“Do This in Remembrance of Me” -Fulfillment (1.6.25)

Copyright Tam Black 2018
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Guiding Thought

In Divine Mind, we are filled full! All are equally filled full. All are equal in Love. We fill our minds with thoughts of fulfillment and remember what we already know. We are determined to fulfill our purpose, to know our Self as Divine Love, and to share the fullness we are.

This day, first Journey of Fulfillment, 2014
This day, second Journey of Fulfillment, 2016
One year ago–
 What a Difference 10 Days Make: Journey of Peace 2017– Day 22



I don’t know about you, but I am determined to fulfill my purpose. I am determined to know my Self–to remember my Self– as Divine Love, and to do whatever is necessary to know my fulfillment.

I’m passed the stage of looking for the path, for looking for the right tools to get me where I want to go. I am on the path, and I have the tools that will get me there. Or, if I don’t have the tools now, I am confident that other tools will come at an appropriate time.

I’m also passed a lot of the questioning, passed a lot of the doubt, a lot of the fear.

I used to worry often that I “wasn’t doing enough”. I don’t do that anymore. I have certain things that I just do–daily, weekly–and as long as I do those things, I stay ahead of my worry, and I stay “primed”, so to say, in my relationship with my Divine Self, and with God.

I used to have recurring doubt and skepticism. I don’t have those anymore. I have a lot of faith and confidence that I am where I am supposed to be, and that all is as it should be. Even recently, I have been feeling “stuck”, feeling like I should be doing something different, and I always return to a balance point of, “no, this is where I am supposed to be; everything will change when and as it’s supposed to”. This has sometimes been very hard– as in not giving in to a bad habit hard. Doing something, anything has been a habit of distraction, taking me away from listening within, being in the silence, allowing the silence to lead. Although I have been able to prevent myself from doing something for the sake of doing something, I have still felt the impulse, and needed to talk myself down.

I used to compare what I wanted, and where I wanted to be–where I thought I should be–with where I am. They never matched up. I was never as far along as I thought I should be; I was not seeing the results that I thought I “should” be seeing. I don’t do that anymore. Who am I to try to know the mind of God, or God’s plan for my activity in the world? This is a result of doing a lot of work with surrender and letting go.

I would not be as “relaxed” about all of this if it weren’t for staying highly attuned with my Divine Self and having confidence in my relationship with God.

You see, to achieve a spiritual goal, I have needed to let go of all of training about how to achieve something. One cannot attain a spiritual goal using the tools one has learned to achieve material goals. I can’t set a goal, make a list of tasks, plan out a reverse-calendar, then start doing those tasks, checking off the boxes, with each check mark saying, “ok, you’re one step closer”.

With a spiritual goal, it’s not what the tasks are that matter, it’s what I bring to each one. How aware am I? How much love do I consciously bring to every task? How often do I remember to thank God for the Grace of Life? How clear and pure do I keep my mind, my thoughts? How much devotion do I feel as I do every little thing?

With a spiritual goal, every action is a “task” toward that goal, but the check marks only come when I can say, “yes, I did this thinking of God” or “yes, I did that feeling love in my heart”, or “I remembered unity and harmony as I did that”.

This is relatively new for me. All my actions now–to the best of my ability– are devotions to God. Every action is a step on the spiritual path, a step closer to the goal of knowing/remembering my Self, when I do it with awareness and remembrance of the Divine.




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With the right criteria, there’s no information overload-Fulfillment (1.6.18)

Copyright Tam Black 2018
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Guiding Thought

Your motivation is your choice. Your intention is your choice. Your will is your choice. In peace, listen within for guidance, so that your actions are motivated by joy, your intentions are loving, and your will is simply to share joy and love.


In 2011, Americans took in five times as much information every day as they did in 1986—the equivalent of 174 newspapers. During our leisure time, not counting work, each of us processes 34 gigabytes, or 100,000 words, every day. 

With that much data coming at people, how does anyone know what to pay attention to? What is valuable? How does one filter useful information from useless information?

