What a Day! -Healing (1.4.3)

Copyright Tam Black 2018
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Guiding Thought

I rely on my own Loving Presence to lead and guide me toward the meaning of healing. Seeking the meaning of healing frames all my activity and gives context to all my interactions. Though I may encounter disturbances throughout my daily activity, I lay them at the feet of my own Loving Presence and continue to ask, “What is healing”? My own Loving Presence directs me as I listen in the stillness.


All I know right now is that “healing” means keeping my commitment to healing. I don’t have any expectations, any goals, any desires for “an outcome”, anything I want to heal.

I have no need to “feel better”, no corrections that I want made, nothing to ask for.

And yet, healing does frame all my activity and gives context to all my interactions. How can this be? How can I have no thoughts or expectations about healing, and yet find it everywhere, and in everything?

I am not sure I have the answer to that question right now. I can’t explain it.

What I can tell you is that as I maintain my attention on healing, every moment is filled with gratitude. Looking back over my day, I was grateful for everything.

This gratitude was not the kind of gratitude that I had to think about; it was not as though I was taking a silent moment to intentionally give thanks for everything. It was more like a subtle joy and appreciation that permeated everything–every action, every interaction, every experience.

Let me repeat that: it permeated everything.

Looking back over my day, there was not one single moment that did not have this buzz, or hum, or vibration of joyful gratitude. I was just happy to be where I was. All day.

It is so subtle. If I hadn’t been looking for something called healing, I may have missed it.

And now I am grateful for the impetus of looking.

What a day.


Why- Healing (1.4.0)

Welcome to Journey of Healing! I am glad you are here. Are you ready to spend 40 days immersing your consciousness in thoughts of healing? 

I know 40 days sounds like a lot. And I suppose it is. But think about it: 40 days of nurturing and caring for yourself, being gentle with yourself, overlooking mistakes, giving yourself some slack (not being so hard on yourself), and generally being Truly nice to yourself, learning to be your Self. Now, doesn’t that bring about a grateful sigh? Oh yes.

To begin, the first step is to think about what this Journey means to you. Why do you want to do it? Is it about healing the body? Healing the mind? Moving body/mind into greater alignment with Soul? Whatever that is for you, take a minute to write it down.

As for me…

I was going to write a long expose about Oneness and Unity, and about how “True Healing” is really leaving behind perception, so that Oneness and Unity can be experienced beyond perception

I was going to write a bit about the need for Faith, and how the previous Journey increased my faith in Faith, and how that was brought about through some serious letting go and releasing…

I was going to write about how healing is connected to forgiveness, how the world needs SO MUCH healing and forgiveness, and it’s up to us

I was going to write about how it takes as much time and energy to invoke healing for the 7.5 billion people on the planet, as it does to invoke healing for just one’s self, or for just one other person, so, why not always invoke healing for everyone?

There was so much I was going to write about why I am doing this Journey, and what it means to me.

But then flippantly, I inserted that silly face above (which is a good representation for how I generally feel starting every Journey–a mix of “oh my God, am I insane?” and “OH YES, I am ready for this!”– and wrote a completely unplanned paragraph.

When I finished that paragraph, I knew. That’s it.

This is why I am doing Journey of Healing:

40 days of nurturing and caring for myself, being gentle with myself, overlooking mistakes, giving myself some slack (not being so hard on myself (really, I need this)), and generally being Truly nice to (and patient with) myself, learning to be my Self.

Simple. No big hopes, dreams, or goals. No pressure. No expectations. Just nurturing and caring for myself and being gentle with myself…

I really can feel a grateful sigh ripple through my whole body and being.

Whatever your reasons for spending 40 days focused on healing, I am glad you are here. I always invoke your healing, as I am doing these Journeys, so your intentions–whatever they are (given to Divine Light, for Divine Purpose, for the benefit of All) will be empowered.

We are all in this together. Every effort matters. Thank you for your contribution.


