Every thought, word, action or feeling we express affects the whole of Creation –Gratitude 2.8.34

Guiding Thought

Through gratitude, my consciousness of Love expands, connecting me with All. Gratitude increases my awareness of unity; gratitude shows me our Wholeness. Gratitude is the bridge to knowing others as my Self. What a gift you are!

Reflection / Contemplation

I mentioned recently that I’ve been reading the Saint Germain I AM Discourses. Through this reading, I’ve been reminded repeatedly of the work done by the man who inspired these Journeys, John Randolph Price.

Though there is much in the Discourses that I find inspiring, the thought about decreeing something through the I AM Presence is the one I am currently associating with Mr. Price.

In The Abundance Book, Mr. Price is very clear that at the beginning of the 40 days, one should make a forceful declaration to end poverty consciousness, and to establish a consciousness of abundance:

On this day, I cease believing in visible money as my supply and my support, and
I view my current world of effect, as it truly is simply an out picturing of my former beliefs. I
believed in the power of money, therefore I surrendered my God-given power and authority
to an objectified belief. I believed in the possibility of lack, thus causing a separation in
consciousness from the source of my supply. I believed in mortal man and carnal conditions,
and through this faith gave man and conditions power over me. I believed in the mortal
illusion created by the collective consciousness of error thoughts, and in doing so, I have
limited the Unlimited. No More! This day I renounce my so-called humanhood and claim my
divine inheritance as a Being of God. This day I acknowledge God as my supply and my

No more! No more.

I feel like this is where I’m at. No more. Let us be done with nonsense of cruelty, of pettiness, of greed, of vanity, of power over others. Let us empower each other. Let us be kind to each other. Let us meditate together on the highest possible ideas and ideals that we can in every possible moment. Let us share; let us take care of each other, the earth and all her creatures and flora.

From this day forward, let us decree that our own, individual consciousness (and thus the consciousness of Humanity), which used to be focused continually on conflict, fear, and antagonism, will flow in a new direction—toward peace, harmony, divinity and spirituality.

If you do not feel like your consciousness has these impressions, then decree this for the world consciousness, because I hope you can’t deny that you see it “out there”.

Let us decree this transformation in consciousness is manifest. Energy accumulates where we direct our attention, and the energy of consciousness causes everything to take shape.

As we meditate together today for a world free from conflict and discrimination, free from injustice and oppression,  a world filled with love, respect, and gratitude toward one another and toward all life on Earth, we join in consciousness with millions and millions of people around the world doing this work in their own way.

Let us be the wave of concentrated energy working for the transformation of Humanity’s consciousness. Let us awaken peace, harmony, and gratitude within all Human Beings.

You are probably already doing this work. Thank you for that. Thank you for being here. Thank you for being the Love Presence you are. I cannot express how grateful I am for you.



Beautiful Challenge –Gratitude 2.8.26

Guiding Thought

When we look within and see the radiance of Love, we remember our wholeness. We are wholly loving and wholly lovable. In the purity of Love lies peace, which we share with all in gratitude.

Reflection / Contemplation

Waking up is happening now! People everywhere are remembering who they are and why they are here. They are opening their hearts, and lifting their minds to the Light and Love that they are. Consciousness is expanding!

When our consciousness is raised and we increase Love and Light in our lives, we begin to see with new eyes and hear with new ears. We see and experience Oneness, Unity, Harmony, and understand that all life is connected. We are One.

Often, from our newly awakened state of consciousness, our reflex response is to resist so-called negative situations and behavior patterns, like poverty, greed, corruption, violence, abuse of power, oppression, hatred, selfishness, prejudice, pollution, disease, or ignorance. This causes us to set ourselves against the people involved–forgetting that we are One, and labeling “us” and “them”.

When we resist them, they resist us. But since we are One, it is merely the self resisting another self; in our ignorance of the truth, our resistance to unity creates the appearance of further separation. Arguments cannot be “won”. Coercion does not change a person or a situation. Convincing or persuading has no real lasting effect; it is simply a judgement that someone else’s thinking or feeling is flawed or wrong. But, guess what!? “They” think the exact same thing about “us”.

