Umbrella Motivation -Fulfillment (1.6.28)

Copyright Tam Black 2018
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Guiding Thought

Motivation is a choice. Intention is a choice. Direction of will is a choice. In Peace, we listen for guidance so that all our actions are motivated by Joy, all our intentions are Love, and the direction of our will is simply to share Joy and Love.

This day, first Journey of Fulfillment, 2014
This day, second Journey of Fulfillment, 2016
One year ago–
Choosing is Easy, When You’re not Stuck in a Pattern: Journey of Peace 2017

Sharing

What motivates you to follow a spiritual path–to meditate, to do yoga, to pray, to read inspired writings? Why do you do it?

This is my new favorite question. I want to hear how people answer this. It’s so interesting, and everyone is different.

Here are two responses I have received recently:

  1. “I have had experiences of and with the divine. It’s mostly been with people around the time of death, a confirmation that there is something bigger than me, bigger than us, and bigger than this life that we live. These experiences from the past confirm the Divine to me, and motivate me to seek more experiences with the Divine.”
  2. “I can’t imagine any other way of being. I sort of fought it for years, not embracing that ‘spiritual’ side of myself. But now, I’ve given in to it. I seek the Divine to live with the Divine, because anything else no longer makes sense to me”.

How would you respond?

In a way, this question is an umbrella question for all these Journeys, much like the Why at the beginning of each Journey, but encompassing an overarching Why, looking at the big picture, rather than individualized answers to specific Journeys. Such motivation encompasses everything, bringing perspective to all of your actions, all of your seeking, not just the why for one Journey.

There’s no wrong answer; there is only awareness. My answer has changed over the years. My idea of what “enlightenment” is has changed over the years. My motivation has changed…At no point did I ever feel that what motivated me, or what directed my actions was wrong. In fact, at every point, I felt pretty confident in my reasons for being motivated in the way I was.

This, to me, is how I have moved along the path, and how I have evolved. I have to embrace where I’m at in order to move past that point.

Yeah, sure I can work at being motivated through Peace, and listen for guidance so that all my actions are motivated by Joy, all my intentions are Love, and the direction of my will is simply to share Joy and Love. 

But if that does not work for me today, that’s ok. I can tap into my overarching reason of motivation, and evolve myself from where I am. It just takes me to be willing to do it.

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Ways to support this work:

  1. Hire me as your Spiritual Coach, you may sign up for a personalized Journey with me Click here for more information. Or I offer 1-on-1 spiritual coaching sessions. This is non-religion specific, and open to everyone, even atheists, though of course we would call something like “self-analysis coach” for a self-identified atheist.
  2. Indulge in one of my healing services: Jharra, Reiki, Fire Ceremony (see withpearls.com for more information).
  3. Send me a monetary gift via paypal: paypal.me/SusanBillmaier (please note “gift” in the transaction).
  4. Tell a friend about this site, the coaching or healing services.
  5. Invite me to interview on a podcast or for an article.

All proceeds go toward increasing love, light, and a consciousness of Oneness in the world. Thank you for your contribution that benefits All.

These Journeys are always available on this site at no charge. I also provide Jharra, Reiki, and Fire Ceremonies at no-charge to those who ask.

“Do This in Remembrance of Me” -Fulfillment (1.6.25)

Copyright Tam Black 2018
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Guiding Thought

In Divine Mind, we are filled full! All are equally filled full. All are equal in Love. We fill our minds with thoughts of fulfillment and remember what we already know. We are determined to fulfill our purpose, to know our Self as Divine Love, and to share the fullness we are.

This day, first Journey of Fulfillment, 2014
This day, second Journey of Fulfillment, 2016
One year ago–
 What a Difference 10 Days Make: Journey of Peace 2017– Day 22

 

Sharing

I don’t know about you, but I am determined to fulfill my purpose. I am determined to know my Self–to remember my Self– as Divine Love, and to do whatever is necessary to know my fulfillment.

