Commitment and Dedication –Journey of Courage 02.09.0

COMMITMENT

I am committed to exploring the fears within that may arise in the course of this Journey of Courage, to contemplate those fears and to call upon my higher, Divine Self to better understand, accept and transform those fears. I am committed to reading the Guiding Thought each day for the next 40 days. On those days when I may be traveling or away from home, I commit to engaging with the Guiding Thought in advance, or while away, in order to provide a public response to that Guiding Thought on a daily basis.  I will read the Thought, reflect on it, and record the thoughts and reflections that arise on a daily basis.

DEDICATION

I dedicate any merit that may arise from my contemplation of the daily Guiding Thoughts to the highest good of ALL BEINGS, myself included.

And so it is.

Guest Contributor Mary Wallace

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

Truth and Free Will. –Gratitude 2.8.32

Guiding Thought

I lift my mind and heart to the Truth of Being, to all that Is, to All I Am. I accept my Self in Truth and offer my Self to All in gratitude for Its Being.

Reflection / Contemplation

Truth does not care if you believe in it or not. Truth does not try to convince; it does not manipulate, or connive.

Each of us was given the gift of Free Will at the moment we were first breathed forth. With that Free Will, we can choose Truth, or not. And Truth does not try to persuade us either way. It allows us our Free Will, and waits.

In the meantime, also at the time of our inception, we were given the creative faculties of thought and feeling. As we walk through this relative reality, seeing disparities, feeling strong emotions, thinking that what we think or feel is right, we are using our Free Will to create through those perceptions, emotions, and thoughts.

But perceptions, emotions, and thoughts which are not informed by Truth bring about (or create) effects disconnected from Truth. Then we chase those erroneous effects. Imagine a game of telephone through all of your creations: you create a relationship, full of opinions, effects, results, then you look at those opinions, effects, and results and create new opinions, effects, and results (or strengthen those you have), which just keep creating situations that are only tethered to a situation which was previously based on an erroneous perception, emotion, or thought.

This is how we keep ourselves bound to our lives, our mental attitudes, and our convictions. (more like running in circles).

We have misinformed ourselves, and we believe our own misinformation. We are not the victims of circumstance, we are the creators of circumstance.

Being a creator of circumstance is why we are here. With our Free Will, we can choose to create with the Light of Truth. Light is infinitely more powerful than any fear-based, fragmented efforts or misinformation.

When we focus our attention on the surfacing chaos, it is easy to feel discouraged and overwhelmed, until we realize that we have done this. This is my doing. This is my responsibility.

How do I undo what I have done? How do I undo the chaos in my life? How do I create anew? 

Lift your mind and heart to the Truth of Being, to all that Is, to All You Are. Accept your Self in Truth and offer your Self to All in gratitude for Being.

You are the Way, the Truth, and the Life.  Focus your attention on the the Truth which resides in your Heart of hearts.

You are the Divine Light of the World. Divine Light of Truth is ALWAYS Victorious and WE are that Light.

Implement THIS. –Gratitude 2.8.28

The last time I did this Journey was 2 years ago. On this day (day 28), the very first thing on the page–even before the graphic–is this:

“You don’t make progress standing on the sidelines, whimpering and complaining. You make progress by implementing ideas”.  Shirley Chisholm

Amen, Shirley Chisolm! Just yesterday I made the same call to all y’all–and to myself! I guess I am glad I have a consistent message 😉

Guiding Thought

We seek only to Love in Unity. Love is Pure in Oneness. We Love All, including ourselves, in Oneness, that we may Know gratitude as the result of Being Whole in Love.

Reflection / Contemplation

Remember: You. Are. Love. Implement that .

Anything less than Love is a betrayal of yourself, your Self. Diminish not your Self, by being less than You ARE.

This >less than< is not just your natural identity.

It is your responsibility, honor, and obligation, to be the Love you Are.

“But that sounds so boring, so >ugh< tedious, so responsible. I don’t waaaant to be so bogged down, tethered to obligation. The next thing is you’re going to say it’s my duty >bleck<“.

I hear you. Really I do.

