Shining Light on “False Boundaries” –Journey of Courage 02.09.35

Guiding Thought

I am ready and willing, here and now, to be courageous. I release my mind’s idea of security, of “right” and of “wrong”. I allow my personality to dissolve and to become One with the Love that is everywhere. All false boundaries evaporate like mist in the sun as I devote myself to the oneness of Love.

Contemplation / Reflection

“I am not a morning person.” My thought as I awakened this morning. My husband was already up, dressed, and off running errands. Then the thought “who says I’m not a morning person?” The answer, of course, is I SAY SO, and so it is. I think about all the years that I “allowed my personality to dissolve” and showed up at work by seven AM. It feels like “my personality” would prefer to stay up late, and then to sleep in a bit. BUT, I have been courageous about dissolving that in the past. SO, I’m going to challenge myself to do so again. I WILL get up a bit earlier, and go to bed a bit earlier. As summer approaches and the sun rises earlier and earlier, it will be easier and easier for me to do so too. Gradually, I’ll return to being a “morning person”. By this time next month, I’ll be up, have coffee and be at the swim pool in time to begin my day with a water exercise class. So I look at what other illusionary beliefs I hold about myself that I think it might be beneficial to change. Since retiring from decades of deskwork, I’ve been doing a wonderful job of avoiding paperwork as evidenced by the stacks of paper on my desk. Do I have the courage to change to a belief that I handle all paperwork promptly and easily? While my home is “clean enough”, do I have the courage to transition to “a place for everything and everything in its place” – no clutter? We’ll see. But without these Guiding Thoughts shining light on these “false boundaries” I’ve set for myself, I wouldn’t, even now, be considering finding the courage to “evaporate” them. As I’ve been writing these thoughts these past weeks, I’ve learned that I AM strong, I AM courageous, and I am devoted to the oneness of Love. And I would LOVE a tidy desk and a morning workout in the local swim pool.

 

Guest Contributor Mary Wallace

 

 

 

 

 

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Journey of Beauty Begins April 18!

Apr 18 Preliminary day Introduction: Why A Journey of Beauty (02.10.0)
Apr 19 Preliminary day Commitment and Dedication (02.10.00)

Apr 20 – 29 Days 01-10 Round One (02.10.01-10)
Apr 30 – May 9 Days 11-20 Round Two (02.10.11-20)
May 10 – 19 Days 21-30 Round Three (02.10.21-30)
May 20 – 29 Days 31-40 Round Four (02.10.31-40)

May 30 – June 8 Reflection days Gently care, de-fuse, and write one day of reflection on the Journey (02.10.41)

The Grass Is… –Journey of Courage 02.09.34

Guiding Thought

I am safe in Divine Love’s assurance. I have the courage to face the ignorance and illusions within myself and root them out. I allow the Light of Love to enter my mind and heart. Divine Love shines within me destroying anything false, transforming me from within.

Contemplation / Reflection

My best friend is on a river cruise in the Netherlands. For only a moment, I thought I was jealous. I wanted to be there with her, sharing an amazing experience. The next moment, Divine Light shines, and I was able to “root out” that thought and cheer for her. I’m glad her life is so blessed. What an opportunity! She flew there in business class and the riverboat holds only 136 passengers. She’ll be treated royally. I know she will have a memorable experience and I’m very happy for her. Early this morning, the fog rolled in. I thought “oh no, a damp day.” Then I heard the fog horns. I LOVE the sound of the foghorns over the water when I’m snuggled warm in my bed. And, of course, the fog lifted and it’s a glorious, sunny day. We walked in the local botanical garden and witnessed the blooming of rare “black” trilliums. I also took photos of black grass. Despite our illusions, MY illusions, the grass is NOT always greener somewhere else! And green grass isn’t necessarily the best grass!

It’s easy, sometimes, to think “it’s going to be a bad day”, when Divine Love jumps in and shows us it may have been just a “bad” moment. Maybe even that moment wasn’t “bad”. It was simply a harbinger of “good” things to come. Things I wouldn’t necessarily recognize as “good”, if I hadn’t had the thought of “bad”. It’s all part of living in a world where we have the illusion of duality. Can’t have dark without light. Can’t have up without down. Can’t have good without bad. And it’s all just labels and illusion. The truth is, it just IS!

