Crossing the Bridge Both Ways –Journey of Beauty 02.09.19

Guiding Thought

How do you distinguish fundamental beauty from fleeting, or superficial, beauty? What is the nature of illusion? What is the nature of dis-illusion? How do you get through illusion to Truth?

Reflection / Contemplation

It is in service to Beauty and this writing project that I disclose, yet another, collection I have. It is pens. My best friend from college and I are both in danger when we happen to be in an art or book store. “Do I need another pen? Yes. No. How many pens do I have? Oh this is beautiful. You have to get it.” We banter back and forth and in most cases, yes, we get the pen or pen sets.

I am picky about pens. What I love is the feel of the pen, the line and color of the ink, and yes, the aesthetics and look of the pen itself. Pens are in the forefront of my brain these days, because I am longing to get my hands on a piece of Beauty, this fountain pen that I see in a catalogue.

With this in mind, I am taken into the world of Ken Wilbur, a contemporary philosopher whose works attend to integral theory and consciousness. I like how he talks about Truth: little “t” and big “T”. Little “t” includes facts, data, science. Big “T” attends to the bigger and not so easily defined realities which are in the realm of philosophers, theologians, metaphysicians, cosmologists, etc.

I can easily exchange the letters to little “b’ and big “B” for today’s guiding thoughts on Beauty. I am given to wonder if, and how much my collection of rocks, mantras, and, pens (and all the others I have as yet to divulge…ugh), are fleeting or fundamental. In the beginning of this project, I stated that I must be exposed to or create Beauty on a daily basis. Does this include pens?

We are incarnational beings, and our senses are a primary conduit for both the witnessing and the expression of Beauty. We have to have little “b” and big “B”, just like we have to have little “t” and big “T”. How can we not?
The rocks, the pens, the “whatever”, I know are fleeting; they will go away, but I do know that they offer a bridge to the big “B” if I allow it. It is infusing meaning into the “explicate” order of things. I’d like to think we get to practice walking both ways on the bridge.

Guest Contributor Lita Artis

 

 

 

 

 

 

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Here is the schedule:

Apr 18 Preliminary day Introduction: Why A Journey of Beauty (02.10.0)
Apr 19 Preliminary day Commitment and Dedication (02.10.00)
Apr 20 – 29 Days 01-10 Round One (02.10.01-10)
Apr 30 – May 9 Days 11-20 Round Two (02.10.11-20)
May 10 – 19 Days 21-30 Round Three (02.10.21-30)
May 20 – 29 Days 31-40 Round Four (02.10.31-40)
May 30 – June 8 Reflection days Gently care, de-fuse, and write one day of reflection on the Journey (02.10.41)

Ground-Level Perspective –Journey of Courage 02.09.24

Guiding Thought

We are safe in Divine Love’s assurance. We have the courage to face the ignorance and illusions within ourselves and root them out. We allow the Light of Love to enter our minds and hearts. Divine Love shines within us destroying anything false, transforming us from within.

Contemplation / Reflection

I am looking for the ignorance and illusions within myself. I think they’re pretty darned well hidden! I recall putting on a pair of roller blades for the first time and taking off down a hill. I’d done a lot of ice skating and had the illusion that I knew how to slow down or stop if I was going too fast. Well, on ice skates, there are serrations on the toe that help slow you. Imagine my amazement when that didn’t work with roller blades. There’s a rubber bumper on the heel that slows and stops you. So there I was, sitting on the concrete path with scraped and bloody elbows. My companions, seeing me take off like a shot, labeled me “fearless”. I labeled myself ignorant! But I didn’t break anything, so I guess Divine Love assured me, there was hope of rooting out that ignorance.

 

Guest Contributor Mary Wallace

 

 

 

 

 

Journey of Courage is now available as a free book.
You no longer need to wait for the Guiding Thoughts to be posted here daily–you may move at your own pace. This link will take you to the document in Dropbox; you may download it from there.

I accept donations and gifts via paypal: paypal.me/SusanBillmaier Thank you for the energy exchange!

Journey of Beauty Begins April 18!

