(Non-) Representation (Heart- 1.1.13)

Journey of the Heart – Day 13
©Susan Billmaier for susanwithpearls

Guiding Thought

Follow the guidance of your heart and experience life anew! Express love, and experience love everywhere. Find new ways to love. Recognize new depths and  nuances of love. Be patient. Be kind. Be wise and respond to life with love, as love.

Play the Guiding Thought here (loops automatically).
Journey of the Heart audio created by Brad Vanlandingham for Susanwithpearls-


I felt like there was way too much in the Guiding Thought to represent in a picture–not that the purpose of the picture is to represent the Guiding Thought. Sometimes I want to though. Sometimes I am feeling/seeing so much from the Guiding Thought that I want to express it all on paper.

Rarely does that work out! It’s always better for me to feel, and draw, than to feel  and try to draw. Very little works out the way I want it to when I try to do something–this is generally true in life, as well as drawings/coloring.

I kept it simple.

Today we have one clockwise spiral and one counter-clockwise spiral, (representing >a-hem< Following the guidance of your heart [an “inward spiral”] and Expressing love [an “outward spiral”]). The colorful lines represent all of the variations of Love–the depths and nuances.

Expressing Love brings awareness of those nuances and depths. Without the experience of Love, Love would be in a void; there would be no way for us to explore it. Expressing it is key. As we express it (through patience, kindness, wisdom, etc.) we respond to life with that which is the very substance of life itself–Love. Life can only give back to us that which it is, which we now can recognize, because we have explored our own being through the expression of It.

Letting the Heart Lead (Heart- 1.1.12)

Journey of the Heart – Day 12
©Susan Billmaier for susanwithpearls

Guiding Thought

Today, decide to give your heart reign. Trusting in love, assured with its gentle comfort, invite your heart to lead you with joy and peace to joy and peace. Surrender your mind and will to your heart’s love.

Play the Guiding Thought here (loops automatically).
Journey of the Heart audio created by Brad Vanlandingham for Susanwithpearls-


As I was doing today’s Journey, my mind was distracted, anxious, irritated. When such things happen (that is, when I am experiencing discord that seems to be interfering with my connection with the Journey), I had to remind myself of this (written on the first day of the Journey):

Why Journey of the Heart is very simple: begin a conscious relationship with yourself, through the heart; take the steps; begin. Each day, connect with your heart, invite your heart-energy to inform your choices, and open to its direction.

Allow it to be simple; allow the opening to be at a pace that is comfortable for you. Too much, and fear may step in, too little and you may not notice. There are many who need to heal their relationship with their heart; it takes time to open, listen, and trust. Be gentle with yourself (and I remind myself of that too!) as you move through the 40-days.

Thus reminded, I was able to let go of whatever those distractions were, and settled in to just doing the picture.

I don’t know what the picture means…I don’t know how to interpret it…I don’t know if it’s telling me something or reflecting something. I just know that the very fact of doing it relaxed me.

This is “how it works”, this Journey of the Heart–doing the work, drawing the pictures, opens something…even if you don’t know what it is, why it is, or what it means. The heart leads when you let it, and your relationship is strengthened all around.

Heart-Flame Eruption. (Heart-1.1.1)

Journey of the Heart – Day 01
©Susan Billmaier for susanwithpearls

Guiding Thought

My Heart knows how to love. Everything is energy. The most potent energy is love. As I learn love, I invite the most powerful energy to express through me, to live as me, to be me! My heart is Love’s abode. My heart teaches only love. I am a willing and joyful student!

Click here to listen to the Guiding Thought (loops automatically). Journey of the Heart audio created by Brad Vanlandingham  for Susanwithpearls:


The Heart Flame lays like a dormant volcano

beneath the surface of consciousness.

Movement of consciousness

like tectonic plates, invites the conditions for eruption.

Eruption of the Heart Flame! The opening of a pressure valve releases the power of love into the atmosphere, into the world!

The Point of Diminishing Contrast: Journey of Peace 2017– Day 40

Welcome to Day 40–did you make it through all 40 days? It gets long, doesn’t it? Just a reminder: The next 10 days are “rest” days for this Journey, during which time I will post one last time about my self-assessment for this Journey. Then we begin a Journey of Rest. Like on the 7th day, we rest for the 7th Journey. During this time I’ll do some alternative article-writing, which I hope will inspire and entertain you while we recuperate from the 2017 Journeys and gear-up for 2018. and then…I have some exciting news. The Journeys are now being formalized into online classes. Beginning in 2018, I will offer personalized guidance, support, encouragement, and inspiration for those wanting to take their spiritual practice/seeking to the next level. Stay tuned on that. For now…Thank you for being here and adding your light to the world. Blessings to you.

