Facing Fears –Journey of Courage 02.09.26

Guiding Thought

We are responsible! We are able to respond with and through conscious awareness of our inner-centered, silent knowingness, moment by moment. Anchored in the inner harmony, we face our own thoughts and actions with courage.

Contemplation / Reflection

Some days as I respond to these Guiding Thoughts, I wonder “what am I doing here?” I feel like I’m writing a personal diary and putting it out there for the world to see. I feel exposed and vulnerable. When I “anchor in inner harmony”, I feel less naked. I don’t know what you think of me and my shared thoughts. From an inner-centered awareness, I feel like that’s okay. I’m “responding” the best I know how. I think you are, too. Sometimes I try to write what I think someone else will want to read. Something someone else will find interesting, or thought-provoking. When I try to write from that space, what comes out feels forced and insincere, and I have to start over.  It’s taking courage, every day, to continue to share my thoughts. Some days I think I’d rather not. But, I’ve made a commitment to myself to do this work. As always when I directly face my fears, I think “it’s okay to be afraid and to do it anyway”. I gain strength and confidence from seeing myself as someone who keeps their word, no matter what. I see myself as more courageous for accomplishing these daily exercises.

Guest Contributor Mary Wallace

 

 

 

 

 

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Journey of Beauty Begins April 18!

Apr 18 Preliminary day Introduction: Why A Journey of Beauty (02.10.0)
Apr 19 Preliminary day Commitment and Dedication (02.10.00)

Apr 20 – 29 Days 01-10 Round One (02.10.01-10)
Apr 30 – May 9 Days 11-20 Round Two (02.10.11-20)
May 10 – 19 Days 21-30 Round Three (02.10.21-30)
May 20 – 29 Days 31-40 Round Four (02.10.31-40)

May 30 – June 8 Reflection days Gently care, de-fuse, and write one day of reflection on the Journey (02.10.41)

There is Only the Path that is Right for You –Journey of Courage 02.09.14

Guiding Thought

You are safe in Divine Love’s assurance. Have the courage to face the ignorance and illusions within yourself and root them out. Allow the Light of Love to enter your mind and heart. Divine Love shines within you destroying anything false, transforming you from within.

Contemplation / Reflection

Sometimes I wonder if, spiritually, I’m on “The Path” at all.  It feels like I’m operating in my own, isolated little world. I don’t attend church services. While I do meditate and recite mantras, I don’t “practice” with any sense of discipline. Often, when I read books of a spiritual nature, my eyes glaze and I find myself dozing off.  How can I consider myself a spiritual student/being at all?  Then, I find myself sitting in an airport, with “spare” time before my flight. I’m talking in earnest with a woman who, instead of reporting to the hospital for a life-altering and possibly life-threatening surgery, has opted to purchase a one-way ticket to Hawaii.  Based on what she shares, she’s courageous, scared and clearly not getting the spiritual and emotional support she craves from family and friends. In about 30 minutes we share smiles, tears, hugs and phone numbers.  Oh, and did I mention, all this time, I’m at the WRONG GATE for my flight due to a gate change?!  Sometimes, I think I’m not “doing it right”, that there’s a particular teaching or practice or ritual that’s required. Then Divine Love sits me down next to someone who needs to speak as much as I need to listen, and I feel reassured that I am, in fact, in the right place at the right time. The belief that I am not on the right path is, perhaps, the falsehood that needs to be transformed.

 

Guest Contributor Mary Wallace

 

 

 

 

 

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Again and Again –Journey of Courage 02.09.11

Guiding Thought

Life is a process of Self-discovery. Embrace All of Life, for All of Life is who you are! As you embrace Life as your Self, you come to understand Life as yourself. Life embraces you gently and joyfully in return.

