Again and Again –Journey of Courage 02.09.11

Guiding Thought

Life is a process of Self-discovery. Embrace All of Life, for All of Life is who you are! As you embrace Life as your Self, you come to understand Life as yourself. Life embraces you gently and joyfully in return.

Contemplation / Reflection

Several years ago I participated in a number of “personal growth” trainings and workshops. At the time, after years involved in these activities, I sincerely thought, “I got it”. After all, I’d walked on fire, broken a board with one stroke of my hand, spent days in silent retreat, laughed, cried, shouted out any anger within and learned to love the least attractive (to me) person in the group, and to love myself.  What more was there?  I’d done it! Ah, the ego speaks! It wasn’t long before I learned the lesson of this Guiding Thought, Life is a PROCESS of Self-discovery. You don’t get to do it just once and be done with it.  Because the only thing permanent is change, that means I also change, day-to-day or minute-by-minute. And that change is what All of Life is, everything around me, and me. To me, it’s like the idea of “enlightenment”. Maybe I’m not really “there” at all, but it seems to me that even an enlightened state is a process. Does it happen just once and last a life-time? Or does it happen again and again, what it means to be enlightened changing from moment to moment just like everything else in life? Now there’s another question I don’t truly have an answer to. So I continue to embrace Life’s process of Self-discovery, like taking this Journey of Courage. Today, it truly is a joyful journey, Life embracing me joyfully and lovingly. If I continue to rejoice in the ups and downs, the struggles and frustrations, I learn (again and again) to love the Journey itself.

 

Guest Contributor Mary Wallace

 

 

 

 

 

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Assurance –Journey of Courage 02.09.04

Guiding Thought

I am safe in Divine Love’s assurance. I have the courage to face the ignorance and illusions within me and root them out. I allow the Light of Love to enter my mind and heart. Divine Love shines within me destroying anything false, transforming me from within.

Contemplation / Reflection

Three years ago I went through breast cancer surgery, chemo and radiation.  My husband and a friend from Wisconsin sat in the hospital through the surgical procedure.  Several friends kept me company through each and every chemo treatment. Sometimes they would sit with me for hours just quietly holding a foot or a hand, with very little conversation. It was an amazing, almost overwhelming demonstration of “Divine Love’s assurance”. The hospital chaplain made a point of standing by my side at each chemo session, saying a special blessing for my well-being.  Another friend visited from Hawaii and accompanied me to every radiance (I prefer that term to radiation) session. He just sat in the waiting room quietly praying for my healing.  I am, indeed safe in Divine Love’s assurance.  When, through my own ignorance and illusions,  I think of myself as unloving and unlovable, when I think I am unworthy of receiving such loving support,  I need only to recall the amazing outpouring of Divine Love that surrounded and embraced me through that difficult time.  The love I received from these angelic souls brought moving tears of joy and love through me. I witness how storms, floods, fires, or an epic event like 911 bring out Divine Love’s assurance. I see how strangers in a community come together in love and support of one another.  I stand at the foot of our massive mountains, walk a beach beside the immense and powerful ocean, or sit in quiet meditation. No, I’m not perfect physically or emotionally. None of us is or we’d have no need to be here on this lovely garden planet at this time.  But the perfection of Divine Love dwells in us all and so, perhaps we are, each of us, perfect after all.  We need only the simple courage to be still and know.

Guest Contributor Mary Wallace

 

 

 

 

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You no longer need to wait for the Guiding Thoughts to be posted here daily–you may move at your own pace. This link will take you to the document in Dropbox; you may download it from there.

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Get your feet wet:
Susanwithpearls has a new playspace. There is a whole ‘nother Journey of Courage happening here: https://journeys.withpearls.com/?affiliateId=bae2-0acc&discountId=172f-8ff7
This is new and different, so anything goes at this point. It would be a good time/place to test your own waters. Come in anonymously. Post a few days to the community. See how it feels. It is free, but you will have to sign up to access it.

