“Shiva Dances on Me”: Journey of Healing 2.0 – Day 33

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Prologue– I’d just like to make a quick “announcement” before the Journey today: You may or may not be aware that the Journeys up to this point have been a process leading up to a 50-year commitment, starting in 2018, to doing these Journeys. I’m in beta mode, working out bugs, getting the order “right”, working out the Guiding Thoughts, etc. I had planned for the next Journey to be Journey of Fulfillment, but as I have been going through this Journey, it has occurred to me that Journey of Fulfillment should really be after Journey of Abundance, so I have swapped the order. The next Journey will be Abundance (starting July 28), followed by Fulfillment (starting September 18). Thanks!



Guiding Thought

I rely on my own Loving Presence to lead and guide me toward the meaning of healing. Seeking the meaning of healing frames all my activity and gives context to all my interactions. Though I may encounter disturbances throughout daily activity, I lay them at the feet of my own Loving Presence and continue to ask, “What is healing?” My own Loving Presence directs me as I listen in the stillness.



Now is a time for courage. It’s time to be strong; it’s time to be brave. It’s time to remember what you want, what you really want, and be prepared to let everything else go.

It’s time for creation…and destruction. You are moving yourself toward Truth, toward the Truth of YOU. All false notions of who you are and what you are here to do must be laid aside. “Healing frames all my activity and gives context to all my interactions”. Healing is letting go of false notions and claiming the Truth of you. This can be experienced at times as upheaval–especially if you are invested in other peoples’ investments in you remaining the same. “Disturbances throughout daily activity” must be recognized for what they are: the release of the old, the destruction of things/situations that no longer serve your Divine Healing.

The Hindu deity Shiva Nataraj (dancing Shiva) comes to mind. The symbolism of the statue is instructive for understanding this process of creation-destruction. Shiva dances within a representation of the manifest universe, the material world, where the birth-death cycle holds everything in its grip. In this world, there is illusion, suffering, and pain. Shiva leads us out of this.

Shiva dances upon a dwarf which represents a human soul that is earthbound. The soul has forgotten its Divine connection and remains bound through its own confusion, forgetfulness, and unwillingness to lift itself (laziness). The leg which holds the dwarf down represents Shiva’s victory over ignorance. Shiva’s raised leg represents His assistance in releasing the Soul from its bondage.

Shiva is ever-active in taking action against ignorance, and releasing Souls from bondage. This is the destructive aspect of Shiva: He destroys those things that keep people bound. But people, in their confusion and forgetfulness, fear the destruction of those things that are familiar. Shiva is destroying what is counter to the person’s highest good, and creating that which is for the person’s ultimate good. (This is represented by the fire in the upper-left hand.)

But, Shiva even brings help to people. His lower right hand is in the position that symbolizes fearlessness. He offers this blessing to offer protection from both evil and ignorance to those who willingly embrace his ultimate creation (the righteousness of Dharma).

All of this adds up to Shiva leading souls out of ignorance and into liberation, signified by the lower left arm, in the “elephant trunk” pose.

There is, of course, more symbolism within the statue; I’ve only noted the aspects that feel relevant to this part of my Journey.

I am the dwarf, and Shiva is dancing on me. The difference between me and the dwarf is that I’ve asked for the destruction of things that hinder my healing, my spiritual growth, my enlightenment. I have the advantage of at least recognizing that the “destruction” is for my own good. And, I think this means that I am able to be more aware of Shiva’s protection, and I can face what comes with fearlessness. I can also be excited about what is being created!

“A New Era?”: Journey of Healing 2.0 – Day 32

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Guiding Thought

I go deep within my inner stillness, and feel Divine Mind’s presence within me. I hold out my empty hands, symbolic of leaving preconceptions behind; symbolic of seeking True answers, and I ask, “What is the essence of healing?” These words resonate within me, as though in a vast cavern.  The word essence reverberates with these thoughts, “For what do I care most deeply?”; “What is my own essence?”; “What is my Truth?”; “Where is my deepest hurt, my pain, my sorrow, that all may be healed?”



