It’s Okay to Be Yourself -Fulfillment (1.6.39)

Copyright Tam Black 2018
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Guiding Thought

May those who seek help others find;

May those who sorrow be compassionate;

May those who are lost, light a path for another;

May those who question or doubt give guidance;

May those who worry lift the burden of another;

May those who hide see their own light in the eyes of a stranger;

May we all give peace, no matter what.

Sharing

Today, I just finished reading The Law of One, by Ra, a humble messenger of the Law of One, Book I.

After reading this book, I recognize that concepts like today’s Guiding Thought are not going to appeal to many people–the ideas are nice in theory, but hard in practice to many. Very few people, apparently are oriented toward service to others; more people are oriented toward service to self (as in their individual self), and “giving peace, no matter what” is not an easy or a natural extension of service to self.

My mind has really opened to the many, various paths that people are on, after reading this book. Prior to reading the Ra Material, I now recognize that I thought there were “better” or “higher” paths–and that ideas such as those contained in the Guiding Thoughts represent those “better” or “higher” paths. But now… I am re-thinking, reconsidering, re-working, integrating new ideas and concepts. Expansion and growth, now that’s what the Journey is about–finding unexpected surprises and integrating those understandings into a greater/deeper understanding of the variety of life-experiences.

Let me be clear: This does not mean that I would necessarily integrate ideas or concepts into my own “identity”, or accept the energy or vibration for myself, but it does mean that I am more accepting (non-judgmental) of others who might think/feel/behave differently than I would on my path.

Here is how the ideas from the book break down for me, regarding this:

There is only one law: the law of One. This is not a difficult concept for me; I’ve been working with this idea for several years now. “I am not the ocean, but the ocean and I are one”. We are all not the ocean, yet one with the ocean. This is a hard concept for a lot of people. One way to warm up to it, is to let your mind wander into the ideas of infinity and eternity. Just muse about those concepts on a daily basis, they will plant seeds to help in accepting the law of One.

We all serve God, regardless… Everyone serves God. Period.

There are two orientations that people can take to serve God: Service to self (as in the individual self) or Service to other (as in other people, what could be called “humanitarian” in the most expansive sense).

Although we choose which orientation we want, we do so consciously only after we have been in the habit or behavior of it for some time.

Because we have free will, we can always switch our orientation.

These two orientations balance each other. Service to self is known as the “negative” orientation; service to others is known as “positive” orientation. These are not value-judgments of “good” or “bad”, because everyone serves God regardless of which orientation they choose.

Service to self seeks God because service to self is service to All. Service to self uses manipulation, control and power to seek God.

Service to others seeks God, through service to others and uses love, understanding and compassion. This orientation increases the learning/growth exponentially because rather than a 1 to 1 relationship (as with service to self, which only serves self), there is a 1 to many relationship, which spreads out like roots or branches, to all those served.

There are far fewer people currently on the planet who are oriented toward service to others. Both paths are difficult–and we humans have been through so much in our history, dampening our consciousness of seeking God.

This is what encourages me about this:

We are all serving God.  This may be hard to swallow, especially with all of the social-political-ideological disagreements going on these days. But what if you could view everyone as serving God? What if you knew in your heart that regardless of external polarities and disagreements, that everything and everyone is unified in God?

God is with us. God is paying attention. God wants us to seek him, and wants us to realize our oneness with him/her. S/He has not abandoned us–we are all serving the One Infinite Creator.

Know yourself. Be yourself. Walk your path. Be aware! Understand your choices. Choose consciously. Whatever you do, whoever you are, dig deep into yourself and be yourself. Be authentic. Follow your heart. Don’t worry, there is no wrong…just learn, and seek, and learn, and seek.

 

 

 

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Repetition’s Usefulness -Fulfillment (1.6.15)

Copyright Tam Black 2018
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Guiding Thought

In Divine Mind, you are filled full! All are equally filled full. All are equal in Love. Fill your mind with thoughts of fulfillment and remember what you already know. Be determined to fulfill your purpose, to know your Self as Divine Love, and to share the fullness you are.

