“Do This in Remembrance of Me” -Fulfillment (1.6.25)

Copyright Tam Black 2018
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Guiding Thought

In Divine Mind, we are filled full! All are equally filled full. All are equal in Love. We fill our minds with thoughts of fulfillment and remember what we already know. We are determined to fulfill our purpose, to know our Self as Divine Love, and to share the fullness we are.

This day, first Journey of Fulfillment, 2014
This day, second Journey of Fulfillment, 2016
One year ago–
 What a Difference 10 Days Make: Journey of Peace 2017– Day 22

 

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I don’t know about you, but I am determined to fulfill my purpose. I am determined to know my Self–to remember my Self– as Divine Love, and to do whatever is necessary to know my fulfillment.

I’m passed the stage of looking for the path, for looking for the right tools to get me where I want to go. I am on the path, and I have the tools that will get me there. Or, if I don’t have the tools now, I am confident that other tools will come at an appropriate time.

I’m also passed a lot of the questioning, passed a lot of the doubt, a lot of the fear.

I used to worry often that I “wasn’t doing enough”. I don’t do that anymore. I have certain things that I just do–daily, weekly–and as long as I do those things, I stay ahead of my worry, and I stay “primed”, so to say, in my relationship with my Divine Self, and with God.

I used to have recurring doubt and skepticism. I don’t have those anymore. I have a lot of faith and confidence that I am where I am supposed to be, and that all is as it should be. Even recently, I have been feeling “stuck”, feeling like I should be doing something different, and I always return to a balance point of, “no, this is where I am supposed to be; everything will change when and as it’s supposed to”. This has sometimes been very hard– as in not giving in to a bad habit hard. Doing something, anything has been a habit of distraction, taking me away from listening within, being in the silence, allowing the silence to lead. Although I have been able to prevent myself from doing something for the sake of doing something, I have still felt the impulse, and needed to talk myself down.

I used to compare what I wanted, and where I wanted to be–where I thought I should be–with where I am. They never matched up. I was never as far along as I thought I should be; I was not seeing the results that I thought I “should” be seeing. I don’t do that anymore. Who am I to try to know the mind of God, or God’s plan for my activity in the world? This is a result of doing a lot of work with surrender and letting go.

I would not be as “relaxed” about all of this if it weren’t for staying highly attuned with my Divine Self and having confidence in my relationship with God.

You see, to achieve a spiritual goal, I have needed to let go of all of training about how to achieve something. One cannot attain a spiritual goal using the tools one has learned to achieve material goals. I can’t set a goal, make a list of tasks, plan out a reverse-calendar, then start doing those tasks, checking off the boxes, with each check mark saying, “ok, you’re one step closer”.

With a spiritual goal, it’s not what the tasks are that matter, it’s what I bring to each one. How aware am I? How much love do I consciously bring to every task? How often do I remember to thank God for the Grace of Life? How clear and pure do I keep my mind, my thoughts? How much devotion do I feel as I do every little thing?

With a spiritual goal, every action is a “task” toward that goal, but the check marks only come when I can say, “yes, I did this thinking of God” or “yes, I did that feeling love in my heart”, or “I remembered unity and harmony as I did that”.

This is relatively new for me. All my actions now–to the best of my ability– are devotions to God. Every action is a step on the spiritual path, a step closer to the goal of knowing/remembering my Self, when I do it with awareness and remembrance of the Divine.

 

 

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Ways to support this work:

  1. Hire me as your Spiritual Coach, you may sign up for a personalized Journey with me Click here for more information. Or I offer 1-on-1 spiritual coaching sessions. This is non-religion specific, and open to everyone, even atheists, though of course we would call something like “self-analysis coach” for a self-identified atheist.
  2. Indulge in one of my healing services: Jharra, Reiki, Fire Ceremony (see withpearls.com for more information).
  3. Send me a monetary gift via paypal: paypal.me/SusanBillmaier (please note “gift” in the transaction).
  4. Tell a friend about this site, the coaching or healing services.
  5. Invite me to interview on a podcast or for an article.

All proceeds go toward increasing love, light, and a consciousness of Oneness in the world. Thank you for your contribution that benefits All.