“Leave everything and follow me” – Jesus

Have you heard that the planet and it’s people are in the midst of enormous changes? Sure there is climate change, political upheavals, economic shifts, population movements. These, though, are merely the “symptoms” of the changes I am talking about. Some call the change the ending of the Kali Yuga (Hindu), the transition into the Age of Aquarius (New Age), or Earth Birth Changes (St. Germain), or “New Earth” (Eckhart Tolle). The crux of all of these is that we are at a time on the planet when people are “waking up” en masse, that there is a shift in how people think, what they think about, and how they want to live, and that shifting is affecting political systems, economic systems, etc . People are tired of being tired, downtrodden; they are tired of struggle, of anger, of hostility and violence; they are tired of a mass mind-set that does not value life, including the life of the planet. Sound familiar?

That is the context which “descended upon me” for today’s Guiding Thought. The empty hands are not only symbolic of leaving preconceptions behind, but they are also symbolic of leaving the old world behind. Leave everything behind. Leave behind anger, hostility, blame, desire, and greed.  Let’s create something new, something that is beautiful!

“Do not waste your time in wanting things that you know have their limit. Desire the ultimate, and you shall have it! Remember always the Divine Love, the Divine help, the Divinity ultimately within yourself. You are an instrument of this Love, and instrument of this joy and bliss and happiness. You have to reflect it, and for you to want to reflect it, you have to really want that reflection.” -Shri Swami Vishwananda

I don’t know what I believe regarding these changes. I don’t know if it’s a mass shift in consciousness, if the stars and planets are aligning in a new way, or if there are cosmic energies available now for transformation that have never been available before; I don’t know. But I do know that my current life-experiences do seem to fit the mold for changes are happening.

What is the essence of healing? “For what do I care most deeply?”; “What is my own essence?”; “What is my Truth?”; “Where is my deepest hurt, my pain, my sorrow, that all may be healed?”

 I’ve been asking these questions for a while now.  What it feels like is that I am arriving at an answer, but the answer is in the form of leaving everything behind, so that I can move forward. Leaving everything behind kind of feels like upheaval, as well as standing on the precipice of something unknown…scary…sort of.

It does feel uncomfortable, because “the unknown” usually is. But I also feel like I’ve asked for this, so even if I don’t know what is coming, it is totally for the GOOD, for my good. So I just need to let go, trust, and keep my focus on the Divine Love within.


Better put your seat belt on for this one: Journey of Worth 2.0 – Day 26

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Guiding Thought

We are ALL One. We are not alone. Alone becomes All One in Unity and Healing. I am that which you are, which we become, together. There is no separation—we mend the pieces: At One there are no limits, at One there are no boundaries. At One we are free—together.


I ask you to imagine this Guiding Thought. Oneness can be such a tough concept to imagine, but go into that creative part of your brain, open your heart, and let’s see if we can get closer to feeling it together.

Let’s start with we are ALL One. You may imagine this with the imagery of an ocean, each of us drops, together making up the vastness of ocean. I prefer to think of it this way: I see myself; I see you; I see my friends, family, and co-workers; I extend my vision and imagine I can see everyone on earth–every man, woman, and child–in my mind’s eye. Even if I can’t see everyone, I pretend like I can. I begin with all of us as discrete and independent beings.

Then, I imagine something that I would describe as a thin atmospheric layer that exists above all of us, everywhere, around the entire planet. This layer is only about 2 feet deep, and it “flows”, it circulates. It is energy and substance, intelligence and consciousness, it is vibration and color. It is the essence of what some call the Christ Presence or the Buddha Nature, or the Higher Self. It floats right there, touching the tops of our heads, all of us, everywhere. It mingles with our energy, to the degree that we invite and allow it.

As someone, anyone, consciously and intentionally opens to that energy that flows above us, and invites It in, It surrounds that person, mingling with their own energy, entering into their personal physical energy-flow.

This invisible substance is our Oneness. It is the ocean to our drops. Its essence is our Unity; in It, we are One; through it, we know ourselves as One; we recognize It in others, and Know It as ourselves.

Herein lies the healing, and the need for healing. Generally speaking, people do not recognize their own unity in another. People see only the physical body, each of us as discrete and independent beings. But in this essence, I am that which you are, in essence.

So what does it mean, in this scenario to heal, or to mend the pieces? First, I must do the work of reaching and letting go within myself; in other words, I must work on healing my own inner hurts and fragments, to make myself Whole, to know myself as Whole, and to express my wholiness. This (these Journeys) is one way I work on this daily.

The next step is to imagine myself working on myself in that same way, for you. Right now, I am at a point, where I have worked through a lot of issues on feeling unwanted, feeling overlooked, unlovable, and worth-less. Having worked on those things within myself, I now have an understanding of how other people may feel, and I want to help them not feel that way–just as I no longer feel that way. So I imagine…

Since we are One in the essence of the energy that surrounds us, I can imagine the healing I do for me, within me, I am also doing for you, within you. We are One, why not?

