Why- Healing (1.4.0)

Welcome to Journey of Healing! I am glad you are here. Are you ready to spend 40 days immersing your consciousness in thoughts of healing? 

I know 40 days sounds like a lot. And I suppose it is. But think about it: 40 days of nurturing and caring for yourself, being gentle with yourself, overlooking mistakes, giving yourself some slack (not being so hard on yourself), and generally being Truly nice to yourself, learning to be your Self. Now, doesn’t that bring about a grateful sigh? Oh yes.

To begin, the first step is to think about what this Journey means to you. Why do you want to do it? Is it about healing the body? Healing the mind? Moving body/mind into greater alignment with Soul? Whatever that is for you, take a minute to write it down.

As for me…

I was going to write a long expose about Oneness and Unity, and about how “True Healing” is really leaving behind perception, so that Oneness and Unity can be experienced beyond perception

I was going to write a bit about the need for Faith, and how the previous Journey increased my faith in Faith, and how that was brought about through some serious letting go and releasing…

I was going to write about how healing is connected to forgiveness, how the world needs SO MUCH healing and forgiveness, and it’s up to us

I was going to write about how it takes as much time and energy to invoke healing for the 7.5 billion people on the planet, as it does to invoke healing for just one’s self, or for just one other person, so, why not always invoke healing for everyone?

There was so much I was going to write about why I am doing this Journey, and what it means to me.

But then flippantly, I inserted that silly face above (which is a good representation for how I generally feel starting every Journey–a mix of “oh my God, am I insane?” and “OH YES, I am ready for this!”– and wrote a completely unplanned paragraph.

When I finished that paragraph, I knew. That’s it.

This is why I am doing Journey of Healing:

40 days of nurturing and caring for myself, being gentle with myself, overlooking mistakes, giving myself some slack (not being so hard on myself (really, I need this)), and generally being Truly nice to (and patient with) myself, learning to be my Self.

Simple. No big hopes, dreams, or goals. No pressure. No expectations. Just nurturing and caring for myself and being gentle with myself…

I really can feel a grateful sigh ripple through my whole body and being.

Whatever your reasons for spending 40 days focused on healing, I am glad you are here. I always invoke your healing, as I am doing these Journeys, so your intentions–whatever they are (given to Divine Light, for Divine Purpose, for the benefit of All) will be empowered.

We are all in this together. Every effort matters. Thank you for your contribution.


Breathe It In: Journey of Peace 2017– Day 21

Welcome to Round 3. We are half way through! For this round, the pronouns change once again, to remind you that “we are all in this together”. It’s not just “I”; it’s not only “you”; it is we–me-you-our, myour. All for All. Let’s get started!

Copyright Tam Black 2017
for susanwithpearls

Guiding Thought

We are Love. We have infinite Love to give; therefore, we are able to give Love infinitely. Filled with Love, our energy is vibrant. All of Life responds to our inner State of Being with mutual harmony.


I feel inspired by today’s words. All of them. Sometimes I feel like just repeating the Guiding Thought in order to explain myself should be enough, as though the Guiding Thought says it all, perfectly. Today is one of those days.

Take it in. Feel it.

We are Love. We. are. Love. All of us, everywhere; no matter who we are, what we do, what we have ever done, We are Love. Nothing can change that. We cannot be something we are not, and we are Love, we can be nothing other.

Since we are Love, we have infinite Love to give. There is no end to Love; there is no end to the Love we can give. Love can pour out of us forever and a day and there would still be Love left over.

So, there’s no reason to hold onto it. There’s no reason to hoard our Love. There is no reason not to share and give generously… infinitely!

With all that movement of Love, all that accessibility of Love, all that availability of Love, how can our energy be anything but vibrant? And beautiful? And gentle, caring, kind?

I imagine being tuned in to that vibration so strongly within myself, feeling so much Love pour out that everything and everyone who comes into the vicinity feels it and automatically responds in kind, producing the mutual harmony.

Please note… feeling inspired is different than fully feeling the words embodied. I feel inspired; I do not feel that I currently embody the words.

I feel a little lifted. I feel lighter. I feel happier than I was 30 minutes ago. I feel hopeful. I feel as though, “I can do this”.

I still also feel like I have a lot to learn, a long way to go. But thank goodness for every drop.

May you be lifted, inspired, lighter, and happier, every moment, with every breath, until we all know ourselves together as the perfect embodiment of perfect Divine Love!