Perhaps by now you’ve seen the invisible gorilla experiment? In which a video is played with 6 people passing around 2 basketballs. The viewer is to count how many times the white-shirted people pass the basketball. While counting passes, 50% of viewers do not notice the gorilla who enters the fray, stops, looks at the camera, and strolls off.

In sum, the authors say, “This experiment reveals two things: that we are missing a lot of what goes on around us, and that we have no idea that we are missing so much”.

People who participated in this experiment (you can try it too, at the link above), were told in advance what they were looking for: how many passes were made by the people in white shirts. The information they were looking for was pre-determined, and specific.

If you are looking for a new pair of shoes on the internet, won’t you do your best to filter out the ones you know you don’t want? You’ll filter by gender, style, color, material, season…Won’t you enter search terms as specifically as possible to get only what you are looking for? If you get a result that is totally not what you are looking for, are you going to spend any time at all making a decision to ignore it–no, of course not, you will simply ignore it.

Using this same shoe-shopping example, how do you get to a point that you are even looking for shoes on the internet? You need a new pair of shoes for an upcoming event, perhaps. The event motivates you to get a new pair of shoes. Or maybe you’re a runner and you have a marathon coming up that requires a new pair of shoes. Comfortable feet motivates you to shop for shoes. You don’t have to be motivated by these things; you could be motivated by anything–whim, spontaneity, love of shoes. The point is, the motivation is your choice.

Once you’re motivated, what happens? You make a decision–an intention to make a purchase. Following intention comes the will to make the purchase, which in this instance is about logistics: when do you find or make time to get online to do the search, and pay the money (maybe you have to wait for a paycheck to come through).

You have control over all of these things–motivation, intention, and will. You decide. You decide what, when, why, and how. Then you look for the information that satisfies your criteria, and you filter out the things that don’t satisfy your criteria. Simple. Easy. You know how to do this.

So, it’s the same process with this “spiritual stuff”. You can choose to be motivated toward peace, or joy, or love, and then make the intention to look for it, then filter out things that don’t meet the criteria of joy, love, or peace. The process is the same as deciding to buy a new pair of shoes, and to filter out your options.

The internet has trained us well to look for and find products. You are probably not as well-trained to motivate yourself, or take initiative to find peace, love, or joy. Therefore, you may have more trouble recognizing these things–your filters are not yet calibrated to immediately know what matches your criteria.

The more you do it, the easier it becomes, the more finely tuned you are to what is acceptable to you, or not–and soon you will simply be able to ignore the information you receive that does not support your peace, joy, and love immediately.

Success -Fulfillment (1.6.11)

Welcome to round 2! Thank you for being here. I wish for you waterfalls of Divine Flow, beautiful insights, and Joy on the Journey! With this round, the pronouns change from “I” to “you” (see this page for detailed explanation).

Guiding Thought

Everywhere fulfillment is, you are.  Fulfillment is everywhere. Fulfillment is. You are.


“Journey” in the context of these Journeys means the Journey of ascension. Did you know that already? Had you figured it out? I seem to have stopped reminding people of that; when I started these Journeys, I used to talk about it a lot. I mean, I say it sort of offhandedly sometimes now, and I did say it pretty outright during the Why of this Journey…but it’s not like I write about it regularly.

So, yeah. I am on the path to ascension. These Journeys guide me daily. I don’t know how long it’s going to take for me to ascend, but I’ve mapped out a 50-year plan with these Journeys.

It is my personal belief that we are all ascending…whether we know it or not, whether we like it or not. What this means to me is that there is a way to grow/evolve our spiritual self, so that we become In-Light-ened, where we transcend the materiality of the world, and literally become light. Jesus did it. The Theotokos did it (according to the Eastern Orthodox tradition). Elijah did it. Enoch did it. Elisha did it. And that’s just from the Hebrew and Christian faith. There are also lots of examples from Buddhism (specifically Dzogchen), Taoism, and Hinduism.

If they can do it, I can do it. So can you.

You know all those motivational phrases you see that people most generally apply to making their lives better or growing their business?

  • Your positive action combined with positive thinking results in success.
  • Success is the result of perfection, hard work, learning from failure, loyalty, and persistence. Colin Powell
  • Success is no accident. It is hard work, perseverance, learning, studying, sacrifice and most of all, love of what you are doing or learning to do. Pele
  • Some people dream of success, while other people get up every morning and make it happen. Wayne Huizenga
  • Success comes from what you do consistently, not from what you do occasionally.

