Journey of Gratitude– Why? (2.8.0)

Greetings in Love and Light! Welcome to a new year.

Today begins Journey of Gratitude. Let’s go! I’m glad you’re here. I’m glad I’m here. I am already so thankful to be here, with you now, doing this work.

Think and write about why you would like to spend 40 days thinking about, contemplating, and practicing gratitute. Feel free to share with me privately by email, or publicly below.

Why

Back in December, during Journey of Rest, I was having intense waves of gratitude almost daily. I would think about my life, about the support and love that I have, about my relationship with the Great Mystery; I thought about Jesus and what He brought into the world; I thought about being a drop in an infinite ocean, aware of itself, of the ocean, and of its relationship with all the other drops; I would think about how beautiful this life is, the inter-connectivity of everything, and how amazing and wondrous it all is,  and I would (sometimes) just weep with love and joy at how thankful I felt.

At that time, I recognized how gratitude was a doorway for Love. If I didn’t feel Love, I could focus on feeling thankful, and then Love was a breath away.

I thought, “I got this. Journey of Gratitude is going to be so easy. Do I even need a Journey of Gratitude? I just need to stay in this space forever!”

But you know, “this too shall pass”. I usually say that when something is a struggle, but really, it’s true otherwise, as all things are impermanent and changing (until we realize and live our True, eternal selves, anyway).

For the life of me, I have not been able to re-capture that intense feeling of gratitude since around December 23 (right before Christmas). I’m not saying that I haven’t felt thankful. But there’s a difference in mental-practices of gratitude and recognizing things to be thankful for, and the kind of gratitude that overwhelms with emotions of love and joy so much that tears flow.

I think my experiences in December (pre-December 23) were the teaser. “You see? This is what is possible. Are you there yet? No? Keep going.”

So here I am, an ideal in mind as a carrot on a stick, slogging toward it.

I knew I was going to have to write Why today, and I’ve been thinking and thinking about where I’m at with this, juxtaposing my recent loving/joyful gratitude experiences with how I actually feel right here right now.

It would be a cop out to say simply, “I want to work toward that (the ideal, mindlessly following a carrot on a stick). Yeah. It is that, but it’s also more than that.

I want to open my heart to expand in giving and receiving more love.
And gratitude does that.

I want to be of True Service–recognizing and living in the space of knowing what an honor (and responsibility!) it is to serve All in Love.
And gratitude does that.

I want to serve joyfully, inexhaustibly, according to my True, Highest Purpose.
And gratitude does that.

I want to remember my commitment–remember what I really want–which is to continue reaching every day, every hour, every minute with 100% of my being toward Infinite Love and Light.
And…I’m not sure if gratitude does that, but I’m going to treat this like an experiment to find out.

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Tomorrow is the commitment and dedication! Then we start the 40-days of contemplation. Remember with this Journey  to get out your crayons, markers, pencils, and get ready to draw/create. Gratitude is especially pre-disposed toward the right/creative/aesthetic brain.

 

 

 

Working Toward Embodying Light -Fulfillment (1.6.40)

 

Copyright Tam Black 2018
Designed for susanwithpearls.com

Guiding Thought

I am light. My body is light. I am free. I know my fulfillment: I feel it rise within me, expand out from me.

Sharing

Welcome to day 40! How did you do? Were you consistent daily? Did you contemplate your ideal (or the Guiding Thought) for at least 5 minutes per day? Did you dig deep, expand your self-knowledge, and learn about how you approach life? Whew. That’s a lot to do and expect of yourself. If you did anything at all toward self-awareness, and learning about how you choose to live life…give yourself a hug, or at least a pat on the back. You’ve done some good work. Now it’s time to take a break. Breathe for a few days, normalize a bit, then take some time to read back over what you have written over the past 40 days, and reflect on where you were, where you are, and what you think you learned over the course of this Journey. I’ll do the same. But now…day 40!

Just in the past two weeks, I’ve been trying some new things to increase my inner-light-awareness.

I have always wanted to be light. I used to–and I suppose I still do–draw myself with so much inner light that it radiates outward everywhere. I used to feel the light bubble up within me, and flow out my eyes and hands. I’ve always believed somewhere deep down, that I am light. Of course, I’ve had to reconcile this with my experience of being a dense, 3rd-dimensional, material body/person…which is what I live with day after day after day… yet for some reason, I still think I am light. I think some how, some way, I can be light, not this heavy, dense, material body. So today’s Guiding Thought has special significance for me–I’ve been working at this since I was a teenager!

