Journey of Gratitude– Why? (2.8.0)

Greetings in Love and Light! Welcome to a new year.

Today begins Journey of Gratitude. Let’s go! I’m glad you’re here. I’m glad I’m here. I am already so thankful to be here, with you now, doing this work.

Think and write about why you would like to spend 40 days thinking about, contemplating, and practicing gratitute. Feel free to share with me privately by email, or publicly below.

Why

Back in December, during Journey of Rest, I was having intense waves of gratitude almost daily. I would think about my life, about the support and love that I have, about my relationship with the Great Mystery; I thought about Jesus and what He brought into the world; I thought about being a drop in an infinite ocean, aware of itself, of the ocean, and of its relationship with all the other drops; I would think about how beautiful this life is, the inter-connectivity of everything, and how amazing and wondrous it all is,  and I would (sometimes) just weep with love and joy at how thankful I felt.

At that time, I recognized how gratitude was a doorway for Love. If I didn’t feel Love, I could focus on feeling thankful, and then Love was a breath away.

I thought, “I got this. Journey of Gratitude is going to be so easy. Do I even need a Journey of Gratitude? I just need to stay in this space forever!”

But you know, “this too shall pass”. I usually say that when something is a struggle, but really, it’s true otherwise, as all things are impermanent and changing (until we realize and live our True, eternal selves, anyway).

For the life of me, I have not been able to re-capture that intense feeling of gratitude since around December 23 (right before Christmas). I’m not saying that I haven’t felt thankful. But there’s a difference in mental-practices of gratitude and recognizing things to be thankful for, and the kind of gratitude that overwhelms with emotions of love and joy so much that tears flow.

I think my experiences in December (pre-December 23) were the teaser. “You see? This is what is possible. Are you there yet? No? Keep going.”

So here I am, an ideal in mind as a carrot on a stick, slogging toward it.

I knew I was going to have to write Why today, and I’ve been thinking and thinking about where I’m at with this, juxtaposing my recent loving/joyful gratitude experiences with how I actually feel right here right now.

It would be a cop out to say simply, “I want to work toward that (the ideal, mindlessly following a carrot on a stick). Yeah. It is that, but it’s also more than that.

I want to open my heart to expand in giving and receiving more love.
And gratitude does that.

I want to be of True Service–recognizing and living in the space of knowing what an honor (and responsibility!) it is to serve All in Love.
And gratitude does that.

I want to serve joyfully, inexhaustibly, according to my True, Highest Purpose.
And gratitude does that.

I want to remember my commitment–remember what I really want–which is to continue reaching every day, every hour, every minute with 100% of my being toward Infinite Love and Light.
And…I’m not sure if gratitude does that, but I’m going to treat this like an experiment to find out.

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Tomorrow is the commitment and dedication! Then we start the 40-days of contemplation. Remember with this Journey  to get out your crayons, markers, pencils, and get ready to draw/create. Gratitude is especially pre-disposed toward the right/creative/aesthetic brain.

 

 

 

Working Toward Embodying Light -Fulfillment (1.6.40)

 

Copyright Tam Black 2018
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Guiding Thought

I am light. My body is light. I am free. I know my fulfillment: I feel it rise within me, expand out from me.

Sharing

Welcome to day 40! How did you do? Were you consistent daily? Did you contemplate your ideal (or the Guiding Thought) for at least 5 minutes per day? Did you dig deep, expand your self-knowledge, and learn about how you approach life? Whew. That’s a lot to do and expect of yourself. If you did anything at all toward self-awareness, and learning about how you choose to live life…give yourself a hug, or at least a pat on the back. You’ve done some good work. Now it’s time to take a break. Breathe for a few days, normalize a bit, then take some time to read back over what you have written over the past 40 days, and reflect on where you were, where you are, and what you think you learned over the course of this Journey. I’ll do the same. But now…day 40!

Just in the past two weeks, I’ve been trying some new things to increase my inner-light-awareness.