These Journeys are always available on this site at no charge. I also provide Jharra, Reiki, and Fire Ceremonies at no-charge to those who ask.

And So It Is -Fulfillment (1.6.22)

Copyright Tam Black 2018
Designed for susanwithpearls.com

Guiding Thought

We now invite, welcome, and receive the effects of Divine Love, and we are truly grateful.

We experience Divine Mind as we experience these effects, and allow Divine Presence to confirm itself in our lives, activities, and affairs.

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There is more than a little faith necessary when affirming such statements as the Guiding Thought today.

How do I recognize the effects of Divine Love?
How does Divine Love operating in my life feel
How do I know?

Funny…in previous years, I would have (perhaps) felt this as doubt or skepticism. Look how far I’ve come! Now, it’s faith.

I’ve been doing a meditation for a couple of years that uses phrases such as, “and so it is” or “I now accept and know”.

For a long time I had a similar (skeptical-doubtful) comportment to those phrases as to the Guiding Thought: How can I say that something is “so” if I don’t see it? How can I say “I accept and know” something that I don’t know that I accept and know?

For a long time, doing these meditations, saying these phrases, I questioned, I doubted. Much like I used to do here.

But I realized

  • it’s not worth the effort. All that doubt, all that questioning, all that wondering. If I am going to spend that kind of effort, why not spend it confirming the positives in the meditation (or Guiding Thought) rather than feeding the uncertainties?
  • the point is: there is a part of me that does know. That does feel the Divine Presence. That is aware of experiencing the effectsIn affirming, “it is so” or “we receive the effects of Divine Love”, I am affirming the Truth. The more I can affirm the Truth–with faith, if not with certainty, the more I will recognize it when it comes along.

I don’t have to have evidence to quell the doubting Thomas, or to silence the skeptic. Now, I just know that a part of me knows exactly what the words mean. I know that the words are True, that Divine Love is always working in my life.

I still don’t always recognize it. But having faith in the Truth, and in my eventual full consciousness is enough. And I can say with confidence, “it is so”.

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Ways to support this work:

  1. Hire me as your Spiritual Coach, you may sign up for a personalized Journey with me Click here for more information. Or I offer 1-on-1 spiritual coaching sessions. This is non-religion specific, and open to everyone, even atheists, though of course we would call something like “self-analysis coach” for a self-identified atheist.
  2. Indulge in one of my healing services: Jharra, Reiki, Fire Ceremony (see withpearls.com for more information).
  3. Send me a monetary gift via paypal: paypal.me/SusanBillmaier (please note “gift” in the transaction).
  4. Tell a friend about this site, the coaching or healing services.
  5. Invite me to interview on a podcast or for an article.

All proceeds go toward increasing love, light, and a consciousness of Oneness in the world. Thank you for your contribution that benefits All.

These Journeys are always available on this site at no charge. I also provide Jharra, Reiki, and Fire Ceremonies at no-charge to those who ask.

Golden Rule Specifics -Fulfillment (1.6.19)

Copyright Tam Black 2018
Designed for susanwithpearls.com

Guiding Thought

May those who seek, help others find;

May those who sorrow, be compassionate;

May those who are lost, light a path for another;

May those who question or doubt, give guidance;

May those who worry, lift the burden of another;

May those who hide, see their own light in the eyes of a stranger;

May you give peace, no matter what.

Sharing

What do you want when you are seeking?

What do you want when you are sad (or lonely)?

What do you want when you are lost?

What do you want when you question or doubt?

What do you want when you worry?

What do you want when you are afraid of revealing yourself?

What do you want always, and forever?

I am not asking these questions rhetorically. Think about your feelings, and what you want in order to relieve that feeling. The examples in the Guiding Thought are meant to be both specific ways that you can act when you are feeling those emotions, and also springboards for you to come up with other ways to give when you are feeling certain emotions.

These are specific examples of the Golden Rule, “do unto others as you would have them do unto you”.

In order to fulfill the Golden Rule, you need to know for yourself what you would want someone to do unto you, so that you can then do that.