Apr 18 Preliminary day Introduction: Why A Journey of Beauty (02.10.0)
Apr 19 Preliminary day Commitment and Dedication (02.10.00)

Apr 20 – 29 Days 01-10 Round One (02.10.01-10)
Apr 30 – May 9 Days 11-20 Round Two (02.10.11-20)
May 10 – 19 Days 21-30 Round Three (02.10.21-30)
May 20 – 29 Days 31-40 Round Four (02.10.31-40)

May 30 – June 8 Reflection days Gently care, de-fuse, and write one day of reflection on the Journey (02.10.41)

Sunshine on My Shoulders –Journey of Courage 02.09.19

Guiding Thought

Accept your light and my lightness! Feel your Self expand! As you perceive change around you, remain anchored in your Being of Light. Allow yourself to sit peacefully in the still place of nothingness as life moves quickly around you.

Contemplation / Reflection

Spring has rather suddenly arrived where I live. The sun has been shining, crocus and daffodils are beginning to bloom, the first of the cherry blossoms are peeking out. It’s easy to accept my light and lightness on days like this. But what about other days when it’s rainy or cold or windy? Or what about the change all around me. They say the only thing permanent is change. I watch the news and it doesn’t feel like “good” change. So, I sit by the window where the sun shines through and warms me. And I think “sunshine on my shoulders makes me happy”. I can have that thought even on cloudy days, and it warms me and I feel lighter.  Seems like I’ve been spending a lot of time “in the still place of nothingness” lately. Sometimes I feel guilty, like I “should” be doing something more productive. Then I think that being a little corner of peace and light in a fast-paced hectic world IS doing something. And I do my best to let that peace and light carry with me when I wander out into the world.

Guest Contributor Mary Wallace

 

 

 

 

 

Journey of Courage is now available as a free book.
You no longer need to wait for the Guiding Thoughts to be posted here daily–you may move at your own pace. This link will take you to the document in Dropbox; you may download it from there.

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Again and Again –Journey of Courage 02.09.11

Guiding Thought

Life is a process of Self-discovery. Embrace All of Life, for All of Life is who you are! As you embrace Life as your Self, you come to understand Life as yourself. Life embraces you gently and joyfully in return.

Contemplation / Reflection

Several years ago I participated in a number of “personal growth” trainings and workshops. At the time, after years involved in these activities, I sincerely thought, “I got it”. After all, I’d walked on fire, broken a board with one stroke of my hand, spent days in silent retreat, laughed, cried, shouted out any anger within and learned to love the least attractive (to me) person in the group, and to love myself.  What more was there?  I’d done it! Ah, the ego speaks! It wasn’t long before I learned the lesson of this Guiding Thought, Life is a PROCESS of Self-discovery. You don’t get to do it just once and be done with it.  Because the only thing permanent is change, that means I also change, day-to-day or minute-by-minute. And that change is what All of Life is, everything around me, and me. To me, it’s like the idea of “enlightenment”. Maybe I’m not really “there” at all, but it seems to me that even an enlightened state is a process. Does it happen just once and last a life-time? Or does it happen again and again, what it means to be enlightened changing from moment to moment just like everything else in life? Now there’s another question I don’t truly have an answer to. So I continue to embrace Life’s process of Self-discovery, like taking this Journey of Courage. Today, it truly is a joyful journey, Life embracing me joyfully and lovingly. If I continue to rejoice in the ups and downs, the struggles and frustrations, I learn (again and again) to love the Journey itself.

 

Guest Contributor Mary Wallace

 

 

 

 

 

Journey of Courage is now available as a free book.
You no longer need to wait for the Guiding Thoughts to be posted here daily–you may move at your own pace. This link will take you to the document in Dropbox; you may download it from there.

Become a Guest Contributor
If you think you might possibly like to be a guest contributor at some point for a future Journey (taking your next courageous step!), as Mary is doing now, please email me: susan@withpearls.com. We can talk. Smooth. Easy. No pressure. Just take that step and we’ll see how it goes from there.

Journey of Gratitude– Why? (2.8.0)

Greetings in Love and Light! Welcome to a new year.

Today begins Journey of Gratitude. Let’s go! I’m glad you’re here. I’m glad I’m here. I am already so thankful to be here, with you now, doing this work.

Think and write about why you would like to spend 40 days thinking about, contemplating, and practicing gratitute. Feel free to share with me privately by email, or publicly below.

Why

Back in December, during Journey of Rest, I was having intense waves of gratitude almost daily. I would think about my life, about the support and love that I have, about my relationship with the Great Mystery; I thought about Jesus and what He brought into the world; I thought about being a drop in an infinite ocean, aware of itself, of the ocean, and of its relationship with all the other drops; I would think about how beautiful this life is, the inter-connectivity of everything, and how amazing and wondrous it all is,  and I would (sometimes) just weep with love and joy at how thankful I felt.