I have always wanted to be light. I used to–and I suppose I still do–draw myself with so much inner light that it radiates outward everywhere. I used to feel the light bubble up within me, and flow out my eyes and hands. I’ve always believed somewhere deep down, that I am light. Of course, I’ve had to reconcile this with my experience of being a dense, 3rd-dimensional, material body/person…which is what I live with day after day after day… yet for some reason, I still think I am light. I think some how, some way, I can be light, not this heavy, dense, material body. So today’s Guiding Thought has special significance for me–I’ve been working at this since I was a teenager!

I am not daunted that I haven’t figured it out yet. I will. We all will, sooner or later. I just keep working at it and trying stuff.

So in the past two weeks, I’ve started taking a fish oil that is high in anti-oxidants, which is supposed to cleanse (de-calcify) the pineal gland. There are those who believe the pineal gland is the seat of the third-eye, the spiritual eye. It is the seat of true vision, manifestation, and higher communication. Apparently, things like chlorine, fluoride, and bromine calicify the pineal gland and inhibit its proper function. So I’m trying it out. It’s only been a few days, and I have nothing to report, but if all goes well, my third eye will open and I will be that much closer to giving/receiving light!

Secondly, I’ve been carrying around crystals. I have this beautiful quartz crystal that fits across the palm of my hand (about 4″ x 1.5-2″)–and I can wrap my fingers around it…So I’ve been carrying it, sleeping with it. This behavior is not completely new; I’ve had this crystal for over two decades, and it accompanies me during certain times in my life.

Finally, I’ve been sleeping with music which entrains the mind with delta brainwaves. That’s “just” a sleep entrainment, nothing fancy–no binaural beats or subliminal affirmations, but since cleaning the pineal gland is supposed to open the vision/dreaming faculty, I figure better sleep won’t hurt.

All of this is to continue progressing upward. Call it frequency, call it sound, call it light, call it vibration, call it consciousness, call it what you will. It’s about embodying more and more energy, love, and light. Being able to handle it and then radiate it.

 

 

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Ways to support this work:

  1. Hire me as your Spiritual Coach, you may sign up for a personalized Journey with me Click here for more information. Or I offer 1-on-1 spiritual coaching sessions. This is non-religion specific, and open to everyone, even atheists, though of course we would call something like “self-analysis coach” for a self-identified atheist.
  2. Indulge in one of my healing services: Jharra, Reiki, Fire Ceremony (see withpearls.com for more information).
  3. Send me a monetary gift via paypal: paypal.me/SusanBillmaier (please note “gift” in the transaction).
  4. Tell a friend about this site, the coaching or healing services.
  5. Invite me to interview on a podcast or for an article.

All proceeds go toward increasing love, light, and a consciousness of Oneness in the world. Thank you for your contribution that benefits All.

These Journeys are always available on this site at no charge. I also provide Jharra, Reiki, and Fire Ceremonies at no-charge to those who ask.

National Grouch Day -Fulfillment (1.6.26)

Copyright Tam Black 2018
Designed for susanwithpearls.com

Guiding Thought

Why would we choose to limit ourselves? To limit reality? All reality is ours and ours to give. In giving and sharing, Joy increases, expanding Love, expanding our experience of LIFE!

This day, first Journey of Fulfillment, 2014
This day, second Journey of Fulfillment, 2016
One year ago–
Peace, Claim It!: Journey of Peace 2017– Day 23

Sharing

Did you know that today is National Grouch Day?  Inspired by the Grouch of Grouches, this is a day to celebrate that little bit (or lot) of grouch within. Image result for national grouch day

I am not a grouchy person. At all. When I woke up this morning I did not know it was National Grouch day, but I was totally in tune with it, oddly enough. When I got to work, I confessed to several people that I felt “grouchy”–and I used that word specifically, rejecting “cranky” for it. What was funny to me, was that (and this was still all before I learned it is actually National Grouch day) the people I confessed my grouchiness to, replied in kindThey felt grouchy too!

What was even funnier is that once we started admitting it, we were laughing about it–which is very un-grouchy. It was almost like allowing ourselves to embrace the grouch moved us past the grouch.

I don’t think this would have worked if I were more-often a grouch. If that were the case, I would have been serious about being a grouch. But the way it came out today was more, “can you believe it,  I (of all people) feel grouchy, haaaaaaa”! And we laughed. That’s the kicker, not only did my grouchiness get turned upside down, it was able to turn several other people’s grouchiness upside down.