Hold Fast– Worth (1.3.32)

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Guiding Thought

I love myself for the Truth within me. The Truth within me Knows me for who I am—Pure Love, Only Love, beyond all valuing of the world. In Love all are equal, for we are One. This is how Truth Knows me—Pure, One, and Free. This is my Truth; this is our Truth; this is the Self I love.


A friend wrote this to me in an email earlier today:

we both know only too well that while we are here things seem important to us, that ultimately we are doing not cos we have to, but just because we can, and when we stand back sometimes we can see that human life is mostly much ado about a meaningless nothing.

This is the key today: sifting the meaningless nothing from the Truth, and making human life about the Truth within.

People go through rough patches, but as my friend points out–it’s mostly of our own making “because we can”, and it’s also mostly meaningless nothing. Why then, oh why, do we do it to ourselves, and buy into it, and then not know how to get ourselves out of it?

I was reading a Christian blog on tithing also earlier today. The author referred several times to points in his life when he was “tested”, and when he went through a “crisis of faith”–and he was currently experiencing such a crisis.

Last weekend, I binge-watched several episodes of Naked and Afraid XL: All Stars, the shows from the Amazon, in which Chance, an Army Ranger, stayed with Russel because “you never leave a man behind”, then Russel turns around and leaves Chance because he was “only thinking of himself”, making for a (pretty severe) mental crisis for Chance.

Pretty much this whole Journey I’ve been in and out of my own crisis–which I’ve called “panic” and “anxiety”. From the two above examples, and my own experience, it seems like when these crises are happening, it’s not like there is anything specific to do, except to get through it. The Christian blogger prays, Chance repeated his military creed, and I’ve been doing mantra.

There’s an element of acceptance here, “there’s nothing to do, but to get through it”.

At the moment, I am thinking that acceptance is the key. But acceptance, to the mind, is difficult because it feels like what you’re accepting is something you don’t want i.e. panic and anxiety, or personal crisis, or betrayal. But this is the trick of the mind, right? The panic and anxiety are caused by not accepting–they are caused by resisting the Truth within.

The Truth within Knows the Truth of us.

In crisis, we remind ourselves of that Truth, however we can, and by doing so, align with It. When we align with Truth, we align with what is Real, not the meaningless nothingness our minds have constructed.

The Christian Blogger reminds himself of Truth through prayer. I use these Journeys, and mantra. Chance used the Ranger Creed (below). Any method that points you to your own highest ideal–the strength within, a higher cause, responsibility to be the best human being you can be–will increase the influence of that Ideal, and decrease the grip of the mind which presents us with meaninglessness.

Cling to the ideal. Cling to the highest vision for yourself. Do whatever you need to do to get through it, with the Truth of your Self intact. Hold fast. This too shall pass.

I am thankful for friends with wise words. I am thankful for friends who keep me afloat. I am thankful for friends who anchor me. I am thankful for friends who know when to tell me to breathe! By being their Truth, they remind me of mine.

Ranger Creed

Recognizing that I volunteered as a Ranger, fully knowing the hazards of my chosen profession, I will always endeavor to uphold the prestige, honor, and high esprit de corps of my Ranger Regiment.

Acknowledging the fact that a Ranger is a more elite soldier who arrives at the cutting edge of battle by land, sea, or air, I accept the fact that as a Ranger my country expects me to move further, faster, and fight harder than any other soldier.

Never shall I fail my comrades. I will always keep myself mentally alert, physically strong, and morally straight and I will shoulder more than my share of the task whatever it may be, one hundred percent and then some.

Gallantly will I show the world that I am a specially selected and well-trained soldier. My courtesy to superior officers, neatness of dress, and care of equipment shall set the example for others to follow.

Energetically will I meet the enemies of my country. I shall defeat them on the field of battle for I am better trained and will fight with all my might. Surrender is not a Ranger word. I will never leave a fallen comrade to fall into the hands of the enemy and under no circumstances will I ever embarrass my country.

Readily will I display the intestinal fortitude required to fight on to the Ranger objective and complete the mission, though I be the lone survivor.