You’ve heard these before, right? And many, many, many more.

Every time I see one of these, I apply it to my spiritual success. Seek ye first the Kingdom of Heaven and all that. I put my energy, time, and effort into my spiritual evolution.

I may not make it. I get that. But I also believe that no effort is wasted, and that seeking is rewarded.

But more than that, this is how I want to live my life. I want to be the kind of person who strives to live a higher life, and in so doing to bring higher ideals into the world.

How do you feel about your spiritual evolution? Do you feel fulfilled? Do you know yourself as fulfilled? Do you want to?

Let your ideals lead you. Let your highest values guide your life. Always strive higher and higher. Become better. You are amazing just as you are right now, but don’t settle, don’t get complacent, don’t ever think you’re done. We have a long way to go, together…but more than that…we have a lot of people who are just beginning to think about this stuff, and they need us solidly on the path, clearing the way.


Choose -Fulfillment (1.6.8)

Copyright Tam Black 2018
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Guiding Thought

My motivation is my choice. My intention is my choice. My will is my choice. In Peace, I listen within for guidance so that my actions are motivated by joy, my intentions are love, and my will is simply to share Joy and Love.


Before you go any farther here, consider whether or not you believe in free will. Do you think or believe that human beings can choose how their lives unfold? Or, do you think that there is some ultimate, predetermined plan and humans live a life that is pre-scripted? Get clear for yourself before reading on, so that you may agree or disagree with what I have to say from an informed personal viewpoint.

I believe in free will. I think that we have the ability to direct our thoughts and actions, and, depending on how/where we direct those, we will experience different things, and/or experience things differently. Image result for water forming canyons

And, I also believe in karma, which I will define here as: the effects of those mental and physical actions we have chosen, which leave impressions (like the impression of a fingerprint, or the impression of a gently running water as it moves through rock–even water can carve canyons), which we then re-experience, unless or until we change the thought that created the impression/effect.

Karma is not the same as determinism, but it can be experienced as though it is determinism, when an impression is repeated enough times that it becomes a deeply seated habit, or pattern, like water forming a canyon.

I believe there are thoughts and mental patterns that bring us deeper/higher into Divine Consciousness, and there are thoughts and mental patterns that only enhance our lower self-of-misery, pain, and suffering. I believe every moment we have a choice between these two.

I believe that an excellent use of free will is to direct thoughts and mental patterns to Divine Consciousness. Actually, I’m going to go even further and say, that some days I believe the only proper use of free will is to direct ourselves to Divine Consciousness. But some days that also feels a bit extreme, especially when I am having a particularly hard time keeping my thoughts “up”.

With free will, and the full power of choice, now read the Guiding Thought again.

My motivation is my choice. My intention is my choice. My will is my choice. In Peace, I listen within for guidance so that my actions are motivated by joy, my intentions are love, and my will is simply to share Joy and Love.


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Fig Tree and Mountain -Abundance (1.5.37)

Copyright Tam Black 2018
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Guiding Thought

My consciousness is the gateway through which Divine Love flows, materializing my infinite Supply. I am now conscious of my own Inner Divine Presence—Infinite Love—expressing through me, providing me with the means to be aware, to understand, and to know It as my Self– more and more!


For assuredly, I say to you, whoever says to this mountain, ‘Be removed and be cast into the sea,’ and does not doubt in his heart, but believes that those things he says will be done, he will have whatever he says. Therefore, I say to you, whatever things you ask when you pray, believe that you receive them, and you will have them. (Christian Bible, Mark 11:23, 24)

I was thinking about the fig tree earlier today, (the verse immediately preceding the above, in which Jesus withers the fig tree on command…), and how it relates with abundance.

I am sure I am not the only one to ask, “how does this stuff (Jesus’ miracles) work“? Faith the size of a mustard seed…speaking…believing in one’s heart….believing you have received what you ask for…people puzzle over these, and how they work together (I don’t know of a better phrase), to accomplish such things as Jesus did. What does it take? How did He do it?