In an odd twist, I feel like this is the perfect fit for today’s Journey.  I didn’t “limit myself” to “only happy thoughts”; I didn’t suppress the impulse to feel, even if it was the “grouch” in me.  But this very acceptance (and sharing it) expanded joy, and increased my and other people’s experience of life in a positive way.

If you haven’t yet today, embrace your inner grouch! Love your inner grouch! Be your inner grouch! …and laugh and laugh and laugh.

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Ways to support this work:

  1. Hire me as your Spiritual Coach, you may sign up for a personalized Journey with me Click here for more information. Or I offer 1-on-1 spiritual coaching sessions. This is non-religion specific, and open to everyone, even atheists, though of course we would call something like “self-analysis coach” for a self-identified atheist.
  2. Indulge in one of my healing services: Jharra, Reiki, Fire Ceremony (see withpearls.com for more information).
  3. Send me a monetary gift via paypal: paypal.me/SusanBillmaier (please note “gift” in the transaction).
  4. Tell a friend about this site, the coaching or healing services.
  5. Invite me to interview on a podcast or for an article.

All proceeds go toward increasing love, light, and a consciousness of Oneness in the world. Thank you for your contribution that benefits All.

These Journeys are always available on this site at no charge. I also provide Jharra, Reiki, and Fire Ceremonies at no-charge to those who ask.

“Do This in Remembrance of Me” -Fulfillment (1.6.25)

Copyright Tam Black 2018
Designed for susanwithpearls.com

Guiding Thought

In Divine Mind, we are filled full! All are equally filled full. All are equal in Love. We fill our minds with thoughts of fulfillment and remember what we already know. We are determined to fulfill our purpose, to know our Self as Divine Love, and to share the fullness we are.

This day, first Journey of Fulfillment, 2014
This day, second Journey of Fulfillment, 2016
One year ago–
 What a Difference 10 Days Make: Journey of Peace 2017– Day 22

 

Sharing

I don’t know about you, but I am determined to fulfill my purpose. I am determined to know my Self–to remember my Self– as Divine Love, and to do whatever is necessary to know my fulfillment.

I’m passed the stage of looking for the path, for looking for the right tools to get me where I want to go. I am on the path, and I have the tools that will get me there. Or, if I don’t have the tools now, I am confident that other tools will come at an appropriate time.

I’m also passed a lot of the questioning, passed a lot of the doubt, a lot of the fear.

I used to worry often that I “wasn’t doing enough”. I don’t do that anymore. I have certain things that I just do–daily, weekly–and as long as I do those things, I stay ahead of my worry, and I stay “primed”, so to say, in my relationship with my Divine Self, and with God.

I used to have recurring doubt and skepticism. I don’t have those anymore. I have a lot of faith and confidence that I am where I am supposed to be, and that all is as it should be. Even recently, I have been feeling “stuck”, feeling like I should be doing something different, and I always return to a balance point of, “no, this is where I am supposed to be; everything will change when and as it’s supposed to”. This has sometimes been very hard– as in not giving in to a bad habit hard. Doing something, anything has been a habit of distraction, taking me away from listening within, being in the silence, allowing the silence to lead. Although I have been able to prevent myself from doing something for the sake of doing something, I have still felt the impulse, and needed to talk myself down.

I used to compare what I wanted, and where I wanted to be–where I thought I should be–with where I am. They never matched up. I was never as far along as I thought I should be; I was not seeing the results that I thought I “should” be seeing. I don’t do that anymore. Who am I to try to know the mind of God, or God’s plan for my activity in the world? This is a result of doing a lot of work with surrender and letting go.

I would not be as “relaxed” about all of this if it weren’t for staying highly attuned with my Divine Self and having confidence in my relationship with God.

You see, to achieve a spiritual goal, I have needed to let go of all of training about how to achieve something. One cannot attain a spiritual goal using the tools one has learned to achieve material goals. I can’t set a goal, make a list of tasks, plan out a reverse-calendar, then start doing those tasks, checking off the boxes, with each check mark saying, “ok, you’re one step closer”.