Sharing

Sometimes this feels so repetitious. I know that’s the point to some degree: hearing the same thing in different ways for various brain-pathways to be activated all around the same topic, increasing the brain capacity and energy allocated to that particular topic.

And I know that another reason to repeat a concept through different words is to encourage the feeling of the words. Anyone can intellectualize an idea over and over and over, but if it does not seep in deeper–to the feeling level, to the level of being an innate, natural response–it is not going to be that person’s lived reality.

That’s the point of the repetition, of approaching a topic (like Fulfillment) from various perspective, through different lenses, with different words. It’s to encourage me/you to live the words.

To live a life of Fulfillment.

Fulfillment lives with us, whether we know it or not. Fulfillment is ours, immediately, every moment. If there is any thought of someone else having more than you, or something being inadequate or insufficient in your life, then there is something in your consciousness that is filtering out your All-sufficiency, your total overflowing fulfillment.

It’s your responsibility to find those blocks in your filters and clean them out, so that all the Fulfillment that is there, waiting for you, will flow into your life.

This also means checking yourself and stop falling into patterns of envy, guilt, blame, or shame. If any of those feelings are in your life–either giving or receiving them, and you don’t have the Fulfillment that you want, those patterns are a good place to begin cleaning out.

There’s never a reason for guilt. You are forgiven, and thereby innocent…right now, and always.
There’s never a reason for blame. Everyone else is forgiven, and thereby innocent…right now, and always.
There’s never a reason for shame. Everyone is perfect…beautifully, divinely perfect.
There’s never a reason for envy. There is enough for everyone, always. Including you. In Divine Order, through Divine Love, for Divine Purpose.

 

How It’s Done -Abundance (1.5.29)

Copyright Tam Black 2018
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Guiding Thought

Divine abundance expresses infinitely through our own Divine Presence. When we identify with our Divine Presence, we open the floodgates and Divine Abundance flows naturally, easily, and effortlessly through us, materializing all good in our lives and affairs.

Sharing

This is an article written by Patricia Cota-Robles. I can’t stop reading it, and it has everything to do with abundance. She explains  what abundance is, what is needed, and why. The Journeys and the Guiding Thoughts are steps in the process she outlines below; they are ways to saturate your consciousness–all your thoughts–with powerful abundance ideas to replace old, worn-out poverty ideas. I hope you enjoy this article as much as I do:

I first became aware of how critically important it is to be fully present in the moment when I began to remember my purpose and reason for being on Earth. There was a moment in time when I knew through every fiber of my Being, that I AM a Child of God. In that same instant of Enlightenment, I also knew that was the Truth for every other Human Being. With that realization came the Inner Knowing that as a Child of God, there is a reason for my existence in this physical plane of Earth. As I focused on that Truth I asked my Father-Mother God for guidance, and the answer became abundantly clear.

As Children of God we have all been gifted with the creative faculties of thought and feeling. We have also been given the gift of Free Will. The original Divine Intent of those gifts, as well as our presence in the time and space constraints of a physical reality, is for us to learn how to use our Free Will and our creative faculties of thought and feeling to co-create with our Father-Mother God. The purpose and reason for our being is for us to learn to explore all of the patterns of perfection in the all-encompassing Causal Body of God. Then we are to use our Free Will to experiment with various aspects and combinations of those perfection patterns and create new, previously unknown, expressions of Divinity. That knowledge and skill of co-creation will allow us to expand the Body of God and the borders of Divinity for all Eternity.

Even though we lost our way for a while and fell into the abyss of separation and ignorance, our purpose and reason for being remains the same. Practically and tangibly in our everyday lives we are creating our own realities with every single thought, word, action or feeling we express. Being in the Eternal Moment of NOW, means that we perpetually monitor what we are energizing with the power of our attention. There is an expression that states, “The price for freedom is Eternal Vigilance.”

Daily and hourly, moment by moment, we must ask ourselves “What am I empowering with my thoughts, words, actions and feelings now? …and how about now?…and how about now?”