Contemplation / Reflection

Several years ago I participated in a number of “personal growth” trainings and workshops. At the time, after years involved in these activities, I sincerely thought, “I got it”. After all, I’d walked on fire, broken a board with one stroke of my hand, spent days in silent retreat, laughed, cried, shouted out any anger within and learned to love the least attractive (to me) person in the group, and to love myself.  What more was there?  I’d done it! Ah, the ego speaks! It wasn’t long before I learned the lesson of this Guiding Thought, Life is a PROCESS of Self-discovery. You don’t get to do it just once and be done with it.  Because the only thing permanent is change, that means I also change, day-to-day or minute-by-minute. And that change is what All of Life is, everything around me, and me. To me, it’s like the idea of “enlightenment”. Maybe I’m not really “there” at all, but it seems to me that even an enlightened state is a process. Does it happen just once and last a life-time? Or does it happen again and again, what it means to be enlightened changing from moment to moment just like everything else in life? Now there’s another question I don’t truly have an answer to. So I continue to embrace Life’s process of Self-discovery, like taking this Journey of Courage. Today, it truly is a joyful journey, Life embracing me joyfully and lovingly. If I continue to rejoice in the ups and downs, the struggles and frustrations, I learn (again and again) to love the Journey itself.

 

Guest Contributor Mary Wallace

 

 

 

 

 

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Let There Be Light! –Journey of Courage 02.09.09

Guiding Thought

Contemplation / Reflection

Lightness! I love it! I live where winters are mostly grey and wet and days are short. When the sun shines, like today, I rejoice in the sunlight, and I feel lighter. This seems to be true for most of the people who live here.  I consider myself a being of light and often wonder that I have landed in this environment for so many years.  So when the change to autumn and winter darkness comes, I kind of hibernate a bit. Each year it gets easier to “sit peacefully in a still place of nothingness” as life moves around me.  I also find it easier to practice “mindfulness” in the peacefulness of my home.  I’ve had a tendency to “multi task”, doing several things simultaneously. In the quiet peace, I’m much more able to be mindful of one thing at a time. When I eat, I try to savor the food and not just chew it down while I focus on laundry or a phone chat. When I practice artful projects, they turn out much better if I’m in the stillness of the project in my hands.  I’m certainly not perfect at this peaceful still place of nothingness, but that’s why it’s called “practice”!

 

Guest Contributor Mary Wallace

 

 

 

 

 

Journey of Courage is now available as a free book.
You no longer need to wait for the Guiding Thoughts to be posted here daily–you may move at your own pace. This link will take you to the document in Dropbox; you may download it from there.

Become a Guest Contributor
If you think you might possibly like to be a guest contributor at some point for a future Journey (taking your next courageous step!), as Mary is doing now, please email me: susan@withpearls.com. We can talk. Smooth. Easy. No pressure. Just take that step and we’ll see how it goes from there.

 

“Do This in Remembrance of Me” -Fulfillment (1.6.25)

Copyright Tam Black 2018
Designed for susanwithpearls.com

Guiding Thought

In Divine Mind, we are filled full! All are equally filled full. All are equal in Love. We fill our minds with thoughts of fulfillment and remember what we already know. We are determined to fulfill our purpose, to know our Self as Divine Love, and to share the fullness we are.

This day, first Journey of Fulfillment, 2014
This day, second Journey of Fulfillment, 2016
One year ago–
 What a Difference 10 Days Make: Journey of Peace 2017– Day 22

 

Sharing

I don’t know about you, but I am determined to fulfill my purpose. I am determined to know my Self–to remember my Self– as Divine Love, and to do whatever is necessary to know my fulfillment.

I’m passed the stage of looking for the path, for looking for the right tools to get me where I want to go. I am on the path, and I have the tools that will get me there. Or, if I don’t have the tools now, I am confident that other tools will come at an appropriate time.

I’m also passed a lot of the questioning, passed a lot of the doubt, a lot of the fear.

I used to worry often that I “wasn’t doing enough”. I don’t do that anymore. I have certain things that I just do–daily, weekly–and as long as I do those things, I stay ahead of my worry, and I stay “primed”, so to say, in my relationship with my Divine Self, and with God.