I’m passed the stage of looking for the path, for looking for the right tools to get me where I want to go. I am on the path, and I have the tools that will get me there. Or, if I don’t have the tools now, I am confident that other tools will come at an appropriate time.

I’m also passed a lot of the questioning, passed a lot of the doubt, a lot of the fear.

I used to worry often that I “wasn’t doing enough”. I don’t do that anymore. I have certain things that I just do–daily, weekly–and as long as I do those things, I stay ahead of my worry, and I stay “primed”, so to say, in my relationship with my Divine Self, and with God.

I used to have recurring doubt and skepticism. I don’t have those anymore. I have a lot of faith and confidence that I am where I am supposed to be, and that all is as it should be. Even recently, I have been feeling “stuck”, feeling like I should be doing something different, and I always return to a balance point of, “no, this is where I am supposed to be; everything will change when and as it’s supposed to”. This has sometimes been very hard– as in not giving in to a bad habit hard. Doing something, anything has been a habit of distraction, taking me away from listening within, being in the silence, allowing the silence to lead. Although I have been able to prevent myself from doing something for the sake of doing something, I have still felt the impulse, and needed to talk myself down.

I used to compare what I wanted, and where I wanted to be–where I thought I should be–with where I am. They never matched up. I was never as far along as I thought I should be; I was not seeing the results that I thought I “should” be seeing. I don’t do that anymore. Who am I to try to know the mind of God, or God’s plan for my activity in the world? This is a result of doing a lot of work with surrender and letting go.

I would not be as “relaxed” about all of this if it weren’t for staying highly attuned with my Divine Self and having confidence in my relationship with God.

You see, to achieve a spiritual goal, I have needed to let go of all of training about how to achieve something. One cannot attain a spiritual goal using the tools one has learned to achieve material goals. I can’t set a goal, make a list of tasks, plan out a reverse-calendar, then start doing those tasks, checking off the boxes, with each check mark saying, “ok, you’re one step closer”.

With a spiritual goal, it’s not what the tasks are that matter, it’s what I bring to each one. How aware am I? How much love do I consciously bring to every task? How often do I remember to thank God for the Grace of Life? How clear and pure do I keep my mind, my thoughts? How much devotion do I feel as I do every little thing?

With a spiritual goal, every action is a “task” toward that goal, but the check marks only come when I can say, “yes, I did this thinking of God” or “yes, I did that feeling love in my heart”, or “I remembered unity and harmony as I did that”.

This is relatively new for me. All my actions now–to the best of my ability– are devotions to God. Every action is a step on the spiritual path, a step closer to the goal of knowing/remembering my Self, when I do it with awareness and remembrance of the Divine.

 

 

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Ways to support this work:

  1. Hire me as your Spiritual Coach, you may sign up for a personalized Journey with me Click here for more information. Or I offer 1-on-1 spiritual coaching sessions. This is non-religion specific, and open to everyone, even atheists, though of course we would call something like “self-analysis coach” for a self-identified atheist.
  2. Indulge in one of my healing services: Jharra, Reiki, Fire Ceremony (see withpearls.com for more information).
  3. Send me a monetary gift via paypal: paypal.me/SusanBillmaier (please note “gift” in the transaction).
  4. Tell a friend about this site, the coaching or healing services.
  5. Invite me to interview on a podcast or for an article.

All proceeds go toward increasing love, light, and a consciousness of Oneness in the world. Thank you for your contribution that benefits All.

These Journeys are always available on this site at no charge. I also provide Jharra, Reiki, and Fire Ceremonies at no-charge to those who ask.

Success -Fulfillment (1.6.11)

Welcome to round 2! Thank you for being here. I wish for you waterfalls of Divine Flow, beautiful insights, and Joy on the Journey! With this round, the pronouns change from “I” to “you” (see this page for detailed explanation).

Guiding Thought

Everywhere fulfillment is, you are.  Fulfillment is everywhere. Fulfillment is. You are.