If what we are putting our power and attention into is not what we want to be creating in our lives, we need to ask ourselves, “What do I want instead?” Then, we need to put our attention on the vision of what we want, instead of what we do not want.

Everything is energy, vibration and consciousness. Whatever we put our attention on and whatever it is that we focus our thoughts, words, actions and feelings on, we bring into form. With this knowledge it is obvious that in order for us to change the things we do not like about our lives, we must change the way we are thinking, speaking, feeling and acting about those very things. In order to do that, we must be present in the moment.

At any given moment our lives are reflecting the sum total of every experience we have ever had since we were first breathed forth from the Heart of our Father-Mother God. For a particular situation to exist in our lives, such as poverty, disease, dysfunctional relationships or an unfulfilling job, it simply means that the Critical Mass (51% or more) of our energy, vibration and consciousness is sustaining that particular distorted pattern. In order to change the situation, we have to change the Critical Mass from poverty to abundance, from disease to vibrant health, from dysfunctional to loving relationships, and from unfulfilling to creatively rewarding jobs.

The first step to shift the Critical Mass is that we must create the vision of what we want in the way of abundance, health, love and fulfillment. Then we must energize that vision daily and hourly with our thoughts, words, actions and feelings.

Next we must Invoke the Divine Law of God’s Forgiveness and Transmutation, the Violet Transmuting Flame. As that Sacred Fire flows through the Divinity in our Hearts we must project It into every thought, word, action or feeling we have ever expressed in any time frame or dimension that conflicts with our vision. This process dissipates the distorted patterns and reduces the percentage of negativity as it increases the percentage of the positive energy patterns in our vision. The instant the vision is being empowered with the Critical Mass (51% or more) of our energy, vibration and consciousness, it will become a physical, tangible reality.

For all we know, that could take place with our very next breath!

Every Day a Better Day -Healing (1.4.25)

Copyright Tam Black 2018
Designed for susanwithpearls.com
Guiding Thought

Our own Loving Presence is our personal connection with Divine Mind. Attuned to our own Loving Presence, we Know ourselves as Whole and Holy. As we feel our Inner Unity, we know: this is all we want; we have found all we seek.

Reflection

Between 2005 and 2013 I studied A Course in Miracles pretty intensely. I don’t mean that I stopped at doing the daily lessons. I did those, then I read the text, took notes and wrote…and wrote…and wrote. That was before I was doing the Journeys. In a way, at least a portion of these Journeys grew out of that study. Part of what I wanted (and still want) to do with the Journeys is to do a cross-reference research project for a bunch of the themes in ACIM, to answer questions like, “How does purpose relate to atonement“? or “How does atonement relate to forgiveness“? or “How does forgiveness relate to healing“? or “How does healing relate to purpose“? You see how nicely that would fit within the framework of the Journeys? Everything is interconnected; each “theme” gives insight into other “themes” and those links bring greater understanding to both those themes and all others.

I had the good fortune at that time of having a flexible job schedule, and often did not have to be out of the house until 10 or 11 am. I would read-study-write from 5 or 6 am until 9 or 10. I would be completely absorbed, completely focused, never getting tired, but rather getting energized. I remember often thinking, “This is all I want; this is all I want to do”.

That feeling, “this is all I want; this is all I want to do” has recurred in my life more broadly with spiritual practices, and spiritual writing and studying.

As with a lot of spiritual practices, like meditation, the practices connect a person to their Loving Presence, their link to Divine Mine, their link to their own Inner Divine.

It’s a great place to hang out, there, with your own Loving Presence. It’s a high, really. I was thinking earlier today that it’s sort of like the runners high: you have to push through certain mental (chemical-hormonal-energetic) barriers, but once you get into “the zone” it feels amazing and you can just coast for hours, and the high carries you through other parts of your day and life.

