Thinning the Veils –Journey of Creation 02.11.25

Guiding Thought

Perfect Love, the Source and Truth of our Self, imbues us with the will to create with Love. We are able to create through our own free will, extending Perfect Love. Loving creation was given freely to us; therefore, we give freely of our own loving creation. We joyfully create through Perfect Love, with Perfect Love, as Perfect Love.

Reflection / Contemplation

I am grateful to Know and be aware that the Source and Truth of my Self is the will to create with Love.

When I first began in a meditation group I heard a reference to veils. When I asked for clarity it was explained that veils are the invisible layers/blocks we create to support the version of separation from God aka Source. It was also mentioned that Self inquiry and healing thinned the veils and that being around certain people and situations may give you a sense that the veils have thinned. All very mysterious to me at the time.

Being afraid to appear as clueless as I felt, I didn’t ask more questions, although I had a thousand! I had just discovered a spring in the middle of the desert and I was very thirsty for spiritual knowledge. Know Thyself became my new mantra for the next 25 years.

Over that time I have explored and experienced a multitude of “ways” to heal and reveal. I used quotations around ways because I have found a point on each path where it becomes obvious that the ‘way’ they teach about, is considered The Way–a finite savior. That has been my signal to ‘pick up my mat and walk’. The great news about a free society is that there is a banquet of ways out there and then another multitude of sub-banquets, each with their own ‘ways’ complete with rituals and jargon.

While tasting many of the offerings I have found many sames–I call these nuggets Universal Truths. Love for self and others and living from the principle of Love, compassion and kindness. There is a whole bunch of programs and beliefs that we all don’t even question because it’s the way things have been for so long and we are afraid things could get worse.

I stayed in the dark about my personal truths for two reasons–one, I was afraid to be kicked out of my tribe and the second was because what if I was wrong and they were right (fill in the blank on who they are–the rule setters for being a good person).

What occurred for me was that the pain of trying to be something I’m not grew to such an excruciating level that I let it all go. That’s when I discovered the treasures within. A peace that transcends understanding and a Devotion to Love as my true north. The core Truth for All of Us is that we are from Source. For each of us this human walk is an opportunity to live fully in this Truth and express it as Us. What started as Know Thyself has morphed into Love Thyself. When I am living and creating with and as Perfect Love, I resonate in Love with All life. It isn’t my work to do for another, yet my Love Field generates a powerful Light that makes me now one of those people whose presence supports the thinning of the veils. The Truth of the Love we All are, is free to be created with joyfully.

 

Guest Contributor Amy Castillo

Amy Castillo. In the yurt with two grand babies.

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

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Giving Life to a Lifetime –Journey of Creation 02.11.24

Guiding Thought

In Perfect Love there is no lack, only complete abundance. Perfect Love is Perfect Fulfillment. When we are aware of our Oneness with Perfect Love, we have everything; we are everything. With a mind fully aware of its own Fullness in Perfect Love, we have perfect faith in our creations, as they are of the same mind as Perfect Love.

Reflection / Contemplation

As I read this thought I felt a swell of gratitude for my Life in all its Created glory! I’m grateful for my perspective about Life and Living. My greatest strength these days is that I don’t feel I HAVE to know.

I have Perfect Knowing of Divine Love. That is my foundation.

Anxiety will sometimes show up–an old, unhealthy aspect I saw as a comforting friend because it was so familiar to me. These days a breath is all that is required to clear that unhelpful fog.

When I began as a massage therapist I worked with two women who were in their 90’s that had recently injured themselves. The one who had a broken hip shared about the day their house had caught on fire. She said as she and her husband stood in the driveway waiting for the fire department she was talking with God about how excited she was to see what wonders would be the result of this!

The other shared her stories of living, learning and loving. She and her husband had lived adventurous lives, separately, as they had married 5 years earlier. It was, time wise, nearly at the end, she said, although in some ways, she felt like she was just getting started. The love they shared was found after she had discovered her own Source of the Love that lives within.

Both these women radiated Perfect Love and the ease with which faith in it gives Life to a lifetime.