But your definitions are upside down if you think that living as your Divine Self could ever, in any way be tedious, boring, or could bog you down. And, I get that you’re not there yet–well…I’m not there yet. So, yes, sometimes I feel how tedious it is, how hard it is to be spiritually responsible–especially in a world where so many people are spiritually-ethically-humanly irresponsible. I mean, just yesterday I was all in the “how hard this is” and “how we have to push through” mode. I get it.

But I also know: Being your Self is your Joy. Fulfilling your Divine Purpose is a gift. Following the Higher Will Within leads you on a care-free path.

How do we implement Being the Love we Are, when we are not there yet, when it still feels tedious, with only moments of glimmering joy, beautiful harmony, and peaceful flow?

I can only answer for myself, but I hope that this might resonate with you.

First, I keep the faith. There is a higher purpose. Love and Light is my/your/our reality. We are fulfilling something Divine and Beautiful right here, right now, together.

Second, I work at acceptance and forgiveness. That is: acceptance of my True, God reality, and forgiveness of myself when as I experience/create anything that is not up to the standard of my True, God reality. In other words: I keep my sight on the highest, divine ideal, and forgive myself when I have mis-created. This is not about accepting miscreations. You deserve All Good, All God–all Love, all Health, all Prosperity, All Harmony…If you are not experiencing those things, then you are miscreating. The more you accept your miscreations, the more strength they have. Deny your miscreations. Accept only your True God reality. But forgive yourself along the way 😉

Third, I take time to meditate, and focus on that True God reality. More than these Journeys, I spend time in meditation and prayer. Stay focused. Keep feeding yourself the Truth. Loosen the knots in your mind that bind your thoughts to the lower self, on the lower aspects of existence. Keep your mind on the highest thought you can, as often as you can, every moment. What is that thought for you? For me, it varies. Most often, it is “Om Namah Shivaya”, but sometimes it is, “I love you, God” and sometimes it is, “I trust you, God”, and sometimes it is “Thy will be done”. Keep several High thoughts in your arsenal. Pull them out regularly. Implement them. That means: just think those thoughts. You control your mind. Choose your thoughts. Keep those thoughts running through your mind, over and over and over. (discipline. yes.)

Peace and love to you. With all my heart.

 

Beautiful Challenge –Gratitude 2.8.26

Guiding Thought

When we look within and see the radiance of Love, we remember our wholeness. We are wholly loving and wholly lovable. In the purity of Love lies peace, which we share with all in gratitude.

Reflection / Contemplation

Waking up is happening now! People everywhere are remembering who they are and why they are here. They are opening their hearts, and lifting their minds to the Light and Love that they are. Consciousness is expanding!

When our consciousness is raised and we increase Love and Light in our lives, we begin to see with new eyes and hear with new ears. We see and experience Oneness, Unity, Harmony, and understand that all life is connected. We are One.

Often, from our newly awakened state of consciousness, our reflex response is to resist so-called negative situations and behavior patterns, like poverty, greed, corruption, violence, abuse of power, oppression, hatred, selfishness, prejudice, pollution, disease, or ignorance. This causes us to set ourselves against the people involved–forgetting that we are One, and labeling “us” and “them”.

When we resist them, they resist us. But since we are One, it is merely the self resisting another self; in our ignorance of the truth, our resistance to unity creates the appearance of further separation. Arguments cannot be “won”. Coercion does not change a person or a situation. Convincing or persuading has no real lasting effect; it is simply a judgement that someone else’s thinking or feeling is flawed or wrong. But, guess what!? “They” think the exact same thing about “us”.

I know what I know. I know what I don’t know. But I also don’t know what I don’t know.

This is why it’s imperative to expand and raise my consciousness into Love, so that even when I don’t know, I can think, speak, and act with Love and kindness. I can treat others with respect and dignity; I can honor all of life and all of Life’s expressions. When I shift my consciousness, I allow myself to perceive a greater Truth, a Truth of Unity and Oneness, and to experience this Oneness of Life at a deeper level.

Here is an example:

Imagine a deaf and blind person trying to convince someone who can see and hear that there is no such thing as color or music. The person who can see and hear, knows clearly that there is color and music, but can also understand why a deaf and blind person would think there is not color and music, and be able to have compassion for that point of view, responding with patience and understanding. A person with a consciousness of Love, Oneness, and Unity, is like that person who can see and hear music, understanding the perspective of someone who experiences separation, yet responding with love and compassion.

