A Very High State of Being–Journey of Courage 02.09.10

Guiding Thought

I am aware, I allow, and I accept What Is. I go within to my silent Self which Knows and follow my Inner Wisdom to Truth. I practice Divine Balance in thought, word and action. I Am! I Am my Self! I Am my self of Love.

Contemplation / Reflection

Allowing What Is, is sometimes a very difficult thing for me. If the only thing permanent is change, why can’t I focus my Self of Love on changing the things I don’t “like”? Then I remind myself that you first have to love, or at least accept, What Is.  Yes, I can accept or allow What Is, sometimes reluctantly.  But if things truly are What Is, I may as well accept or allow. In the moment, What Is may be an illness, lack of financial resources, high levels of homelessness, political circumstances that I’d rather be Is Not.  What Is, is in the now, in this moment. And by the time I write this, it’s already What Was.  Hmmm, gotta love that!! Well, yes, gotta love what is, as well as what is not.  I don’t really understand what I’m experiencing around this Guiding Thought. One wisdom teacher in my life, though, said understanding is the “booby prize” and “confusion is a very high state of being”. With this one, I’m choosing to accept What Is, that I don’t have all the answers and it’s okay to allow myself to live in the open question. As for this response to Day 10, it is what it is!


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National Grouch Day -Fulfillment (1.6.26)

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Guiding Thought

Why would we choose to limit ourselves? To limit reality? All reality is ours and ours to give. In giving and sharing, Joy increases, expanding Love, expanding our experience of LIFE!

This day, first Journey of Fulfillment, 2014
This day, second Journey of Fulfillment, 2016
One year ago–
Peace, Claim It!: Journey of Peace 2017– Day 23


Did you know that today is National Grouch Day?  Inspired by the Grouch of Grouches, this is a day to celebrate that little bit (or lot) of grouch within. Image result for national grouch day

I am not a grouchy person. At all. When I woke up this morning I did not know it was National Grouch day, but I was totally in tune with it, oddly enough. When I got to work, I confessed to several people that I felt “grouchy”–and I used that word specifically, rejecting “cranky” for it. What was funny to me, was that (and this was still all before I learned it is actually National Grouch day) the people I confessed my grouchiness to, replied in kindThey felt grouchy too!

What was even funnier is that once we started admitting it, we were laughing about it–which is very un-grouchy. It was almost like allowing ourselves to embrace the grouch moved us past the grouch.

I don’t think this would have worked if I were more-often a grouch. If that were the case, I would have been serious about being a grouch. But the way it came out today was more, “can you believe it,  I (of all people) feel grouchy, haaaaaaa”! And we laughed. That’s the kicker, not only did my grouchiness get turned upside down, it was able to turn several other people’s grouchiness upside down.

In an odd twist, I feel like this is the perfect fit for today’s Journey.  I didn’t “limit myself” to “only happy thoughts”; I didn’t suppress the impulse to feel, even if it was the “grouch” in me.  But this very acceptance (and sharing it) expanded joy, and increased my and other people’s experience of life in a positive way.

If you haven’t yet today, embrace your inner grouch! Love your inner grouch! Be your inner grouch! …and laugh and laugh and laugh.


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Join the Sun and Sky -Healing (1.4.29)

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Guiding Thought

We are the Light of Love. Light saturates our minds and bodies, surrounding every thought, and radiating out to All. Everything radiates Light in return. Everywhere is Light. We rest in Peace, Being Light.


Oh happy day. Thank you, thank you for this Guiding Thought!

Enough of the muck. Enough of the heavy pants weighing me down. Everywhere is Light!

I picture this to mean both visually and weight-wise, Light like a helium balloon, floating!