Much of my early years I was working to build a life that would be approved of. Thankfully Love supported me to awaken and reassess! Within my Life, I Live. My Life is a kaleidoscope of creations manifested in faith with Perfect Love. When I stepped firmly onto One path, the path where Love has no opposite, much of my previous life couldn’t stay. People and activities left or ceased organically. It has just recently happened again on a bigger scale. What doesn’t serve me can’t stay. It’s how it is although that doesn’t make it easy.

My prayer is to accept what is happening as if I chose it, because I did. I chose Love. I declared my devotion mindfully. My awareness of Perfect Love is everything. My intention is to live each breath into the Truth of what I am, what We are and co-create a world of complete abundance for All, in Perfect Love.

 

Guest Contributor Amy Castillo

Amy Castillo. In the yurt with two grand babies.

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

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All is Well, Always –Journey of Creation 02.11.23

Guiding Thought

We choose only to create with Perfect Love. Since Perfect Love is all we Are, and all there is; we accept Perfect Love as the only Source for all our creations. We project Perfect Love outward, shining with inner radiance.

Reflection / Contemplation

Jesus was a Self-actualized human man. His life exemplified Christ Consciousness. My translation of His mission that lifetime was to model the capacity, to help each of us to actualize our own consciousness to create only with Perfect Love. He projected Perfect Love always and in relationship with everything. His inner radiance shining through was depicted in artwork with a halo. He is a most courageous example of Being the Light.

During my Reiki Master training I had a shift occur within me that quantum leaped me into a new perception of reality. It was after my final atunement that I opened my eyes and my ability to see had changed. As I looked around the room I saw each person that had been there previously but now I saw them as expressions of Divine Love. For me, the room now looked more like a thermogenic photo! Colorful Light made each Being look bigger and they were all SO bright and lovely! Tears flowed without ceasing. I was blown away, disorientated and speechless.

When I got to my car I sat for a long time, not sure how to navigate my world through this new view! I’m pretty sure my angels drove home that day and stepped into support my daily functioning because I don’t remember that much. That week as I worked on clients, crying from the magnitude of their beautiful expression of Love, I told each and every one, what I now saw in them, as them. Several left and never returned. One was so very mad at me for exclaiming about the Love I experienced as them, they got in my face as if they might slap me. I was so surprised that the most common response was annoyance or anger.

Why was it so hard to hear that We are Love? I woke up on day 10 and as I cleaned the kitchen that morning a very kind, benevolent voice came into my awareness and told me that a storm was coming. I looked out of the windows and could not see a cloud in the sky. I shrugged and went about my business. About an hour later another quantum shift opened only this time it came in the form of complete contrast to the first. This one came as darkness, a secret of abuse revealed. The air was sucked out of me. It involved my family of origin, my child, my self. It opened up an area in me I had long ago sealed off. It animated ghosts. It took my foundation and pulled it out from under me. I was in free fall; would I discover wings?

This was a generational healing opportunity. It’s roots went deep, far, and wide. It permanently altered my walk. The juxtaposition of these two occurrences was fascinating. Without that profound new Love grounding me I could have taken many different paths through that period in my life. Although it took much intentional work and a lot of clock time to reach a new normal and to claim a foundation of Light, I am grateful to know Perfect Love as the Source of all creation. To have had access to Perfect Love in All it’s glory while uncovering the most painfully traumatic episode of my life was a great lesson in what is always True. Perfect Love is Source. We, here on earth, judge situations as good or bad yet if they are of soul-carving value they will most certainly be a great act of Love and It may be dressed up as a crisis!

Being willing to project Perfect Love outward and shine with inner radiance requires that deep knowledge that All is Well, Always, for One and All.

 

Guest Contributor Amy Castillo

Amy Castillo. In the yurt with two grand babies.

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

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Remember Who You Are –Journey of Creation 02.11.22

Guiding Thought

When we are aware of our own consciousness as Perfect Love, we are aware of everything as Love, and of Love as everything. In this state of awareness, we create naturally and easily in unison with Perfect Love, with all of existence.