Guest Contributor Mary Wallace

 

 

 

 

 

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Journey of Beauty Begins April 18!

Apr 18 Preliminary day Introduction: Why A Journey of Beauty (02.10.0)
Apr 19 Preliminary day Commitment and Dedication (02.10.00)

Apr 20 – 29 Days 01-10 Round One (02.10.01-10)
Apr 30 – May 9 Days 11-20 Round Two (02.10.11-20)
May 10 – 19 Days 21-30 Round Three (02.10.21-30)
May 20 – 29 Days 31-40 Round Four (02.10.31-40)

May 30 – June 8 Reflection days Gently care, de-fuse, and write one day of reflection on the Journey (02.10.41)

Wholeness in Pieces –Journey of Courage 02.09.32

Guiding Thought

When I attune my mind to the Oneness that is All of Life, I understand my place in Wholeness. I am the very Presence of Life, and this Presence of Life is me. I am blessed through this understanding. In return I bless all I encounter.

Contemplation / Reflection

This was a day of “wholeness” in pieces. Today was a great day and I FEEL Oneness and Wholeness!  Been thinking a bit about the attachments we make to things and the freedom and lightness that comes from letting go of those attachments.  My sister-in-law moved recently. She was in a very urban, traffic-jammed, run-down apartment where she had lived for over 25 years. Today was the day for the final exit inspection of the place she’d vacated. After 25 years of a dead-end routine, depression and a disability diagnosis, the place was in less than pristine condition. She was terrified, and feeling insecure about the process and asked that someone in the family accompany her as her advocate. I “was elected”. It didn’t begin well, with the inspector not showing up anywhere nearly on time. My sister-in-law was feeling angry, discounted, disrespected. I’d been visualizing this event, but only the actual inspection itself. And that part went very smoothly. While they still need to send her the paperwork, I believe that penalties, if any, will be slight compared to the disaster she had been fearful of. While I didn’t particularly WANT to be the advocate, I now understand that it was the Presence of Life that put me in this role. It was my place in Wholeness to be there to speak kindly to the inspector, to speak reassuringly to my sister-in-law, to simply “hold the space” for a positive outcome.  In retrospect, I was in the right place to bless this encounter and to assist her in letting go of attachment to this place and the negative experiences it represents to her. She drove more than two hours home to her new place. Instead of heavy traffic in a densely populated area, “home” for her is now surrounded by lush fields, astounding mountain peaks, deer outside her windows and breathtaking waterways nearby. All of this at a significant reduction in rent and other expenses. And when I arrived home, my husband had sold a truck he’d been attached to for several years. There’s an open space in front of our house that’s free of that attachment. I had a place in the Wholeness of this day. I am blessed, and in return I offer blessings and gratitude for all of the encounters of this day.

Guest Contributor Mary Wallace

 

 

 

 

 

Secondary Reading

Here is a great article on “holding space”: https://heatherplett.com/2015/03/hold-space/

Journey of Courage is now available as a free book.
You no longer need to wait for the Guiding Thoughts to be posted here daily–you may move at your own pace. This link will take you to the document in Dropbox; you may download it from there.

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Journey of Beauty Begins April 18!

Apr 18 Preliminary day Introduction: Why A Journey of Beauty (02.10.0)
Apr 19 Preliminary day Commitment and Dedication (02.10.00)

Apr 20 – 29 Days 01-10 Round One (02.10.01-10)
Apr 30 – May 9 Days 11-20 Round Two (02.10.11-20)
May 10 – 19 Days 21-30 Round Three (02.10.21-30)
May 20 – 29 Days 31-40 Round Four (02.10.31-40)

May 30 – June 8 Reflection days Gently care, de-fuse, and write one day of reflection on the Journey (02.10.41)

Compliment? Or Offense? –Journey of Courage 02.09.12

Guiding Thought

When you attune your mind to the Oneness that is All of Life, you understand your place in Wholeness. You are the very Presence of Life, and this Presence of Life is you! You are blessed through this understanding. In return you bless all you encounter.