With a spiritual goal, it’s not what the tasks are that matter, it’s what I bring to each one. How aware am I? How much love do I consciously bring to every task? How often do I remember to thank God for the Grace of Life? How clear and pure do I keep my mind, my thoughts? How much devotion do I feel as I do every little thing?

With a spiritual goal, every action is a “task” toward that goal, but the check marks only come when I can say, “yes, I did this thinking of God” or “yes, I did that feeling love in my heart”, or “I remembered unity and harmony as I did that”.

This is relatively new for me. All my actions now–to the best of my ability– are devotions to God. Every action is a step on the spiritual path, a step closer to the goal of knowing/remembering my Self, when I do it with awareness and remembrance of the Divine.

 

 

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Ways to support this work:

  1. Hire me as your Spiritual Coach, you may sign up for a personalized Journey with me Click here for more information. Or I offer 1-on-1 spiritual coaching sessions. This is non-religion specific, and open to everyone, even atheists, though of course we would call something like “self-analysis coach” for a self-identified atheist.
  2. Indulge in one of my healing services: Jharra, Reiki, Fire Ceremony (see withpearls.com for more information).
  3. Send me a monetary gift via paypal: paypal.me/SusanBillmaier (please note “gift” in the transaction).
  4. Tell a friend about this site, the coaching or healing services.
  5. Invite me to interview on a podcast or for an article.

All proceeds go toward increasing love, light, and a consciousness of Oneness in the world. Thank you for your contribution that benefits All.

These Journeys are always available on this site at no charge. I also provide Jharra, Reiki, and Fire Ceremonies at no-charge to those who ask.

And So It Is -Fulfillment (1.6.22)

Copyright Tam Black 2018
Designed for susanwithpearls.com

Guiding Thought

We now invite, welcome, and receive the effects of Divine Love, and we are truly grateful.

We experience Divine Mind as we experience these effects, and allow Divine Presence to confirm itself in our lives, activities, and affairs.

Sharing

There is more than a little faith necessary when affirming such statements as the Guiding Thought today.

How do I recognize the effects of Divine Love?
How does Divine Love operating in my life feel
How do I know?

Funny…in previous years, I would have (perhaps) felt this as doubt or skepticism. Look how far I’ve come! Now, it’s faith.

I’ve been doing a meditation for a couple of years that uses phrases such as, “and so it is” or “I now accept and know”.

For a long time I had a similar (skeptical-doubtful) comportment to those phrases as to the Guiding Thought: How can I say that something is “so” if I don’t see it? How can I say “I accept and know” something that I don’t know that I accept and know?

For a long time, doing these meditations, saying these phrases, I questioned, I doubted. Much like I used to do here.

But I realized

  • it’s not worth the effort. All that doubt, all that questioning, all that wondering. If I am going to spend that kind of effort, why not spend it confirming the positives in the meditation (or Guiding Thought) rather than feeding the uncertainties?
  • the point is: there is a part of me that does know. That does feel the Divine Presence. That is aware of experiencing the effectsIn affirming, “it is so” or “we receive the effects of Divine Love”, I am affirming the Truth. The more I can affirm the Truth–with faith, if not with certainty, the more I will recognize it when it comes along.

I don’t have to have evidence to quell the doubting Thomas, or to silence the skeptic. Now, I just know that a part of me knows exactly what the words mean. I know that the words are True, that Divine Love is always working in my life.

I still don’t always recognize it. But having faith in the Truth, and in my eventual full consciousness is enough. And I can say with confidence, “it is so”.

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Ways to support this work:

  1. Hire me as your Spiritual Coach, you may sign up for a personalized Journey with me Click here for more information. Or I offer 1-on-1 spiritual coaching sessions. This is non-religion specific, and open to everyone, even atheists, though of course we would call something like “self-analysis coach” for a self-identified atheist.
  2. Indulge in one of my healing services: Jharra, Reiki, Fire Ceremony (see withpearls.com for more information).
  3. Send me a monetary gift via paypal: paypal.me/SusanBillmaier (please note “gift” in the transaction).
  4. Tell a friend about this site, the coaching or healing services.
  5. Invite me to interview on a podcast or for an article.

All proceeds go toward increasing love, light, and a consciousness of Oneness in the world. Thank you for your contribution that benefits All.