I know what I know. I know what I don’t know. But I also don’t know what I don’t know.

This is why it’s imperative to expand and raise my consciousness into Love, so that even when I don’t know, I can think, speak, and act with Love and kindness. I can treat others with respect and dignity; I can honor all of life and all of Life’s expressions. When I shift my consciousness, I allow myself to perceive a greater Truth, a Truth of Unity and Oneness, and to experience this Oneness of Life at a deeper level.

Here is an example:

Imagine a deaf and blind person trying to convince someone who can see and hear that there is no such thing as color or music. The person who can see and hear, knows clearly that there is color and music, but can also understand why a deaf and blind person would think there is not color and music, and be able to have compassion for that point of view, responding with patience and understanding. A person with a consciousness of Love, Oneness, and Unity, is like that person who can see and hear music, understanding the perspective of someone who experiences separation, yet responding with love and compassion.

However, we do not always know how or what people perceive. We do not know their level of consciousness, nor can we judge where they are in their own ascension process. Everyone is unique, and everyone came here with their own lessons to learn, as well as their own contribution to make.

People are where they are, they are who they are, and everyone (and I mean everyone) is doing the best that they can. We cannot make the mistake of assuming that people should know more than they do or that they should understand more than they are capable of understanding. When we expect more from people than they are capable of, we are generally disappointed and frustrated with their actions or their perception of things… which throws us right back into a separation “us” versus “them” mentality.

We are experiencing a beautiful, challenging time! We are healing ourselves, each other, and the planet! Everything that is coming to the surface as “negative” or as polarized “against” us, is doing so in order to be healed and transformed.  It is time to meet ourselves head on, and love each other into light. Regardless of so-called differences, regardless of our so-called oppositions, irrespective of what is “out there” that we are resisting…it is there for us to become more than who and what we are right now. How we meet each situation: with resistance, or with love and compassion, will determine the next step of our ascension, or whether we remain stuck.

Remember: Love is always the answer. Love is always the response. Love is always the lesson.
Any question I ask…the answer is Love.
“What do I do”? …the answer is Love. And I don’t mean this abstractly. I mean this literally. Open your heart, and Love.
“What am I learning”? ….the answer is always Love.

Where do you stand? -Fulfillment (1.6.16)

Copyright Tam Black 2018
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Guiding Thought

Why would you choose to limit yourself? To limit your reality? All reality is yours, and yours to give. In giving and sharing, your Joy increases, expanding Love, expanding your experience of Life!


I have moments of being in love with some of the people I work with. Now is one of those moments. Every year at this time, I initiate a project and connect via email with about 75 people…we work on the project for about 7 months via email,  then go our separate ways until this time again next year. I’ve just sent that initiating email, and begun the re-connections. Each and every one of these people is so dear to me–so gracious, kind, and caring. I just love them ALL.

This is just one area of my work-life. Not all my work-related relationships are like this. I still work in an office-atmosphere full of ego and lower-minded pettiness–most of which I do well to avoid (keep my head down…do my job). The contrast is clear to me, though–what is possible, vs. what lower-minded-ego-assertion creates.

The first (loving my colleagues) is full of mutual respect, good/positive communication, caring about the work, cooperation, and a sense of personal responsibility. The second is full of undercutting, backstabbing, non-or-false-communication, competition, and blame.

What is ironic to me is that these are not two separate workplaces. It’s all the same place, just different personalities that create the two atmospheres and experiences.

It only takes a few lower-minded-ego personalities to depress the morale of a place…but it also only takes a few higher-minded, loving, positive personalities to raise it.

Most people are not one or the other. Most people are neutral, and just go with the dominant energy-force, swayed by whatever is in front of them Most people are asleep. Zombies. Unaware that they have a choice.

But everyone has a choice–and more and more people are waking up to that every day. The balance is shifting. More and more people are tired of the Debbie-downers, the competitive personalities that want to win, which means smashing anyone in their path.

I heard a great phrase today: be committed to the process, not to the result.