I needed this today, this Lightness

I’ve been going through some “stuff” the past few days, not “bad” stuff–I’ve really felt basically fine, but there has been just the slightest dip, like driving on a country road in the wee hours of the morning, with a slight chill in the air… the sun is rising, so the sky is beautiful, and the light is beginning to shine forth… then the road takes a turn and goes down a slight incline (a depression, if you will), and in that slightly lower altitude, a fog has settled. Still driving along, the sun is still rising, even burning away the fog as the car moves through the depression, but for that moment… there’s a change in the air, the slightest bit of realizing the sun is not so warm or bright in the fog, but that it’s still up ahead. Then the road takes an upward movement, upwardly inclined, again joining the sun and sky.

With my face to the sun, the light literally saturates my mind and body.

Yes. Thank you.


Dicrysahe -Healing (1.4.22)

Copyright Tam Black 2018
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Guiding Thought

We go deep within our inner stillness, and feel Divine Mind’s presence within. We hold out our empty hands, symbolic of leaving preconceptions behind; symbolic of seeking True answers, and ask, “What is the essence of healing?” These words resonate within us, as though in a vast cavern.  The word essence reverberates with these thoughts, “For what do we care most deeply?”; “What is our  essence?”; “What is our Truth?”; “Where is our deepest hurt, pain, and sorrow, that all may be healed?”


Mantras are most powerful when energetically spoken silently within your Diamond Crystal Sacred Heart. ~Joseph Barry Martin

Meditation teachers generally say there are three ways to repeat mantras:

  1. Out loud (known as Vaikhari Japa). This way accustoms a person to the pronunciation and tones, and serves to calm the mind. In this method, the sound becomes externalized. For many people, especially beginners, this makes it easier to focus on the sound and its energy.
  2. Whispered inaudibly, with the breath merely passing over the lips (known as Upamsu Japa). The sound remains internal, yet the brain and body are engaged in the motion of making words. This requires a bit more concentration and focus, since there is no actual sound to bring the brain back when it starts to wander. The mind must be responsible for the brain, and keep it focused.
  3. Silently (known as Manasika Japa). This is generally understood as a mental practice; the mantra is simply repeated silently, which is said to require much focus, attention, and concentration.

Please note that this summary is not advocating that one way is “more powerful” than another way. You will find writings that say the first is most powerful, and the third the least powerful (as in the Chaitanya Bhagavata story, which says Vaikhari is 100 times superior to Manasika), and you will find writings that say Manasika is more powerful than Vaikhari (as in the Hari-bhakti-vilasa). I suggest you try them for yourself, and see what works for you, depending on your own goals and intentions. (Also, another form of japa that is not relevant here, but worth mentioning is Likhita Japa. This is when a person writes a mantra repeatedly.)

I have tried all three.  Personally, I like Manasika Japa the best. When I am doing japa, I focus my attention between my eyebrows, where I hold a picture of the energetic representation of the mantra. So, for example, if I am doing Om Namah Shivaya japa, I hold a picture of either Shiva or Babaji at my forehead; if I am doing Om hang Hanumate Rudratmakaye hung phat mantra, I have a picture of Hanuman in my imagination between my eyebrows.

This morning, I was reading a book by Joseph Barry Martin and came across the quote at the top. Today, while doing my japa, I changed my style. Instead of using my mind/brain to imagine an energetic representation while focusing on the words, I moved my focus to my heart area and concentrated on “hearing” the energy through my heart.

It was intense. I would like to officially add a fourth method of doing japa. I call it Dicrysahe- Diamond Crystal Sacred Heart 😉  -and it means feeling the energy of the words through the heart.

Why does this matter for the Journey today?