Now, I’m going to take this idea to its logical conclusion, then explain why that conclusion is not (yet) a reality.

The logical conclusion is this: It only takes one person to heal and unite everyone on the planet through this energy, through Oneness. That’s right. In fact, I would say another conclusion is that everyone on the planet already has been healed, completely, and that we are all Whole and Holy, because at least one person has done it for everyone on the planet.

>Yeah. Right.< I know, I know, it’s unbelievable, isn’t it? It’s unbelievable because you don’t see it, because we still see and experience pain and suffering and alienation and fragmentation.

So, if it’s done, why isn’t it done? I’m going to tell you:

Let’s start with you, as an example. You work hard to purify yourself, like the glass of muddy water:

Picture a glass filled with muddy water. Some of the mud has settled on the bottom of the glass, some of the mud drifts around in the water. Now imagine pure, clean water being poured into this glass; what happens? First it stirs up the mud, making the water look even murkier. But eventually, as the water level rises and begins to spill out over the lip of the glass, the mud also begins to flow out of the container. The mud that flows out is correlated to the amount and intensity of the amount of pure, clean water that flows in. If there is a strong, steady stream of pure, clean water, the mud flows out rapidly; if there is a slow dribble of pure, clean water, the displacement of mud is also slow. Whatever the pace, with enough time and addition of pure, clean water, eventually all of the mud washes out, and in the glass is left only pure, clean water. (see: Bless The Water for the full article)

The water in your glass is clear! YAY!

But we are One:

26 cascade

My mud is your mud is our mud until ALL our glasses are pure. Really. What we have to heal individually is also in the collective consciousness. You know this. Just because you are free from mental and emotional fetters, you know people who have not freed themselves. Until they are free too, you are still fettered. Sorry to break that to you.

Ok, so then, let’s say EVERYONE works to purify their glass. Imagine THAT MOMENT, when everyone on the entire planet says to themselves, “Today, I release all bonds, I choose to purify my mind/body/emotions right now. In the Name of (whatever name of) God, who is Divine Love and Oneness, I decree, I am pure! Let it be done, and so it is!” According to what I wrote above, that should do it, right? Everyone’s glass is pure all at the same time! Done!

But, no. I mean, maybe, but, unfortunately that’s not the only factor.

You see, we all have free will. And individual thoughts. And individual habits. And individual impressions that have been imprinted within our energy/mind/emotions for a long, long time.  When I say “let it be done, and so it is” right now, it is done. It is. But then, a new moment comes into being and unless I hold onto that “let it be done, and so it is” in that next moment, I can lose/forget what just happened in that last moment. The choice for purity, for freedom, for Love, for Oneness to be, must be here, now, eternal and infinite, in all of us, everywhere, for all time. Whew.

So you see, when you are purifying yourself, you may also be continuing to create/recreate/mis-create in other areas where your own awareness/light has not yet reached. And, as you work through the Essence to heal others, they might be creating/re-creating/mis-creating despite your best efforts.

We are doing this work for everyone. You know this, too. We are drops of water in the top glass of the mass consciousness champagne cascade. Maybe by now we are a trickle. But, there are a lot of glasses beneath us. The good news is, we are not actually the top glass; there are lots of glasses above us, doing this work, for us too.


If you’ve got it give it: Journey of Worth 2.0 – Day 21

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Guiding Thought

We have forgotten our Self. We have forgotten who we are. We have forgotten that we are established in Love and by Love, which is infinite and eternal; therefore, our worth is infinite and eternal. We seek to remember our Self.

We choose to remember our Self. We choose to remember who we are and our infinite worth in Love. We choose to be aware, to understand, and to Know Our Self as the Love we are. We choose to share who we are with the world, giving our infinite worth, measured in infinite Love.


Welcome to round 3! Wow. This Journey is flying. If you are new here, see this page for general information about the Journey, and specifically how the round changes.

When I was a kid, my favorite Dr. Seuss book was “Did I Ever Tell You How Lucky You Are?”

When you think things are bad,

when you feel sour and blue,

when you start to get mad…

you should do what I do!

Just tell yourself, Duckie,

you’re really quite lucky!

Some people are much more…

oh, ever so much more…

oh, muchly much-much more

unlucky than you!