As an aside…has anyone ever wondered why Jesus withered the fig tree, instead of asking it to produce figs for him? I mean, if he can feed the thousands on a few loaves and fishes, he can make a fig tree produce figs, right?

One thing I realized, when thinking about the fig tree and the mountain, is that Jesus spoke directly to the fig tree and the mountain. Just like when He raised Lazarus from the dead–he spoke to Lazarus. He did not speak to God; he did not ask God to wither the fig tree; he did not say to his disciples, “ask God to move the mountain for you”; he did not ask God to raise Lazarus. This is a clue that I have never before considered. His directive is to speak, as though commanding, to the person, tree, mountain, or situation.

[Which, BTW, makes me wonder about the loaves and fishes…did he actually command them to multiply, and we just don’t get that side of the story? or was his prayer, and asking for God’s blessing of the loaves and fishes, the vehicle for that miracle?]

Having “no doubt” in the heart comes first–having faith, then the words. I think what actually happens, internally, is that when there is faith, everything else just flows naturally. Faith is the power: it’s the power behind the speaking, it’s the power behind the command; it’s the power to not even have to consider what to say or how to say it. Faith is the knowing confidence that directs words through you, so you don’t even have to think. When you have faith, you don’t need to formulate a command, it just flows out of you, because what you know in your heart (and here’s the kicker) is aligned with the Will of God, and when it flows out of you, it produces the results that you’ve spoken because those results are Divine Will.

And this is how it fits with Journey of Abundance: Aligning the consciousness with Divine Love brings a person closer to the Truth–Divine Will. When that person is aligned with Divine Love and Divine Will, those things materialize easily, naturally, and infinitely.

“I” am the vehicle through which Divine Love and Divine Will flow. This is how I “know” It as my Self–It comes through me, but is not me, but “I” must create the conditions for It to come through me.


How It’s Done -Abundance (1.5.29)

Copyright Tam Black 2018
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Guiding Thought

Divine abundance expresses infinitely through our own Divine Presence. When we identify with our Divine Presence, we open the floodgates and Divine Abundance flows naturally, easily, and effortlessly through us, materializing all good in our lives and affairs.


This is an article written by Patricia Cota-Robles. I can’t stop reading it, and it has everything to do with abundance. She explains  what abundance is, what is needed, and why. The Journeys and the Guiding Thoughts are steps in the process she outlines below; they are ways to saturate your consciousness–all your thoughts–with powerful abundance ideas to replace old, worn-out poverty ideas. I hope you enjoy this article as much as I do:

I first became aware of how critically important it is to be fully present in the moment when I began to remember my purpose and reason for being on Earth. There was a moment in time when I knew through every fiber of my Being, that I AM a Child of God. In that same instant of Enlightenment, I also knew that was the Truth for every other Human Being. With that realization came the Inner Knowing that as a Child of God, there is a reason for my existence in this physical plane of Earth. As I focused on that Truth I asked my Father-Mother God for guidance, and the answer became abundantly clear.

As Children of God we have all been gifted with the creative faculties of thought and feeling. We have also been given the gift of Free Will. The original Divine Intent of those gifts, as well as our presence in the time and space constraints of a physical reality, is for us to learn how to use our Free Will and our creative faculties of thought and feeling to co-create with our Father-Mother God. The purpose and reason for our being is for us to learn to explore all of the patterns of perfection in the all-encompassing Causal Body of God. Then we are to use our Free Will to experiment with various aspects and combinations of those perfection patterns and create new, previously unknown, expressions of Divinity. That knowledge and skill of co-creation will allow us to expand the Body of God and the borders of Divinity for all Eternity.

Even though we lost our way for a while and fell into the abyss of separation and ignorance, our purpose and reason for being remains the same. Practically and tangibly in our everyday lives we are creating our own realities with every single thought, word, action or feeling we express. Being in the Eternal Moment of NOW, means that we perpetually monitor what we are energizing with the power of our attention. There is an expression that states, “The price for freedom is Eternal Vigilance.”

Daily and hourly, moment by moment, we must ask ourselves “What am I empowering with my thoughts, words, actions and feelings now? …and how about now?…and how about now?”

