The Voice for God -Healing (1.4.33)

Copyright Tam Black 2018
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Guiding Thought

I rely on my own Loving Presence to lead and guide me toward the meaning of healing. Seeking the meaning of healing frames all my activity and gives context to all my interactions. Though I may encounter disturbances throughout my daily activity, I lay them at the feet of my own Loving Presence and continue to ask, “What is healing”? My own Loving Presence directs me as I listen in the stillness.

Reflection

Healing is not creating; it is reparation. The Holy Spirit promotes healing by looking beyond it to what the children of God were before healing was needed, and will be when they have been healed…The Holy Spirit is in you in a very literal sense. His is the Voice that calls you back to where you were before, and will be again. It is possible even in this world to hear only that Voice and no other. It takes effort and great willingness to learn. (A Course in Miracles, Chapter 5)

Here is what stands out to me today, both in the Guiding Thought, and in the Course in Miracles quote (which came up for me earlier today, out of the blue):

When a person seeks for healing, the seeking need not be blind, haphazard, arbitrary, or random. There are guides who know and can guide one to healing.

…but, “It takes effort and great willingness to learn”, which may be why healing seems like looking for a needle in a haystack. Most people a) don’t know where to turn for True help (one’s own Loving Presence and/or the Holy Spirit) and b) don’t want to make the effort. (Let me just note, that I am not conflating “Loving Presence” with “Holy Spirit”; however, I would assert that a person’s Loving Presence is the inner channel–a person’s personal radio-station, let’s say–to tune into the Holy Spirit.)

In other words, we don’t know what we are doing when it comes to healing. We try this, we try that; we listen to this guru, try that affirmation, take these pills, go on that retreat, buy this product, then that product, then the next product…because we don’t know what to do, so we have to try it all until “something works”. And here and there, something does work…we heal a bit, or feel a bit better, or get more energy, or relieve some pain.

This is why healing seems random and arbitrary, and sometimes is temporary. We are looking without a guide who Knows. Sure, some gurus, physicians, healers, can tap into Divine Source and give us really good information (which is then up to us to put into action); sometimes there are people who can help us connect with the Holy Spirit; but we have to find them, and in the meantime, the rest is trial and error. (See this page and this page for things that I find to “work” and that I use regularly to heal body-mind-soul…and to connect with God).

Until we go to the source of healing, the Voice of the Holy Spirit, and turn to God, we are relying on incomplete or inaccurate information; sometimes it works, sometimes it doesn’t. God–the Holy Spirit–always works. We just have to make the effort.

With this, I now have an even better understanding for why we begin each round of this Journey with really hammering home that healing needs to be approached “forgetting” everything we think we know, with empty hands, and as a blank slate.

We have to drop everything so that there is only the Holy Spirit’s Voice.

At the Feet of the Father -Healing (1.4.32)

Copyright Tam Black 2018
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Guiding Thought

I go deep within my inner stillness, and feel Divine Mind’s presence within me. I hold out my empty hands, symbolic of leaving preconceptions behind, symbolic of seeking True answers, and I ask, “What is the essence of healing?” These words resonate within me, as though in a vast cavern.  The word essence reverberates with these thoughts, “For what do I care most deeply?”; “What is my own essence?”; “What is my Truth?”; “Where is my deepest hurt, my pain, my sorrow, that all may be healed?”

Reflection

Round four is here; the Journey is coming together! If you’ve been following along, you may see it. But hopefully you are paying more attention to your own Journey, your own connections, and your own progress than you are to my process.

Let me lay it out for you, so you can get back to thinking about how the Journey is coming together for you.

I would say that day 22 began the coalescence. It was that day that I went into my heart (Dicrysahe), and asked questions from a deeper, more focused place. Asking questions with the heart is like laser-beam energy going right to the “heart of the matter”. The insights come with the same kind of focused energy; all of a sudden, there is an answer that just makes sense.

After that, there were six days of being in this “healing fog”: unassociated stuff coming up, going out, clearing up, moving through. The fog is not what I would call fun, but it also was not deeply dramatic or intense. It was more like watching a bad movie–I just kind of sat through it, being aware of not really enjoying myself, but getting through it. And at least I had the Journey, as well as some signposts to clue me in to what was going on, so that I could have some understanding sprinkled in.