Then, the book goes through, in proper Dr. Seuss fashion rhythmically-rhyming terrible scenarios you can feel yourself to be luckier than.

Be grateful you’re not in the forest in France

Where the average young person just hasn’t a chance

To escape from the perilous pants eating plants

But your pants are safe, you’re a fortunate guy

You ought to be shouting how lucky am I!

Sometimes when feeling lucky, it’s like the same kind of feeling as being blessed, that feeling of fortune shining on you; the world is smiling at you, so you can smile at the world.

Sometimes feeling lucky means that no matter how bad someone thinks a situation may be, there is always a “worse case” and so they can feel grateful for what they have, no matter what.

Sometimes when someone is feeling lucky it’s because they see someone else in a worse situation, and they feel bad for that person, but they also think “thank god it’s not me”.  In fact, sometimes, when people feel bad, this is the route they take, they look upon others worse off than they, so they can feel better, or sometimes even make someone feel bad so they can feel better.

It’s this third case that made me think of my favorite Dr. Seuss book today. Many times when people see another in a bad situation, the tendency is to put space (emotional-mental-physical) between themselves and that bad situation. An unlucky situation (let’s say, for example, homelessness, disability, the loss of a loved one, etc.) feels uncomfortable, and it’s hard to be around. Leave that person alone; I want no part of that.

In this round, we remember our Self. Those people need my-your-our love and support. You are luckier than they are so that you can give them love and support. If you’ve got it, give it.

A bit extended Dr. Seuss story from that book, but you’ve got to love it….

“Oh, the jobs people work at! Out west near Hawtch-Hawtch there’s a Hawtch-Hawtcher bee watcher, his job is to watch. Is to keep both his eyes on the lazy town bee, a bee that is watched will work harder you see. So he watched and he watched, but in spite of his watch that bee didn’t work any harder not mawtch. So then somebody said “Our old bee-watching man just isn’t bee watching as hard as he can, he ought to be watched by another Hawtch-Hawtcher! The thing that we need is a bee-watcher-watcher!”. Well, the bee-watcher-watcher watched the bee-watcher. He didn’t watch well so another Hawtch-Hawtcher had to come in as a watch-watcher-watcher! And now all the Hawtchers who live in Hawtch-Hawtch are watching on watch watcher watchering watch, watch watching the watcher who’s watching that bee. You’re not a Hawtch-Watcher you’re lucky you see!”                    ~Dr. Seuss

Please, sir, may I have some more? Journey of Purpose 2.0 – Day 15

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Guiding Thought

Your Purpose is to awaken to the Truth within you and share it. The Truth within you—your Inner Divine Mind—flows constantly and purely through you. As you go deeper in your awareness, the current of this flow broadens, strengthens, and brightens. It fills you and pours forth. This is Your Source, the Source of all your good, all your happiness, and all your abundance. Awaken now to your Inner Divine Mind and invite it to express itself as every person and event that will increase your awareness of it.


I really, really want to believe I have a “higher purpose”. I want to believe there is truth to many of the spiritual teachings of ages about there being a realm of light, of love, of heaven on earth, of a beautiful, blissful state that we can access, that we can live.

But there is this thing called material reality, which consists of a material body, and people, and interactions, and emotions, and all this stuff. And if I were to look at this stuff and focus on it, I would never ever in a million years think there is anything more. I would be bogged down, immersed, believing what I see and experience day in and day out.

Wanting to believe keeps me going. Notice that I am not saying “I believe!!” but I think that what I have–or what I feel-or what I am describing is faith. But I am not sure. Wouldn’t it be faith that sustains and encourages?

I am trying to figure this out. What do I believe? What is faith? Where do I place my faith? Do I have faith at all? These are not new questions. I’ve been asking them for years (on and off). Sometimes I have answers. Currently, I do not.

What I know is that I feel like this seeking, searching, doing, questioning…all of this is what I do. This looking and asking and trying to figure out, this wanting to believe, is what I do naturally. I can’t imagine not doing it, not being driven (yes, driven) by wanting to believe. (It occurs to my that I need to let this go.)

I know I feel soothed and comforted in the seeking and asking; but I also know that I can go long stretches with no clue about what I am doing, with no ready “answers”.