Another similarity with running is that, like an endorphin high, the spiritual high eventually wears off. We go out into the world, where there is drama, among people who do not connect with their Loving Presence, who don’t and can’t understand wholeness, unity, compassion…so we end up not only losing the high, but expending more energy to protect ourselves from an onslaught of other people’s emotional energy. It’s a good day when I don’t get sucked down; it’s a better day when I can not only maintain my own Inner Harmony, but can also share it with others–where I can actually perceive that their energy is lifted and lightened through our interaction.

believe that we–all people– are headed to a time when the high does not wear off and every day is a better day. I think that the intense emotional energy in the world right now is a mass purging. All the crap is coming to the surface, so that it can go away for good.

More people are meditating. More people are doing spiritual practices. More people are realizing that it’s a great place to be, connected with Love, connected with others through Love.

What takes you to your zone? What are the practices that you do that take you to the place where you say, “This is all I want”? If you haven’t found it yet, keep looking. It’s there, waiting for you.

Commitment and Dedication- Healing (1.4.00)

by Susan Billmaier for susanwithpearls

Commitment

Because I choose to be loving and gentle with myself…

Because I wish to increase my connection with the Holy Spirit, and to live and act from and with Its intelligence…

Because I want to engage passionately in life and with my work of Divine Service…

Because I want to remember my Self, and be the Joy of Being…

I commit to reading and contemplating the Guiding Thoughts for a minimum of 5 minutes each day, for 40 days, then write about my learning, my evolution, my inner thoughts.

Dedication

This Journey of Healing is dedicated to you. The world and everyone in it needs so much love, healing, gentleness, and care. For this Journey, you are in my thoughts and prayers each day. Each day, I invoke the Light of Love for you on your journey, for your healing, whatever that may mean to you, in alignment with your Divine Purpose, and for the Highest Good of All.

Are you ready to start? Tomorrow we begin! 😀

 

 

 

 

Afterword- Worth (1.3.41)

This is the day I provide a bit of an assessment about the “results” (if you will) of the most recent Journey– Worth. First, a recap:

  • I began the Journey with the intention of having a closer/better relationship with the Holy Spirit/Shakti Energy/Divine Mother, to develop a life worthy of the Holy Spirit
  • There was a lot of emotional turmoil (panic, anxiety) during the Journey
  • Some themes throughout the Journey were:
    • Transformation
      • Holding on/release: when there is change and transformation, there is an inherent letting go of something in order for it to transform into something else. Regarding the panic episodes–I became aware of what I was holding onto, and not wanting to give up.
    • Connection, having to do with Unity and Oneness.

How did I do, and where am I now?

The more Journeys I do, the more I see that the Journeys are both linear…and not. Like a “real” journey, they are full of unplanned places to explore, unexpected stops, meanderings, surprises, and adventures that lead to places previously unknown.

For example, on a “real” journey—let’s say—to visit my friend in Clonmel, Ireland—the linear part of the trip would be getting from point A (Newark) to point B (Dublin, then Clonmel), and visiting with my friend. This would be like working through the 40 days of a Journey, from beginning to end. But once in Clonmel…there’s so much to see and explore!

The Rock of Cashel, seat of the Kings of Munster Photo Credit: Open Source

Those things constitute adventures, which may have their own unexpected stops and meanderings. In the same way, while on a Journey of Worth, I detour for a day or two to explore something like faith, or connection, or letting go. These small stops and detours do not detract from the overall journey, they are part of it, and each new experience enhances the overall trip.

It’s become common for me now to expect the detours, surprises, and adventures while on a Journey. But these things make it very difficult to evaluate a Journey, or assess it, or explain what I’ve learned, how I’ve changed, or how I “got” here.

What did my panic and anxiety teach me about worth? Do I now have a better relationship with the Holy Spirit? Do I have a deeper understanding of Shakti, the Divine Mother? What do I know now about Worth, because of what I’ve learned about Unity and Oneness? Have I changed?