Then just three days ago, the fog lifted. Apparently enough stuff had cleared out and it was time for the next step (or layer or something).

Two days ago I wrote about being broken, rebuilding, and the strength that comes from that process.

Yesterday, I associated being broken with letting go of all the stuff that inhibits a person from following Divine Will–and that when we allow ourselves to be rebuilt in such a way that we align with Divine Will, we step into the Truth of our Selves, which is Whole, Holy, Healthy.

Yesterday, I wrote this, “But, each time I arrive at the feet of my Father, I give up more of my lower-self”

And we arrive at today…

This morning, as I was waking up, I found myself at the feet of my Father–there’s this place I “go to” in my mind, where I meet with Him; usually I have to think about it, and imagine it; this time, I was just there, without thinking, in Dicrysahe. I was laying everything at his feet, and I realized for the first time (one of those, “how did I miss this?” moments) that I have more “worldly cares” than I realized. It was like one of those magic tricks, where the magician just keeps pulling things out of a bag: “oh, and there’s this” and “oh, and here is that”…I pulled out everything–health stuff, financial stuff, job stuff, projects stuff, family stuff, worries and cares, worries and cares. And I just said, “I don’t know what to do with all this, so I am giving it to you (and literally laid it at His feet). Please take it, and use it however you need to, to benefit All. Only You can do this; only You can orchestrate how this will be used for a Loving purpose”.

Several hours later, as I was doing the dishes, I felt (again Dicrysahe) this: “Know everything is what it is supposed to be; all is going as intended; have faith“.

Did I get a True answer? Maybe.

At least for me, now, the answer to “What is the essence of healing?” is: have faith.

And I can say that I have current answers for the next questions as well (following from the past 10 days):

“For what do I care most deeply?” Truth, my relationship with God, Divine Will

“What is my own essence?” Peace, stillness

“What is my Truth?” My heart, my relationship with God.

“Where is my deepest hurt, my pain, my sorrow, that all may be healed?” Find it, lay it at the feet of the Father, be free!

 

Every Day a Better Day -Healing (1.4.25)

Copyright Tam Black 2018
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Guiding Thought

Our own Loving Presence is our personal connection with Divine Mind. Attuned to our own Loving Presence, we Know ourselves as Whole and Holy. As we feel our Inner Unity, we know: this is all we want; we have found all we seek.

Reflection

Between 2005 and 2013 I studied A Course in Miracles pretty intensely. I don’t mean that I stopped at doing the daily lessons. I did those, then I read the text, took notes and wrote…and wrote…and wrote. That was before I was doing the Journeys. In a way, at least a portion of these Journeys grew out of that study. Part of what I wanted (and still want) to do with the Journeys is to do a cross-reference research project for a bunch of the themes in ACIM, to answer questions like, “How does purpose relate to atonement“? or “How does atonement relate to forgiveness“? or “How does forgiveness relate to healing“? or “How does healing relate to purpose“? You see how nicely that would fit within the framework of the Journeys? Everything is interconnected; each “theme” gives insight into other “themes” and those links bring greater understanding to both those themes and all others.

I had the good fortune at that time of having a flexible job schedule, and often did not have to be out of the house until 10 or 11 am. I would read-study-write from 5 or 6 am until 9 or 10. I would be completely absorbed, completely focused, never getting tired, but rather getting energized. I remember often thinking, “This is all I want; this is all I want to do”.

That feeling, “this is all I want; this is all I want to do” has recurred in my life more broadly with spiritual practices, and spiritual writing and studying.

As with a lot of spiritual practices, like meditation, the practices connect a person to their Loving Presence, their link to Divine Mine, their link to their own Inner Divine.

It’s a great place to hang out, there, with your own Loving Presence. It’s a high, really. I was thinking earlier today that it’s sort of like the runners high: you have to push through certain mental (chemical-hormonal-energetic) barriers, but once you get into “the zone” it feels amazing and you can just coast for hours, and the high carries you through other parts of your day and life.

Another similarity with running is that, like an endorphin high, the spiritual high eventually wears off. We go out into the world, where there is drama, among people who do not connect with their Loving Presence, who don’t and can’t understand wholeness, unity, compassion…so we end up not only losing the high, but expending more energy to protect ourselves from an onslaught of other people’s emotional energy. It’s a good day when I don’t get sucked down; it’s a better day when I can not only maintain my own Inner Harmony, but can also share it with others–where I can actually perceive that their energy is lifted and lightened through our interaction.

believe that we–all people– are headed to a time when the high does not wear off and every day is a better day. I think that the intense emotional energy in the world right now is a mass purging. All the crap is coming to the surface, so that it can go away for good.