I have been having an intense week. There is a lot going on energetically, emotionally, at work, at home… This morning, I thought to myself, “I need to do more practices… I need to write more, do more mantra…more, more, more!” Then I thought, “WHO does that? Who (in their right mind), does stuff to encourage intensity??” Please, sir, may I have some more?*

Most people retreat (or at least that is what I think); most people back up to where they are comfortable, suppressing emotions, glossing over things, returning to an easier space. I go into it, meet it head on and confront it to give me everything it’s got. I want it, because if I go into it, I might be able to figure it out, learn more, get more out of it, get through it, be stronger for next time.

I always get through it; there’s always a next time.

*There is a second meaning to this phrase that I intend. The first meaning is, of course, the line from Oliver Twist. The second meaning, I cannot verify and nothing shows up in Google that I found to reference, thus it is purely anecdotal. I had a friend in the military, who once told me that when new recruits were hazed, they were made to say, “please, sir, may I have some more”. Using this phrase, the recruits were made to request harsh treatment. Or in my case, intensity.

“Starburst”: Journey of the Heart 2.0 – Day 07

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Journey of the Heart – Day 07
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Guiding Thought

I focus my heart-love in the service of others.

As I serve others through my deepest heart-love, my own love expands and becomes amplified.

There is always more love to share, to give, to experience!

Such joy and gratitude fill me, when I open to my heart’s love!

Play the Guiding Thought here (loops automatically). Journey of the Heart audio created by Brad Vanlandingham for Susanwithpearls:




First, I would like to thank Ka (http://fiestaestrellas.com/), who recently encouraged me through some self-pity regarding my artwork! I think I need to claim my artistic expression more courageously!

After I drew this picture, I scrolled through some of the pictures from the first Journey of the Heart; I found the picture for today’s Journey is remarkably similar to the picture from day 07 of the first Journey. REMARKABLY. See?

Journey of the Heart 1.0 - Day 07 Susan Billmaier for susanwithpearls
Journey of the Heart 1.0 – Day 07
Susan Billmaier for susanwithpearls

They both have some sort of “source” in the lower left, out of which flows some energy. That energy in both pictures flows through something—both of which have multi-layers, and ends up fanning out, like flames or tree-branches.

What is my subconscious getting at here? I wonder what the significance is, if there is any significance at all.

It was a conscious choice for this Journey that my drawings are more abstract than that Journey. There is the one Guiding Thought on this Journey that begins, “Today I decide to give my heart reign…” Well, deciding to allow my drawings to be completely abstract is one way I am choosing to enact this throughout the Journey. The Heart is thoroughly abstract. If I try to translate the heart’s message into recognizable things (people, hearts, globes, etc.…) I may be distorting the purity of the message.

Another problem with trying to directly represent the message through obvious symbols is I am not able to represent everything I want to. For example, how would I represent focusing my heart-love? How do I represent serving others through heart-love? It’s not like saying, “draw a table”. A table is something tangible, something that can be seen and felt and recognized when represented in a drawing, but focusing heart-love in the service of others is intangible and different for every person.

That’s the thing about these Guiding Thoughts…they are personal…everyone is going to have their own feeling about them, and their own way of representing that feeling. It’s that individual feeling that matters. If I can feel that feeling deeply and intensely, really feel what the heart is communicating to me, then draw whatever, the picture will convey the totality of that feeling and will do so in such a way that other people will get it, because (since our hearts are connected in Oneness) my expression of heart-feeling will communicate with you on that level. That is how multiplicities become unified: through our feeling nature (our hearts) universalizing our personal interpretations.

“The Jewel of Here and Now”: Journey of the Heart 2.0 – Day 06

Journey of the Heart - Day 06 Susan Billmaier for susanwithpearls
Journey of the Heart – Day 06
Susan Billmaier for susanwithpearls

Guiding Thought

I listen to my heart and with my heart.

My heart pays attention to others, listening to their inner voice, their unspoken words.

I care, and attend with love to their deeper, silent needs, asking their heart, “How may I strengthen you and raise your energy?”

Play the Guiding Thought here (loops automatically). Journey of the Heart audio created by Brad Vanlandingham for Susanwithpearls:



I have to admit…I have not been feeling very “deep” lately. I think this may have to do with getting into the swing of this Journey after my extended break at the end of 2015. It also may have to do with my impatience…I’ve been in a frame of mind of “I want it now!”…”Why is it not happening when and how I want it to?” What makes it worse, is 1) I know better and 2) I have (just a bit of) negative self-talk about the folly of being superficial. But apparently, I don’t know better, and sometimes a superficial approach is just what I need to get to a new place. It’s like I am figuring something out I think I should have already figured out (oh no, not this again!?).