 

Working Toward Embodying Light -Fulfillment (1.6.40)

 

Copyright Tam Black 2018
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Guiding Thought

I am light. My body is light. I am free. I know my fulfillment: I feel it rise within me, expand out from me.

Sharing

Welcome to day 40! How did you do? Were you consistent daily? Did you contemplate your ideal (or the Guiding Thought) for at least 5 minutes per day? Did you dig deep, expand your self-knowledge, and learn about how you approach life? Whew. That’s a lot to do and expect of yourself. If you did anything at all toward self-awareness, and learning about how you choose to live life…give yourself a hug, or at least a pat on the back. You’ve done some good work. Now it’s time to take a break. Breathe for a few days, normalize a bit, then take some time to read back over what you have written over the past 40 days, and reflect on where you were, where you are, and what you think you learned over the course of this Journey. I’ll do the same. But now…day 40!

Just in the past two weeks, I’ve been trying some new things to increase my inner-light-awareness.

I have always wanted to be light. I used to–and I suppose I still do–draw myself with so much inner light that it radiates outward everywhere. I used to feel the light bubble up within me, and flow out my eyes and hands. I’ve always believed somewhere deep down, that I am light. Of course, I’ve had to reconcile this with my experience of being a dense, 3rd-dimensional, material body/person…which is what I live with day after day after day… yet for some reason, I still think I am light. I think some how, some way, I can be light, not this heavy, dense, material body. So today’s Guiding Thought has special significance for me–I’ve been working at this since I was a teenager!

I am not daunted that I haven’t figured it out yet. I will. We all will, sooner or later. I just keep working at it and trying stuff.

So in the past two weeks, I’ve started taking a fish oil that is high in anti-oxidants, which is supposed to cleanse (de-calcify) the pineal gland. There are those who believe the pineal gland is the seat of the third-eye, the spiritual eye. It is the seat of true vision, manifestation, and higher communication. Apparently, things like chlorine, fluoride, and bromine calicify the pineal gland and inhibit its proper function. So I’m trying it out. It’s only been a few days, and I have nothing to report, but if all goes well, my third eye will open and I will be that much closer to giving/receiving light!

Secondly, I’ve been carrying around crystals. I have this beautiful quartz crystal that fits across the palm of my hand (about 4″ x 1.5-2″)–and I can wrap my fingers around it…So I’ve been carrying it, sleeping with it. This behavior is not completely new; I’ve had this crystal for over two decades, and it accompanies me during certain times in my life.

Finally, I’ve been sleeping with music which entrains the mind with delta brainwaves. That’s “just” a sleep entrainment, nothing fancy–no binaural beats or subliminal affirmations, but since cleaning the pineal gland is supposed to open the vision/dreaming faculty, I figure better sleep won’t hurt.

All of this is to continue progressing upward. Call it frequency, call it sound, call it light, call it vibration, call it consciousness, call it what you will. It’s about embodying more and more energy, love, and light. Being able to handle it and then radiate it.

 

 

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Why can’t we just get there already? -Fulfillment (1.6.21)

Copyright Tam Black 2018
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Welcome to Round 3!

We’re halfway done! How are you doing? Seriously…how is your life going? How’s your Journey going? I feel like this week I have felt the weight of the world…so much going on politically and environmentally; have you felt it? There’s a lot of “fear” in the air. I don’t know…I’ve never been “sensitive” to that sort of thing, like feeling those etheric emotions that hover about, but I have no other explanation for this heaviness I’ve been feeling this week. It’s like there is a part of me that is my usual happy self, and this other part of me that wants to run and hide. The “usual” part can identify that the other part is “not me”, but at the same time the person who’s feeling the fear identifies as “me”… Someone said to me today that I should not “let it get me down”. I get that, and I don’t let it get me down. But at the same time, I feel like the awareness of this “fear in the air” brings me responsibility. I am not blissfully ignorant: if I am aware of these less-than-loving emotions, it’s my responsibility to bring light and love to them. So…I’ve been especially vigilant about “my” own emotions, and I’ve been playing mantra on very low volume all day. The more light and love I bring to it, the faster we will move through it. Join in. Add your light and your love, let’s get through this.