If what we are putting our power and attention into is not what we want to be creating in our lives, we need to ask ourselves, “What do I want instead?” Then, we need to put our attention on the vision of what we want, instead of what we do not want.

Everything is energy, vibration and consciousness. Whatever we put our attention on and whatever it is that we focus our thoughts, words, actions and feelings on, we bring into form. With this knowledge it is obvious that in order for us to change the things we do not like about our lives, we must change the way we are thinking, speaking, feeling and acting about those very things. In order to do that, we must be present in the moment.

At any given moment our lives are reflecting the sum total of every experience we have ever had since we were first breathed forth from the Heart of our Father-Mother God. For a particular situation to exist in our lives, such as poverty, disease, dysfunctional relationships or an unfulfilling job, it simply means that the Critical Mass (51% or more) of our energy, vibration and consciousness is sustaining that particular distorted pattern. In order to change the situation, we have to change the Critical Mass from poverty to abundance, from disease to vibrant health, from dysfunctional to loving relationships, and from unfulfilling to creatively rewarding jobs.

The first step to shift the Critical Mass is that we must create the vision of what we want in the way of abundance, health, love and fulfillment. Then we must energize that vision daily and hourly with our thoughts, words, actions and feelings.

Next we must Invoke the Divine Law of God’s Forgiveness and Transmutation, the Violet Transmuting Flame. As that Sacred Fire flows through the Divinity in our Hearts we must project It into every thought, word, action or feeling we have ever expressed in any time frame or dimension that conflicts with our vision. This process dissipates the distorted patterns and reduces the percentage of negativity as it increases the percentage of the positive energy patterns in our vision. The instant the vision is being empowered with the Critical Mass (51% or more) of our energy, vibration and consciousness, it will become a physical, tangible reality.

For all we know, that could take place with our very next breath!

Absolute Consciousness, Infinite Fulfillment-Abundance (1.5.21)

Copyright Tam Black 2018
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Welcome to Round 3!

If you’re new to this process, this is where “I” and “you” become “WE”! (See this page, under the heading “Four Rounds”, for more information about how the Guiding Thoughts change this round).

Guiding Thought

Divine Love-Light is the Source of All. It is all good, all God. This Source is always seeking expression through us. Our awareness of our personal identity as this Source provides us with infinite fulfillment and prosperity.


How have you been doing? We are half way done! Whoo hoo! Congratulations. Have you been intent and intense? Barely scraping out each day?  A little bit of both? Doing the best you can, regardless? That’s all you need do; the doing is the practice, the doing is the being, the doing is the becoming.

Do you find that odd, that I just said, “the doing is the being”?  Are you wondering how I can equate doing and being? Isn’t doing what people are trying to get away from? –getting more toward a human being, rather than a human doing?

Being does not mean “doing nothing”. Being means doing with pure consciousness.

And there are two meanings there: 1) doing in conjunction with Pure Consciousness (the chit in Satchitananda), 2) doing while maintaining a state of Pure Consciousness. The first is awareness in cooperating with All that is. The second is embodying the Knowledge of yourself, while holding the Knowledge that All is One.

Sat Chit AnandaSat is that never changes, Truth, Absolute Being. Chit is consciousness. Ananda is bliss. Absolute Bliss Consciousness.

One point of remarkable interest to us, Absolute is a direct experience to us. Absolute is a living reality to us.

Now, how could Absolute be experienced? The word “Chit”, consciousness, rescues the experience of Absolute. If absolute were not Chit or Consciousness, it could not become a living reality. ~Maharishi Mahesh Yogi (emphasis mine)

Applying this to the Guiding Thought:

Divine Love-Light is the Source of All. It is all good, all God. 

The Absolute. 

This Source is always seeking expression through us.

How do we express? Thoughts. Actions. Words. Feelings.

Thus, the Absolute expresses itself in our thoughts, words, feelings, actions. 

Our awareness of our personal identity as this Source provides us with infinite fulfillment and prosperity.

This culminates in the essence of Satchitananda: Awareness (chit) of our union with the Absolute (sat) expresses through us as infinite fulfillment (ananda).