At that time, I recognized how gratitude was a doorway for Love. If I didn’t feel Love, I could focus on feeling thankful, and then Love was a breath away.

I thought, “I got this. Journey of Gratitude is going to be so easy. Do I even need a Journey of Gratitude? I just need to stay in this space forever!”

But you know, “this too shall pass”. I usually say that when something is a struggle, but really, it’s true otherwise, as all things are impermanent and changing (until we realize and live our True, eternal selves, anyway).

For the life of me, I have not been able to re-capture that intense feeling of gratitude since around December 23 (right before Christmas). I’m not saying that I haven’t felt thankful. But there’s a difference in mental-practices of gratitude and recognizing things to be thankful for, and the kind of gratitude that overwhelms with emotions of love and joy so much that tears flow.

I think my experiences in December (pre-December 23) were the teaser. “You see? This is what is possible. Are you there yet? No? Keep going.”

So here I am, an ideal in mind as a carrot on a stick, slogging toward it.

I knew I was going to have to write Why today, and I’ve been thinking and thinking about where I’m at with this, juxtaposing my recent loving/joyful gratitude experiences with how I actually feel right here right now.

It would be a cop out to say simply, “I want to work toward that (the ideal, mindlessly following a carrot on a stick). Yeah. It is that, but it’s also more than that.

I want to open my heart to expand in giving and receiving more love.
And gratitude does that.

I want to be of True Service–recognizing and living in the space of knowing what an honor (and responsibility!) it is to serve All in Love.
And gratitude does that.

I want to serve joyfully, inexhaustibly, according to my True, Highest Purpose.
And gratitude does that.

I want to remember my commitment–remember what I really want–which is to continue reaching every day, every hour, every minute with 100% of my being toward Infinite Love and Light.
And…I’m not sure if gratitude does that, but I’m going to treat this like an experiment to find out.

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Tomorrow is the commitment and dedication! Then we start the 40-days of contemplation. Remember with this Journey  to get out your crayons, markers, pencils, and get ready to draw/create. Gratitude is especially pre-disposed toward the right/creative/aesthetic brain.

 

 

 

“Do This in Remembrance of Me” -Fulfillment (1.6.25)

Copyright Tam Black 2018
Designed for susanwithpearls.com

Guiding Thought

In Divine Mind, we are filled full! All are equally filled full. All are equal in Love. We fill our minds with thoughts of fulfillment and remember what we already know. We are determined to fulfill our purpose, to know our Self as Divine Love, and to share the fullness we are.

This day, first Journey of Fulfillment, 2014
This day, second Journey of Fulfillment, 2016
One year ago–
 What a Difference 10 Days Make: Journey of Peace 2017– Day 22

 

Sharing

I don’t know about you, but I am determined to fulfill my purpose. I am determined to know my Self–to remember my Self– as Divine Love, and to do whatever is necessary to know my fulfillment.

I’m passed the stage of looking for the path, for looking for the right tools to get me where I want to go. I am on the path, and I have the tools that will get me there. Or, if I don’t have the tools now, I am confident that other tools will come at an appropriate time.

I’m also passed a lot of the questioning, passed a lot of the doubt, a lot of the fear.

I used to worry often that I “wasn’t doing enough”. I don’t do that anymore. I have certain things that I just do–daily, weekly–and as long as I do those things, I stay ahead of my worry, and I stay “primed”, so to say, in my relationship with my Divine Self, and with God.

I used to have recurring doubt and skepticism. I don’t have those anymore. I have a lot of faith and confidence that I am where I am supposed to be, and that all is as it should be. Even recently, I have been feeling “stuck”, feeling like I should be doing something different, and I always return to a balance point of, “no, this is where I am supposed to be; everything will change when and as it’s supposed to”. This has sometimes been very hard– as in not giving in to a bad habit hard. Doing something, anything has been a habit of distraction, taking me away from listening within, being in the silence, allowing the silence to lead. Although I have been able to prevent myself from doing something for the sake of doing something, I have still felt the impulse, and needed to talk myself down.

I used to compare what I wanted, and where I wanted to be–where I thought I should be–with where I am. They never matched up. I was never as far along as I thought I should be; I was not seeing the results that I thought I “should” be seeing. I don’t do that anymore. Who am I to try to know the mind of God, or God’s plan for my activity in the world? This is a result of doing a lot of work with surrender and letting go.