Copyright Tam Black 2017
for susanwithpearls

Guiding Thought

Knowing the essence of All as my Self, I respect and revere All Life. I love my Self; I love All Life. I bring this Love regularly, sincerely, and thankfully to all my activities and interactions. I now Know the Peace inherent in Oneness. I Know All as my Self. I Know my Self as Love.


I love this phrase: “I love my Self”. I used to have a hard time even thinking about loving myself. Now I love saying it to myself and hearing it from myself! I love Love!

You know that I very often ask such questions as “how do I do [it]” or “how do I know”, right?

Well, over the past few days, I’ve been in a situation that has helped me to understand how one knows. Be forewarned: it is not clearly logical or rational, ultimately, the answer is, “you just know”. I think I am getting more comfortable with that answer.

So the question is (or the questions are), how do I know if I am At Peace or how do I know if I perceive Oneness or how do I know if I’m even doing anything.

A lot of times I don’t know–not emotionally, not intellectually, not physically. And I now see that it is due to what I now call “the point of diminishing contrast”.

You see, I hang out pretty much with people who a) are good communicators b) value peace and harmony in relationships and home c) care about spiritual values and actualizing them in the world. In short, I hang out with people who work at having clear minds/hearts, and living from that pure space.

This is the point of diminishing contrast: I vibrate with the folks I hang out with on a similar wavelength that reflects our values. There is less contrast between me and my friends than between me and someone who thinks and acts from (let’s call it) “lower self” values. It is harder to discern “how much” Peace I actually embody, if I don’t have a contrasting point of view.

Every once in a while it hits me: “most people don’t think or live like this”. I understand intellectually that my mind and life are smoother, more peaceful than most people’s. But it’s not like I understand the extent to which my life is smoother.

I’ve recently been given the gift of interacting with someone on a daily basis, who (how shall I say this?)…who’s mind is in chaos, and I can see it.

This is part of the bigger, “ultimate” answer of: you just know. When you get to a certain point of experience, you can recognize what you know in other people. This is true in many areas, not just that of spiritual growth. People who have been in recovery can recognize symptoms of alcohol disease in others before the others may recognize it. People who have reclaimed their lives after abusive relationships can recognize the symptoms of abuse. When people focus and learn the skills and behaviors of Peace, it becomes clear when someone is not at peace.

In this particular situation, the contrast is so great, I can practically see exactly how this person’s mind spins, the effects that the spinning has, and how it plays out in the life of this person. It’s just so obvious.

I have to say, this has been a draining situation. I am not used to working with people who are so not-self-aware, and so embroiled in their their mind’s antics. It has been educational on very many levels, and I am thankful for all of them. I can now identify my own Peace much better, and I bless and ask for Peace for those who do not have this awareness.

Breathe It In: Journey of Peace 2017– Day 21

Welcome to Round 3. We are half way through! For this round, the pronouns change once again, to remind you that “we are all in this together”. It’s not just “I”; it’s not only “you”; it is we–me-you-our, myour. All for All. Let’s get started!

Copyright Tam Black 2017
for susanwithpearls

Guiding Thought

We are Love. We have infinite Love to give; therefore, we are able to give Love infinitely. Filled with Love, our energy is vibrant. All of Life responds to our inner State of Being with mutual harmony.


I feel inspired by today’s words. All of them. Sometimes I feel like just repeating the Guiding Thought in order to explain myself should be enough, as though the Guiding Thought says it all, perfectly. Today is one of those days.

Take it in. Feel it.

We are Love. We. are. Love. All of us, everywhere; no matter who we are, what we do, what we have ever done, We are Love. Nothing can change that. We cannot be something we are not, and we are Love, we can be nothing other.

Since we are Love, we have infinite Love to give. There is no end to Love; there is no end to the Love we can give. Love can pour out of us forever and a day and there would still be Love left over.

So, there’s no reason to hold onto it. There’s no reason to hoard our Love. There is no reason not to share and give generously… infinitely!

With all that movement of Love, all that accessibility of Love, all that availability of Love, how can our energy be anything but vibrant? And beautiful? And gentle, caring, kind?

I imagine being tuned in to that vibration so strongly within myself, feeling so much Love pour out that everything and everyone who comes into the vicinity feels it and automatically responds in kind, producing the mutual harmony.