Go as deeply as you can into your feeling. Think about where it came from, and when you first started feeling that feeling. What does it relate to? Who was involved? Can you remember feeling that feeling at other points in your life? With other people? What did you want when that emotion was triggered, that you did not get? How did you then respond? Did your response soothe the situation or escalate it?

Most people today do not live by the Golden Rule. Instead, they live by the rule, “Do unto others as you think they have done unto you”. This means: if someone thinks they have been betrayed, they betray; if someone feels put-down, put-upon, or burdened, they treat someone with disdain, cruelty, or disrespect. The overarching theme is, “When I make you feel bad, I feel better”.

But the “feeling better” in this case is not a true feeling better. It’s a band-aid for deeper emotional hurt, a momentary salve to forget how deeply one is wounded.

The true healing comes when you give what you would want to receive. Remember, when you give something you are a) confirming that you already have it b) extending it, growing it, expanding it.

The good news is you can begin small, with people you don’t even know, just to try it out. If you are feeling lonely, and you wish for a true connection, go to the grocery store and give the checkout person a genuine smile; feel it from your heart, and make eye contact. You don’t even need to say anything… or if you say, “have a nice day” (again) feel the words genuinely in your heart, that is enough.

You and other people are not separate–if you are feeling something, then at some level everyone else is, too. You don’t need to know what to say to someone else. You only need to know what you would want to hear and say that.

You heal yourself, when you give to others what you would want to receive. When you heal yourself, you heal the world.

 

Where do you stand? -Fulfillment (1.6.16)

Copyright Tam Black 2018
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Guiding Thought

Why would you choose to limit yourself? To limit your reality? All reality is yours, and yours to give. In giving and sharing, your Joy increases, expanding Love, expanding your experience of Life!

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I have moments of being in love with some of the people I work with. Now is one of those moments. Every year at this time, I initiate a project and connect via email with about 75 people…we work on the project for about 7 months via email,  then go our separate ways until this time again next year. I’ve just sent that initiating email, and begun the re-connections. Each and every one of these people is so dear to me–so gracious, kind, and caring. I just love them ALL.

This is just one area of my work-life. Not all my work-related relationships are like this. I still work in an office-atmosphere full of ego and lower-minded pettiness–most of which I do well to avoid (keep my head down…do my job). The contrast is clear to me, though–what is possible, vs. what lower-minded-ego-assertion creates.

The first (loving my colleagues) is full of mutual respect, good/positive communication, caring about the work, cooperation, and a sense of personal responsibility. The second is full of undercutting, backstabbing, non-or-false-communication, competition, and blame.

What is ironic to me is that these are not two separate workplaces. It’s all the same place, just different personalities that create the two atmospheres and experiences.

It only takes a few lower-minded-ego personalities to depress the morale of a place…but it also only takes a few higher-minded, loving, positive personalities to raise it.

Most people are not one or the other. Most people are neutral, and just go with the dominant energy-force, swayed by whatever is in front of them Most people are asleep. Zombies. Unaware that they have a choice.

But everyone has a choice–and more and more people are waking up to that every day. The balance is shifting. More and more people are tired of the Debbie-downers, the competitive personalities that want to win, which means smashing anyone in their path.

I heard a great phrase today: be committed to the process, not to the result.

People who are committed to a result are usually committed to it because they see that result as something that is good for themselves, not for a group, not for another. The result they seek is selfish and self-serving.

People who are committed to a process encourage each other, share with each other, learn from each other–and use those dynamics to unfold a result, rather than impose a result.

So much more is possible with an unfolding–anything can happen, the possibilities are endless.

Do you see, in this extended example how love opens up interaction, communication, and relationships, and how ego-mindedness shuts it down? Do you see how people limit themselves when they don’t choose love? Do you see the possibilities that open up when people bring cooperation, good will, and helpfulness to work, and to relationships? Do you see how joy increases with love, how your experience of Life can increase with Love?

More and more people are waking up. More and more people are noticing the difference in a workplace when there is cooperation, or when there is competition. More and more people are choosing to be positive, to be uplifting, to not just go with the flow of the de-moralizers.

Where are you?

