Why- Healing (1.4.0)

Welcome to Journey of Healing! I am glad you are here. Are you ready to spend 40 days immersing your consciousness in thoughts of healing? 

I know 40 days sounds like a lot. And I suppose it is. But think about it: 40 days of nurturing and caring for yourself, being gentle with yourself, overlooking mistakes, giving yourself some slack (not being so hard on yourself), and generally being Truly nice to yourself, learning to be your Self. Now, doesn’t that bring about a grateful sigh? Oh yes.

To begin, the first step is to think about what this Journey means to you. Why do you want to do it? Is it about healing the body? Healing the mind? Moving body/mind into greater alignment with Soul? Whatever that is for you, take a minute to write it down.

As for me…

I was going to write a long expose about Oneness and Unity, and about how “True Healing” is really leaving behind perception, so that Oneness and Unity can be experienced beyond perception

I was going to write a bit about the need for Faith, and how the previous Journey increased my faith in Faith, and how that was brought about through some serious letting go and releasing…

I was going to write about how healing is connected to forgiveness, how the world needs SO MUCH healing and forgiveness, and it’s up to us

I was going to write about how it takes as much time and energy to invoke healing for the 7.5 billion people on the planet, as it does to invoke healing for just one’s self, or for just one other person, so, why not always invoke healing for everyone?

There was so much I was going to write about why I am doing this Journey, and what it means to me.

But then flippantly, I inserted that silly face above (which is a good representation for how I generally feel starting every Journey–a mix of “oh my God, am I insane?” and “OH YES, I am ready for this!”– and wrote a completely unplanned paragraph.

When I finished that paragraph, I knew. That’s it.

This is why I am doing Journey of Healing:

40 days of nurturing and caring for myself, being gentle with myself, overlooking mistakes, giving myself some slack (not being so hard on myself (really, I need this)), and generally being Truly nice to (and patient with) myself, learning to be my Self.

Simple. No big hopes, dreams, or goals. No pressure. No expectations. Just nurturing and caring for myself and being gentle with myself…

I really can feel a grateful sigh ripple through my whole body and being.

Whatever your reasons for spending 40 days focused on healing, I am glad you are here. I always invoke your healing, as I am doing these Journeys, so your intentions–whatever they are (given to Divine Light, for Divine Purpose, for the benefit of All) will be empowered.

We are all in this together. Every effort matters. Thank you for your contribution.


Hold Fast– Worth (1.3.32)

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Guiding Thought

I love myself for the Truth within me. The Truth within me Knows me for who I am—Pure Love, Only Love, beyond all valuing of the world. In Love all are equal, for we are One. This is how Truth Knows me—Pure, One, and Free. This is my Truth; this is our Truth; this is the Self I love.


A friend wrote this to me in an email earlier today:

we both know only too well that while we are here things seem important to us, that ultimately we are doing not cos we have to, but just because we can, and when we stand back sometimes we can see that human life is mostly much ado about a meaningless nothing.

This is the key today: sifting the meaningless nothing from the Truth, and making human life about the Truth within.

People go through rough patches, but as my friend points out–it’s mostly of our own making “because we can”, and it’s also mostly meaningless nothing. Why then, oh why, do we do it to ourselves, and buy into it, and then not know how to get ourselves out of it?

I was reading a Christian blog on tithing also earlier today. The author referred several times to points in his life when he was “tested”, and when he went through a “crisis of faith”–and he was currently experiencing such a crisis.

Last weekend, I binge-watched several episodes of Naked and Afraid XL: All Stars, the shows from the Amazon, in which Chance, an Army Ranger, stayed with Russel because “you never leave a man behind”, then Russel turns around and leaves Chance because he was “only thinking of himself”, making for a (pretty severe) mental crisis for Chance.

Pretty much this whole Journey I’ve been in and out of my own crisis–which I’ve called “panic” and “anxiety”. From the two above examples, and my own experience, it seems like when these crises are happening, it’s not like there is anything specific to do, except to get through it. The Christian blogger prays, Chance repeated his military creed, and I’ve been doing mantra.

There’s an element of acceptance here, “there’s nothing to do, but to get through it”.

At the moment, I am thinking that acceptance is the key. But acceptance, to the mind, is difficult because it feels like what you’re accepting is something you don’t want i.e. panic and anxiety, or personal crisis, or betrayal. But this is the trick of the mind, right? The panic and anxiety are caused by not accepting–they are caused by resisting the Truth within.

The Truth within Knows the Truth of us.