Contemplation / Reflection

I do my best to stay tuned to my place in Wholeness. Every once in a while, I get knocked upside the head when my ego sneaks out in ways I don’t even see.  Recently I thought I was paying a friend a compliment, a blessed comparison with my mother who is no longer on the planet.  Imagine my surprise when, shortly after, I received a message from this friend letting me know she was offended by what I’d said.  What she heard was very different than the message I thought I was communicating. When I “bless all I encounter”, I need to be certain I’m actually fully understanding my role in and as “the Presence of Life”. Fortunately, I am blessed with friends who will communicate their feelings of hurt or offense, so that we can clarify intent and retain the deeply loving and trusting relationships we share.  But, what about those others with whom I don’t share this same level of intimacy and clear communication? How many times in this life have I unwittingly said the wrong thing, or failed to say the right thing? How many times have I, without my knowledge, failed to acknowledge a kind act done toward me, or a kind word said?  I’ll never know the answer to that. The very best I can do is stay present and “stay tuned”.

 

Guest Contributor Mary Wallace

 

 

 

 

 

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Exercise in Compassion –Journey of Courage 02.09.06

Guiding Thought

I am responsible! I am able to respond with and through conscious awareness of my inner-centered, silent Knowingness. I practice Knowingness moment by moment. Anchored in my inner-harmony, I have the courage to face my own thoughts and actions.

Contemplation / Reflection

In considering this Guiding Thought, I was taken back to a class I was in awhile ago. We were training to be “peer counselors” to coworkers who might experience some kind of on-the-job trauma.  In one exercise, we were each asked to share a trauma we had faced.  It was a very intimate experience. Everyone was in tears by the end of the exercise. People had suffered the loss a loved one, (child, spouse, parent, sibling, precious friend or family member), experienced a heart-breaking divorce, lost their home, faced life-threatening illness, had a job terminated unexpectedly, been robbed, shot, beaten and more.  It was a first-hand demonstration of the fact that we have no idea what hardships another has faced. But face them, EVERYONE has.  As my father would say, “everyone has their own sack of rocks to carry”.  I am responsible for remembering this.  I am responsible for practicing Knowingness moment by moment.  I am responsible, through that Knowingness, for facing my own thought, my own misguided belief that I know ANYTHING at all about what someone else has been through, what they’re going through, what they might want or need from me.  I am responsible for asking what they might want from me, and for providing it to whatever level I’m able, with love and without judgment.

 

Guest Contributor Mary Wallace

 

 

 

 

Journey of Courage is now available as a free book.
You no longer need to wait for the Guiding Thoughts to be posted here daily–you may move at your own pace. This link will take you to the document in Dropbox; you may download it from there.

Become a Guest Contributor
If you think you might possibly like to be a guest contributor at some point for a future Journey (taking your next courageous step!), as Mary is doing now, please email me: susan@withpearls.com. We can talk. Smooth. Easy. No pressure. Just take that step and we’ll see how it goes from there.

Get your feet wet:
Susanwithpearls has a new playspace. There is a whole ‘nother Journey of Courage happening here: https://journeys.withpearls.com/?affiliateId=bae2-0acc&discountId=172f-8ff7
This is new and different, so anything goes at this point. It would be a good time/place to test your own waters. Come in anonymously. Post a few days to the community. See how it feels. It is free, but you will have to sign up to access it.

 

 

Truth and Free Will. –Gratitude 2.8.32

Guiding Thought

I lift my mind and heart to the Truth of Being, to all that Is, to All I Am. I accept my Self in Truth and offer my Self to All in gratitude for Its Being.

Reflection / Contemplation

Truth does not care if you believe in it or not. Truth does not try to convince; it does not manipulate, or connive.

Each of us was given the gift of Free Will at the moment we were first breathed forth. With that Free Will, we can choose Truth, or not. And Truth does not try to persuade us either way. It allows us our Free Will, and waits.

In the meantime, also at the time of our inception, we were given the creative faculties of thought and feeling. As we walk through this relative reality, seeing disparities, feeling strong emotions, thinking that what we think or feel is right, we are using our Free Will to create through those perceptions, emotions, and thoughts.