So I took my bath, and had a flash of comforting insight: I really am working on devotion and love. I mean, I am sincere about it. Sometimes I feel like I don’t know what I’m doing, but my approach is always sincere. I know that doesn’t sound like much, but you know how it feels to get that overwhelming feeling of reassurance, that feeling you could not possibly have generated yourself, because of all of the doubts and questions going on in your head? You know the one? Yeah, I breathed easier after that.

Then I got some verification. I like it when I get verification. I was browsing a bit, actually trying to figure out why my picture today looks so familiar (I did figure it out, I’ll get to that in a second); I came across this quote: “[God] is not concerned with the manner in which you approach [Him/Her] or what name or form you give to Him, but simply that you do so with the utmost sincere Love and Devotion.” -Swami Vishvananda. There it was…again! Love and Devotion. Ohhh, yes! Thank you!

How does all this relate to the picture today? I haven’t a clue. But I can tell you I am pretty sure the circle represents spirit, the square represents matter (or earth), and the triangle represents God (connection to divinity). Anyone want to correct me on these? In the picture, these three things are encompassed by a huge jewel. Whatever the case, I think it’s pretty cool. (Today I’m not beating myself up about not being an artist!).

Leonardo da Vinci "Vitruvian Man"/public domain edited for susanwithpearls
Leonardo da Vinci
“Vitruvian Man”/public domain
edited for susanwithpearls

Does the picture look vaguely familiar, somehow, to you? Here, let me help:

What is interesting (and I am writing this from memory, so I may have some details incorrect, but you’ll get the gist), is that Drunvalo Malchizedeck explains the da Vinci painting is a representation of how earth and spirit were aligned when da Vinci painted it, that is, earth is situated slightly below spirit. Through Malchizedeck’s MerKaBa breathing exercise, spirit and earth become more closely aligned, as they are in my picture—they overlap. I don’t know if this is a way for my subconscious to let me know that earth and spirit are aligning within me… but I like the idea, so I’ll keep it for now….and let the Journey take me further, for more information!


“Primordial Nuclear Samurai, with Lotus” : Journey of the Heart 2.0 – Day 05

Journey of the Heart - Day 05 Susan Billmaier for susanwithpearls
Journey of the Heart – Day 05
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Guiding Thought

I bring my awareness to my heart and resonate with its love.

Naturally and easily my heart-love radiates through me.

Love is present now—rippling in to the future, releasing the past.

Play the Guiding Thought here (loops automatically). Journey of the Heart audio created by Brad Vanlandingham for Susanwithpearls:



There’s an element of “RAAAAWWWWRRRR” to this picture. And yet, there are flowers.

There is not passion here (as in: strong emotion), but there is power and strength which seems to be coming up out of the depths of somewhere.

Whatever this “thing” is, it is present and will not be overlooked.

Could this be “Love is present now”? There is a definitely a feeling of something radiating through.

If I think about it, if “Love is present now”, then it makes sense that it ripples into the future and releases the past. When the present is all there is the past is automatically released; the present (love) is all that is experienced.

“Dr. Sus’ Celestial Spaceship”: Journey of the Heart 2.0 – Day 04

Journey of the Heart - Day 04 Susan Billmaier for susanwithpearls
Journey of the Heart – Day 04
Susan Billmaier for susanwithpearls

Guiding Thought

Oh, my beautiful blissful heart!

How can I deepen and expand my relationship with you?

How can I give your love, your wisdom, your compassion more openly and freely?

How can I know you, my heart of love, as myself?

Play the Guiding Thought here (loops automatically). Journey of the Heart audio created by Brad Vanlandingham for Susanwithpearls:



It came to me very clearly today that this Journey is not at all about understanding. It is not of, or for, the mind in any way.

The Journey is simply about spending time with my heart through these thoughts, in these moments. It does not matter what comes out! The simple act of sitting here with colored pencils in hand, with the intention of being with my heart is all I need to do. The stuff that comes out is fun! Let it be fun!

The heart communicates so differently than the mind. In order to reach it, I must let go of all preconceptions of images, drawing, “right” or “wrong”. The heart’s art is abstract. The mind may never understand, may never be able to interpret…and that’s OK! Simply doing the drawings, and looking at them, connects me to that intuitive, creative, expressive part of myself—my heart!

What is your heart’s expression? How are you doing? How is your heart?