Sharing

“Journey” in the context of these Journeys means the Journey of ascension. Did you know that already? Had you figured it out? I seem to have stopped reminding people of that; when I started these Journeys, I used to talk about it a lot. I mean, I say it sort of offhandedly sometimes now, and I did say it pretty outright during the Why of this Journey…but it’s not like I write about it regularly.

So, yeah. I am on the path to ascension. These Journeys guide me daily. I don’t know how long it’s going to take for me to ascend, but I’ve mapped out a 50-year plan with these Journeys.

It is my personal belief that we are all ascending…whether we know it or not, whether we like it or not. What this means to me is that there is a way to grow/evolve our spiritual self, so that we become In-Light-ened, where we transcend the materiality of the world, and literally become light. Jesus did it. The Theotokos did it (according to the Eastern Orthodox tradition). Elijah did it. Enoch did it. Elisha did it. And that’s just from the Hebrew and Christian faith. There are also lots of examples from Buddhism (specifically Dzogchen), Taoism, and Hinduism.

If they can do it, I can do it. So can you.

You know all those motivational phrases you see that people most generally apply to making their lives better or growing their business?

  • Your positive action combined with positive thinking results in success.
  • Success is the result of perfection, hard work, learning from failure, loyalty, and persistence. Colin Powell
  • Success is no accident. It is hard work, perseverance, learning, studying, sacrifice and most of all, love of what you are doing or learning to do. Pele
  • Some people dream of success, while other people get up every morning and make it happen. Wayne Huizenga
  • Success comes from what you do consistently, not from what you do occasionally.

You’ve heard these before, right? And many, many, many more.

Every time I see one of these, I apply it to my spiritual success. Seek ye first the Kingdom of Heaven and all that. I put my energy, time, and effort into my spiritual evolution.

I may not make it. I get that. But I also believe that no effort is wasted, and that seeking is rewarded.

But more than that, this is how I want to live my life. I want to be the kind of person who strives to live a higher life, and in so doing to bring higher ideals into the world.

How do you feel about your spiritual evolution? Do you feel fulfilled? Do you know yourself as fulfilled? Do you want to?

Let your ideals lead you. Let your highest values guide your life. Always strive higher and higher. Become better. You are amazing just as you are right now, but don’t settle, don’t get complacent, don’t ever think you’re done. We have a long way to go, together…but more than that…we have a lot of people who are just beginning to think about this stuff, and they need us solidly on the path, clearing the way.

 

Choose -Fulfillment (1.6.8)

Copyright Tam Black 2018
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Guiding Thought

My motivation is my choice. My intention is my choice. My will is my choice. In Peace, I listen within for guidance so that my actions are motivated by joy, my intentions are love, and my will is simply to share Joy and Love.

Sharing

Before you go any farther here, consider whether or not you believe in free will. Do you think or believe that human beings can choose how their lives unfold? Or, do you think that there is some ultimate, predetermined plan and humans live a life that is pre-scripted? Get clear for yourself before reading on, so that you may agree or disagree with what I have to say from an informed personal viewpoint.

I believe in free will. I think that we have the ability to direct our thoughts and actions, and, depending on how/where we direct those, we will experience different things, and/or experience things differently. Image result for water forming canyons

And, I also believe in karma, which I will define here as: the effects of those mental and physical actions we have chosen, which leave impressions (like the impression of a fingerprint, or the impression of a gently running water as it moves through rock–even water can carve canyons), which we then re-experience, unless or until we change the thought that created the impression/effect.

Karma is not the same as determinism, but it can be experienced as though it is determinism, when an impression is repeated enough times that it becomes a deeply seated habit, or pattern, like water forming a canyon.

I believe there are thoughts and mental patterns that bring us deeper/higher into Divine Consciousness, and there are thoughts and mental patterns that only enhance our lower self-of-misery, pain, and suffering. I believe every moment we have a choice between these two.