Rangers, lead the way.



Serendipitous Connections–Worth (1.3.9)

Copyright Tam Black 2018
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Guiding Thought

I extend the Love that I am, for that is all I truly am. As I learn to be aware, to understand, and to Know my own will as Love, and make choices according to that will, my life experiences become worthy of me. Expressing my Self that is wholly Love and United with All is the only choice that is worthwhile. It is the only thing that brings me satisfaction, the only choice that allows me to experience my Self—the Love that I am. My-your-our- freedom depends on my right choices, depends on my choosing what is worthy and what is not; it depends on me, depends on you, depends on us.


As you know, I’ve been working with the idea of transformation recentlySpecifically, the transformation of being directed 100% by the Holy Spirit, of submitting my will to Divine Will, through the Holy Spirit–as the Guiding Thought puts it, “to Know my own will as Love, and make choices according to that will”.

You may also be aware that even though I use terms like “Holy Spirit” (or any of the terms I use), I am not specifically ChristianI am not specifically anything. God is not Christian (or Hindu, or Muslim, or Sikh, or Eck, or B’hai, or whatever), so why should I try to be any one thing?

In that spirit, I’ve been thinking about the Holy Spirit, in relation to Shaktiwhich loosely defined is the power, or force, that brings the unmanifest into the manifest.

Here is what I found, quite unintentionally, when I was digging around for something completely different (funny how that happens–I was looking up Tandava). It was this first line that really grabbed my attention. I think I may be on to something.

Transformation is a gift from mystery to us.

As we awake to the reality of impermanence, Shiva appears as the ending of a cycle and ignites within us our inner fire of transformation. As we surrender unto the ever changing flow of life, Shiva supports us to see within the burning, a new way, a new path, the possibility to renew.

Simultaneously, destroying what is dying with one hand (fire) and reviving life with another (drum).

Shiva is the friend of all and his cosmic dance of Tandava keeps the world going round and round. Turning ignorance into new opportunities to free oneself.

He is called “The Auspicious One” and his blessings are infinite.

Shiva is the Exhale that brings a possibility for the NEW.

His consort is Shakti and without HER, Shiva is Shava (corpse – formless).

Shakti is the Goddess, the creator-ess of this world we live (inner and outer).

Shakti means sacred force or empowerment. She is the primordial cosmic energy and represents the dynamic forces of Nature, the compositional forces of the 5 elements. She moves through the entire universe as creative power, or the Great Divine Mother.

Shakti is the manifestation of creativity, fertility, abundance. She is creation, preservation and destruction. (see this link for full page)

Together- Worth (1.3.6)

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Guiding Thought

We are ALL One. I am not alone. Alone becomes All One in Unity and Healing. I am that which you are, which we become together. There is no separation—through healing and forgiveness, we unite. At One there are no limits, at One there are no boundaries. At One I am free—with you.


Oneness works for all of us, and where my effort (and your effort) matters so much within the context of the larger picture. When I heal myself, digging deeply into accepting and allowing Love and Oneness, I am doing it for everyone. Any effort I put into my own healing that surpasses what I “need” for my own personal, individual healing, overflows and becomes available for those who cannot now do it for themselves. No benefit is wasted.

I am that which you are: If you feel alone, scared, betrayed, mistreated, I am too. But the inverse is also true: You are that which I am: When I empower myself and lift myself higher and higher into love and light, you are empowered and lifted. We become together: All of our emotions and efforts interact cumulatively. The more effort toward Love and Oneness that I bring, the more there is available to benefit you. The more you do for yourself, the more there is for All. Then as you are also lifted, I receive the benefit of your Lightness.

Afterword (Purpose 1.2.41)

In a matter of days prior to beginning Journey of Purpose, I went from being confident and self-assured about my purpose, to having no clue; so I intentionally began Journey of Purpose, with a clean slate. A slate that was ripe for discovery.

Throughout the Journey, I could feel the deep, inner-workings of my sub-conscious that I had become more familiar with during Journey of the Heart. The information (if you want to call it that) came to me as vague proddings, intuition, a “sense”, a feeling.