More people are meditating. More people are doing spiritual practices. More people are realizing that it’s a great place to be, connected with Love, connected with others through Love.

What takes you to your zone? What are the practices that you do that take you to the place where you say, “This is all I want”? If you haven’t found it yet, keep looking. It’s there, waiting for you.

Crappity crap crap crap. -Healing (1.4.23)

Copyright Tam Black 2018
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Guiding Thought

We rely on our own Loving Presence to lead and guide us toward the meaning of healing. Seeking the meaning of healing frames all our activity and gives context to all our interactions. Though we may encounter disturbances throughout our daily activity, we lay them at the feet of our own Loving Presence and continue to ask, “What is healing”? Our own Loving Presence directs us as we listen in the stillness.

Reflection

Cleansing. Purging. Clearing. Letting go. Shifting. Transmuting.

Seeking the meaning of healing frames all our activity and gives context to all our interactions is currently very very true for me.

It seems everything recently is coming up for healing. Anxiety. Trust-issues. Faith-issues. Feeling betrayed issues. Anger at myself for a particular passivity in my past. Feeling responsible, and thinking of times when I was irresponsible. Unworthy stuff. “What am I supposed to do” stuff. Anger at others for not living up to my expectations (even after I lowered my expectations). Fear of disappointment that someone else will not live up to my expectations. Inadequacy. Feeling like “I’m not doing it right”…and more!

I said to Tam earlier today, after urgently insisting that something had to be done now“I’ve got a stick up my ass today and I don’t know why”. It’s important to be able to communicate to some degree about the crap going on, so that there is no mis-communication or risk of mis-perception. I sort of knew why I was in a funk…read the above paragraph. But that was too much to deal with and have a stick up my ass. Fortunately, Tam and I understand each other when these things happen (whew).

feel like I’ve been letting go of a lot of unseen/unknown energies. Maybe karma. Maybe energetic stuff that has been trapped in my energy body. Maybe Ancestral stuff–I just re-posted an article on ancestral healing –whoa, I hadn’t even thought of that, until the article crossed my path…but it makes so much sense (and now I really want to do these meditations). Maybe just crap that has been hiding in deeper nooks and crannies.

Whatever you think in all levels of mind will determine all the various energies you draw into your systems and bodies. The darkness in your unknown mind still draws darkness to you. Therefore go into all the darknesses of your minds and release and transform it all into its inherent Light, Color, Sound, and Love. Then only will you be blessed with Internal Peace, Happiness, and ever-expanding stability. ~Joseph Barry Martin

It’s up to me to find those darknesses and clear them. It’s up to me to want to heal more deeply…and more deeply…and more deeply…until there is no more darkness.

Part of how I think about healing is exactly about A) the interconnectedness of All, and B) that there are deeper and deeper layers (nooks and crannies) to heal.

I am never healing just myself. Nothing that comes up is ever “just mine”. Everything everyone does is connected to All. Leigh says it really well in the ancestral healing article:

In a big wave of realization I felt the clearing I’ve been doing reaching down through the ancestral lines and then flowing back to heal people I don’t even know but am related to in the present…In the notion of one big web of energy, these family ties show how deeply we really are connected.  So imagine working on clearing your ancestral lineages of fear and negative beliefs and then that your clearing is energetically impacting millions of others.  Imagine a whole bunch of us doing this clearing can help to heal fear for millions upon millions of people.

We’ve got our work cut out for us. Thank you for the healing work that you contribute to All. I have so much love and appreciation for you, out there, on this path, on your own path, doing the work. ❤

 

Plucking Weeds -Healing (1.4.21)

Copyright Tam Black 2018
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Welcome to Round 3! We are half way through–good for you! How is your Journey going? How do you feel? Don’t make any judgments! Everything changes. Everything works as it should. Be aware! Live life. Go through life with awareness! All is as it should be.

The pronouns change again this round; please see this page for more details.