I believe that an excellent use of free will is to direct thoughts and mental patterns to Divine Consciousness. Actually, I’m going to go even further and say, that some days I believe the only proper use of free will is to direct ourselves to Divine Consciousness. But some days that also feels a bit extreme, especially when I am having a particularly hard time keeping my thoughts “up”.

With free will, and the full power of choice, now read the Guiding Thought again.

My motivation is my choice. My intention is my choice. My will is my choice. In Peace, I listen within for guidance so that my actions are motivated by joy, my intentions are love, and my will is simply to share Joy and Love.

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ALoveMent -Abundance (1.5.33)

Copyright Tam Black 2018
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Guiding Thought

I fill my mind and heart with Love, aligning with the Light of Truth. Steadfast and focused on my own Loving Presence, I live in the peace of fulfillment of my own Divine Identity.

Sharing

My Divine Identity is Love. My only real identity is Love.

This is why, when I fill my mind and heart with Love, I am aligning with the Light of Truth: Because Love is the only thing that is real; anything unreal is not Truth, so bringing Love into the mind and heart brings mental and emotional intention to aligning with the Truth through Love.

Here’s one way to think of this (this example presumes that you are not already 100% aligned with Love, and there are imperfections in your life or relationships). Imagine your work life, or your family life, or your relationship with money or your health. Pick just one of these areas.

Now bring to mind all your criticisms of this situation. What rubs you the wrong way? What is confusing? What bothers you? What would you like to change?

Think about this in as detailed a way as possible.

These criticisms represent where you are not aligned with Love in this situation.

Now fill your mind and heart with Love, and imagine the same situation, allowing the Love in your mind and heart to “spill out” into the situation, giving it a nice, soft glow.

You have just aligned your mind and heart in that situation with Love, which allows in the Light of Truth, so that you may see this situation in this new light.

Whether or not you see change in the situation depends on how misaligned from Love you are, and how much/often you align with Love.

Once you get proficient at bringing Love into a situation, you can begin to do it immediately, as the situation is happening–that is when you begin to see results very quickly, as the situation unfolds.

As you practice that–bringing in Love immediately–you begin to understand that Love as your Divine Identity. It is who you are. It is the reality of youand it becomes the only identity you want to cultivate and express.

 

 

Any suggestions? -Abundance (1.5.16)

Copyright Tam Black 2018
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Guiding Thought

Increasing your thoughts of Love and your attitude of service dispels all fear of lack and limitation. As you serve more people with Love, money and wealth flow abundantly to you. Use money and wealth with Love and Wisdom to create a life you love through your highest vision.

Sharing

So far on this Journey, I’ve been really geared toward Love and Grace as the only real abundance that matters (see days 8 and 9).

And I believe this, really I do.

Here’s where it gets difficult for me, personally: Money pays my living expenses. Without money, I encounter a lot of discomfort in my living situation–my eating situation, in my bill-paying situation, in my shelter/clothing/transportation situation.

So, until I evolve to a point where I can materialize anything I need in a moment, I need money.

Herein lies some inner-tension for me: I am not sure how to charge money for spiritual services. These Journeys are spiritual services; they are a tool to increase spiritual awareness, to increase personal connection with the Inner Divine, and to deepen one’s relationship with your higher self. These Journeys are all laid out for you, so you can take them yourself, or just follow along (not as effective though!). I’ve made a commitment to keep the Journeys on this site free and available.

The focus of the Guiding Thought is all True, all right on, Love and an attitude of service open one to abundance; serving more people opens the flow of abundance; using money with Love and Wisdom to create a life of Love only increases abundance. There’s nothing not right about any of that.

still have a disconnect, though. To be fair, I’ve been working on this disconnect for a long…long time. In some ways all I want to do is live a non-material life–a life of Spirit. I feel like that is my true-self, my reality. Being a physical human being in some ways makes no sense to me, I don’t understand it, I care about it only to the extent that I can be spiritual in my physical form.