Easier -Fulfillment (1.6.12)

Copyright Tam Black 2018
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Guiding Thought

Invite, welcome, and receive the effects of Divine Love now… and be truly grateful. Experience Divine Mind as you experience these effects; allow Divine Presence to confirm itself in your life, activities, and affairs.

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Here’s the sequence:

You invite and welcome Divine Love to enter your life, and be willing to let it operate in your life.

The final sentence of a prayer of Saint John Damascene says this, “But on me a sinner, show the wonder of Thy mercy; in this reveal Thy love for mankind, lest my wickedness prevail over Thine ineffable goodness and merciful kindness; and order my life as Thou wilt”. (emphasis mine).

When you sincerely invite Divine Love to enter your life, be prepared for your life to change. Anything that is not of, in, by, and through Love in your life will be turned upside down, emptied, burned away so that Love may enter purely.

I often say, “I have to remember that I asked for this”. If you are asking for Love, it will come. It may not (at first) feel warm and fuzzy. It may feel chaotic, tumultuous, confusing. Hang in there–that’s Love clearing you out. I recommend breathing a lot, and having some affirmation, prayer, or meditation that you can turn to in an instant to remind you to let go of everything. When you consciously participate in letting go in the moment, every moment, that makes Love’s work faster, and you can get through it (to the warm and fuzzy….) faster.

You: be truly grateful.

This is especially important to remember as/if you experience what I mention above. Be grateful for everything.

YouExperience Divine Mind as you experience these effects.

As often as you can, acknowledge Divine Mind working in your life. Especially after you have asked Divine Love to enter.

Look for instances of Love, acts of kindness, grace, beauty. Set your mind to seeing Love operating in your life. If you can, see everything as Love operating in your life.

Do your best. Find your gratitude, even if it’s by wrote, or by repetition, or totally in your head, or rehearsed. Say small “thanks” throughout the day. Do it for everything. Acknowledge. Acknowledge. Acknowledge.

This brings you more to be grateful for.

All of these add up to: allow Divine Presence to confirm itself in your life, activities, and affairs.

You lay the groundwork.

You set the stage.

You keep the channel clear for Divine Love to work in you and through you.

Divine Presence cannot confirm itself in your life, activities, and affairs unless you have done the work so that It wants to express itself in you and through you.

The good news is, once you have some repetition with this:

invite and welcome — be truly grateful — Acknowledge. Acknowledge. Acknowledge — invite and welcome — be truly grateful — Acknowledge. Acknowledge. Acknowledge — invite and welcome — be truly grateful — Acknowledge. Acknowledge. Acknowledge.

You create this pattern in your consciousness, which gives momentum to the energy behind the Presence of Love, which makes it easier (yes, it gets easier) to be in Love, allow Love, and experience Love’s confirmation of your hard work.

 

Happy -Fulfillment (1.6.7)

Copyright Tam Black 2018
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Guiding Thought

My joy unifies! Accepting my own joy—acknowledging it, sharing it, and expressing it—heals myself and others. To be wholly joyful means to be wholly love…means to be wholly my Self.

 

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“Be a dynamo of irrepressible Joy!” ~Haidakhan Babaji

I’ve been pretty dang close to living in the reality of this Guiding Thought! I have been oddly happy lately. Oddly both in the quality of the happiness, and in how uncharacteristic it feels (I’m a very serious person, dontcha know).

The quality of the happiness has been what feels like a combination of energy, peace, and good will. Energy: have you ever watched a horse playing in a meadow on a cool morning, after eating breakfast?

Or watched a cat tearing it up, running and jumping all over the house?

Yeah, the energy feels like that, but totally infused with Peace, which adds a subdued, low-key overtone to the Energy. With all the messes in the world (hurricane and its aftermath, political mess, people so hateful and cruel…you know what I’m talking about), I’ve wondered how I can be so peaceful and happy. I should be covered up in worry, and uncertainty, and distrust, and doubt…but I’m not. I see it. I see the destruction. I feel for the people and the animals who were so affected by Florence, by the West Coast fires, by the Volcano…but I am also somehow peaceful about it…the kind of feeling like “all is well; all is as it should be”. If/when you really live from that space and believe that all is well and all is as it should be, there’s no reason to be disturbed or affected by what is going on around you.