 

Guiding Thought

We clear our minds of all past notions of what we think healing is. We erase all memories and stories from our thoughts, leaving only a clean slate. We turn our attention to our Inner Divine Mind and ask, “What is healing”? We wait and listen in silence; we take our attention deeper into the vastness of Divine Mind and ask again, “What is healing?”, “What is wholeness?”, and “What is holy?” We wait and listen. Feeling stillness, we simply pause in the quiet and await the answer.

Reflection

Each round of this particular Journey begins with a clearing, in which we are asked to erase preconceptions, notions, and expectations about healing. In fact, we spend the first 3 days doing this to some degree–that’s one-third of the Journey spent clearing up impressions. Not only do we thus clear any distant past notions, we also clear anything that has accumulated from the previous 10 days.

Letting go of preconceptions must be really important to a healing journey.

Each round, “healing” is fresh and new–or at least our minds are, regarding it.  That’s the goal at least.

As for me, today, I feel like I have no clue whatsoever about what healing is, so to ask me to clear my mind feels unnecessary. I don’t know, anyway.

This seems to be a more-general state for me right now. I don’t know much about anything. It’s a bit unsettling; I feel unsettled.

Imagine being thrown into the air.

The upward momentum represents all the past notions and conceptions about what healing is. The momentum feels “normal”; this is just “how life works”…

Until you reach the apex. It’s there at the very top of the ascent where there is no momentum in either direction. It’s a split second of weightlessness. This is the clearing, the asking in the stillness.

It’s also a moment of uncertainty in waiting. It’s a moment of anticipation (unless you can practice complete equanimity, which I cannot). It’s a split second of wondering how the fall is going to feel, and where it “lands me”.

What comes next?

How did I come to a point of feeling fear in anticipation? I thought I was “supposed to” let go, and be calm, and just wait for answers. But here I am with some anxiety about getting the answers–that is, the anxiety is about the fall, the process, as well as where (or “who”) I will be when I get the answers.

Maybe this is the point of the emphasis on letting go. I have to let go enough to get to the point of getting at what I really need to let go of.

Have you ever weeded a flower bed? No matter how may weeds you pluck, if you go back for another sweep, you’ll see more that need to come up. With each sweep, there’s a new level of detail (smaller and smaller weeds).

So…this anxiety is a weed that I am seeing anew on the third sweep that I did not see for the first two sweeps (rounds)? >this is said in a form of a question, because of the moment of uncertainty I mentioned above<

Let’s just go with that.

The Jenga of -Healing (1.4.18)

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Guiding Thought

Today, decide to be aware of your Whole and Holy Self working within you, expressing through you. As you move through the affairs of your life, with an open mind and empty hands, look first to your Whole and Holy Self for guidance. Your only decision today is to be aware of your Whole and Holy Self—all other decisions arise out of this, in conjunction with your Self.

Reflection

I now decide to be aware of my Whole and Holy Self working within me and expressing through me.

I take directives fairly seriously. Besides, I want to decide in this way; it is in my best interest. There is no reason why I should not take the suggestion and do what I’m told.

Earlier days of the Guiding Thought cleared away preconceptions and expectations. Today those little exercises culminate in the next step–leaving the preconceptions behind, in order to approach the Holy Self for Guidance.

It does not do any good to ask the Holy Self for an answer I’m not ready to hear, or would not recognize because I have too much of my own clutter in the way.

The earlier days clearing away preconceptions give us the freedom to focus on making the decision to pay full attention to the Holy Self. Without expectations, or trying to figure out “what healing is”, we can put all of our energy into the Holy Self.

The Holy Self knows a whole lot better than I do what I need for healing. Everything is interconnected. Healing is sometimes like a game of Jenga. All the pieces (mental-emotional-physical-spiritual) are stacked on top of each other, resting on each other, supporting each other. If left up to me, I will topple the tower. Only the Holy Self knows how to pull the pieces apart without toppling it. The Holy Self can “unravel me” without toppling me, while building a stronger tower above.

 

We can get through this. -Healing (1.4.13)

Copyright Tam Black 2018
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Guiding Thought

Rely on your own Loving Presence to lead and guide you toward the meaning of healing. Seek the meaning of healing and allow it to frame all your activity and to give context to all your interactions. Though you may encounter disturbances throughout your daily activity, lay them at the feet of your own Loving Presence and continue to ask, “What is healing”? Your own Loving Presence directs you, as you listen in the stillness.