I am not daunted that I haven’t figured it out yet. I will. We all will, sooner or later. I just keep working at it and trying stuff.

So in the past two weeks, I’ve started taking a fish oil that is high in anti-oxidants, which is supposed to cleanse (de-calcify) the pineal gland. There are those who believe the pineal gland is the seat of the third-eye, the spiritual eye. It is the seat of true vision, manifestation, and higher communication. Apparently, things like chlorine, fluoride, and bromine calicify the pineal gland and inhibit its proper function. So I’m trying it out. It’s only been a few days, and I have nothing to report, but if all goes well, my third eye will open and I will be that much closer to giving/receiving light!

Secondly, I’ve been carrying around crystals. I have this beautiful quartz crystal that fits across the palm of my hand (about 4″ x 1.5-2″)–and I can wrap my fingers around it…So I’ve been carrying it, sleeping with it. This behavior is not completely new; I’ve had this crystal for over two decades, and it accompanies me during certain times in my life.

Finally, I’ve been sleeping with music which entrains the mind with delta brainwaves. That’s “just” a sleep entrainment, nothing fancy–no binaural beats or subliminal affirmations, but since cleaning the pineal gland is supposed to open the vision/dreaming faculty, I figure better sleep won’t hurt.

All of this is to continue progressing upward. Call it frequency, call it sound, call it light, call it vibration, call it consciousness, call it what you will. It’s about embodying more and more energy, love, and light. Being able to handle it and then radiate it.

 

 

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Ways to support this work:

  1. Hire me as your Spiritual Coach, you may sign up for a personalized Journey with me Click here for more information. Or I offer 1-on-1 spiritual coaching sessions. This is non-religion specific, and open to everyone, even atheists, though of course we would call something like “self-analysis coach” for a self-identified atheist.
  2. Indulge in one of my healing services: Jharra, Reiki, Fire Ceremony (see withpearls.com for more information).
  3. Send me a monetary gift via paypal: paypal.me/SusanBillmaier (please note “gift” in the transaction).
  4. Tell a friend about this site, the coaching or healing services.
  5. Invite me to interview on a podcast or for an article.

All proceeds go toward increasing love, light, and a consciousness of Oneness in the world. Thank you for your contribution that benefits All.

These Journeys are always available on this site at no charge. I also provide Jharra, Reiki, and Fire Ceremonies at no-charge to those who ask.

It’s Okay to Be Yourself -Fulfillment (1.6.39)

Copyright Tam Black 2018
Designed for susanwithpearls.com

Guiding Thought

May those who seek help others find;

May those who sorrow be compassionate;

May those who are lost, light a path for another;

May those who question or doubt give guidance;

May those who worry lift the burden of another;

May those who hide see their own light in the eyes of a stranger;

May we all give peace, no matter what.

Sharing

Today, I just finished reading The Law of One, by Ra, a humble messenger of the Law of One, Book I.

After reading this book, I recognize that concepts like today’s Guiding Thought are not going to appeal to many people–the ideas are nice in theory, but hard in practice to many. Very few people, apparently are oriented toward service to others; more people are oriented toward service to self (as in their individual self), and “giving peace, no matter what” is not an easy or a natural extension of service to self.

My mind has really opened to the many, various paths that people are on, after reading this book. Prior to reading the Ra Material, I now recognize that I thought there were “better” or “higher” paths–and that ideas such as those contained in the Guiding Thoughts represent those “better” or “higher” paths. But now… I am re-thinking, reconsidering, re-working, integrating new ideas and concepts. Expansion and growth, now that’s what the Journey is about–finding unexpected surprises and integrating those understandings into a greater/deeper understanding of the variety of life-experiences.

Let me be clear: This does not mean that I would necessarily integrate ideas or concepts into my own “identity”, or accept the energy or vibration for myself, but it does mean that I am more accepting (non-judgmental) of others who might think/feel/behave differently than I would on my path.