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Guiding Thought

Everywhere fulfillment is, we are. Fulfillment is everywhere. Fulfillment is. We are.

Sharing

(Q) Why can’t we just get there already? If Fulfillment is everywhere, why aren’t we there? If we are All One, and Love is Oneness why are we not All living in Love right here, right now? I don’t get it.

(A) People use and have used their free will to deny the Love they Are. In doing so, they have forgotten who they are. In forgetting, they have made a substitute and believed in the substitute (sometimes called “ego” or “lower self” or “lower mind”).

To rectify this, people must choose to use their free will to stop denying the Love they Are, or in other words, to accept the Love they are.

People are at various degrees–or percentages–about how much they are willing to do this. Some people have more ego than others; some egos have a stronger hold.

We are all moving in the same direction, to 100% Love. But we all must participate at 100% in order for us all to be there.

If one person participates at 75% s/he has 25% to go, and probably has very strong momentum toward that 100%. This person is probably unaffected by most “worldly cares”, and has good habits and practices that maintain the momentum.

If another person participates at 25%, s/he probably has more trouble staying the course than the person at 75%, often waylaid by upsets and distractions.

Since we are All One, even if one person reaches 100%, there is still work to do! Until everyone reaches that 100%.

Everyone is both an individual expression of Divine Consciousness and the Unity of Divine Consciousness. In order for the Unity of Divine Consciousness to be expressed in every living being, every living being’s individual expression must choose Divine Consciousness as its own.

 

I Got That Joy Joy Joy Joy -Fulfillment (1.6.17)

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Guiding Thought

Your joy unifies! Accepting your joy, acknowledging it, sharing it, and expressing it heals you and heals others. To be wholly joyful means to be wholly Love…means to be wholly your Self.

Sharing

What does it mean to heal in this context?

It’s more than a physical healing, like healing a scrape, or broken bone. It’s more than healing from a virus or a bacterial infection. It’s more than psychological healing; it’s more than emotional healing. These types of healing address a body, a mind, or emotions–just one facet of a human being. These things are what most people are talking about when they talk about “healing”.

In the context of the Guiding Thought, it’s really unification that heals. If joy unifies, then by accepting your joy (acknowledging it and sharing it), you are sharing its quality of unification. And remember, when you give something not only are you confirming to yourself that you have it in the first place, but you are expanding and intensifying it. So, as you give joy to others, you simultaneously make it stronger within yourself, and spark another’s joy within them.

This type of healing does not address a body, a mind, or emotions each independently, but rather addresses anything that is perceived as separate or fragmented, regardless of where it resides in a person’s being.

The Truth of your Being…is Love. Being Love is being Wholly ourselves. This is our “healed” state–our natural state of being the Love we are. Anything else is “illness”.

“Healing” in the context of the Guiding Thought simply means to be the Self you are, the Love you are. Love makes us whole because Love is wholeness, and is what we are.

This wholeness is the healed state, in which everyone understands and Knows their Self in Love, which is the same Love as everyone else. No one is “other. No one is “separate”. No one is “less than”. We are all that beautiful, all-pervading, all-encompassing, infinite Love.

What’s not to be Joyful? If you were there, wouldn’t you want everyone to Know themselves as that Love, to join you in that joy?

 

 

 

Where do you stand? -Fulfillment (1.6.16)

Copyright Tam Black 2018
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Guiding Thought

Why would you choose to limit yourself? To limit your reality? All reality is yours, and yours to give. In giving and sharing, your Joy increases, expanding Love, expanding your experience of Life!

Sharing

I have moments of being in love with some of the people I work with. Now is one of those moments. Every year at this time, I initiate a project and connect via email with about 75 people…we work on the project for about 7 months via email,  then go our separate ways until this time again next year. I’ve just sent that initiating email, and begun the re-connections. Each and every one of these people is so dear to me–so gracious, kind, and caring. I just love them ALL.