Reflection

Today is a step-by-step day. So much of this Guiding Thought feels immediately relevant…one piece at a time:

Rely on your own Loving Presence to lead and guide you toward the meaning of healing. 

I think of my Loving Presence as that which connects me with God. Sometimes I feel like I cannot connect directly with God, and so my Loving Presence acts as an intermediary. Sometimes I feel open enough and worthy enough to communicate directly with (what I think of as) God, and so my Loving Presence becomes that relationship, without the need for an intermediary.

Either way, I am constantly praying/talking to/looking up/in for my own Loving Presence and/or God.

I commented to a friend earlier today that I have begun to trust–and rely on–the guidance and direction that I receive from my own Loving Presence/God. This has not always been the case. Have I been guided and directed in the past? Yes. Absolutely. Have I trusted it? Yes–even then, yes. But here’s the clincher: in the past, when I have trusted the guidance and direction, there was not so much at stake; somehow life was “easier”, so trusting was “easier”.

Now… there is a lot going on in the world. The energy is amplified. Emotions are amplified. There is more “good” and more “bad” visibly mixing–and not always in peaceful ways. For many people there is so much at stake. Whether it is belief systems, political systems, a way of life, integrity, ego, families, jobs, the future…whatever it is for each individual person…something big is at stake. So everyone’s self-interest (or perceived self-interest) is clashing.

Now, trusting the Loving Presence to guide and direct is not easy, because there is so much swirling, constant chaos. How does one slow down enough from all of this crap going on in the world to listen, to pay attention, to follow any guidance?

It is within this context that I can say, “I have begun to trust–and rely on–the guidance and direction that I receive from my own Loving Presence/God”.

know that I am being guided. It is still hard for me to wrap my head around it, or to know exactly what to do or when to do it. But my faith and trust are stronger than they’ve ever been.

Seek the meaning of healing and allow it to frame all your activity and to give context to all your interactions.

Why? Why do this? Why seek the meaning of healing and allow it to frame all my activity and interactions?

Because sickness is Lovelessness. Sickness is separation. Sickness is apathy. These things permeate the world right now. It is up to us to eradicate them. How do we eradicate them? By seeking healing. Every moment. Every day. Every interaction. Seek Love. Seek Unity. Seek Care and Compassion.

Though you may encounter disturbances throughout your daily activity, lay them at the feet of your own Loving Presence and continue to ask, “What is healing”?

Today I have not “encountered disturbances”. Today has been one continuous disturbance. What is wrong with people? What is wrong with the World–with the United States in particular–that children are traumatized as families are torn apart?

This is not a time for attaching to these emotions. It’s a time to be aware. be alert. and seek healing.

I have laid these disturbances at the feet of my own Loving Presence through constantly reminding myself

  • I do not understand anything I see
  • These thoughts do not mean anything.
  • My meaningless thoughts are showing me a meaningless world.
  • I am upset because I see a meaningless world.
  • A meaningless world engenders fear.
  • God did not create a meaningless world.

All of this crap going on in the world is a mass purging. Vomit is not pleasant, but generally you feel better afterward. What we are experiencing is the vomit–and who knows how long this will go on. But see it for what it is, let it all out, and know that the vomit is not the end game–it’s just a way to get us to feeling better.

Your own Loving Presence directs you, as you listen in the stillness.

Just keep on with this. It can be difficult to listen in stillness when there is so much high-emotion going on everywhere, with everyone. It’s hard to get centered, hard to remain centered. Just do the best you can. Listen as best you can. Know that your own Loving Presence is directing you. All is as it should be (believe it or not). Do your best. Keep seeking. Keep going. Have faith, as you have never had it before.

Everyone is Atypical -Healing (1.4.11)

Copyright Tam Black 2018
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Welcome to Round 2! We’ve completed 10 days, WHOOO HOOOOO! How are you doing? How’s your Journey? Are you understanding anything in your life from a new or different perspective? Have you had any “Ah-ha-s”? My Ah-ha-s usually come mostly during the last round. I seem to spend a lot of time stewing in my own juices first, then…boom, things come together. So… don’t worry if you don’t think you’re “getting it” yet.

The Guiding Thoughts change slightly for this round. If you are new here, please see details under “Four Rounds” on this page. Here we go!