These Journeys are always available on this site at no charge. I also provide Jharra, Reiki, and Fire Ceremonies at no-charge to those who ask.

Why can’t we just get there already? -Fulfillment (1.6.21)

Copyright Tam Black 2018
Designed for susanwithpearls.com

Welcome to Round 3!

We’re halfway done! How are you doing? Seriously…how is your life going? How’s your Journey going? I feel like this week I have felt the weight of the world…so much going on politically and environmentally; have you felt it? There’s a lot of “fear” in the air. I don’t know…I’ve never been “sensitive” to that sort of thing, like feeling those etheric emotions that hover about, but I have no other explanation for this heaviness I’ve been feeling this week. It’s like there is a part of me that is my usual happy self, and this other part of me that wants to run and hide. The “usual” part can identify that the other part is “not me”, but at the same time the person who’s feeling the fear identifies as “me”… Someone said to me today that I should not “let it get me down”. I get that, and I don’t let it get me down. But at the same time, I feel like the awareness of this “fear in the air” brings me responsibility. I am not blissfully ignorant: if I am aware of these less-than-loving emotions, it’s my responsibility to bring light and love to them. So…I’ve been especially vigilant about “my” own emotions, and I’ve been playing mantra on very low volume all day. The more light and love I bring to it, the faster we will move through it. Join in. Add your light and your love, let’s get through this.

See this page for information about how this round changes.

Guiding Thought

Everywhere fulfillment is, we are. Fulfillment is everywhere. Fulfillment is. We are.

Sharing

(Q) Why can’t we just get there already? If Fulfillment is everywhere, why aren’t we there? If we are All One, and Love is Oneness why are we not All living in Love right here, right now? I don’t get it.

(A) People use and have used their free will to deny the Love they Are. In doing so, they have forgotten who they are. In forgetting, they have made a substitute and believed in the substitute (sometimes called “ego” or “lower self” or “lower mind”).

To rectify this, people must choose to use their free will to stop denying the Love they Are, or in other words, to accept the Love they are.

People are at various degrees–or percentages–about how much they are willing to do this. Some people have more ego than others; some egos have a stronger hold.

We are all moving in the same direction, to 100% Love. But we all must participate at 100% in order for us all to be there.

If one person participates at 75% s/he has 25% to go, and probably has very strong momentum toward that 100%. This person is probably unaffected by most “worldly cares”, and has good habits and practices that maintain the momentum.

If another person participates at 25%, s/he probably has more trouble staying the course than the person at 75%, often waylaid by upsets and distractions.

Since we are All One, even if one person reaches 100%, there is still work to do! Until everyone reaches that 100%.

Everyone is both an individual expression of Divine Consciousness and the Unity of Divine Consciousness. In order for the Unity of Divine Consciousness to be expressed in every living being, every living being’s individual expression must choose Divine Consciousness as its own.

 

Invite Everyone to Be the Light You Are -Fulfillment (1.6.20)

Copyright Tam Black 2018
Designed for susanwithpearls.com

Guiding Thought

You are light. Your Body is light. You are free. You know your fulfillment; you feel it rise within you and expand out from you.

Sharing

Today is an exercise in evolution. It’s an exercise in growing beyond your current body / physical limits.

You are not your body. You are light. Your body is not your body. Your body is light.

Light is boundless, infinite, everywhere. Can you imagine yourself boundless, infinite, everywhere?

Just one moment, one second. Feel it. Feel your potential; feel your possibility. Feel your reality.

What does it feel like? A surge? A tingle? A flow? Weightlessness? Warmth? Glowing? All-encompassing peace?

All of the above?

You can feel it now, can’t you? Even if it’s just the tiniest twinge…you feel it and you are aware of feeling it.

You know your fulfillment. This is it. This is yours. This is ours. This is where we are headed together.

100% surrounded by, permeated with, enfolded by, emitting light. All the time. Everywhere we go, every thought we think, every action we take.

For a second, a moment, maybe longer, we were there together. Let’s do this more often! Think yourself Light as often as you can; do it in the presence of others, inviting them in (with your heart, if not with words).

Invite your friends, family, loved ones, the entire family of humanity!

Until every moment. every second we are all in that Light as One.