I Don’t Know, But I’ve Been Told: Journey of Peace 2017– Day 13

Copyright Tam Black 2017
for susanwithpearls

Guiding Thought

In your natural state of Freedom, your mind knows only serene tranquility and Oneness with All. Nothing need be done, for there is no more to do. You are perfect, whole, and complete. Satisfied and filled full, your energy overflows to manifest only the Good, the Holy, and the Beautiful.


I know a few things about getting high–from books and friends and cultural references. I know that “munchies” often come when smoking marijuana. I know that one may have a “good trip” or a “bad trip”. I know that giggling or big smiles are somehow induced, and sometimes the giggles go on even after whatever was funny passed, because then it becomes funny that it was so funny in the first place–and that can go on for a very long time.

I also know that when high, people can “get” –as in receive–flashes of deep insights. And as soon as it happens, and the person realizes it, and tries to unpack it, or hold onto it, or go deeper into it, the details disappear; a person simply cannot remember what the insight was.

All that remains is the memory of having an insight, not the insight itself.

If I didn’t know better, I would say I had an experience of being high today, while contemplating the Guiding Thought.

Just as I began, I went into the kitchen and got cookies. I never do that. I had a big smile on my face while doing so. I contemplated the Guiding Thought and had at least three different insights that simply disappeared when I tried to understand them better.

One had to do with seeing, then resolving a contradiction in the Guiding Thought, something about “if there is no more to do, then why bother manifesting anything…” but then realizing that the overflow is what manifests, and overflow can only happen once everything is complete.

Another had to do with “understanding” how Peace is the essence of Love…but also that Love is the essence of Peace. And how exactly does that work, but understanding it completely in the moment.

Yet another had to do with understanding how we are always learning, and we are always teaching. This had to do with how I positioned my perspective while reading the Guiding Thought, whether I was feeling like I was “saying” it to someone else, teaching them, or if I was “receiving” a teaching from a wise counselor. I just felt like I understood that giving is receiving and teaching is learning.

I don’t know. Maybe if you’ve been high and can relate, you will understand all this. It just seemed like I was lucid, and clear, and I knew so much….but then it was gone, and I can’t remember the details.



First, the Deep End: Journey of Peace 2017– Day 12

Copyright Tam Black 2017
for susanwithpearls

Guiding Thought

Knowing yourself as Peace fortifies your inner awareness of the unity within. Through gratitude for the Life You Are, connect with harmony. Through harmony, Be restored and strengthened, and thus be able to carry your Inner Peace to all of life’s activity surrounding you.


Sometimes I think these Guiding Thoughts were designed to piss me off and frustrate me. Here’s what I mean: this Guiding Thought begins with something that feels nearly impossible for me, where I’m at. If I Knew how to Know myself as Peace, I wouldn’t be doing this Journey, would I? I wouldn’t need it. I would Know myself as Peace. Yet. There it is, asking me to do the very thing I came here to learn to do.

OK. Breathe.

I basically skimmed past the whole first sentence every time I read the Guiding Thought today, grumbling.

I got a bit more on-board with the second sentence, mostly because I’ve been practicing this very thing for several weeks now. I’ve made it a daily practice–and as many times throughout the day as I can remember–to take a moment and say something like, “Thank you God, for the Life I am; thank you for giving me the opportunity to contribute to the love and light of the world.”

Thus, I can vouch for the second sentence: gratitude for Life does give me an understanding of the greater interconnectedness of All, which brings me a desire for harmony with All.

But then…but then!

The final sentence seemed to piss me off again. Here’s why: Why does the Guiding Thought end with telling me how to accomplish the very thing I feel like I cannot accomplish in the first sentence? Wouldn’t the Guiding Thought make a whole lot more sense if it read this way:

Through gratitude for the Life You Are, connect with harmony. Through harmony, Be restored and strengthened, and thus be able to carry your Inner Peace to all of life’s activity surrounding you. Knowing yourself as Peace fortifies your inner awareness of the unity within.

This way makes a whole lot more sense, doesn’t it? It tells you what to do right off the bat: Be grateful. Connect with Harmony. Easy, no problem! Then it tells you the benefit of connecting with Harmony–restoration and strength, and ability to carry Inner Peace to all activity. Then it ends with the Knowing, which seems to follow a lot more logically from the how to, and the benefits.

