Choose -Fulfillment (1.6.8)

Copyright Tam Black 2018
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Guiding Thought

My motivation is my choice. My intention is my choice. My will is my choice. In Peace, I listen within for guidance so that my actions are motivated by joy, my intentions are love, and my will is simply to share Joy and Love.

Sharing

Before you go any farther here, consider whether or not you believe in free will. Do you think or believe that human beings can choose how their lives unfold? Or, do you think that there is some ultimate, predetermined plan and humans live a life that is pre-scripted? Get clear for yourself before reading on, so that you may agree or disagree with what I have to say from an informed personal viewpoint.

I believe in free will. I think that we have the ability to direct our thoughts and actions, and, depending on how/where we direct those, we will experience different things, and/or experience things differently. Image result for water forming canyons

And, I also believe in karma, which I will define here as: the effects of those mental and physical actions we have chosen, which leave impressions (like the impression of a fingerprint, or the impression of a gently running water as it moves through rock–even water can carve canyons), which we then re-experience, unless or until we change the thought that created the impression/effect.

Karma is not the same as determinism, but it can be experienced as though it is determinism, when an impression is repeated enough times that it becomes a deeply seated habit, or pattern, like water forming a canyon.

I believe there are thoughts and mental patterns that bring us deeper/higher into Divine Consciousness, and there are thoughts and mental patterns that only enhance our lower self-of-misery, pain, and suffering. I believe every moment we have a choice between these two.

I believe that an excellent use of free will is to direct thoughts and mental patterns to Divine Consciousness. Actually, I’m going to go even further and say, that some days I believe the only proper use of free will is to direct ourselves to Divine Consciousness. But some days that also feels a bit extreme, especially when I am having a particularly hard time keeping my thoughts “up”.

With free will, and the full power of choice, now read the Guiding Thought again.

My motivation is my choice. My intention is my choice. My will is my choice. In Peace, I listen within for guidance so that my actions are motivated by joy, my intentions are love, and my will is simply to share Joy and Love.

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Doing Without Doing -Fulfillment (1.6.3)

Copyright Tam Black 2018
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Guiding Thought

What is fulfillment but knowing my Self as an expression of Divine Love? My Self wills to create! My Self wills to share! My Self wills to extend itself! My fulfillment is creation; my joy is sharing; my peace is extension.

Sharing

Again…today I feel in perfect alignment with my initial approach to the Journey. This has never happened before: I have never begun a Journey feeling like I’m in sync with mySelf. All other Journeys, it was like mySelf wrote the Why–with very high expectations and standards–and I then had to pedal really fast to catch up to it.

When I said a few days ago in the Why, “I must do nothing. In order for Divine Perfection to work in Its time, I need not interfere: I must do nothing, and in doing nothing All is well”, the subtext of that was that I must not do something with the intention that it has specific results.

Let me give a very simple example. If I read an article that says kale is a superfood, and that in order to rid my body of every possible known toxin, I must eat kale…and then I go out and buy a bunch of kale, and eat it every day in order to rid my body of toxins….  What I have done is given my actions a meaning. All my actions (including my thoughts) which are associated with kale have the intention that I rid my body of toxins. My actions take on a meaning that I have ascribed to them, with results that I have decided I want. This is doing something.

The alternative (doing nothing) is to remove decisions about what something means or does not mean, to remove doing things in order to achieve a result, and to not prejudge how I desire an action to turn out.

This is the actionless action, the doing without doing. I still take actions. I still work, eat, watch TV, play with my cat (who happens to be very unhappy right now, since I gave him a crushed up pill in his food, and he made it very clear how it smelled, when he covered it up, refused to eat it, and has been complaining for the past 10 minutes.) But I do not try to determine what the actions mean, or the result they will bring in advance.

I’ve been “practicing” this for about two weeks. It’s not easy. First I have to notice when I have a motivation. Then I have to either a) get clear to remove the motivation or b) decide not to take the action, that has a specific motivation behind it. So far, usually, it’s been easier to go with b). I am not yet good enough at this to know when I have cleared my motivation enough to take action without having it.