Contemplating answers to these questions does not bring me solid answers. But I can tell you what I feel might be the right direction for the answers:

  1. What did my panic and anxiety teach me about worth? My panic and anxiety were a way of letting go of things that are worthless. On day 23, I said this: “You see, there’s this “thing” that I want. And I never want things. I always, always want God and spiritual right-mindedness more than I want things. I cannot even think of a time when I wanted something like this. It’s not like desire, or envy, or possession, or clinging to some-thing. It’s like there’s so much at stake, so much that hinges on this thing; I have so much invested in this thing.” My panic and anxiety were because I was invested in wanting things my way. I did not get it–and that was part of the learning and the letting go. Letting go of things that are worthless makes room for things that are invaluable. Also, in this lesson, I have had to reinvigorate faith.
  2. Do I now have a better relationship with the Holy Spirit? I think so. I believe so. If the Holy Spirit is the power or force behind all things manifest, then I have always had a relationship  with the Holy Spirit–we all have, because we interact with the manifest all the time. The difference is having a conscious relationship with the Holy Spirit: recognizing the Divine Power in, through, and around everything. This is what’s new. I am at the very beginning, but I have been praying and seeking this conscious recognition and understanding more and more…and I want to continue.
  3. Do I have a deeper understanding of Shakti, the Divine Mother? Yes. I have been very intentionally acknowledging and learning about the Divine Mother. But also see the answer to #2, as it is very much the same here.
  4. What do I know now about Worth, because of what I’ve learned about Unity and Oneness? On day 16, I wrote this:

There is no living thing (even the little self) that does not share the universal Will that it be whole. Here’s how I currently understand this:

Oneness is “that place” (that is not a physical place, but more like a mental place) that is beyond the senses, beyond the body, beyond all material reality.

Oneness is (simply, ha) a shift into non-perception, into Knowing, also known as salvation or moksha or freedom.

This place can be called (and even has been called) Pure Consciousness, Pure Love.

It is “Oneness” because in that place of no-perception, Everything is simply Known as Everything.

But here on planet earth, we live with senses, in a material reality, with brains that like to categorize and think, and discern, and judge.

So we have to teach our brains to go beyond, to let go of perception, discernment, judgement, and all of its divisions.

This is (one of the) the role(s) of healing and forgiveness. In a moment of healing, we “perceive” ourselves as whole. In a moment of forgiveness, we unite with another person.

We can do this again and again and again, with every moment, with every perception: heal and forgive, heal and forgive, heal and forgive.

The more we do this, the more our little brains expand into broader perceptions of wholeness and unity. But it takes time, because our brains like to work how they work (separating, categorizing, etc), and we do not really insist on shaping our brains in a new way. The more we practice heal and forgive, heal and forgive, heal and forgive, the more our brains evolve, the faster we get beyond perception.

In other words: Oneness is the only thing that is worth anything. In Oneness is Knowing; in Oneness is Freedom; in Oneness is Pure Consciousness.

5. Have I changed? Yes. It’s a bit intangible, but I have changed. Here’s how I know: I am not thinking as much. Literally. My mind is quieter, I am not thinking about what needs to be done, I am doing…what seems right to do…and everything is getting done. I am differently motivated. In doing without thinking, I want (am motivated) to do. Doing now feels like an expression of something that is coming through me, not that I am initiating. How do I know? Because I have no clue, nor do I want to have a clue, about the results. I am not “doing something to get something”; I am just doing, and the results will be what they will be. I’m not invested in “how things will turn out”–I think this this is another effect of “having” to work through and release things associated with the anxiety and panic. I have a different relationship to Faith. When I went through all that panic and anxiety, then did not “get” the thing that all the fuss was about, it was as though something in me gave up and surrendered. The panic and anxiety began (now that I think about it) when I told God I could not do it on my own, that He had to help me because I did not know what to do, much less how to do it; I had tried everything I knew, and I did not have any clue what else I could do. All that panic and anxiety: it was God giving me what I asked for, releasing me from the last holds I had on “doing it my way”, clearing the path for Him to make things right. Now it’s up to me to keep that recognition, keep my mind right, and allow (hold on to Faith) Him to do it.

What’s really cool is that all of this leads right into Journey of Healing–which begins later today! Check in later to see those insights…

Peace and Love to you on your journey.