Guiding Thought

Clear your mind of all past notions of what you think healing is. Erase all memories and stories from your thoughts, leaving only a clean slate. Turn your attention to your Inner Divine Mind and ask, “What is healing”? Wait and listen in silence; take your attention deeper into the vastness of Divine Mind and ask again, “What is healing?”, “What is wholeness?”, and “What is holy?” Wait and listen. Feeling stillness, simply pause in the quiet and await your answer.

Reflection

“What is healing” can be interpreted in two ways. 1) The emphasis is placed on “what”: “What is healing?”–what are things or actions that bring about healing. Some answers could be (for example): “Eating fresh fruit is healing”. “Relaxation is healing”. “Saunas are healing”. 2) The emphasis is placed on “healing”: “What is healing“, which points to the essence of healing: What does it mean to heal?  What does healing feel like; how is it experienced; how is the mind comported to induce healing? 

The first is physical, the second is beyond the physical. The first responds to symptoms or conditions, the second, when understood, addresses everything.

I always regard the Guiding Thought as asking the second type of question, looking for the essence of healing.

For this answer, healing must speak for itself. This is why letting go of preconceptions is necessary, and why stillness and quiet are necessary.

Healing must tell me of itself.

One of my most beloved animals was a Jack Russel Terrier. This breed is known for having boundless energy and keen intelligence:

My dog, Spot was an atypical Jack Russell. He did not run around, crazy; he never really wanted to play; and he was very sensitive (not aloof like most Jack Russells).

I could not approach him like a typical Jack Russell. I had to forget everything I thought I knew about Jack Russells, and let Spot teach me about himself. I had to be attentive and sensitive right back to him, otherwise, he would look at me with such expressive eyes as though I had completely misunderstood.

There are so many things/people that are not what we think they are. How often are we disappointed because we have misunderstood? How often have we projected what we thought someone or something should be rather than asking it or them to tell us about themselves?

What can we learn of healing by listening to each other?

Spot (2004-2016)

 

Good Enough -Healing (1.4.10)

Copyright Tam Black 2018
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Guiding Thought

I give today to Light. I feel the Light within pour forth; I feel my radiance, my glow. I see—with my inner eye—this light envelop and infuse all I encounter, all my words, and all my actions. I watch as others resonate with me, their light growing brighter in the sanctity of my own. To all beings and all situations today, I offer only light, and learn, as I do, the Wholeness of my Self.

Reflection

One follow-up comment from yesterday: Yesterday, I mentioned feeling angry and embarrassed at being wrong about a practice I have been doing for a very long time. There is a flip side to those feelings: I also feel more free and very grateful. I acknowledge that doing the practice in the way that I was doing it (the “wrong” way), I learned, I grew; it lead me; it got me to a new place; ultimately, it accomplished what practices accomplish–moving me through ego-burdens and showing me a new level, or state, of Freedom. But then I outgrew the “wrong” way, and I’ve have now been given the next level, the next step.

In A Course in Miracles, there is a reassurance that not only does the Holy Spirit unify all, but It also utilizes everything for Its Highest Purpose, when those things are given to It. Even in doing the practices “wrong”, my intention has always been: purification, nearness to God, for the benefit of All, with everything offered to God. I feel like I’ve received a tangible demonstration for “how this works”. And for that I am truly grateful.

Today

want to be a vehicle through which the Divine enters the world to love and serve All Life. But, there is a bit of a paradox here that I have been mentally working through (on and off) for a while, and today’s Guiding Thought has brought it up.

Here it is, as best I can explain it: “I” cannot do anything for the Divine to enter the world or, as the Guiding Thought indicates, to give Light. If “I” do something, then whatever I give is not of Light, or of the Divine. “I” must put myself aside, so that IT (the Divine, or Love, or Light) is doing what It does naturally, without me, yet through me.

There are two examples that I turn to when mulling this over. The first is something my Reiki master says: Reiki is always available. You do not “push” the energy, you do not “give” the energy. You make the energy available, simply by being. It’s the other person’s body/energy that recognizes the energy is available, and then pulls it through you”. 

The second is the fifth Principle of Miracles: Miracles are habits, and should be involuntary. They should not be under conscious control. Consciously selected miracles can be misguided. 

In both of these examples “I” am not in control; “I” am not doing anything. If “I” do something the energy is impure, or misguided.