But I’ve also had new awareness and action. There are now more times when I am acting without thinking. I skip the mental option of motivation or intention altogether, and simply do something. What is interesting to me is that many of the actions I have done in this “state” have been things that are “of mySelf”. They have been things that are creative, expressive, and embodying my Divine Presence.

They have also been things that will increase my awareness and expression of my Inner Divine Presence, which will be experienced as peace, love, joy, gratitude.

I am suddenly reminded of these two Guiding Thoughts, from previous Journeys:

Increasing my thoughts of Love and my attitude of service dispels all fear of lack and limitation. As I serve more people with Love, money and wealth flow abundantly to me. I use money and wealth with love and wisdom to create a life I love through my highest vision. (Journey of Abundance days that end in 6)

I awaken to my Inner Divine Mind and invite It to express itself as every person and event that will increase my awareness of It. (Journey of Purpose, days that end in 5)

You see, I have been working on creating, sharing, and expanding (as in today’s Guiding Thought). I find it very fascinating how a Journey of fulfillment is bringing Abundance and Purpose together for me…without me doing anything!

Love to you, dear ones. Walk your path! Love yourSelf. Be your Self.

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More than Attitude, ACTION -Abundance (1.5.36)

Copyright Tam Black 2018
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Guiding Thought

Increasing my thoughts of Love and my attitude of service dispels all fear of lack and limitation. As I serve more people with Love, money and wealth flow abundantly to me. I use money and wealth with love and wisdom to create a life I love through my highest vision.

Sharing

Check. I have been increasing my thoughts of Love and my attitude of service. I mentioned a few days ago about opening my heart; this has meant increasing the love I am able to feel and give–specifically opening my heart and love to God. I’ve also been increasing my attitude of service. I have several ways that I can serve people, and I have been developing and increasing my ideas about how to let people know that I am here to serve.

So here’s the sticking point: It’s easier to develop an attitude of service than it is to serve; what I mean is, “it’s easier said than done”. Please note, I do not mean that it’s difficult to serve people. I love serving people. The problem (I think) is that I am one of those air signs that likes being in my head better than being grounded on the earth (ideas as opposed to action).

I am well able to take action, and I love to take initiative.

The sticking point has to do with what it means to put myself out there–or, to be very clear, it’s what I think it means to put myself out there. It means marketing and “selling”–not things that I have much interest in doing.

Plus, as I mentioned on day 16, Love is great, but it does not pay the bills. And I have yet to reconcile wanting to truly serve with purity, and asking for money for spiritual services.

The point is that the Guiding Thought does not address the very practical leap from Love to money. Don’t get me wrong–the Guiding is correct, there is just a gap that I have yet to cross, and until I do, the Guiding Thought does help me cross it (that’s what the rest of the Journey if for).

So, yes, increasing my thoughts of Love and my attitude of service dispels all fear of lack and limitation. That’s true and correct, but in my current state, I also need more than an attitude of service. I need to serve, in Truth and Purity, and be open, willing, and able to receive money for that service.

And, yes, as I serve more people with Love, money and wealth flow abundantly to me. However, this statement presumes that the service is accompanied by money, in exchange for that service. Until there is a natural and easy exchange of money, as representative of the Love and energy that is exchanged, then at least the money part of the Guiding Thought will not materialize practically.

And, yes, I use money and wealth with love and wisdom to create a life I love through my highest vision. In this context, there is no need for a direct exchange of money for service–I can use any money in the service of my highest vision; it does not need to be directly connected with a service I am providing (and this is how I use my income from my j-o-b). This part of the Guiding Thought simply points out that any money used to create a life I love through my highest vision will be used in such a way to open me to more of that money (I explained how this works on day 4).

I am getting close to getting this. I can feel it.