 

 

 

New Beginnings– Worth (1.3.29)

Copyright Tam Black 2018
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Guiding Thought

We extend the Love that we are, for that is all we truly are. As we learn to be aware, to understand and to Know our own will as Love, and make choices according to that will, our life experiences become worthy of us. Expressing our Self that is wholly Love and United with All is the only choice that is worthwhile. It is the only thing that brings us satisfaction, the only choice that allows us to experience our Self—the Love that we are. My-your-our- freedom depends on our right choices, depends on our choosing what is worthy and what is not; it depends on me, depends on you, depends on us.

Quick check-in: How are you doing? Have you had a smooth and steady Journey, or has it been a bit tumultuous, like mine, or somewhere in-between? What types of insights have you had? Do you have any themes that have popped up? What feels significant to you? Don’t worry if you have no answers right now. When I first started doing the Journeys, I did not have any insights or connections until day 38, 39, or 40, or even after the Journey was over. The main thing is to get through the Journey. 40 days is a long time (at first), but you’re worth it!

Reflection

I really needed today’s Guiding Thought. While reading it, I just relaxed, and let out a huge sigh, thinking, “yes. yes. This is it. This is exactly what I want”.

I was also reminded of / reinvigorated with commitment. That is: my commitment to you.

This past month, I’ve really been in a haze of self-interested worry. “What about me?” “What am going to do?” “really need this >thing< to happen, so I feel better.” “How does this affect me?” and on and on.

And I owe you an apology. I’ve been self-absorbed (that’s the little self, the selfish self…), when I should have been Self-absorbed (in my higher Self, which universally cares for the highest good of every being). So, I apologize. My-your-our- freedom depends on our right choices, depends on our choosing what is worthy and what is not; it depends on me, depends on you, depends on us, and I have not done a good job being dependable for the past few weeks.

I do feel like I am back on track–especially today, after this Guiding Thought’s kick in the ass.

It was a gentle kick, reminding me exactly of why I am doing this Journey. This is exactly what I want:

As we learn to be aware, to understand and to Know our own will as Love, and make choices according to that will, our life experiences become worthy of us. Expressing our Self that is wholly Love and United with All is the only choice that is worthwhile.

I want to Know the Will of Love. As I’ve been doing my prayers over the past 48 hours, the subtext has been, “Thy Will be done”. And sometimes, I include, “Thy Will be done also in me, a sinner”. (Just a quick explanation: worthiness, or unworthiness, for me is tied up in feeling the guilt of having “fallen”. I mean this, “fallen”, as both in a Catholic sense, but also in a broader sense, of simply having forgotten who I am, and forgotten my divinity. I find that acknowledging this helps me move through/past it. You may read this  for more detail from earlier on this Journey.)

I want my life to be worthy of my Highest Divine Self, worthy of the Holy Spirit, worthy of God. It seems ironic, or a bit of a paradox that in order for “me” to have a life worthy of the Divine, “I” cannot do anything. I have to let the Divine operate in me, through me, as me. If “I” do something, invariably, I screw it up (I’ve been reflecting on this a lot lately, too.) Yet, “I” am the recipient of the results, that is, the “me” that experiences this life. It feels so counter-intuitive to do nothing, yet receive everything. I still don’t really understand…and yet…I do.

Finally, I do not often talk about astrology, mainly because I don’t really know that much. But I do pay attention, and think about “what’s going on out there” and “what’s going on in here” to see what kind of reflection/learning I can see.

Here is a short description about today’s New Moon:

May 15th 2018 is the big day. We have a New Moon in Taurus and just 3 hours later, Uranus enters Taurus! New Moon = new beginnings and Uranus changing signs = major new beginnings…just keep in mind that this is BIG. Something in your life will shift. If you have planets or angles in the first degrees of the fixed signs (Taurus, Leo, Scorpio, and Aquarius) you will feel the shift even stronger. (from astrobutterfly.com)

“New beginnings…and major new beginnings”. With this is mind, I dedicate today’s post to the new beginning of focusing, with renewed vigor, on making choices according to Divine Will, and creating life experiences that are worthy of US. I dedicate this to you, and your freedom in Divine Love.

Peace. Peace. Peace.