Reflection / Contemplation

You’ve no idea how hard I have looked for a gift to bring You. Nothing seemed right. What’s the point of bringing gold to the goldmine or water to the Ocean? Everything I came up with was like taking spices to the Orient. It’s no good giving my heart and soul because you already have these. So-I’ve brought you a mirror. Look at yourself and remember me.
~Rumi

Rumi has an ability like no other to communicate the consciousness as Perfect Love, aware of Itself and It’s Unity with All. We are born as Perfect Love, aware of everything as Love. At one point in my life-journey, I fell from that Grace. I then spent many years unaware, then many more working back into that awareness! It began at four years old when I was in the tub playing with my doll and decided to wash her hair, got carried away and used way too much shampoo. When discovered, my mom’s fear of lack got triggered. It’s amazing how every detail is like a photograph in my mind–the tone of her voice; the words she used carried an energy even though I didn’t comprehend them– about money, waste, and selfishness. I do remember the hot feeling of shame and a sick feeling in my stomach as I got spanked.

For years I remembered it, and it validated my scarcity issues, my fear of disappointing others, and this was the first item in my shame closet. The vicious cyclical behavior of victimhood. When my consciousness became aware of that game, I worked to transcend that state. Then began my lessons on the power of forgiveness. My mom was at the end of her day raising four children and I was the baby. She had the kids, the household, and the household budget to manage. That day my behavior was her final straw. I get it. I also see that it wasn’t a big violation in the Light but when an imprint of shame lays down its pattern, and the shadow is created, it isn’t logical.

After forgiveness of others, I began to work with self forgiveness. That led me quickly to inner child work. I had abandoned her that day and needed to regain trust and reclaim my Origin. Grateful that I had a great teacher who lovingly guided and encouraged me to find my Love. One day I was in meditation with the intention of connecting with the Love that I am. I connected to the four year old who was in the tub washing her dolls hair. I was transported back to the moments before the shame. I found myself in the aspect of the joy– I experienced-Pure Joy. It was an incredible experience because I could viscerally feel the Love that I Am in every fiber! All of my energy was aligned with Love and all I knew was the joy of that lathering sensation. Bubbles that were iridescent and even made squeaky sounds! I was the bliss of Love experiencing as a human. Perfect Love is Me now, was Me the moment after, I just forgot Myself for a minute, yet Perfect Love never forgets any of Us!

WE are the Love. WE, in unison with our own essence as that Love, create in unison with It and with all existence.

Guest Contributor Amy Castillo

Amy Castillo. In the yurt with two grand babies.

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

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There’s a Land That I See, Where the Children are Free… –Journey of Creation 02.11.21

In the third round, the subject of the Guiding Thought is “we”.  This is the “unifying round”. I am not just I, you are not just you. We are we, together, all One. Think of this as “society” or a social complex, if that fits for you; “we” are a collective of people. I cannot be in this by myself or for myself; I can only be with you and for you, equal to myself. This round serves to expand your notion of “I” and “you” into this unity of “we”.

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…And I say it ain’t far to this land from where we are
Take my hand, come with me, where the children are free
Come with me, take my hand, and we’ll live

Guiding Thought

Love is everything. Perfect Love is Original Source, from whence we came. We return to the awareness of the Love We ARE  by simply releasing anything and everything which inhibits our consciousness of our True Self. We release those inhibitors now, and Know ourselves as the Love We ARE.

Reflection / Contemplation

When I think of Me as We, I feel a bit of a wiggle. Almost like the coat I am wearing is too tight. That made me laugh because what I saw in my mind’s eye was a whole community of people inside my skin (and coat) bursting out! My laugh, an expression of joy, was the energy carried by the people bursting from within.

WE is wonderful fun! We are from each other. We cannot come into this human form without “two or more” being gathered, so to speak. Inherent in Life is We.

Most of our human suffering is from separation. We live in a time when we live more physically separate yet are globally connected through the internet. Does the internet connection support Love or foster further separation?