But have prepared. I have attuned my energy and my chakras to receive and transmit Reiki; and I have purified, and continue to do so, to allow the Holy Spirit to direct miracles through me (the seventh Principle of Miracles: “Miracles are everyone’s right, but purification is necessary first”).

Even though I understand these things intellectually, through these two examples, I find that in a more general sense–like the Guiding Thought– “I” continue to want to do something…which would only inhibit what I really want to accomplish, because if “I” do something, we’re back to impure or misguided.

It does not help that with Reiki, with Miracles, and with being a vehicle for the Divine to enter the world it often happens that you don’t get to see (or perceive) the results. Speaking for myself, this leads me to wonder, “Is anything happening?” “Did ‘I’ do anything?” “Was anything accomplished?” “Why do I spend so much time purifying/praying/making myself ‘ready’?”

I never actually “see—with my inner eye—this light envelop and infuse all I encounter”; I never “watch as others resonate with me, their light growing brighter in the sanctity of my own.” To me, these are visualizations that promote the feeling of what happens, but they are not literal (have you had a different experience?).

This is why it’s easy (I think) for people to not be diligent, to not be faithful, to think that this energy-stuff is all hooey. I get it, really I do.

What I can do–and what is important to me today about the Guiding Thought–is that I can give today to Light–all my thoughts, words, feelings, and actions can be dedicated and devoted to Light.

As for me, I choose to believe it. I choose to believe that when I invoke light, light shows up. When It shows up, it’s available for Everyone, should their bodies and energy choose to pull it in, should their Higher Selves choose to utilize it (and why wouldn’t they!?), should the Holy Spirit choose to direct it on behalf of the Divine.

I have to admit, I believe also that I have come a long way in learning about Love, learning about Wholeness, learning about my Self, because I practice this. Maybe this is merely a self-fulfilling prophecy, maybe nothing is “happening”. But I would rather spend my time and energy promoting Love, Peace, Wholeness, Healing than anything else. That’s good enough for me.

Remember! -Healing (1.4.8)

Copyright Tam Black 2018
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Guiding Thought

Today I decide to be aware of my Whole and Holy Self working within me, expressing through me. As I move through the affairs of my life, with an open mind and empty hands, I look first to my Whole and Holy Self for guidance. My only decision today is to be aware of my Whole and Holy Self—all other decisions arise out of this, in conjunction with my Self.

Reflection

Today I fell short. I feel critical of myself for it. Instead of feeling inspired by today’s Guiding Thought, I feel it’s showing me what I didn’t do, telling me what I should have done, showing me how unaware I was today.

I have been succeeding in “moving through the affairs of my life with an open mind and empty hands”. Today, it occurred to me that moving through life in this way, can feel a lot like being unaware, being “asleep”.

Here’s what I mean: I have not been planning my days; I have not been making lists, prioritizing, and deciding in advance how I should spend my day. I’ve been going with the flow, keeping an open mind, approaching life with empty hands. This has been going on for about two weeks.

At first, it was going very, very well. I wrote earlier about how I had no expectations for myself except to do earth, air, water, and fire, and how good that felt. I remember feeling that way; I know what I felt then was right.

But it seems now I am at a different point in the process; “going with the flow” no longer feels good. I feel uninspired, unmotivated, like I am doing a lot of meaningless things that feel like a waste of time (though, let me say, that I recognize these are feelings, and the reality is that I am getting things done that have needed to be done for a while; it’s just taking longer than I want it to–probably why I did not jump to do them before).

Also at this point in the process, I feel more disconnected from the actions (I feel like this has to do with feeling uninspired). I feel like I am lamenting those earlier days in this process, when flow felt good. Am I now out of the flow? or is this part of  the flow that I am unfamiliar with?

How quickly things change; that was less than two weeks ago.

I am currently questioning what I am doing, why I am doing it, how I “get back” to feeling good in the flow, and if these feelings are part of the process that I am supposed to “go with” to work through, or if I am supposed to do something to “get out of” feeling this way.

All journeys have ups and downs (so to say). What I know by now is that everything is the Journey. Everything matters. Everything is showing me something, directing me, guiding me on the Journey. So, I’ll take this; I’ll take these feelings of uninspired, spinning my wheels, unmotivated. It’s all Healing.

One of my intentions for this Journey was to be gentle with myself, to not be too hard on myself, to nurture myself. This is a good day to remember that.