I used to have recurring doubt and skepticism. I don’t have those anymore. I have a lot of faith and confidence that I am where I am supposed to be, and that all is as it should be. Even recently, I have been feeling “stuck”, feeling like I should be doing something different, and I always return to a balance point of, “no, this is where I am supposed to be; everything will change when and as it’s supposed to”. This has sometimes been very hard– as in not giving in to a bad habit hard. Doing something, anything has been a habit of distraction, taking me away from listening within, being in the silence, allowing the silence to lead. Although I have been able to prevent myself from doing something for the sake of doing something, I have still felt the impulse, and needed to talk myself down.

I used to compare what I wanted, and where I wanted to be–where I thought I should be–with where I am. They never matched up. I was never as far along as I thought I should be; I was not seeing the results that I thought I “should” be seeing. I don’t do that anymore. Who am I to try to know the mind of God, or God’s plan for my activity in the world? This is a result of doing a lot of work with surrender and letting go.

I would not be as “relaxed” about all of this if it weren’t for staying highly attuned with my Divine Self and having confidence in my relationship with God.

You see, to achieve a spiritual goal, I have needed to let go of all of training about how to achieve something. One cannot attain a spiritual goal using the tools one has learned to achieve material goals. I can’t set a goal, make a list of tasks, plan out a reverse-calendar, then start doing those tasks, checking off the boxes, with each check mark saying, “ok, you’re one step closer”.

With a spiritual goal, it’s not what the tasks are that matter, it’s what I bring to each one. How aware am I? How much love do I consciously bring to every task? How often do I remember to thank God for the Grace of Life? How clear and pure do I keep my mind, my thoughts? How much devotion do I feel as I do every little thing?

With a spiritual goal, every action is a “task” toward that goal, but the check marks only come when I can say, “yes, I did this thinking of God” or “yes, I did that feeling love in my heart”, or “I remembered unity and harmony as I did that”.

This is relatively new for me. All my actions now–to the best of my ability– are devotions to God. Every action is a step on the spiritual path, a step closer to the goal of knowing/remembering my Self, when I do it with awareness and remembrance of the Divine.

 

 

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With the right criteria, there’s no information overload-Fulfillment (1.6.18)

Copyright Tam Black 2018
Designed for susanwithpearls.com

Guiding Thought

Your motivation is your choice. Your intention is your choice. Your will is your choice. In peace, listen within for guidance, so that your actions are motivated by joy, your intentions are loving, and your will is simply to share joy and love.

Sharing

In 2011, Americans took in five times as much information every day as they did in 1986—the equivalent of 174 newspapers. During our leisure time, not counting work, each of us processes 34 gigabytes, or 100,000 words, every day. 

With that much data coming at people, how does anyone know what to pay attention to? What is valuable? How does one filter useful information from useless information?

Perhaps by now you’ve seen the invisible gorilla experiment? In which a video is played with 6 people passing around 2 basketballs. The viewer is to count how many times the white-shirted people pass the basketball. While counting passes, 50% of viewers do not notice the gorilla who enters the fray, stops, looks at the camera, and strolls off.

In sum, the authors say, “This experiment reveals two things: that we are missing a lot of what goes on around us, and that we have no idea that we are missing so much”.

People who participated in this experiment (you can try it too, at the link above), were told in advance what they were looking for: how many passes were made by the people in white shirts. The information they were looking for was pre-determined, and specific.

If you are looking for a new pair of shoes on the internet, won’t you do your best to filter out the ones you know you don’t want? You’ll filter by gender, style, color, material, season…Won’t you enter search terms as specifically as possible to get only what you are looking for? If you get a result that is totally not what you are looking for, are you going to spend any time at all making a decision to ignore it–no, of course not, you will simply ignore it.

Using this same shoe-shopping example, how do you get to a point that you are even looking for shoes on the internet? You need a new pair of shoes for an upcoming event, perhaps. The event motivates you to get a new pair of shoes. Or maybe you’re a runner and you have a marathon coming up that requires a new pair of shoes. Comfortable feet motivates you to shop for shoes. You don’t have to be motivated by these things; you could be motivated by anything–whim, spontaneity, love of shoes. The point is, the motivation is your choice.