However, we do not always know how or what people perceive. We do not know their level of consciousness, nor can we judge where they are in their own ascension process. Everyone is unique, and everyone came here with their own lessons to learn, as well as their own contribution to make.

People are where they are, they are who they are, and everyone (and I mean everyone) is doing the best that they can. We cannot make the mistake of assuming that people should know more than they do or that they should understand more than they are capable of understanding. When we expect more from people than they are capable of, we are generally disappointed and frustrated with their actions or their perception of things… which throws us right back into a separation “us” versus “them” mentality.

We are experiencing a beautiful, challenging time! We are healing ourselves, each other, and the planet! Everything that is coming to the surface as “negative” or as polarized “against” us, is doing so in order to be healed and transformed.  It is time to meet ourselves head on, and love each other into light. Regardless of so-called differences, regardless of our so-called oppositions, irrespective of what is “out there” that we are resisting…it is there for us to become more than who and what we are right now. How we meet each situation: with resistance, or with love and compassion, will determine the next step of our ascension, or whether we remain stuck.

Remember: Love is always the answer. Love is always the response. Love is always the lesson.
Any question I ask…the answer is Love.
“What do I do”? …the answer is Love. And I don’t mean this abstractly. I mean this literally. Open your heart, and Love.
“What am I learning”? ….the answer is always Love.

Journey of Gratitude– Why? (2.8.0)

Greetings in Love and Light! Welcome to a new year.

Today begins Journey of Gratitude. Let’s go! I’m glad you’re here. I’m glad I’m here. I am already so thankful to be here, with you now, doing this work.

Think and write about why you would like to spend 40 days thinking about, contemplating, and practicing gratitute. Feel free to share with me privately by email, or publicly below.

Why

Back in December, during Journey of Rest, I was having intense waves of gratitude almost daily. I would think about my life, about the support and love that I have, about my relationship with the Great Mystery; I thought about Jesus and what He brought into the world; I thought about being a drop in an infinite ocean, aware of itself, of the ocean, and of its relationship with all the other drops; I would think about how beautiful this life is, the inter-connectivity of everything, and how amazing and wondrous it all is,  and I would (sometimes) just weep with love and joy at how thankful I felt.

At that time, I recognized how gratitude was a doorway for Love. If I didn’t feel Love, I could focus on feeling thankful, and then Love was a breath away.

I thought, “I got this. Journey of Gratitude is going to be so easy. Do I even need a Journey of Gratitude? I just need to stay in this space forever!”

But you know, “this too shall pass”. I usually say that when something is a struggle, but really, it’s true otherwise, as all things are impermanent and changing (until we realize and live our True, eternal selves, anyway).

For the life of me, I have not been able to re-capture that intense feeling of gratitude since around December 23 (right before Christmas). I’m not saying that I haven’t felt thankful. But there’s a difference in mental-practices of gratitude and recognizing things to be thankful for, and the kind of gratitude that overwhelms with emotions of love and joy so much that tears flow.

I think my experiences in December (pre-December 23) were the teaser. “You see? This is what is possible. Are you there yet? No? Keep going.”

So here I am, an ideal in mind as a carrot on a stick, slogging toward it.

I knew I was going to have to write Why today, and I’ve been thinking and thinking about where I’m at with this, juxtaposing my recent loving/joyful gratitude experiences with how I actually feel right here right now.

It would be a cop out to say simply, “I want to work toward that (the ideal, mindlessly following a carrot on a stick). Yeah. It is that, but it’s also more than that.

I want to open my heart to expand in giving and receiving more love.
And gratitude does that.

I want to be of True Service–recognizing and living in the space of knowing what an honor (and responsibility!) it is to serve All in Love.
And gratitude does that.

I want to serve joyfully, inexhaustibly, according to my True, Highest Purpose.
And gratitude does that.

I want to remember my commitment–remember what I really want–which is to continue reaching every day, every hour, every minute with 100% of my being toward Infinite Love and Light.
And…I’m not sure if gratitude does that, but I’m going to treat this like an experiment to find out.

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Tomorrow is the commitment and dedication! Then we start the 40-days of contemplation. Remember with this Journey  to get out your crayons, markers, pencils, and get ready to draw/create. Gratitude is especially pre-disposed toward the right/creative/aesthetic brain.