People who are committed to a result are usually committed to it because they see that result as something that is good for themselves, not for a group, not for another. The result they seek is selfish and self-serving.

People who are committed to a process encourage each other, share with each other, learn from each other–and use those dynamics to unfold a result, rather than impose a result.

So much more is possible with an unfolding–anything can happen, the possibilities are endless.

Do you see, in this extended example how love opens up interaction, communication, and relationships, and how ego-mindedness shuts it down? Do you see how people limit themselves when they don’t choose love? Do you see the possibilities that open up when people bring cooperation, good will, and helpfulness to work, and to relationships? Do you see how joy increases with love, how your experience of Life can increase with Love?

More and more people are waking up. More and more people are noticing the difference in a workplace when there is cooperation, or when there is competition. More and more people are choosing to be positive, to be uplifting, to not just go with the flow of the de-moralizers.

Where are you?

Happy -Fulfillment (1.6.7)

Copyright Tam Black 2018
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Guiding Thought

My joy unifies! Accepting my own joy—acknowledging it, sharing it, and expressing it—heals myself and others. To be wholly joyful means to be wholly love…means to be wholly my Self.



“Be a dynamo of irrepressible Joy!” ~Haidakhan Babaji

I’ve been pretty dang close to living in the reality of this Guiding Thought! I have been oddly happy lately. Oddly both in the quality of the happiness, and in how uncharacteristic it feels (I’m a very serious person, dontcha know).

The quality of the happiness has been what feels like a combination of energy, peace, and good will. Energy: have you ever watched a horse playing in a meadow on a cool morning, after eating breakfast?

Or watched a cat tearing it up, running and jumping all over the house?

Yeah, the energy feels like that, but totally infused with Peace, which adds a subdued, low-key overtone to the Energy. With all the messes in the world (hurricane and its aftermath, political mess, people so hateful and cruel…you know what I’m talking about), I’ve wondered how I can be so peaceful and happy. I should be covered up in worry, and uncertainty, and distrust, and doubt…but I’m not. I see it. I see the destruction. I feel for the people and the animals who were so affected by Florence, by the West Coast fires, by the Volcano…but I am also somehow peaceful about it…the kind of feeling like “all is well; all is as it should be”. If/when you really live from that space and believe that all is well and all is as it should be, there’s no reason to be disturbed or affected by what is going on around you.

Good Will I am loving people lately. Love as in just enjoying every person’s uniqueness; I see so much value in difference, and in everyone…because everyone is different. And because I have this feeling of loving a person just for being who they are, I also feel like I want that love to support and encourage them, just for being.

What I have been finding is that expressing and sharing this Joy, this happiness comes naturally when I really live in that space authentically. I don’t have to do anything to “make it happen”. I just have to continue doing what I am doing to keep the path clear for it to come out.

It is also seems to be naturally healing. People seem drawn to me more lately (I’ve had more lunch “dates” in the past couple months than I have in the previous year!), and I can tell that people gain something unspokenly positive, or uplifting when we interact. Again, it’s not like I am trying to do something, but people seem naturally more at ease (or peace), they smile quickly and easily, we talk, and really connect (not that superficial conversation stuff)… and I feel like all of this has become possible simply because I have been happy.


Ways to support this work:

  1. Hire me as your Spiritual Coach, you may sign up for a personalized Journey with me Click here for more information. Or I offer 1-on-1 spiritual coaching sessions. This is non-religion specific, and open to everyone, even atheists, though of course we would call something like “self-analysis coach” for a self-identified atheist.
  2. Indulge in one of my healing services: Jharra, Reiki, Fire Ceremony (see withpearls.com for more information).
  3. Send me a monetary gift via paypal: paypal.me/SusanBillmaier (please note “gift” in the transaction).
  4. Tell a friend about this site, the coaching or healing services.
  5. Invite me to interview on a podcast or for an article.

All proceeds go toward increasing love, light, and a consciousness of Oneness in the world. Thank you for your contribution that benefits All.

These Journeys are always available on this site at no charge. I also provide Jharra, Reiki, and Fire Ceremonies at no-charge to those who ask.