But perceptions, emotions, and thoughts which are not informed by Truth bring about (or create) effects disconnected from Truth. Then we chase those erroneous effects. Imagine a game of telephone through all of your creations: you create a relationship, full of opinions, effects, results, then you look at those opinions, effects, and results and create new opinions, effects, and results (or strengthen those you have), which just keep creating situations that are only tethered to a situation which was previously based on an erroneous perception, emotion, or thought.

This is how we keep ourselves bound to our lives, our mental attitudes, and our convictions. (more like running in circles).

We have misinformed ourselves, and we believe our own misinformation. We are not the victims of circumstance, we are the creators of circumstance.

Being a creator of circumstance is why we are here. With our Free Will, we can choose to create with the Light of Truth. Light is infinitely more powerful than any fear-based, fragmented efforts or misinformation.

When we focus our attention on the surfacing chaos, it is easy to feel discouraged and overwhelmed, until we realize that we have done this. This is my doing. This is my responsibility.

How do I undo what I have done? How do I undo the chaos in my life? How do I create anew? 

Lift your mind and heart to the Truth of Being, to all that Is, to All You Are. Accept your Self in Truth and offer your Self to All in gratitude for Being.

You are the Way, the Truth, and the Life.  Focus your attention on the the Truth which resides in your Heart of hearts.

You are the Divine Light of the World. Divine Light of Truth is ALWAYS Victorious and WE are that Light.

Journey of Gratitude– Why? (2.8.0)

Greetings in Love and Light! Welcome to a new year.

Today begins Journey of Gratitude. Let’s go! I’m glad you’re here. I’m glad I’m here. I am already so thankful to be here, with you now, doing this work.

Think and write about why you would like to spend 40 days thinking about, contemplating, and practicing gratitute. Feel free to share with me privately by email, or publicly below.

Why

Back in December, during Journey of Rest, I was having intense waves of gratitude almost daily. I would think about my life, about the support and love that I have, about my relationship with the Great Mystery; I thought about Jesus and what He brought into the world; I thought about being a drop in an infinite ocean, aware of itself, of the ocean, and of its relationship with all the other drops; I would think about how beautiful this life is, the inter-connectivity of everything, and how amazing and wondrous it all is,  and I would (sometimes) just weep with love and joy at how thankful I felt.

At that time, I recognized how gratitude was a doorway for Love. If I didn’t feel Love, I could focus on feeling thankful, and then Love was a breath away.

I thought, “I got this. Journey of Gratitude is going to be so easy. Do I even need a Journey of Gratitude? I just need to stay in this space forever!”

But you know, “this too shall pass”. I usually say that when something is a struggle, but really, it’s true otherwise, as all things are impermanent and changing (until we realize and live our True, eternal selves, anyway).

For the life of me, I have not been able to re-capture that intense feeling of gratitude since around December 23 (right before Christmas). I’m not saying that I haven’t felt thankful. But there’s a difference in mental-practices of gratitude and recognizing things to be thankful for, and the kind of gratitude that overwhelms with emotions of love and joy so much that tears flow.

I think my experiences in December (pre-December 23) were the teaser. “You see? This is what is possible. Are you there yet? No? Keep going.”

So here I am, an ideal in mind as a carrot on a stick, slogging toward it.

I knew I was going to have to write Why today, and I’ve been thinking and thinking about where I’m at with this, juxtaposing my recent loving/joyful gratitude experiences with how I actually feel right here right now.

It would be a cop out to say simply, “I want to work toward that (the ideal, mindlessly following a carrot on a stick). Yeah. It is that, but it’s also more than that.

I want to open my heart to expand in giving and receiving more love.
And gratitude does that.

I want to be of True Service–recognizing and living in the space of knowing what an honor (and responsibility!) it is to serve All in Love.
And gratitude does that.

I want to serve joyfully, inexhaustibly, according to my True, Highest Purpose.
And gratitude does that.

I want to remember my commitment–remember what I really want–which is to continue reaching every day, every hour, every minute with 100% of my being toward Infinite Love and Light.
And…I’m not sure if gratitude does that, but I’m going to treat this like an experiment to find out.

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Tomorrow is the commitment and dedication! Then we start the 40-days of contemplation. Remember with this Journey  to get out your crayons, markers, pencils, and get ready to draw/create. Gratitude is especially pre-disposed toward the right/creative/aesthetic brain.