Chaos and Quiet –Journey of Courage 02.09.20

Guiding Thought

Be aware, allow, accept What is. Go within to your silent Self which Knows and follow your Inner wisdom to Truth. Practice Divine Balance in thought, word, and action. You are! You are your Self! You Are your Self of Love!

Contemplation / Reflection

Chaos and quiet. Went for a stroll through the local botanical garden on this sunny, spring-like afternoon. The garden is under the flight path of planes leaving the large international airport. They’re loud. Add to that a couple of trucks with loud mufflers and a motorcycle and you have noisy chaos. In only a minute, the vehicles and the plane are all long gone. I’m now standing on the edge of the pond in the Japanese garden section and all is peacefully quiet. I am aware. I allow the noise, what choice do I have?  And now I stand in the inner and outer stillness. I breathe deeply.  I am my Self aware of both chaos and quiet. And I love the balance of it! One of my favorite songs from years past was titled “Delicate Balance”.  A part of the lyrics: “it’s all such a delicate balance, as it turns through the circles of air. To live it is real, to love it is to feel that you’re a part of what everything is.” Delicate balance, divine balance, chaos and quiet…………

Guest Contributor Mary Wallace

 

 

 

 

 

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Love and Teddy Bears –Journey of Courage 02.09.17

Guiding Thought

Love is strong! Powerful! Embrace Love and wield it through your awareness of Oneness. Oneness destroys the illusions of the mind, of the past, and of the material world. Move forward courageously with Peace in the Truth of Love and Oneness.

Contemplation / Reflection

Love is strong! Powerful! As I pondered this Guiding Thought, I just kept coming up with “I got nothin!” So my husband brought out my favorite teddy bear, suggesting I might find some inspiration there. I’ve had a special teddy bear for many years. Not always the same bear. I seem to have a habit of passing them on to others when I perceive they would benefit someone more than me. And I got to thinking about the role of teddy bears in my world. I once spent six weeks in a hospital. I was given a bear I named “Hugs”. Hugs was with me every minute of every day during one of the more challenging periods of my life. “Kisses” is a teddy bear that supported me through cancer treatments. Teddy bears will listen to any tears, frustrations, anger and fear, and never talk back, never judge, never contradict, never argue. .. Love is like that. No matter the challenges faced, love simply IS.  Hugs went to a new home when a friend needed a hug. Same with Peppermint. Kisses still hangs out with me. Yes, love is strong, but it can also be gentle and quietly supportive, like a teddy bear. I look around my home and see houseplants, paintings, photographs, trees, cards from friends. Everywhere I look, signs of love. Ever present, demanding nothing but to let it be. There’s great power in that!

Guest Contributor Mary Wallace

 

 

 

 

 

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Commitment and Dedication –Journey of Courage 02.09.0

COMMITMENT

I am committed to exploring the fears within that may arise in the course of this Journey of Courage, to contemplate those fears and to call upon my higher, Divine Self to better understand, accept and transform those fears. I am committed to reading the Guiding Thought each day for the next 40 days. On those days when I may be traveling or away from home, I commit to engaging with the Guiding Thought in advance, or while away, in order to provide a public response to that Guiding Thought on a daily basis.  I will read the Thought, reflect on it, and record the thoughts and reflections that arise on a daily basis.

DEDICATION

I dedicate any merit that may arise from my contemplation of the daily Guiding Thoughts to the highest good of ALL BEINGS, myself included.

And so it is.

Guest Contributor Mary Wallace

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

National Grouch Day -Fulfillment (1.6.26)

Copyright Tam Black 2018
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Guiding Thought

Why would we choose to limit ourselves? To limit reality? All reality is ours and ours to give. In giving and sharing, Joy increases, expanding Love, expanding our experience of LIFE!

This day, first Journey of Fulfillment, 2014
This day, second Journey of Fulfillment, 2016
One year ago–
Peace, Claim It!: Journey of Peace 2017– Day 23

Sharing

Did you know that today is National Grouch Day?  Inspired by the Grouch of Grouches, this is a day to celebrate that little bit (or lot) of grouch within. Image result for national grouch day

I am not a grouchy person. At all. When I woke up this morning I did not know it was National Grouch day, but I was totally in tune with it, oddly enough. When I got to work, I confessed to several people that I felt “grouchy”–and I used that word specifically, rejecting “cranky” for it. What was funny to me, was that (and this was still all before I learned it is actually National Grouch day) the people I confessed my grouchiness to, replied in kindThey felt grouchy too!

What was even funnier is that once we started admitting it, we were laughing about it–which is very un-grouchy. It was almost like allowing ourselves to embrace the grouch moved us past the grouch.