Doing Without Doing -Fulfillment (1.6.3)

Copyright Tam Black 2018
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Guiding Thought

What is fulfillment but knowing my Self as an expression of Divine Love? My Self wills to create! My Self wills to share! My Self wills to extend itself! My fulfillment is creation; my joy is sharing; my peace is extension.


Again…today I feel in perfect alignment with my initial approach to the Journey. This has never happened before: I have never begun a Journey feeling like I’m in sync with mySelf. All other Journeys, it was like mySelf wrote the Why–with very high expectations and standards–and I then had to pedal really fast to catch up to it.

When I said a few days ago in the Why, “I must do nothing. In order for Divine Perfection to work in Its time, I need not interfere: I must do nothing, and in doing nothing All is well”, the subtext of that was that I must not do something with the intention that it has specific results.

Let me give a very simple example. If I read an article that says kale is a superfood, and that in order to rid my body of every possible known toxin, I must eat kale…and then I go out and buy a bunch of kale, and eat it every day in order to rid my body of toxins….  What I have done is given my actions a meaning. All my actions (including my thoughts) which are associated with kale have the intention that I rid my body of toxins. My actions take on a meaning that I have ascribed to them, with results that I have decided I want. This is doing something.

The alternative (doing nothing) is to remove decisions about what something means or does not mean, to remove doing things in order to achieve a result, and to not prejudge how I desire an action to turn out.

This is the actionless action, the doing without doing. I still take actions. I still work, eat, watch TV, play with my cat (who happens to be very unhappy right now, since I gave him a crushed up pill in his food, and he made it very clear how it smelled, when he covered it up, refused to eat it, and has been complaining for the past 10 minutes.) But I do not try to determine what the actions mean, or the result they will bring in advance.

I’ve been “practicing” this for about two weeks. It’s not easy. First I have to notice when I have a motivation. Then I have to either a) get clear to remove the motivation or b) decide not to take the action, that has a specific motivation behind it. So far, usually, it’s been easier to go with b). I am not yet good enough at this to know when I have cleared my motivation enough to take action without having it.

But I’ve also had new awareness and action. There are now more times when I am acting without thinking. I skip the mental option of motivation or intention altogether, and simply do something. What is interesting to me is that many of the actions I have done in this “state” have been things that are “of mySelf”. They have been things that are creative, expressive, and embodying my Divine Presence.

They have also been things that will increase my awareness and expression of my Inner Divine Presence, which will be experienced as peace, love, joy, gratitude.

I am suddenly reminded of these two Guiding Thoughts, from previous Journeys:

Increasing my thoughts of Love and my attitude of service dispels all fear of lack and limitation. As I serve more people with Love, money and wealth flow abundantly to me. I use money and wealth with love and wisdom to create a life I love through my highest vision. (Journey of Abundance days that end in 6)

I awaken to my Inner Divine Mind and invite It to express itself as every person and event that will increase my awareness of It. (Journey of Purpose, days that end in 5)

You see, I have been working on creating, sharing, and expanding (as in today’s Guiding Thought). I find it very fascinating how a Journey of fulfillment is bringing Abundance and Purpose together for me…without me doing anything!

Love to you, dear ones. Walk your path! Love yourSelf. Be your Self.


Ways to support me so I can do more of this work:

  1. Hire me as your Spiritual Coach, you may sign up for a personalized Journey with me Click here for more information. Or I offer 1-on-1 spiritual coaching sessions. This is non-religion specific, and open to everyone, even atheists, though of course we would call something like “self-analysis coach” for a self-identified atheist.
  2. Indulge in one of my healing services: Jharra, Reiki, Fire Ceremony (see withpearls.com for more information).
  3. Send me a monetary gift via paypal: paypal.me/SusanBillmaier (please note “gift” in the transaction).
  4. Tell a friend about this site, the coaching or healing services.
  5. Invite me to interview on a podcast or for an article.

These Journeys are always available on this site at no charge. I also provide Jharra, Reiki, and Fire Ceremonies at no-charge to those who ask.