  1. Because when doing japa via Dicrysahe, I found there to be this resonance (as though in a vast cavern). It felt literally like a magnified pulse emanating from my chest.
  2. It felt like it was a very direct experience of the sound, without the sound. After all, sound is simply vibration; if I can feel the vibration in my body instead of hearing it, it’s the same energy but a different experience of it–visceral and without a brain-interpretation.
  3. I felt like I had a new grasp of my inner stillness, and could feel Divine Mind’s presence within. I admit, I have a hard time with stillness (until now…). Stillness, traditionally means something like “calming the monkey mind”. In order to get to stillness, one must pass through the mind, which is always in chaos–that’s why there’s meditation–to calm the mind and get to stillness. But Dicrysahe completely bypasses the mind. Instead of having a battle in the brain between what to focus on (the chaotic thoughts, or the calming ones), Dicrysahe changes fields, where no battle exists, because there is no mind, because everything happens in the heart.
  4. When I did the Guiding Thought with Dicrysahethere was a similar more direct experience of the Guiding Thought. It was more difficult than with a mantra, because with a mantra there is repetition of sound and syllables, and with the Guiding Thought I really had to focus on the energy, rather than the words. But it felt solid and pervading.

This is all new. Pretty cool, huh? Try it. Let me know what you think.



Unexpected Visit from the Inner Smart Ass -Healing (1.4.17)

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Guiding Thought

Love is Wholeness. The essence of Love is Peace. The essence of Wholeness is Unity. Your essence is Love, therefore, your essence is Peace; your essence is Unity. Since your essence is Unity, you share Love and Peace wholly. Knowing the Unity of Whole Love and Peace with All is the essence of holiness. Choose to be aware, to understand and to Know your Whole and Holy Self, which is Love.

Quick Check in

How are you? How is your Journey going? How is your life going? There has been a lot of high-emotion in the world, and here in North America, the past couple of weeks. A lot is going on everywhere. How are you doing? Stay grounded. Stay focused on the Real, the True. Keep your mind on the highest thoughts you can think, as much of the time as you can. Don’t let yourself be dragged or held “down”, keep lifting yourself and others “up”. We’re all in this together, and you’re no good to anyone weighted down in the lower-self of despair, hopelessness, grief, and worry. Keep on.


UGH. This Guiding Thought always (so far) confuses me. Do you feel this way? I feel a bit concerned sharing this sentiment; but…I’m not here to be disingenuous. I’m here to be real.

It’s like I understand it on one level, but I don’t understand it at the same time. There’s just so much to it, so many steps/sentences to go through to get to the end. And by the time I get to the end, I have forgotten everything at the beginning and in the middle. So I go back to the beginning to re-read, and remind myself what the beginning was, and then I’ve forgotten again by the time I get to the end.

So then I read it slowly, sentence by sentence, and do my little “check” (like, “yup, got that one”). But by the end, even though I can do a “check” with each individual sentence, I a) have no idea what I just read, as though short-term memory is completely inactive and b) I can’t do a “check” for the whole thing.

What’s the point of this?

I think it’s good news that I can give a “check” to each individual sentence. That’s at least a start.

I believe the “problem” is in bringing everything together. Which day is it that the Guiding Thought encourages us to unite fragments? Oh, yeah, the fourth day of each round. Well, here I am practicing it.

If each sentence represents a “fragment” and the Guiding Thought represents the “Whole”, then working through each sentence to a comprehensive understanding of the Whole in this specific Guiding Thought is a practical exercise in uniting fragments.

I wrote that feeling a little tongue-in-cheek (not sure you can “hear” that through sterile words, but the voice in my head was like–“yeah, right”, >rme-smh<)…but it might actually be accurate. I just got that nudge in my mind that says, “you’re on to something”.

My Inner Smart Ass hasn’t nudged me in a while. YAY. So glad she hasn’t abandoned me. Can’t say I miss her, but life sure is entertaining when she shows up.

Why- Healing (1.4.0)

Welcome to Journey of Healing! I am glad you are here. Are you ready to spend 40 days immersing your consciousness in thoughts of healing? 

I know 40 days sounds like a lot. And I suppose it is. But think about it: 40 days of nurturing and caring for yourself, being gentle with yourself, overlooking mistakes, giving yourself some slack (not being so hard on yourself), and generally being Truly nice to yourself, learning to be your Self. Now, doesn’t that bring about a grateful sigh? Oh yes.