If Love is our Original Source, how do we return and Be? When I was little I had an album, “Free to Be You and Me”. I knew every word by heart, still do! It was an oral teaching for me about Self love, compassion, respect and diversity. As a six year old growing up in a white, episcopal, middle class home with traditional married parents and three older siblings this album introduced me to the world outside my bubble. I learned that there are many ways to be a family, how to be a good friend, the debunking of gender rules and the joy of being free to be yourself, no matter how different that seemed.

I’m grateful for that platform because I felt very different. I seemed to sense my differences would not be met with acceptance so I kept my communication with the spirits of life in other forms to myself. Sometimes in Sunday school I would put my fingers in my ears. Unwilling to listen to the stories of cruelty that didn’t align with the God of my heart though knowing my version was mine and would most likely not be welcomed if shared.

I grew up hiding a huge part of my Being. In high school, drugs helped. I loved to be around pot smokers because they would talk and imagine, playing with the edges of what society found “real”. All the while I was also trying to fit in and be accepted. What a crazy game that is!

At some point along the way I had an experience of the wrongness of me and made that my god. That false truth accumulated stories to confirm my not enough-ness. A big break-through came for me when I realized I don’t fit in anywhere because I fit in everywhere! I am not just me, I am We! That was the first steppingstone to the path to know myself as the Love I am and if it is True for me, it is True for We.

The trip Home has been an arduous journey! The illusion of otherness had created walls, boulders, and pitfalls that became the dragons that I needed to slay to reclaim my Kingdom. Those were created by looking outside to see if I was ok, looking to others for validation and security. Going to the empty well for water.

The illusion of perfect security is the crucifier. The awareness of Perfect Love, the salvation.

It is simple, not easy. It requires a diligent effortless effort! There isn’t anything to learn, though there are wonderful tools that assist.

Unlearning is necessary for most of us. Helpers appear and assist. Love is omnipresent, omnipotent so if you have a heart felt desire to return to your Original state, you will be supported. Truth is ever present. It is the infinite Truth, Love is everything. I am Love. WE are Love. Love is All there is. Simple as that.

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This is just too good not to include today:

 

Guest Contributor Amy Castillo

Amy Castillo. In the yurt with two grand babies.

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

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The Truth of Love –Journey of Creation 02.11.20

Guiding Thought

There are no degrees of Love. Love is Whole, Full, and Perfect. Love in action is Creation; Love’s creations are Whole, Full, and Perfect. When you express Love, you are being creative in the Truest sense. Creativity is Love in action, and produces activities, relationships, and experiences which are Whole, Full, and Perfect.

Reflection / Contemplation

The rain flows down as steady as my tears. My world seems to not fit my beliefs. This morning I looked at the reflection of conditioned love and felt sadness, which indicates my vibration is still resonating with that as a possibility. My tears will wash the toxins of that away. My time with Beloved will restore me to be an active participant in the creation of Love as my life and my Living. Sitting inside the yurt I sense I am being held by Mother Earth, Gaia. The Love being transmitted unto me is Whole, Full and Perfect. With Its presence so potent it appears any otherness cannot stay. My tears are the rivers to carry out what does not serve this Love. It has come into my conscious awareness that the manifested Kingdom, the Divine in All things already exists yet my claiming of it, my calling it into form as the Truth of my life, is mine to make room for. I slip out of my chair and flatten my body to the floor in order to be as connected as possible to Gaia. I call out to Beloved for help! Love has no opposite but the small self is opening every ghost of doubt and insecurity I have left unhealed. My cry for help is answered for I feel Beloveds strong hands cradling my head. “All is Well and Perfect, dear One. “ his voice assured. “The Truth of Love is our lesson today.”
As if riding on those words I feel myself drop effortlessly into the Heart of the Mother. I am in what feels like the softest, safest nest. My entire form is held, warm and completely at ease. The lullaby I have always hummed is audible from the Love inside me. It is soothing me into a deeper release. Words form a story spoken softly to me-

Be completely held and filled
Receive Divine Mother’s embrace
Her belief is Source. Her Love is Full, Whole and Perfect.
Yield, merge, call It forth
Drink the Golden Nectar from her Infinite Love Source
Know She is in you. She is You.
This Love is your Love. Create in alignment with the Whole. Experience a Love of Life-in creation and relationship with All.