ALoveMent -Abundance (1.5.33)

Copyright Tam Black 2018
Designed for susanwithpearls.com

Guiding Thought

I fill my mind and heart with Love, aligning with the Light of Truth. Steadfast and focused on my own Loving Presence, I live in the peace of fulfillment of my own Divine Identity.


My Divine Identity is Love. My only real identity is Love.

This is why, when I fill my mind and heart with Love, I am aligning with the Light of Truth: Because Love is the only thing that is real; anything unreal is not Truth, so bringing Love into the mind and heart brings mental and emotional intention to aligning with the Truth through Love.

Here’s one way to think of this (this example presumes that you are not already 100% aligned with Love, and there are imperfections in your life or relationships). Imagine your work life, or your family life, or your relationship with money or your health. Pick just one of these areas.

Now bring to mind all your criticisms of this situation. What rubs you the wrong way? What is confusing? What bothers you? What would you like to change?

Think about this in as detailed a way as possible.

These criticisms represent where you are not aligned with Love in this situation.

Now fill your mind and heart with Love, and imagine the same situation, allowing the Love in your mind and heart to “spill out” into the situation, giving it a nice, soft glow.

You have just aligned your mind and heart in that situation with Love, which allows in the Light of Truth, so that you may see this situation in this new light.

Whether or not you see change in the situation depends on how misaligned from Love you are, and how much/often you align with Love.

Once you get proficient at bringing Love into a situation, you can begin to do it immediately, as the situation is happening–that is when you begin to see results very quickly, as the situation unfolds.

As you practice that–bringing in Love immediately–you begin to understand that Love as your Divine Identity. It is who you are. It is the reality of youand it becomes the only identity you want to cultivate and express.



Trust -Abundance (1.5.27)

Copyright Tam Black 2018
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Guiding Thought

Our consciousness is the gateway through which Divine Love flows, materializing our infinite Supply. We are now conscious of our own Inner Divine Presence—Infinite Love—expressing through us, providing us with the means to be aware, to understand, and to know It as our Self– more and more!


We’ve added a kitten to our family. He was abandoned in our garage at the beginning of June; at about 8 weeks old, he was near-feral. It took about 6 weeks of working with him– small steps every day, feeding him, getting closer to him, sitting with him, playing with him– for him to let me pet him. Starting in mid-July he came in the house, and has been making himself more and more comfortable, and is now a full member of the family.

Working with a near-feral cat has been a learning experience in trust building. He completely trusts me now, and I’ve never done anything to make him question whether or not I am trust-worthy; and he is very gentle with me when he plays, keeping his claws retracted, and his bites soft.

Yesterday while playing with him, I was able to pick him up and “body slam” him (Gently!) onto his back. He did not miss a beat, barely noticed I’d just turned him upside down, and just kept playing.

Throughout the past several weeks, I’ve been thinking about the human-animal relationship. It’s a big leap from a cat to a lion, but I can see how it’s possible to be able to hug lions:

I think trust has a lot to do with it. Somehow, the lions know they can trust this guy, and he trusts them in return–they know how to bite gently and keep their claws retracted just like my little Monster.

I think about the relationship I have with Monster. We have never had a moment in which we have done something to betray our mutual trust. Sure, I’ve done things he doesn’t like: treating him for fleas, taking him to the vet, etc., but I’ve never hurt him and I’ve always been gentle with him. I pay attention. I pay attention to how he’s responding, I don’t push him, and I take small steps with him so he can get accustomed to how I am handling him (like when I put flea shampoo on him, a little bit at a time! or when I pick him up, just a few seconds at first!)

Trust is the path to go back to the “Garden of Eden”, when humans and animals co-existed in peace.

Imagine trusting each other first. How many times a day do you question someone’s motives, wonder if they will betray you or back stab you, wonder if you can believe them, if they will follow through, if they will do what they say they will do, if they will be gentle with you…if you can trust them.

Imagine a world in which people trusted each other–pure trust. Imagine the freedom we would have without the encumbrance of wondering if someone will hurt us, betray us, or deceive us. Imagine the entire world this way– personal relationships, professional relationships, businesses, governments…