Here is how the ideas from the book break down for me, regarding this:

There is only one law: the law of One. This is not a difficult concept for me; I’ve been working with this idea for several years now. “I am not the ocean, but the ocean and I are one”. We are all not the ocean, yet one with the ocean. This is a hard concept for a lot of people. One way to warm up to it, is to let your mind wander into the ideas of infinity and eternity. Just muse about those concepts on a daily basis, they will plant seeds to help in accepting the law of One.

We all serve God, regardless… Everyone serves God. Period.

There are two orientations that people can take to serve God: Service to self (as in the individual self) or Service to other (as in other people, what could be called “humanitarian” in the most expansive sense).

Although we choose which orientation we want, we do so consciously only after we have been in the habit or behavior of it for some time.

Because we have free will, we can always switch our orientation.

These two orientations balance each other. Service to self is known as the “negative” orientation; service to others is known as “positive” orientation. These are not value-judgments of “good” or “bad”, because everyone serves God regardless of which orientation they choose.

Service to self seeks God because service to self is service to All. Service to self uses manipulation, control and power to seek God.

Service to others seeks God, through service to others and uses love, understanding and compassion. This orientation increases the learning/growth exponentially because rather than a 1 to 1 relationship (as with service to self, which only serves self), there is a 1 to many relationship, which spreads out like roots or branches, to all those served.

There are far fewer people currently on the planet who are oriented toward service to others. Both paths are difficult–and we humans have been through so much in our history, dampening our consciousness of seeking God.

This is what encourages me about this:

We are all serving God.  This may be hard to swallow, especially with all of the social-political-ideological disagreements going on these days. But what if you could view everyone as serving God? What if you knew in your heart that regardless of external polarities and disagreements, that everything and everyone is unified in God?

God is with us. God is paying attention. God wants us to seek him, and wants us to realize our oneness with him/her. S/He has not abandoned us–we are all serving the One Infinite Creator.

Know yourself. Be yourself. Walk your path. Be aware! Understand your choices. Choose consciously. Whatever you do, whoever you are, dig deep into yourself and be yourself. Be authentic. Follow your heart. Don’t worry, there is no wrong…just learn, and seek, and learn, and seek.

 

 

 

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Ways to support this work:

  1. Hire me as your Spiritual Coach, you may sign up for a personalized Journey with me Click here for more information. Or I offer 1-on-1 spiritual coaching sessions. This is non-religion specific, and open to everyone, even atheists, though of course we would call something like “self-analysis coach” for a self-identified atheist.
  2. Indulge in one of my healing services: Jharra, Reiki, Fire Ceremony (see withpearls.com for more information).
  3. Send me a monetary gift via paypal: paypal.me/SusanBillmaier (please note “gift” in the transaction).
  4. Tell a friend about this site, the coaching or healing services.
  5. Invite me to interview on a podcast or for an article.

All proceeds go toward increasing love, light, and a consciousness of Oneness in the world. Thank you for your contribution that benefits All.

These Journeys are always available on this site at no charge. I also provide Jharra, Reiki, and Fire Ceremonies at no-charge to those who ask.

How Can I Be Right for Somebody Else? -Fulfillment (1.6.38)

Copyright Tam Black 2018
Designed for susanwithpearls.com

Guiding Thought

My motivation is my choice. My intention is my choice. My will is my choice. In Peace, I listen within for guidance so that my actions are motivated by joy, my intentions are love, and my Will is simply to share Joy and Love.

Sharing

Any wavering in motivation or intention potentially opens you up to influences to persuade you (or manipulate you) in a direction that you may or may not want.

If you are not clear about the direction you are headed, you are susceptible to being lead down anyone’s path.

It is so important for you to know yourself. What do you want, really want? Do you have material goals or spiritual goals? Do you want to serve yourself or serve others? Do you care about your own progress, your own evolution? What direction are you going? What are you doing to go in that direction?

If you do not decide these things for yourself, so that you know in your heart what is right for you, then how do you know if you are on your path, or on a path that someone else is suggesting for you?

There is no “right” path. There is no “wrong” path. You do not need to be altruistic, dedicating yourself in service to humanity. You do not need to be a saint or a buddha. You do not need to have no bad habits, no vices.

But it is becoming very important for you to become aware of who you are, as a person. What motivates you? What are your core intentions? What direction are you heading, what direction do you want to head? Where do you find peace? Where do you find Joy? Where do you invest your time? Do you care about other people? Do you care about the world we live in?