Be the Light, Despite… -Abundance (1.5.7)

Copyright Tam Black 2018
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Guiding Thought

My consciousness is the gateway through which Divine Love flows, materializing my infinite Supply. I am now conscious of my own Inner Divine Presence—Infinite Love—expressing through me, providing me with the means to be aware, to understand, and to know It as my Self– more and more!

Reflection

I’ve been experiencing a low point lately! But as all things do, it’s lifting and passing. Keeping on!

I am assured that in spite of the chaos and low point I have been experiencing in my material reality (but not in my faith or spiritual confidence), that everything is unfolding in Divine Order.

This is a wondrous, though often tumultuous, time! It is critical that I stay centered in my own Inner Divine Presence—Infinite Love, and remain focused on the Light.

I am here for the Light. It is imperative that I not succumb to slivers of darkness and bouts of doubt or uncertainty.

I have been preparing for too long to give up on myself or on God. Besides, who wants to?  We all have within us the skill and courage to BE the Light in the face of any adversity we may be confronted with or that we are witnessing or experiencing at this time.

 

 

On the Right Track and Another Surprise -Abundance (1.5.2)

Copyright Tam Black 2016
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Guiding Thought

I choose to expand my consciousness and open my heart to Divine Love’s flow within me. Realizing my own Divine Presence, I know God as the Source and Fulfillment of all my good.

Reflection

Yesterday, day one of “Journey of Abundance”, I was hired for a new project; today, day two of “Journey of Abundance”, I found a gift card in a parking lot worth $12.23. I think I am off to a good start.

I mentioned in the Why that I am working on abundance from a standpoint of artha, which is “ultimately, the pursuit of activities and means necessary for a joyous and pleasurable life” (see the Chopra webpage). According to Deepak, the Vedanta says, ways to bring artha into your life are:

  • Discover a way so money runs after you and not vice versa.
  • Do work that is compatible to your nature and capabilities.
  • Do work that serves society.
  • Do work you really love.
  • Trust in the infinite organizing power of the Universe.

It’s that last one which fits for me today, and corresponds with the Guiding Thought, “I know God as the Source and Fulfillment of all my good.”

The more I trust God, the more I am able to know God as the Source and Fulfillment of all my good.

The first step, however is that trust thing.

I’ve been working on that for a long time, also known as surrender, faith, Willing with the Divine…however a person approaches it, the bottom line is that we, small humans who think we know everything, must align ourselves with the Universe/the Divine/All that IS. We do not know anything of ourselves. We just think we do, but because we think we do, we don’t want to listen or surrender to something we can’t even see or define.

But this is why it’s called faith.

Faith is taking a step when you have no idea what supports you, but know that something does.

All it takes is small steps. And when you take that step and don’t fall, faith is strengthened, and the next step can be bigger.

I do not know currently how big my steps of faith are, but I do know that with every step, I am aware of keeping the faith. I’ve been practicing this for a while. I’ve had a lot of ups and downs; I still feel sometimes like God has forgotten me. But I’ve taken enough steps without falling, and with real evidence that I am supported by something (because things work out so much better than I would ever be able to make them work out, if I were doing it on my own), that I am happy to keep my faith.

Plus, I was hired for a project yesterday, and I found a gift card today. What is that if not evidence that God is looking out for me, giving little breadcrumbs of assurance on this Journey of Abundance.

Love to you, beautiful person. Peace and prosperity on this Journey.

 

Total Congruence and Surprise Income Stream -Abundance (1.5.1)

Copyright Tam Black 2016
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Welcome to the first of forty days focused on advancing our consciousness toward greater abundance! If you are new here: read and contemplate the Guiding Thought for a minimum of five minutes, then write whatever response comes to mind, for a minimum of five minutes. No filters, no judgment; just write. Let out whatever is in, and allow your consciousness to expand! Here we go!

Guiding Thought

Divine Love-Light is the Source of All. It is all good, all God. This Source is always seeking expression through me. My awareness of my personal identity with this Source provides me with infinite fulfillment and prosperity.