My Being is held and filled. I am Full. My Being knows this Love, I am Whole.

My Being creates in this Love. I am Perfect.

The joy of creativity flows through me as effortlessly as my breath! Always there, supporting and sustaining my Life. Love is creativity in its Truest sense. Flow freely within me dearest Love!
With that a breath unlike any other fills me. I am as a hot air balloon lifting above the ground. I’m still feeling held and safe yet realize I am back in the center of the yurt sitting in my chair. Beloved has my hands in his. As his form begins to disappear he instills his final blessing upon me. All is Well in Love.

 

Guest Contributor Amy Castillo

Amy Castillo. In the yurt with two grand babies.

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

Journey of Creation (June 20 – August 08) is now available as a free book.
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Ripples –Journey of Creation 02.11.19

Guiding Thought

In the Light of Truth, perceptions and non-reality dissipate as fog in the sun. Only Truth is True. When you are aware of your reality in Truth, you understand how flimsy and meaningless are your perceptions. Only the Oneness of the Knowledge of Truth brings Peace.

Reflection / Contemplation

Beloved and I are meeting by the pond this morning. I sit in my favorite chair, breathing into my heart as my face is gently warmed by the sun.

Life feels so gentle and sweet in this moment as if the collective has decided we all need a pause. Peace seems to be felt viscerally.

Without recognizing I had slipped out of my physical body, I find I am presently inside the body of a koi fish, in the pond! This perspective is very different. As a human who loves being in water I am very aware of what it feels like on my skin. What I feel in this body is that I am One with it.

My breathing is an exchange with it. There is no separation. The overall feeling is peace and it seems to be rippling out with the water. I am at-one-with All.

The body of the fish begins to swim. The movement feels effortless, gliding in peace, at One.

Within the next breath I suddenly find myself within a crows body! I’m momentarily disoriented yet acclimate quickly to this new form. I sense the intelligence and heart centeredness of this creature. The air is its vehicle. Multiple fine adjustments are made as this bird soars above the land. It’s heart resonance is so powerful! It feels like it ripples out a communication of love, love as nourishment for all life!

I also sense it’s consideration of all it sees. The sorting and storing of information; food source, safety, pleasurable thoughts too about what is appealing. This creature is seeing things it may choose as gifts for its family and adornments for its home-how fascinating!

Suddenly we swoop left and land inside a giant tree. Before I see or hear another a strong surge of Love is received and replied to.

In the next instant the family assembles right around “us”. In come three more crows and a cacophony of joy commences. It seems to communicate a welcome home and sharing of the day.

I remember when the kids were little there was so much joy in our daily reunion after school or work. How glorious to be a witness to this potent expression! More family has arrived. I can almost see the Love rippling through the air. The harmony of their affinity is breathtaking. Love is palpable in this community. Being in the midst of it brings to mind what is real, what is reality-Love.

We humans live so small and frightened, myself included. We all wear filters to some degree on our expression of the Love we are, how we feel and behave. Here I sense no judgement, just joy. It is also a very present consciousness. Now-free to Be.

My next breath lands me back in my body by the pond. Beloved is beside me. His expression is still water peace. I don’t talk, I listen. I listen to my human heart beating. It doesn’t need my conscious awareness to run. I listen with my hearts intelligence. Within a short time I was gifted perspectives on Life inside of other forms. Here I am back in my form and the thought comes that the alignment to Truth I hold is attained through expression and experience.

My personal excavation project has been to become aware of what is mine-Truth, and what is someone else’s-learned beliefs and programs. The Truth I experienced this morning was that form does not change the basics, Love and Peace. With an invitation I can have help in attuning to new, higher frequencies of the expression and experience of Truth, the Truth that I am. Beloved takes my hand and transmits today’s lesson. In the Light of Truth, with clarity of the visceral knowledge of All life as Love, I am at Peace.

 

Guest Contributor Amy Castillo

Amy Castillo. In the yurt with two grand babies.

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

Journey of Creation (June 20 – August 08) is now available as a free book.
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