Who are you as you walk through this life?

This life is here for you to learn and grow and go as far as you can within this personality that you have the opportunity to experience.

Why should you know yourself? Because life is more fun when you understand who you are, how you interact in the world, and live consciously, making choices that benefit you and your path. You are the most important person in your life. Be a person you love, and would love to be around.

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Ways to support this work:

  1. Hire me as your Spiritual Coach, you may sign up for a personalized Journey with me Click here for more information. Or I offer 1-on-1 spiritual coaching sessions. This is non-religion specific, and open to everyone, even atheists, though of course we would call something like “self-analysis coach” for a self-identified atheist.
  2. Indulge in one of my healing services: Jharra, Reiki, Fire Ceremony (see withpearls.com for more information).
  3. Send me a monetary gift via paypal: paypal.me/SusanBillmaier (please note “gift” in the transaction).
  4. Tell a friend about this site, the coaching or healing services.
  5. Invite me to interview on a podcast or for an article.

All proceeds go toward increasing love, light, and a consciousness of Oneness in the world. Thank you for your contribution that benefits All.

These Journeys are always available on this site at no charge. I also provide Jharra, Reiki, and Fire Ceremonies at no-charge to those who ask.

Love Expresses Through Us, As Us -Fulfillment (1.6.24)

Copyright Tam Black 2018
Designed for susanwithpearls.com

Guiding Thought

Our Self wills only to extend itself. Extending, sharing, and creating as Divine Love, through Divine Mind, is our sole purpose. Our Self knows its fullness in Divine Love and wills only to liberate us to fulfill our purpose and release our Joy.

This day, first Journey of Fulfillment, 2014
This day, second Journey of Fulfillment, 2016
One year ago

Sharing

The Self wills only to extend Itself because the Self is, itself, an extension of Divine Love, created by Divine Love as an extension of Itself, that Original Divine Love.

The Self was created by Divine Love, as Divine Love, with the Will of Divine Love.

The Will of Divine Love is… you guessed it…to extend Itself.

Because we are the expressions of our Self, we are the vehicles through which our Self Wills to extend Divine Love. And we are the vehicles through which that Original Divine Love extends Itself.

Because our Self knows its fullness in Divine Love, we would, too, because we are our Divine Self.

When our Self wills to liberate us to fulfill our purpose and release our Joy, it only wants for us what It knows is the Truth of us–Divine Love.

As we simply surrender to being the vehicle through which Divine Love enters the world, our Self comes through to guide us, extending Itself, which is extending our Self, which is extending Original Divine Love.

Allowing our expression of Divine Love is our purpose, and is filled with so much Joy…because this is who we are.

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Ways to support this work:

  1. Hire me as your Spiritual Coach, you may sign up for a personalized Journey with me Click here for more information. Or I offer 1-on-1 spiritual coaching sessions. This is non-religion specific, and open to everyone, even atheists, though of course we would call something like “self-analysis coach” for a self-identified atheist.
  2. Indulge in one of my healing services: Jharra, Reiki, Fire Ceremony (see withpearls.com for more information).
  3. Send me a monetary gift via paypal: paypal.me/SusanBillmaier (please note “gift” in the transaction).
  4. Tell a friend about this site, the coaching or healing services.
  5. Invite me to interview on a podcast or for an article.

All proceeds go toward increasing love, light, and a consciousness of Oneness in the world. Thank you for your contribution that benefits All.

These Journeys are always available on this site at no charge. I also provide Jharra, Reiki, and Fire Ceremonies at no-charge to those who ask.

Where We Are One -Fulfillment (1.6.23)

Copyright Tam Black 2018
Designed for susanwithpearls.com

Guiding Thought

What is fulfillment but knowing our Self as an expression of Divine Love? Our Self wills to create! Our Self wills to share! Our Self wills to extend itself! Our fulfillment is creation; our joy is sharing; our peace is extension.

Sharing

There’s a plane of existence where every sound ever made vibrates still, in harmony with every other sound ever made.

The sounds can be seen; frequency as vibration translates to waves of light and beautiful colors– pinks, blues, aqua-marine, magenta, opal, white, gold, everywhere.

Surrounding sound, permeating light, everywhere existing in perfect harmony.