 

 

 

Working Toward Embodying Light -Fulfillment (1.6.40)

 

Copyright Tam Black 2018
Designed for susanwithpearls.com

Guiding Thought

I am light. My body is light. I am free. I know my fulfillment: I feel it rise within me, expand out from me.

Sharing

Welcome to day 40! How did you do? Were you consistent daily? Did you contemplate your ideal (or the Guiding Thought) for at least 5 minutes per day? Did you dig deep, expand your self-knowledge, and learn about how you approach life? Whew. That’s a lot to do and expect of yourself. If you did anything at all toward self-awareness, and learning about how you choose to live life…give yourself a hug, or at least a pat on the back. You’ve done some good work. Now it’s time to take a break. Breathe for a few days, normalize a bit, then take some time to read back over what you have written over the past 40 days, and reflect on where you were, where you are, and what you think you learned over the course of this Journey. I’ll do the same. But now…day 40!

Just in the past two weeks, I’ve been trying some new things to increase my inner-light-awareness.

I have always wanted to be light. I used to–and I suppose I still do–draw myself with so much inner light that it radiates outward everywhere. I used to feel the light bubble up within me, and flow out my eyes and hands. I’ve always believed somewhere deep down, that I am light. Of course, I’ve had to reconcile this with my experience of being a dense, 3rd-dimensional, material body/person…which is what I live with day after day after day… yet for some reason, I still think I am light. I think some how, some way, I can be light, not this heavy, dense, material body. So today’s Guiding Thought has special significance for me–I’ve been working at this since I was a teenager!

I am not daunted that I haven’t figured it out yet. I will. We all will, sooner or later. I just keep working at it and trying stuff.

So in the past two weeks, I’ve started taking a fish oil that is high in anti-oxidants, which is supposed to cleanse (de-calcify) the pineal gland. There are those who believe the pineal gland is the seat of the third-eye, the spiritual eye. It is the seat of true vision, manifestation, and higher communication. Apparently, things like chlorine, fluoride, and bromine calicify the pineal gland and inhibit its proper function. So I’m trying it out. It’s only been a few days, and I have nothing to report, but if all goes well, my third eye will open and I will be that much closer to giving/receiving light!

Secondly, I’ve been carrying around crystals. I have this beautiful quartz crystal that fits across the palm of my hand (about 4″ x 1.5-2″)–and I can wrap my fingers around it…So I’ve been carrying it, sleeping with it. This behavior is not completely new; I’ve had this crystal for over two decades, and it accompanies me during certain times in my life.

Finally, I’ve been sleeping with music which entrains the mind with delta brainwaves. That’s “just” a sleep entrainment, nothing fancy–no binaural beats or subliminal affirmations, but since cleaning the pineal gland is supposed to open the vision/dreaming faculty, I figure better sleep won’t hurt.

All of this is to continue progressing upward. Call it frequency, call it sound, call it light, call it vibration, call it consciousness, call it what you will. It’s about embodying more and more energy, love, and light. Being able to handle it and then radiate it.

 

 

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Ways to support this work:

  1. Hire me as your Spiritual Coach, you may sign up for a personalized Journey with me Click here for more information. Or I offer 1-on-1 spiritual coaching sessions. This is non-religion specific, and open to everyone, even atheists, though of course we would call something like “self-analysis coach” for a self-identified atheist.
  2. Indulge in one of my healing services: Jharra, Reiki, Fire Ceremony (see withpearls.com for more information).
  3. Send me a monetary gift via paypal: paypal.me/SusanBillmaier (please note “gift” in the transaction).
  4. Tell a friend about this site, the coaching or healing services.
  5. Invite me to interview on a podcast or for an article.

All proceeds go toward increasing love, light, and a consciousness of Oneness in the world. Thank you for your contribution that benefits All.

These Journeys are always available on this site at no charge. I also provide Jharra, Reiki, and Fire Ceremonies at no-charge to those who ask.

It’s Okay to Be Yourself -Fulfillment (1.6.39)

Copyright Tam Black 2018
Designed for susanwithpearls.com

Guiding Thought

May those who seek help others find;

May those who sorrow be compassionate;

May those who are lost, light a path for another;

May those who question or doubt give guidance;

May those who worry lift the burden of another;

May those who hide see their own light in the eyes of a stranger;

May we all give peace, no matter what.