Reflection

I’d like to note, right off the bat, that today…day 1 of “Journey of Abundance”…I was contacted about taking on a bigger role with an organization I am involved with, and doing additional projects for them, with additional income included. Coincidence?

Second thing for today: this feels so good. The Guiding Thought feels so good. It is completely congruent with “where I’m at”. I feel reinforced and strengthened.

“This Source is always seeking expression through me”. This means that Divine Love-Light (the “Source”) seeks expression through me.

I have been saying this as a prayer:

May my life force be a vehicle through which God may enter the world, to love and serve all life.

This is what I mean by congruent with where I’m at. I want God (Love-Light) to flow through me. I want my “personal identity” to be filled with Divine Love-Light, so that “I” wholly identify with Divine Love-Light.

I have been saying this prayer for a long time, without a thought about It providing “me with infinite fulfillment and prosperity”.

It’s not a stretch for me to accept that being filled with Divine Love-Light, being a vehicle for Divine Love-Light, will provide me with fulfillment and prosperity. It’s a natural extension. It just makes sense.

 

Allowing vs. Making -Healing (1.4.38)

Copyright Tam Black 2018
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Guiding Thought

Today I decide to be aware of my Whole and Holy Self working within me, expressing through me. As I move through the affairs of my life, with an open mind and empty hands, I look first to my Whole and Holy Self for guidance. My only decision today is to be aware of my Whole and Holy Self—all other decisions arise out of this, in conjunction with my Self.

Reflection

Always remember that nature refuses to be rushed. She can only be made to evolve and that takes time. Take heart! -Dharma Mittra

I have so far to go. There are so many people in the world doing such great work, advancing themselves, teaching, being loving and compassionate, sharing it, bringing all that into the world. Wow. Om Namo Namah. I bow to you. Thank you for your contribution.

This is why I needed to add the quote at the top. It’s a reminder to myself that evolution takes time; I may not be as far along the path as I think I should be, or comparatively as far as some people, but I must remind myself: this is my path, no one else’s. I have to walk it as only I can. and, as I say, “every drop counts, every step matters”–each day, every little thing that I do to contribute to my growth and evolution, to becoming the person I know I am, matters.

And, honestly? I love my path. I love what I do and who I am…but I also get frustrated and impatient with myself because think I “should be” doing more. This Journey is really helping me with this. I am allowing myself to evolve (heal), rather than trying to make myself evolve.

Can you feel that difference? Allowing vs. making? One is an easy opening, the other is a forcing, prying. What happens when something is allowed? It happens gently, naturally. What happens when something is forced? There is resistance, pushing back.

It’s the same feeling when I decide to be aware of my Whole and Holy Self working within me.

How do I make my decision to be aware of my Whole and Holy Self? Do I do it with an attitude of allowing or making? Do I open myself joyfully to my Whole and Holy Self, or do I feel like I have to really work at making myself decide to be aware of my Self’s inner activity?

When I am “too hard” on myself, when I think I am not going far enough, fast enough, I try to make myself go further, faster.

There is a certain amount of “pushing” myself that is positive/healthy: that is a pushing through the ego, not pushing against the process or the Inner Self.

So there is a level of awareness that I must bring to pushing myself, to make sure I do not overstep pushing through the ego into pushing through the process. The first subdues the ego, the second sabotages the process, through creating unwanted resistance.

I am often very hard on myself. That is one of the reasons that the goals for this Journey were simply to be kind to myself. I need to learn to be more gentle, loving, and patient with myself.

Although I am often hard on myself, I rarely overstep, and most often, I am pushing through a block or an ego-construction. But, when I do overstep and sabotage my process by being too hard on myself, I must step way back to recover.

It’s possible that I have been in a position for much of this Journey of stepping back, learning to allow, which has not been a “normal” thing for me. Perhaps one of the things I have been accomplishing, not even realizing it, is creating a new pattern, new neurological pathways for allowing. This would include being patient with myself, being gentle with myself, being accepting of myself.

…Which would be good, because I have a long way to go!