Please note… feeling inspired is different than fully feeling the words embodied. I feel inspired; I do not feel that I currently embody the words.

I feel a little lifted. I feel lighter. I feel happier than I was 30 minutes ago. I feel hopeful. I feel as though, “I can do this”.

I still also feel like I have a lot to learn, a long way to go. But thank goodness for every drop.

May you be lifted, inspired, lighter, and happier, every moment, with every breath, until we all know ourselves together as the perfect embodiment of perfect Divine Love!



Past the Darkness: Journey of Peace 2017– Day 11

Welcome to round two! I do believe we are off to a good start. I am feeling a bit corny today, and I have Peace Train rolling around in my head. In particular, it was these lyrics that got me to that song, Now, I’ve been happy lately–Thinkin’ about the good things to come–And I believe it could be–Something good has begun.

Listen, if you like: 

Now, in round two, the subject of the Guiding Thought changes from “I” to “you”. Pretend that you are speaking to someone else (“teaching” them the wisdom of the Guiding Thought), or that a wise teacher is speaking to you, transmitting the wisdom of the Guiding Thought to you. (For more details about the Rounds, click here.) Onward!

Copyright Tam Black 2017
for susanwithpearls

Guiding Thought

You are Love. You have infinite Love to give; therefore, you are able to give Love infinitely. Filled with Love, your energy is vibrant. All of Life responds to your inner State of Being with mutual harmony.


Peace Train, although optimistic and hopeful on the one hand, also recognizes we have a long way to go.

Now, I’ve been cryin’ lately
Thinkin’ about the world as it is.
Why must we go on hating?
Why can’t we live in bliss?

‘Cause out on the edge of darkness
There rides a peace train.
Oh, peace train take this country.
Come take me home again.

It’s hard to stay hopeful with the violence in Las Vegas, the divisions in the US because of racial injustice, and the dismissive, uncaring attitude the US administration has shown to US citizens in Puerto Rico.

I’ve been cryin’ lately. 

It sure feels like the edge of darkness.

But then, right behind the darkness, there has been so much light. Everywhere there are stories about people helping each other, people speaking out against injustice, people sending money and resources to help those in need.

Tragedies highlight the worst in people, and bring out the best in people.

My question is: when will we no longer need tragedies to bring out the best in people? When will we help each other “just because”? When will the systems and institutions have built-in support for all people, for those who cannot help themselves, for people who come into misfortune? When will we no longer need the darkness as a reactant, for us to spark our light?

I am not just optimistic that this particular historic moment of darkness will pass. I am optimistic that it will pass and leave more light shining than the world has ever seen. I am confident that people are using this particular historic moment of darkness to finally decide that we are done with the hatred, done with the discrimination, done with the violence, done with apathy, done with bigotry.

The reason I can be this optimistic? Because I know each of us has infinite Love to give; therefore, we are able to give Love infinitely. When we really realize this…when we know this…there is nothing we cannot do, no one who will be left unloved, uncared for, overlooked, forgotten; we can love and help each other infinitely, because we will not be afraid of losing what we have–because we have All within.

Journey of Peace 2017: Commitment and Dedication

Today, I commit to eradicating, releasing, and removing all obstacles, hindrances, block, or areas of ignorance in my mental-emotional-physical-spiritual bodies, in all time frames and dimensions, at all levels of consciousness.

I commit to replace what I release with the Divine Light of Truth, with Love, with Peace, and with Harmony.

I commit to embody my new level of consciousness–of Divine Light, Love, Peace, and Harmony–by taking actions which demonstrate Peace, Compassion, Love, Caring-For all life, Acceptance, and Understanding.

In order to maintain and expand my consciousness in a vibration of Peace, I commit to forty consecutive days of this Journey. I commit to contemplating the Guiding Thought for a minimum of 5 minutes each day, and to write and share any thoughts that come up about or around it.

May this Journey serve all beings. May this Journey be a vehicle through which the Divine enters and uplifts the world and all who reside here.

This Journey is dedicated to All Beings: May All attain enlightened actions in the world through Knowing Peace. May we Know compassion for each other, may we demonstrate our kindness, may we see others as ourselves, and know our Oneness with All.

Om Shanti Shanti Shanti Om


Thank you for being here! I look forward to spending this Journey with you. Tomorrow, we begin the contemplations! Be well. Be the Love you Are. Be your Self. I love you.