But NO. It does not lead me in a logical way. It throws me into the deep end, then tells me what I need to do once I’m in the deep end. Argh!

I am still breathing, don’t worry.

Here’s the thing: This is really very hilarious. I mean, listen to me! I haven’t ranted like this in a while, and all it took was an out-of-place sentence. All the while, I am watching myself be so bothered by the logic of the Guiding Thought, by editorial improvements for the Guiding Thought.

It’s great! You see what has come up here? All of this amorphous anger and frustration directed at a little sentence. It has nothing to do with the sentence! You know how I know? Because it’s just a sentence. Sometimes when things come up “opposed to” something so ridiculous as a little sentence, I can identify it as energy that needs to be released.

When it’s a safe place, like in front of a key board, I can have fun releasing it, by ranting. There are lots of safe ways to release energies like anger and frustration. Scream. Run. Talk it out. Dance! Hit a ball against a wall. Trampoline. Lots of things!

It’s when these small energies don’t get released that they build…and build…and build…and become unrecognizable and out of control…and turn into violence.

I am sad about the violence, all the unnecessary violence. Please. Rant about the small things, then laugh because you are ranting at such a small thing. Get your family and friends to rant and laugh with you. Let it go while it’s small. Release the energy before it has a chance to get so big it turns to violence.

Love each other. Love yourself. Be well.


Sorry, No Answers Today: Journey of Peace 2017– Day 07

Copyright Tam Black 2017
for susanwithpearls

Guiding Thought

The Peace of God is stronger than my self-constructed obstacles to it. I open my mind to holy communion with the Divine. Brought to union with God, obstacles crumble. Peace stands victorious. I am that Peace.


I felt like I had a lot of self-constructed obstacles to Peace just reading the Guiding Thought today.

The more I contemplated, and tried to commune with the Divine and offer up my obstacles, the more I created obstacles. My obstacles were creating more obstacles, then those obstacles created obstacles. What a loop! Instead of “crumbling” and dissolving, each crumble became a head of a hydra and grew back 9 more obstacles.

Here are some examples:

I need to just relax. How do I relax? Open my mind How do I open my mindI am that Peace. How can I be Peace, when I haven’t figured out how to open my mind? The Peace of God is stronger than…If it’s stronger than these obstacles why do I have these obstacles? What is my mind doing? I know the answer is right here, right in front of my face. Why is it no working?

While all this was going on, there was a part of me that knew that I know, but that I was just not accessing it–very similar to a couple days ago.

In my conscious brain, I simply could not get further than the words. I had trouble feeling, and I had trouble understanding. But I also knew that I can understand, that I do understand.

The mind wants to make it difficult. the mind needs to be valued. So it does what it knows to do to be valuable.

It reminds me of those employees who create problems so they can “fix” them (so they have value), or the ones who nit pick about schedules (they have to have oversight, so they are “doing” something!), or the ones who make mountains out of molehills, to seem important, and “show” that they have really big ideas!

Funny how my mind’s antics can be seen in the “real” work-a-day world.

Maybe this is what my mind was showing me? maybe I need to recognize that the behavior I see outside of me, is the behavior inside of me.

While I was contemplating the Guiding Thought, I was also thinking: this is not difficult, I know how to do this. I’ve done this hundreds of times before.

What I was referring to was surrender. Letting go of self-created obstacles feels a lot like surrendering them at the alter of God, letting them go, asking for purification. I have worked a lot on surrender. Why did this day feel so difficult, so full of obstacles?

No answers today. Just more to contemplate. Oh, and don’t worry. I doabsolutely believe the Peace of God is stronger than this…even if I don’t understand it today.


Kismet? or Love?: Journey of Freedom 2017–Day 28

Copyright Tam Black 2015
Designed for susanwithpearls.com

Guiding Thought

Our connection with the Infinite Source of Love is and always has been enough. Love loves us always, everywhere. Assured in love, we are perfectly lovable and perfectly loving with all people in all situations.


Before even getting to the Journey today I was practicing this! I like it when that happens.

Today, before work, I thought to myself, “I have a responsibility to my co-workers to be bright and loving. It’s up to me to bring a level of lightness to the office.”

That’s what I was doing today. First, I made sure that my overall feeling today was very even-keeled with a feeling of peace and harmony. Then, when I would see people or meet with them, or just pass them in the hall, I would remember to bring my attention to my heart and think, “I love this person… I just love this person.”