This is just one area of my work-life. Not all my work-related relationships are like this. I still work in an office-atmosphere full of ego and lower-minded pettiness–most of which I do well to avoid (keep my head down…do my job). The contrast is clear to me, though–what is possible, vs. what lower-minded-ego-assertion creates.

The first (loving my colleagues) is full of mutual respect, good/positive communication, caring about the work, cooperation, and a sense of personal responsibility. The second is full of undercutting, backstabbing, non-or-false-communication, competition, and blame.

What is ironic to me is that these are not two separate workplaces. It’s all the same place, just different personalities that create the two atmospheres and experiences.

It only takes a few lower-minded-ego personalities to depress the morale of a place…but it also only takes a few higher-minded, loving, positive personalities to raise it.

Most people are not one or the other. Most people are neutral, and just go with the dominant energy-force, swayed by whatever is in front of them Most people are asleep. Zombies. Unaware that they have a choice.

But everyone has a choice–and more and more people are waking up to that every day. The balance is shifting. More and more people are tired of the Debbie-downers, the competitive personalities that want to win, which means smashing anyone in their path.

I heard a great phrase today: be committed to the process, not to the result.

People who are committed to a result are usually committed to it because they see that result as something that is good for themselves, not for a group, not for another. The result they seek is selfish and self-serving.

People who are committed to a process encourage each other, share with each other, learn from each other–and use those dynamics to unfold a result, rather than impose a result.

So much more is possible with an unfolding–anything can happen, the possibilities are endless.

Do you see, in this extended example how love opens up interaction, communication, and relationships, and how ego-mindedness shuts it down? Do you see how people limit themselves when they don’t choose love? Do you see the possibilities that open up when people bring cooperation, good will, and helpfulness to work, and to relationships? Do you see how joy increases with love, how your experience of Life can increase with Love?

More and more people are waking up. More and more people are noticing the difference in a workplace when there is cooperation, or when there is competition. More and more people are choosing to be positive, to be uplifting, to not just go with the flow of the de-moralizers.

Where are you?

Repetition’s Usefulness -Fulfillment (1.6.15)

Copyright Tam Black 2018
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Guiding Thought

In Divine Mind, you are filled full! All are equally filled full. All are equal in Love. Fill your mind with thoughts of fulfillment and remember what you already know. Be determined to fulfill your purpose, to know your Self as Divine Love, and to share the fullness you are.

Sharing

Sometimes this feels so repetitious. I know that’s the point to some degree: hearing the same thing in different ways for various brain-pathways to be activated all around the same topic, increasing the brain capacity and energy allocated to that particular topic.

And I know that another reason to repeat a concept through different words is to encourage the feeling of the words. Anyone can intellectualize an idea over and over and over, but if it does not seep in deeper–to the feeling level, to the level of being an innate, natural response–it is not going to be that person’s lived reality.

That’s the point of the repetition, of approaching a topic (like Fulfillment) from various perspective, through different lenses, with different words. It’s to encourage me/you to live the words.

To live a life of Fulfillment.

Fulfillment lives with us, whether we know it or not. Fulfillment is ours, immediately, every moment. If there is any thought of someone else having more than you, or something being inadequate or insufficient in your life, then there is something in your consciousness that is filtering out your All-sufficiency, your total overflowing fulfillment.

It’s your responsibility to find those blocks in your filters and clean them out, so that all the Fulfillment that is there, waiting for you, will flow into your life.

This also means checking yourself and stop falling into patterns of envy, guilt, blame, or shame. If any of those feelings are in your life–either giving or receiving them, and you don’t have the Fulfillment that you want, those patterns are a good place to begin cleaning out.

There’s never a reason for guilt. You are forgiven, and thereby innocent…right now, and always.
There’s never a reason for blame. Everyone else is forgiven, and thereby innocent…right now, and always.
There’s never a reason for shame. Everyone is perfect…beautifully, divinely perfect.
There’s never a reason for envy. There is enough for everyone, always. Including you. In Divine Order, through Divine Love, for Divine Purpose.