I don’t think this would have worked if I were more-often a grouch. If that were the case, I would have been serious about being a grouch. But the way it came out today was more, “can you believe it,  I (of all people) feel grouchy, haaaaaaa”! And we laughed. That’s the kicker, not only did my grouchiness get turned upside down, it was able to turn several other people’s grouchiness upside down.

In an odd twist, I feel like this is the perfect fit for today’s Journey.  I didn’t “limit myself” to “only happy thoughts”; I didn’t suppress the impulse to feel, even if it was the “grouch” in me.  But this very acceptance (and sharing it) expanded joy, and increased my and other people’s experience of life in a positive way.

If you haven’t yet today, embrace your inner grouch! Love your inner grouch! Be your inner grouch! …and laugh and laugh and laugh.

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  2. Indulge in one of my healing services: Jharra, Reiki, Fire Ceremony (see withpearls.com for more information).
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Extension of Reality -Fulfillment (1.6.6)

Copyright Tam Black 2018
Designed for susanwithpearls.com

Guiding Thought

Why would I choose to limit my Self? To limit my reality? All of reality is mine, and mine to give! In giving and sharing, my joy increases, expanding my Love, expanding Life!

Sharing

The first sentence today is both rhetorical and impossible.

It’s rhetorical because the obvious answer/response is: I wouldn’t choose to limit myself. 

It’s impossible because your Self cannot be limited by you, by anyone.

This goes back to the discussion on day four and difference between “you” and “You”–your lower (personality) self, and your Higher (Divine) Self.

“You” (your lower, personality self), can try to limit your Self. And it can succeed in your experience of It, but not in the reality of It. You experience your Higher Self through the filters your lower self has put into place. Your lower self dictates its own experience of your Higher Self, and since it is both the developer, architect, and construction worker, it also puts into place the idea that it (your lower self) is the reality of you. Then it believes what it has made.

Once you begin to make decisions that recognize the reality of You (i.e. once you begin to wake up to the Truth of your Self), you begin to see where the lower self has made decisions about your experience of the Reality of your Higher Self without you even knowing it. This is “how” you can think that you can limit yourself.

The Truth is: All of reality is yours, and is You. That is…Real reality, not the so-called reality that your lower self has developed and constructed as its own kingdom that it rules.

The way you prove the reality of your Self is by giving and sharing it. You cannot give something you do not have. You have everything in Reality. You can give everything in reality without sacrifice to either your self or your Self (but your self can feel threatened  by lack and limitation, scarcity and not-having enough).

When you give and share from Reality, your joy increases, and expands your Love, expanding Life! This is because you are sharing what is Real, what is Constructive, what is created in Love, with Love, by Love, for Love.

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Ways to support this work:

  1. Hire me as your Spiritual Coach, you may sign up for a personalized Journey with me Click here for more information. Or I offer 1-on-1 spiritual coaching sessions. This is non-religion specific, and open to everyone, even atheists, though of course we would call something like “self-analysis coach” for a self-identified atheist.
  2. Indulge in one of my healing services: Jharra, Reiki, Fire Ceremony (see withpearls.com for more information).
  3. Send me a monetary gift via paypal: paypal.me/SusanBillmaier (please note “gift” in the transaction).
  4. Tell a friend about this site, the coaching or healing services.
  5. Invite me to interview on a podcast or for an article.

All proceeds go toward increasing love, light, and a consciousness of Oneness in the world. Thank you for your contribution that benefits All.

These Journeys are always available on this site at no charge. I also provide Jharra, Reiki, and Fire Ceremonies at no-charge to those who ask.

Infinite Steps to Peel the Onion -Abundance (1.5.31)

Copyright Tam Black 2018
Designed for susanwithpearls.com

You’ve made it to Round 4, congratulations!

We are back to using “I” as the subject of the Guiding Thoughts. If you are new to the Journeys, please see this page for information about how and why the rounds change.

Guiding Thought

Divine Love-Light is the Source of All. It is all good, all God. This Source is always seeking expression through me. My awareness of my personal identity as this Source provides me with infinite fulfillment and prosperity.

Sharing

Layers. You’ve heard about this right? …Spiritual growth is like peeling back the layers of an onion: once you get through one layer, it reveals the next layer, then the next layer, then the next, deeper and deeper. Or, maybe…

Spiritual growth is like peeling back the layers of an onion: because you may cry a lot.

Just a bit of humor there. I cry a lot…you gotta have some sense of humor about this stuff.

This is a direction that is inward…which is how I’ve always thought about the onion-analogy. You need “peel” and get through the surface-layers, before you can “peel” the layers underneath and dig deeply into core “issues” (or layers)… Here’s an example from my own life:

When I was a young adult, testing and trying relationships, I was not at all able to communicate my feelings. When someone asked me “how do you feel?”, I froze. I totally shut down. I remember in those youthful relationship experiments, this came up consistently. I would be asked “how do you feel”–and I am sure it came from a loving, caring place, but it felt like I was being asked a question which bombarded me with so much confusion and turmoil that I had no choice but to turn off.  It wasn’t like I meant to; it wasn’t like I was saying to myself, “time to cut this person off now!” My body/mind literally could not move or get past that question.