Sharing

Today, I just finished reading The Law of One, by Ra, a humble messenger of the Law of One, Book I.

After reading this book, I recognize that concepts like today’s Guiding Thought are not going to appeal to many people–the ideas are nice in theory, but hard in practice to many. Very few people, apparently are oriented toward service to others; more people are oriented toward service to self (as in their individual self), and “giving peace, no matter what” is not an easy or a natural extension of service to self.

My mind has really opened to the many, various paths that people are on, after reading this book. Prior to reading the Ra Material, I now recognize that I thought there were “better” or “higher” paths–and that ideas such as those contained in the Guiding Thoughts represent those “better” or “higher” paths. But now… I am re-thinking, reconsidering, re-working, integrating new ideas and concepts. Expansion and growth, now that’s what the Journey is about–finding unexpected surprises and integrating those understandings into a greater/deeper understanding of the variety of life-experiences.

Let me be clear: This does not mean that I would necessarily integrate ideas or concepts into my own “identity”, or accept the energy or vibration for myself, but it does mean that I am more accepting (non-judgmental) of others who might think/feel/behave differently than I would on my path.

Here is how the ideas from the book break down for me, regarding this:

There is only one law: the law of One. This is not a difficult concept for me; I’ve been working with this idea for several years now. “I am not the ocean, but the ocean and I are one”. We are all not the ocean, yet one with the ocean. This is a hard concept for a lot of people. One way to warm up to it, is to let your mind wander into the ideas of infinity and eternity. Just muse about those concepts on a daily basis, they will plant seeds to help in accepting the law of One.

We all serve God, regardless… Everyone serves God. Period.

There are two orientations that people can take to serve God: Service to self (as in the individual self) or Service to other (as in other people, what could be called “humanitarian” in the most expansive sense).

Although we choose which orientation we want, we do so consciously only after we have been in the habit or behavior of it for some time.

Because we have free will, we can always switch our orientation.

These two orientations balance each other. Service to self is known as the “negative” orientation; service to others is known as “positive” orientation. These are not value-judgments of “good” or “bad”, because everyone serves God regardless of which orientation they choose.

Service to self seeks God because service to self is service to All. Service to self uses manipulation, control and power to seek God.

Service to others seeks God, through service to others and uses love, understanding and compassion. This orientation increases the learning/growth exponentially because rather than a 1 to 1 relationship (as with service to self, which only serves self), there is a 1 to many relationship, which spreads out like roots or branches, to all those served.

There are far fewer people currently on the planet who are oriented toward service to others. Both paths are difficult–and we humans have been through so much in our history, dampening our consciousness of seeking God.

This is what encourages me about this:

We are all serving God.  This may be hard to swallow, especially with all of the social-political-ideological disagreements going on these days. But what if you could view everyone as serving God? What if you knew in your heart that regardless of external polarities and disagreements, that everything and everyone is unified in God?

God is with us. God is paying attention. God wants us to seek him, and wants us to realize our oneness with him/her. S/He has not abandoned us–we are all serving the One Infinite Creator.

Know yourself. Be yourself. Walk your path. Be aware! Understand your choices. Choose consciously. Whatever you do, whoever you are, dig deep into yourself and be yourself. Be authentic. Follow your heart. Don’t worry, there is no wrong…just learn, and seek, and learn, and seek.

 

 

 

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Ways to support this work:

  1. Hire me as your Spiritual Coach, you may sign up for a personalized Journey with me Click here for more information. Or I offer 1-on-1 spiritual coaching sessions. This is non-religion specific, and open to everyone, even atheists, though of course we would call something like “self-analysis coach” for a self-identified atheist.
  2. Indulge in one of my healing services: Jharra, Reiki, Fire Ceremony (see withpearls.com for more information).
  3. Send me a monetary gift via paypal: paypal.me/SusanBillmaier (please note “gift” in the transaction).
  4. Tell a friend about this site, the coaching or healing services.
  5. Invite me to interview on a podcast or for an article.

All proceeds go toward increasing love, light, and a consciousness of Oneness in the world. Thank you for your contribution that benefits All.

These Journeys are always available on this site at no charge. I also provide Jharra, Reiki, and Fire Ceremonies at no-charge to those who ask.