I also randomly think, “She is just sooo sweet” or “He has a really good heart.” These thoughts are usually random about people I pass on the street or in a store, or even just a picture of someone whose bio or article I have read. I have been aware of doing this with strangers more and more.

I don’t know if there is a correlation between how I was thinking about loving people in all situations today, but out of nowhere, I was invited to another company’s office for a birthday party. How fun! (Fortunately, the project for a deadline I needed to accomplish was almost done.)

Here’s the quick story: a local baker mis-delivered a cake to our office, leaving it at the unattended front desk, rather than finding someone to leave it with. The cake was supposed to go next door (no receptionist, locked door). I walked past the front desk and saw the cake, looked at the delivery slip, and noticed that it was supposed to have gone next door. With no contact information, I called the baker, told them what was up, and they said they would put someone in contact with me to get the cake. Then I walked out of the office….at the almost exact same time someone walked out of the office next door. It just so happened that she was the person who the cake was for. I was able to deliver it without a mediator, and got myself (and several colleagues)  invited to the party. Kismet? or the activity of Love?

I Get It Now (and more): Journey of Freedom 2017–Day 20

Copyright Tam Black 2015
Designed for susanwithpearls.com

Guiding Thought

Focus your mind and thoughts on your Inner Divine Self, your Self of Peace, your Self of Joy, Your Self of Infinite Being and Intelligence. When you are aware of your Inner Divine Self, you radiate these qualities, expressing the freedom of Being in Life!


What an amazing day this has been! I love life! I love this life! I love my life!

So much has been clearing for me and in me. Old habits, old thought-forms, stupid shit I used to think and do is “evaporating like mist in the sun as I devote myself to the Oneness of Love” (that’s part of one of the Guiding thoughts from Journey of Courage—see how these work together?  I now Know, really Know, what that means!).

I don’t know if it had anything to do with the eclipse today or not, but with everything that has been clearing, in addition to what just cleared today, I feel freer. The feeling is hard to describe, even hard to grasp. There are phrases and clichés that seem to describe it, like “a weight has been lifted” or “that’s a load off my shoulders”, but I have felt things where I have said these phrases, and what I feel now is different.

First, those phrases use physical terms, so any analogy that you might imagine has to do with physical weight. What I feel now is emotional weight, but even more than that, it’s a spiritual weight that has been lifted. Imagine “taking a load off” from your soul, and I should add…from your soul which is millions upon billions of years old, and some of this weight is that old too.)

Second, with the image of a weight being lifted, there is a sense of a memory of what the weight was. Even if you apply the image to an emotional burden, there is some shadow of the weight that was lifted, some memory. With what I feel today, it’s as though even the memory-shadow is gone. There’s nothing.

Finally, this is the first time ever that I can say I was able to observe the “thing” evaporating. Literally, I watched it evaporate; I saw it leave my body and my energy field—and it was gone, as though it had never been here in the first place.

All of this is context for my state of mind/being as I began today’s Journey.

The really meaningful words in the Guiding Thought today were, “…the freedom of Being”. I feel so free, just Being. I feel what these words mean. I feel how Being feels. I feel what it feels like to have nothing in the way of Being. I feel what it feels like to be free from my past, free from my ignorance (and stupidity [I have forgiven myself my stupidity]), free from emotional habits from the past, free from material and psychological things that have bogged me down for years (and years!).

Then, I applied this new understanding to the words, “in Life” “…the freedom of Being in Life”.

This is from where my opening sentences derived. As I was able to feel free in Being, Life became amazing and wonderful and beautiful. I can Be in Life! I can Be in this Life! I can Be me in this Life!

The Guiding Thought “worked” out of sequence today. Usually, the first sentences (in this case: “Focus your mind and thoughts on your Inner Divine Self, your Self of Peace, your Self of Joy, Your Self of Infinite Being and Intelligence”) lead me to greater understanding of my Divine Self. The first sentences encourage me to Be that Self in the world. Instead today, I was already Being that Self! I got to feel how natural and easy it is to accomplish Peace, Joy, Infinite Being and Intelligence…by just Being it.

One final thing: In previous Journeys, I have quoted Rumi saying, “Your task is not to seek for love, but merely to seek and find all the barriers within yourself that you have built against it.” I get it now. Really, really get it now.