I never felt lost or doubtful, but neither would I have been able to explain where my heart was directing me, in regards to my purpose.

More and more, I believe that the big question, “why am I here, what is my purpose” is answered in levels, or tiers. I am not ready to know the big answer. But I am ready to know this level of it.

For me, what this means is that the assessment of Journey of Purpose is the lead-in to Journey of Worth. My current purpose is a primary building block to Journey of Worth, just as connecting with my heart was a primary building block to Journey of Purpose.

With that in mind, now after my little rest between Journeys, I can tell you where my current purpose lies.

Throughout Journey of Purpose, I was lead repeatedly to the theme of the Holy Spirit (see  36 – 33312417).

My current purpose, thus, is:

to gain a new understanding of the role the Holy Spirit plays in my life, and wanting/seeking to enrich that relationship through frequent invoking  of and prayer to the Holy Spirit.

In some ways, I am using the term Holy Spirit as it is used in Catholicism, or Orthodox Christianity: It is part of the triune God–Father, Son, and Holy Spirit. But for me, even being raised Catholic, I can’t say that I ever really understood the Holy Spirit in that capacity, or what its (his? her?) role is.

That is one reason to focus on this as my current purpose.

I have recently developed a broader/deeper understanding (but still barely scratching the surface) of the role of the Holy Spirit.

Here are some highlights:

  • The Holy Spirit understands both God, and me (Infinite-eternal and immediate-particular).
  • The Holy Spirit is the bridge to the Infinite-eternal as the immediate-particular (me). Embodying the Holy Spirit is the answer to, “how do I be my Divine Self”.
  • The Holy Spirit is in constant communication with me, and wants to bring me home to my Divine Self.
  • The Holy Spirit is the key to uniting my will with God’s will

Here is the Catholic prayer to the Holy Spirit, that I have adapted, and have been using daily:

Oh Heavenly Comforter, Spirit of Truth who art everywhere present and fillest all things, Treasury of Good Things, and Giver of Life,

Come and dwell in me,

Cleanse me of impurity,

Direct all my thoughts, words, feelings and actions, now and unto my eternal ascension into the light

Teach me salvation, that I might be a savior to the world.

I mentioned above that all of this is a building block for Journey of Worth. Tomorrow, we begin! and I will share with you the link between this, my current purpose, and the next Journey, Worth.

I look forward to being with you tomorrow, and for the next 43 days!

Blessings to you.

Life-affirming (Purpose 1.2.37)

Copyright Tam Black 2018
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Guiding Thought

Of myself I am nothing, yet in union with My Inner Divine Mind, through My Own Loving Presence, I am everything and have everything. As I infuse my consciousness with Knowledge of my Inner Divine Mind, my activity expresses this Union and I experience life. I breathe in this life. I smile with Joy and gratitude, and I affirm: I LIVE.


Happy Easter! Today people all over the world celebrate Jesus’ resurrection. The Gospels tell us that Jesus was able to raise people from the dead, most well-known is Lazarus. That is the only story I knew about, growing up as a Catholic. I’ve been reading the Aquarian Gospel of Jesus Christ, and in it, there are many more stories about Jesus bringing people back from the dead. He was practicing. He was practicing so he could raise himself from the dead, so that he could show humanity how to defeat death.

I am your resurrection and your life. You live in me because you live in God. And Everyone lives in you as you live in everyoneResurrection must compel your allegiance gladly because it is the symbol of joy. Its whole compelling power lies in the fact that it represents what you want to be…Teach not that I died in vain. Teach rather that I did not die by demonstrating that I live in you. (A Course in Miracles)

The resurrection celebrates life. The resurrection affirms life.

One does not need to be Christian, nor to believe in the resurrection to celebrate and affirm life.

Take just a moment and join with the energy of the day: breathe in this life. Smile with Joy and gratitude, and affirm: I LIVE. Let the beautiful energy of life permeate and surround you! Enjoy living.