Good Will I am loving people lately. Love as in just enjoying every person’s uniqueness; I see so much value in difference, and in everyone…because everyone is different. And because I have this feeling of loving a person just for being who they are, I also feel like I want that love to support and encourage them, just for being.

What I have been finding is that expressing and sharing this Joy, this happiness comes naturally when I really live in that space authentically. I don’t have to do anything to “make it happen”. I just have to continue doing what I am doing to keep the path clear for it to come out.

It is also seems to be naturally healing. People seem drawn to me more lately (I’ve had more lunch “dates” in the past couple months than I have in the previous year!), and I can tell that people gain something unspokenly positive, or uplifting when we interact. Again, it’s not like I am trying to do something, but people seem naturally more at ease (or peace), they smile quickly and easily, we talk, and really connect (not that superficial conversation stuff)… and I feel like all of this has become possible simply because I have been happy.

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Ways to support this work:

  1. Hire me as your Spiritual Coach, you may sign up for a personalized Journey with me Click here for more information. Or I offer 1-on-1 spiritual coaching sessions. This is non-religion specific, and open to everyone, even atheists, though of course we would call something like “self-analysis coach” for a self-identified atheist.
  2. Indulge in one of my healing services: Jharra, Reiki, Fire Ceremony (see withpearls.com for more information).
  3. Send me a monetary gift via paypal: paypal.me/SusanBillmaier (please note “gift” in the transaction).
  4. Tell a friend about this site, the coaching or healing services.
  5. Invite me to interview on a podcast or for an article.

All proceeds go toward increasing love, light, and a consciousness of Oneness in the world. Thank you for your contribution that benefits All.

These Journeys are always available on this site at no charge. I also provide Jharra, Reiki, and Fire Ceremonies at no-charge to those who ask.

Swaha! -Abundance (1.5.32)

Copyright Tam Black 2018
Designed for susanwithpearls.com

Guiding Thought

I choose to expand my consciousness and open my heart to Divine Love’s flow within me. Realizing my own Divine Presence, I know God as the Source and Fulfillment of all my good.

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This is the (approximate) image that I have had lately about opening my heart.

It’s a bit corny for a spiritual journey, I know.

I see myself ripping open my chest, to expose my (energy) heart, as though it is growing too large for my chest to contain.

On the one hand, I have been feeling bombarded by emotion–some of which is “mine”, but a lot of it feels like it’s coming through me from the past, from my relatives, from other people, from the very air.

The emotion that is “mine” generally has to do with my relationship with God, and doing what S/He wants me to do: being assured that I am on the right path. These emotions generally are connected with letting go of ego/the lower self. It doesn’t matter what the specific emotion is (doubt, anger, confusion, etc), the overarching feeling is a ripping away. Imagine a child not wanting to go >wherever< and being dragged by the parent. That child is my lower self, the parent is God.

Despite all my asking for spiritual evolution, there are still parts of me (the child…) which cannot seem to let go, that want to stay stuck.

And

It’s only because of my persistent, consistent, heartfelt, sincere, intention and determination to evolve spiritually, that I am being blessed with this dragging-away of my lower self.

It does not always feel like a blessing, but it is.

The emotions that are not mine, sometimes take me a while to identify as not mine. I’ll be feeling an emotion intensely (most recently: lost, alone, unloved, confused about why I am not loved, not taken care of…), and at the same time thinking, “what is this?” because these emotions are not familiar to me–you know what I’m talking about? There are emotions that you are used to, patterns, if you will, that when you have them, you know what they are, and you know why you have them, so….no surprise. These emotions were a surprise. When I looked at them more closely, I realized they did not originate within me (i.e. this physical body, this personality as it has grown up as “me”), but I could see a family pattern of these emotions. So I did some ancestral healing.

The main thing I’ve been focusing on, to continue to open my heart, despite the intensity and tumultuous emotions is saying/thinking, “Swaha” or “Not mine, Yours”… in other words, giving everything to God. Continuously. Keeping my heart open to allow the flow, giving everything up, opening to more flow.

It really is a blessing….