the flow of the de-moralizers.

Where are you?