Once you’re motivated, what happens? You make a decision–an intention to make a purchase. Following intention comes the will to make the purchase, which in this instance is about logistics: when do you find or make time to get online to do the search, and pay the money (maybe you have to wait for a paycheck to come through).

You have control over all of these things–motivation, intention, and will. You decide. You decide what, when, why, and how. Then you look for the information that satisfies your criteria, and you filter out the things that don’t satisfy your criteria. Simple. Easy. You know how to do this.

So, it’s the same process with this “spiritual stuff”. You can choose to be motivated toward peace, or joy, or love, and then make the intention to look for it, then filter out things that don’t meet the criteria of joy, love, or peace. The process is the same as deciding to buy a new pair of shoes, and to filter out your options.

The internet has trained us well to look for and find products. You are probably not as well-trained to motivate yourself, or take initiative to find peace, love, or joy. Therefore, you may have more trouble recognizing these things–your filters are not yet calibrated to immediately know what matches your criteria.

The more you do it, the easier it becomes, the more finely tuned you are to what is acceptable to you, or not–and soon you will simply be able to ignore the information you receive that does not support your peace, joy, and love immediately.

Success -Fulfillment (1.6.11)

Welcome to round 2! Thank you for being here. I wish for you waterfalls of Divine Flow, beautiful insights, and Joy on the Journey! With this round, the pronouns change from “I” to “you” (see this page for detailed explanation).

Guiding Thought

Everywhere fulfillment is, you are.  Fulfillment is everywhere. Fulfillment is. You are.

Sharing

“Journey” in the context of these Journeys means the Journey of ascension. Did you know that already? Had you figured it out? I seem to have stopped reminding people of that; when I started these Journeys, I used to talk about it a lot. I mean, I say it sort of offhandedly sometimes now, and I did say it pretty outright during the Why of this Journey…but it’s not like I write about it regularly.

So, yeah. I am on the path to ascension. These Journeys guide me daily. I don’t know how long it’s going to take for me to ascend, but I’ve mapped out a 50-year plan with these Journeys.

It is my personal belief that we are all ascending…whether we know it or not, whether we like it or not. What this means to me is that there is a way to grow/evolve our spiritual self, so that we become In-Light-ened, where we transcend the materiality of the world, and literally become light. Jesus did it. The Theotokos did it (according to the Eastern Orthodox tradition). Elijah did it. Enoch did it. Elisha did it. And that’s just from the Hebrew and Christian faith. There are also lots of examples from Buddhism (specifically Dzogchen), Taoism, and Hinduism.

If they can do it, I can do it. So can you.

You know all those motivational phrases you see that people most generally apply to making their lives better or growing their business?

  • Your positive action combined with positive thinking results in success.
  • Success is the result of perfection, hard work, learning from failure, loyalty, and persistence. Colin Powell
  • Success is no accident. It is hard work, perseverance, learning, studying, sacrifice and most of all, love of what you are doing or learning to do. Pele
  • Some people dream of success, while other people get up every morning and make it happen. Wayne Huizenga
  • Success comes from what you do consistently, not from what you do occasionally.

You’ve heard these before, right? And many, many, many more.

Every time I see one of these, I apply it to my spiritual success. Seek ye first the Kingdom of Heaven and all that. I put my energy, time, and effort into my spiritual evolution.

I may not make it. I get that. But I also believe that no effort is wasted, and that seeking is rewarded.

But more than that, this is how I want to live my life. I want to be the kind of person who strives to live a higher life, and in so doing to bring higher ideals into the world.

How do you feel about your spiritual evolution? Do you feel fulfilled? Do you know yourself as fulfilled? Do you want to?

Let your ideals lead you. Let your highest values guide your life. Always strive higher and higher. Become better. You are amazing just as you are right now, but don’t settle, don’t get complacent, don’t ever think you’re done. We have a long way to go, together…but more than that…we have a lot of people who are just beginning to think about this stuff, and they need us solidly on the path, clearing the way.