I would not be as “relaxed” about all of this if it weren’t for staying highly attuned with my Divine Self and having confidence in my relationship with God.

You see, to achieve a spiritual goal, I have needed to let go of all of training about how to achieve something. One cannot attain a spiritual goal using the tools one has learned to achieve material goals. I can’t set a goal, make a list of tasks, plan out a reverse-calendar, then start doing those tasks, checking off the boxes, with each check mark saying, “ok, you’re one step closer”.

With a spiritual goal, it’s not what the tasks are that matter, it’s what I bring to each one. How aware am I? How much love do I consciously bring to every task? How often do I remember to thank God for the Grace of Life? How clear and pure do I keep my mind, my thoughts? How much devotion do I feel as I do every little thing?

With a spiritual goal, every action is a “task” toward that goal, but the check marks only come when I can say, “yes, I did this thinking of God” or “yes, I did that feeling love in my heart”, or “I remembered unity and harmony as I did that”.

This is relatively new for me. All my actions now–to the best of my ability– are devotions to God. Every action is a step on the spiritual path, a step closer to the goal of knowing/remembering my Self, when I do it with awareness and remembrance of the Divine.

 

 

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  2. Indulge in one of my healing services: Jharra, Reiki, Fire Ceremony (see withpearls.com for more information).
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All proceeds go toward increasing love, light, and a consciousness of Oneness in the world. Thank you for your contribution that benefits All.

These Journeys are always available on this site at no charge. I also provide Jharra, Reiki, and Fire Ceremonies at no-charge to those who ask.

And So It Is -Fulfillment (1.6.22)

Copyright Tam Black 2018
Designed for susanwithpearls.com

Guiding Thought

We now invite, welcome, and receive the effects of Divine Love, and we are truly grateful.

We experience Divine Mind as we experience these effects, and allow Divine Presence to confirm itself in our lives, activities, and affairs.

Sharing

There is more than a little faith necessary when affirming such statements as the Guiding Thought today.

How do I recognize the effects of Divine Love?
How does Divine Love operating in my life feel
How do I know?

Funny…in previous years, I would have (perhaps) felt this as doubt or skepticism. Look how far I’ve come! Now, it’s faith.

I’ve been doing a meditation for a couple of years that uses phrases such as, “and so it is” or “I now accept and know”.

For a long time I had a similar (skeptical-doubtful) comportment to those phrases as to the Guiding Thought: How can I say that something is “so” if I don’t see it? How can I say “I accept and know” something that I don’t know that I accept and know?

For a long time, doing these meditations, saying these phrases, I questioned, I doubted. Much like I used to do here.

But I realized

  • it’s not worth the effort. All that doubt, all that questioning, all that wondering. If I am going to spend that kind of effort, why not spend it confirming the positives in the meditation (or Guiding Thought) rather than feeding the uncertainties?
  • the point is: there is a part of me that does know. That does feel the Divine Presence. That is aware of experiencing the effectsIn affirming, “it is so” or “we receive the effects of Divine Love”, I am affirming the Truth. The more I can affirm the Truth–with faith, if not with certainty, the more I will recognize it when it comes along.

I don’t have to have evidence to quell the doubting Thomas, or to silence the skeptic. Now, I just know that a part of me knows exactly what the words mean. I know that the words are True, that Divine Love is always working in my life.

I still don’t always recognize it. But having faith in the Truth, and in my eventual full consciousness is enough. And I can say with confidence, “it is so”.

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Ways to support this work:

  1. Hire me as your Spiritual Coach, you may sign up for a personalized Journey with me Click here for more information. Or I offer 1-on-1 spiritual coaching sessions. This is non-religion specific, and open to everyone, even atheists, though of course we would call something like “self-analysis coach” for a self-identified atheist.
  2. Indulge in one of my healing services: Jharra, Reiki, Fire Ceremony (see withpearls.com for more information).
  3. Send me a monetary gift via paypal: paypal.me/SusanBillmaier (please note “gift” in the transaction).
  4. Tell a friend about this site, the coaching or healing services.
  5. Invite me to interview on a podcast or for an article.

All proceeds go toward increasing love, light, and a consciousness of Oneness in the world. Thank you for your contribution that benefits All.

These Journeys are always available on this site at no charge. I also provide Jharra, Reiki, and Fire Ceremonies at no-charge to those who ask.