To begin, the first step is to think about what this Journey means to you. Why do you want to do it? Is it about healing the body? Healing the mind? Moving body/mind into greater alignment with Soul? Whatever that is for you, take a minute to write it down.

As for me…

I was going to write a long expose about Oneness and Unity, and about how “True Healing” is really leaving behind perception, so that Oneness and Unity can be experienced beyond perception

I was going to write a bit about the need for Faith, and how the previous Journey increased my faith in Faith, and how that was brought about through some serious letting go and releasing…

I was going to write about how healing is connected to forgiveness, how the world needs SO MUCH healing and forgiveness, and it’s up to us

I was going to write about how it takes as much time and energy to invoke healing for the 7.5 billion people on the planet, as it does to invoke healing for just one’s self, or for just one other person, so, why not always invoke healing for everyone?

There was so much I was going to write about why I am doing this Journey, and what it means to me.

But then flippantly, I inserted that silly face above (which is a good representation for how I generally feel starting every Journey–a mix of “oh my God, am I insane?” and “OH YES, I am ready for this!”– and wrote a completely unplanned paragraph.

When I finished that paragraph, I knew. That’s it.

This is why I am doing Journey of Healing:

40 days of nurturing and caring for myself, being gentle with myself, overlooking mistakes, giving myself some slack (not being so hard on myself (really, I need this)), and generally being Truly nice to (and patient with) myself, learning to be my Self.

Simple. No big hopes, dreams, or goals. No pressure. No expectations. Just nurturing and caring for myself and being gentle with myself…

I really can feel a grateful sigh ripple through my whole body and being.

Whatever your reasons for spending 40 days focused on healing, I am glad you are here. I always invoke your healing, as I am doing these Journeys, so your intentions–whatever they are (given to Divine Light, for Divine Purpose, for the benefit of All) will be empowered.

We are all in this together. Every effort matters. Thank you for your contribution.


Breathe It In: Journey of Peace 2017– Day 21

Welcome to Round 3. We are half way through! For this round, the pronouns change once again, to remind you that “we are all in this together”. It’s not just “I”; it’s not only “you”; it is we–me-you-our, myour. All for All. Let’s get started!

Copyright Tam Black 2017
for susanwithpearls

Guiding Thought

We are Love. We have infinite Love to give; therefore, we are able to give Love infinitely. Filled with Love, our energy is vibrant. All of Life responds to our inner State of Being with mutual harmony.


I feel inspired by today’s words. All of them. Sometimes I feel like just repeating the Guiding Thought in order to explain myself should be enough, as though the Guiding Thought says it all, perfectly. Today is one of those days.

Take it in. Feel it.

We are Love. We. are. Love. All of us, everywhere; no matter who we are, what we do, what we have ever done, We are Love. Nothing can change that. We cannot be something we are not, and we are Love, we can be nothing other.

Since we are Love, we have infinite Love to give. There is no end to Love; there is no end to the Love we can give. Love can pour out of us forever and a day and there would still be Love left over.

So, there’s no reason to hold onto it. There’s no reason to hoard our Love. There is no reason not to share and give generously… infinitely!

With all that movement of Love, all that accessibility of Love, all that availability of Love, how can our energy be anything but vibrant? And beautiful? And gentle, caring, kind?

I imagine being tuned in to that vibration so strongly within myself, feeling so much Love pour out that everything and everyone who comes into the vicinity feels it and automatically responds in kind, producing the mutual harmony.

Please note… feeling inspired is different than fully feeling the words embodied. I feel inspired; I do not feel that I currently embody the words.

I feel a little lifted. I feel lighter. I feel happier than I was 30 minutes ago. I feel hopeful. I feel as though, “I can do this”.

I still also feel like I have a lot to learn, a long way to go. But thank goodness for every drop.

May you be lifted, inspired, lighter, and happier, every moment, with every breath, until we all know ourselves together as the perfect embodiment of perfect Divine Love!