That was the very surface layer: having virtually no awareness why this was happening, not being able to do anything about it, and not understanding why it was happening.

The next layer was a small bit of self-awareness that if instead  of being asked “how do you feel?”, someone asked, “do you feel…>fill in the blank<?” I was able to acknowledge with “yes” or “no”. I still could not speak (still shut down), but at least I could identify that  I was feeling something, and what it was. This was tedious, but it was better than the previous scenario.

The third layer was, when I was in my mid-twenties, I began doing hard-core emotional work. It was the behavioral barometer that finally moved me into being able to a) self-identify a feeling and b) say the words.

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Very briefly: on the right hand side of the barometer are words that correspond with emotional states. There is a process by which to link an emotional state with certain neurological patterns, which “lock” a person in that state, then release those patterns, freeing the mind/body/emotions from being locked.

The fourth layer was, after much Barometer work, I identified a specific situation when I was about 8 years old, in which I felt “unheard”, and in that moment, the pattern that got locked was, “if I’m not heard anyway, I’m just not going to talk”.  After releasing that pattern, I was able to learn to communicate my feelings–and that began peeling even further layers and releasing more emotional “stuckness”.

But that final release of that pattern, in recognizing its source, also did something else: it opened me up to positive growth. Now, I was not only continuing to peel back layers of deeper emotional stuckness, but I was also learning to express myself (the first positive layer), which opened the door to feeling heard and loved (the second positive layer), which opened the door to having more intimacy in relationships (the third positive layer), which opened up the door to even more love and intimacy.

This is how I see it:

If you would know infinity, take a step in every direction. ~ Goethe

There are infinite layers to infinite steps, all of which bring us one step closer to knowing the Source of All. The more steps we take, the more stuckness we can peel back, the more positive steps we can take forward, until we indeed are expressing Infinity through us, as our experience of fulfillment and prosperity.

I Am Becoming -Abundance (1.5.13)

Copyright Tam Black 2018
Designed for susanwithpearls.com

Guiding Thought

Fill your mind and heart with Love, and align with the Light of Truth. Be Steadfast and focused on your own Loving Presence; live in the peace of fulfillment of your own Divine Identity.

Sharing

I wonder what’s next for me?

I wonder this on many levels.

  • What’s next for my personal growth? I’ve been going through some personal growth (inter-relational stuff) for the past 6 years, that all has been very difficult; but I think I am through it, finally–and so much the better for it! What’s next!?
  • What’s next for my spiritual progress? My spiritual advancement has grown it seems by leaps and bounds in the past two years–first my mundan, then my 40-days of fire ceremony to the Divine Mother, now another 40-days of fire ceremony to Haidakhan Babaji and the Divine Mother; I recognize myself as spiritually fulfilled–which only began after the mundan. And I am now recognizing that fulfillment in others more and more.
  • What’s next for my service projects?  What’s next for my abundance growth?  My service projects are bringing me a different kind of fulfillment–and I think they are leading me toward my next abundance growth-spurt. So much of my wondering, doubting, thinking about “when will this happen” has just dropped away–it’s no longer in my mind.
  • What’s next for my healing? I am on a really good track with my healing; I’ve been eating kitchari almost daily, and my body has been very appreciative.
  • What’s next for my learning?  I’ve come to a bit of a lull with my learning (learning fire ceremonies took a lot!), but I am anxious to see what captures my fancy next.
  • What’s next for my Love? One of my most beloved pets died about 18 months ago; then another died about a year after that. There was a void that I was not ready to fill. Then, over the summer, the Universe decided to fill it for me: a kitten was abandoned in my garage. It took about 5 weeks for him to trust me enough for me to pet him, but now (8 weeks after he first showed up), he is in the house as family. What new Love will this little guy teach me?

I am wondering these things, because I’ve already come so far. Part of the wondering is “what could be better than this”? “If I’ve gotten here, how much more amazing can I have in my life”?

I now live, most of the time, in the space of always having my mind and heart filled with Love, aligned with the Light of Truth. I falter now and again–like earlier today, when I was tired and hungry, and felt cranky…but it rarely lasts very long.

I feel like I can see through the mud of material reality. I can see (or sense) the spiritual reality that enlivens everything, that exists as everything, that calls to everyone and lifts us up to Itself.

Be steadfast and focused on your own Loving Presence; live in the peace of fulfillment of your own Divine Identity. It happens. I’m here to tell you. Stay steady, seek ye first the Kingdom, and all will be added unto you.

I’ve not arrived; I am becoming. And it’s getting really fun to watch.