This is how I imagine the Self. The Self is this light, It is the sound, It is the harmony. All our Selves are there, blending together, without distinction, and  in perfect Harmony.

This is how we exist in Divine Love, as Divine Love. We exist as Light and Sound, all in Perfect Harmony with each other. This is where Fulfillment is, because there is nothing other than Divine Love, as Sound and Light. No discord, no disruption, no dissonance.

We are our Self here. This is where we Know our Truth, the Truth of All. This is where we are One.

This is how I imagine our existence beyond our bodies. Despite the body, which is individual and separate, there is always that place, where we reside together in Oneness, perfect souls in Harmony with All.

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Ways to support this work:

  1. Hire me as your Spiritual Coach, you may sign up for a personalized Journey with me Click here for more information. Or I offer 1-on-1 spiritual coaching sessions. This is non-religion specific, and open to everyone, even atheists, though of course we would call something like “self-analysis coach” for a self-identified atheist.
  2. Indulge in one of my healing services: Jharra, Reiki, Fire Ceremony (see withpearls.com for more information).
  3. Send me a monetary gift via paypal: paypal.me/SusanBillmaier (please note “gift” in the transaction).
  4. Tell a friend about this site, the coaching or healing services.
  5. Invite me to interview on a podcast or for an article.

All proceeds go toward increasing love, light, and a consciousness of Oneness in the world. Thank you for your contribution that benefits All.

These Journeys are always available on this site at no charge. I also provide Jharra, Reiki, and Fire Ceremonies at no-charge to those who ask.

Why can’t we just get there already? -Fulfillment (1.6.21)

Copyright Tam Black 2018
Designed for susanwithpearls.com

Welcome to Round 3!

We’re halfway done! How are you doing? Seriously…how is your life going? How’s your Journey going? I feel like this week I have felt the weight of the world…so much going on politically and environmentally; have you felt it? There’s a lot of “fear” in the air. I don’t know…I’ve never been “sensitive” to that sort of thing, like feeling those etheric emotions that hover about, but I have no other explanation for this heaviness I’ve been feeling this week. It’s like there is a part of me that is my usual happy self, and this other part of me that wants to run and hide. The “usual” part can identify that the other part is “not me”, but at the same time the person who’s feeling the fear identifies as “me”… Someone said to me today that I should not “let it get me down”. I get that, and I don’t let it get me down. But at the same time, I feel like the awareness of this “fear in the air” brings me responsibility. I am not blissfully ignorant: if I am aware of these less-than-loving emotions, it’s my responsibility to bring light and love to them. So…I’ve been especially vigilant about “my” own emotions, and I’ve been playing mantra on very low volume all day. The more light and love I bring to it, the faster we will move through it. Join in. Add your light and your love, let’s get through this.

See this page for information about how this round changes.

Guiding Thought

Everywhere fulfillment is, we are. Fulfillment is everywhere. Fulfillment is. We are.

Sharing

(Q) Why can’t we just get there already? If Fulfillment is everywhere, why aren’t we there? If we are All One, and Love is Oneness why are we not All living in Love right here, right now? I don’t get it.

(A) People use and have used their free will to deny the Love they Are. In doing so, they have forgotten who they are. In forgetting, they have made a substitute and believed in the substitute (sometimes called “ego” or “lower self” or “lower mind”).

To rectify this, people must choose to use their free will to stop denying the Love they Are, or in other words, to accept the Love they are.

People are at various degrees–or percentages–about how much they are willing to do this. Some people have more ego than others; some egos have a stronger hold.

We are all moving in the same direction, to 100% Love. But we all must participate at 100% in order for us all to be there.

If one person participates at 75% s/he has 25% to go, and probably has very strong momentum toward that 100%. This person is probably unaffected by most “worldly cares”, and has good habits and practices that maintain the momentum.

If another person participates at 25%, s/he probably has more trouble staying the course than the person at 75%, often waylaid by upsets and distractions.

Since we are All One, even if one person reaches 100%, there is still work to do! Until everyone reaches that 100%.

Everyone is both an individual expression of Divine Consciousness and the Unity of Divine Consciousness. In order for the Unity of Divine Consciousness to be expressed in every living being, every living being’s individual expression must choose Divine Consciousness as its own.