These Journeys have helped me a lot with that too, by the way. I have a way of really bringing the spiritual into the material on a daily basis, consistently. I can relax and just do the Journeys, and know that I am bringing the spiritual into the material…and that’s all I need to do.

I’m hoping to work out this “problem” for myself. I am hoping soon to bridge the gap between my love of service and the material usefulness of money.

Any suggestions? Does anyone else feel this tension I’m describing?

Walking Through Tar, Enjoying Food. -Healing (1.4.37)

Copyright Tam Black 2018
Designed for susanwithpearls.com
Guiding Thought

Love is Wholeness. The essence of Love is Peace. The essence of Wholeness is Unity. My essence is Love, therefore, my essence is Peace; my essence is Unity. Since my essence is Unity, I share Love and Peace wholly. Knowing the Unity of Whole Love and Peace with All is the essence of holiness. I choose to be aware, to understand and to Know my Whole and Holy Self, which is Love.

Reflection

I am very thankful for wise friends.

As you probably are aware, we humans are not “just a body”. We are a mind, emotions, and a Soul, or Spirit. Each of these aspects of us receive and transmit energy, and we have an “energy field” for each of these aspects, often called an aura. Some people can sense the aura’s energy, some people can see it, some people can discern the very subtle variations between the mental aura, the emotional aura, the physical aura, and the spiritual, or etheric, aura.

Whether or not you are able to sense the energy, you are still receiving and transmitting it, and the energy is affecting you.

I am not currently able to sense energy fields to a large degree. To a small degree, yes–but I think of it more as empathy or simply paying attention to a person’s physical cues–so it may not be aura stuff. This is why I am thankful for wise friends, friends who have these perceptions, and can talk to me, support me, about energy stuff that is affecting me, but at such a subtle level I can’t explain it or wrap my head around it.

Through this Journey, I’ve been feeling mired down–not physically (my body feels good and energetic), not even emotionally (my emotions have been “normal” or “even”). The mire has been more mental and etheric (at least that is what I now understand after emailing with a wise-friend). He confirmed what I wrote about yesterday: that I am growing into something new, the old is out-of-place, and there are some expansion pains.

In this transition, I have not wanted to think (very unlike me); I have not wanted to do anything that requires mental effort. I have also not wanted to do many of my usual spiritual practices–they feel wrong. The only real spiritual practices that I have been doing are 1. this Journey (which has been difficult for me to delve into mentally/emotionally) 2. Baths (“Hara Ganga”!) 3. Fire. 4. physical work while trying to keep my mind on God 5. fasting one day per week. That’s it.

It seems like the physical practices are ones that I can do, but the mental/emotional practices feel like the spiritual equivalent of rubbing my palm with sandpaper–they just do not feel good.

My friend described feeling the energy like “walking through tar”. Everything is heavy, and slow. That’s how I feel. When a new self/new energy is emerging, it’s important to be patient, loving, and generous with yourself. That is pretty much what my goal was for this Journey. But at the beginning, I had no idea what I was getting myself in to!

He reminded me to “allow the disintegration” (of the lower/ego/selfish-self), and he recommended that, if I feel I need to, it’s okay to just stop doing my spiritual practices. He explained that sometimes, pushing oneself, only irritates the process and enrages (like adding fuel to a fire) those parts that are having “growing pains”.

This feels right to me, though I do not feel like I need to stop all my practices. I feel like I need to do the ones that feel ok–the physical practices. There have been many days over the past 6 weeks when I have been so comforted and relaxed doing the most mundane things, like laundry, mowing the yard, or dishes.

I have also really been enjoying eating (a very physical thing, though not generally a spiritual practice!). I know that sounds a bit odd, but it wouldn’t if you knew me: I don’t generally enjoy food. I am more utilitarian when it comes to food: I eat for nourishment. But this summer, I have been really enjoying food. And I’ve not given myself a hard time about it–I’ve been letting myself take pleasure in food. I am not sure how this fits with the transition, but I am ok with enjoying this lesson.