In crisis, we remind ourselves of that Truth, however we can, and by doing so, align with It. When we align with Truth, we align with what is Real, not the meaningless nothingness our minds have constructed.

The Christian Blogger reminds himself of Truth through prayer. I use these Journeys, and mantra. Chance used the Ranger Creed (below). Any method that points you to your own highest ideal–the strength within, a higher cause, responsibility to be the best human being you can be–will increase the influence of that Ideal, and decrease the grip of the mind which presents us with meaninglessness.

Cling to the ideal. Cling to the highest vision for yourself. Do whatever you need to do to get through it, with the Truth of your Self intact. Hold fast. This too shall pass.

I am thankful for friends with wise words. I am thankful for friends who keep me afloat. I am thankful for friends who anchor me. I am thankful for friends who know when to tell me to breathe! By being their Truth, they remind me of mine.

Ranger Creed

Recognizing that I volunteered as a Ranger, fully knowing the hazards of my chosen profession, I will always endeavor to uphold the prestige, honor, and high esprit de corps of my Ranger Regiment.

Acknowledging the fact that a Ranger is a more elite soldier who arrives at the cutting edge of battle by land, sea, or air, I accept the fact that as a Ranger my country expects me to move further, faster, and fight harder than any other soldier.

Never shall I fail my comrades. I will always keep myself mentally alert, physically strong, and morally straight and I will shoulder more than my share of the task whatever it may be, one hundred percent and then some.

Gallantly will I show the world that I am a specially selected and well-trained soldier. My courtesy to superior officers, neatness of dress, and care of equipment shall set the example for others to follow.

Energetically will I meet the enemies of my country. I shall defeat them on the field of battle for I am better trained and will fight with all my might. Surrender is not a Ranger word. I will never leave a fallen comrade to fall into the hands of the enemy and under no circumstances will I ever embarrass my country.

Readily will I display the intestinal fortitude required to fight on to the Ranger objective and complete the mission, though I be the lone survivor.

Rangers, lead the way.



Why Journey of the Heart 1.1.0

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Yay! It’s 2018! Aren’t you glad to be done with 2017? So many people I know had a lot of stress over the course of 2017. It wasn’t always big stress, but it seems like it all just kept piling on, culminating in a very stressful year. I am looking forward to a great 2018–here’s hoping!

Today, Journey of the Heart begins! We had a bit of a blizzard here on the east coast, which means I was a bit distracted from the Journeys–I had to make it safely to work (took me over an hour to go about 22 miles), safely home from work (another 90 minutes), then clear my driveway. But I am here, now. Ready to go.

For those who are returning to the Journeys, welcome back; for those who are new here, welcome! If you are new to the Journeys, this post may not make much sense, so please check out what’s going on today (the Why) here.

Why Journey of the Heart

One of the reasons I am excited about 2018 is because this is the start of the first official cycle of Journeys. A cycle consists of 14 Journeys, over the period of two years. Yeah.

The cycle always begins with the heart because it’s through the heart that we are able to connect with a deeper part of ourselves. Through the heart we connect with our deepest wishes-wants-desires, those things that are intangible and abstract, yet give us the most fulfillment, the most filled-fullness.

It is in the heart that dualities are unified and limits are expanded. It is through the heart that we solve puzzles with disparate pieces. Being aware of the heart helps us make better choices. Opening the heart brings us more love and harmony.

The cycle begins with the heart to establish these qualities: unity, connection, heart-felt intuition, love, and harmony. The Journeys that follow will draw from the heart-energy we bring forth here on this Journey. We will be directing our consciousness to build a solid foundation upon which our consciousness can grow over the upcoming Journeys.

In this sense, Why Journey of the Heart is very simple: begin a conscious relationship with yourself, through the heart; take the steps; begin. Each day, connect with your heart, invite your heart-energy to inform your choices, and open to its direction.

Allow it to be simple; allow the opening to be at a pace that is comfortable for you. Too much, and fear may step in, too little and you may not notice. There are many who need to heal their relationship with their heart; it takes time to open, listen, and trust. Be gentle with yourself (and I remind myself of that too!) as you move through the 40-days.

Allow it to be fun! There is so much Joy within you waiting to come forth! Even as I write this, I feel my heart almost giddy with delight and anticipation—it knows what joy it wants to bring me!

There are (as usual) a few things that I want to work on specifically for this Journey, keeping in mind I am setting the stage for the following 13 Journeys over the next two years. This is a “big picture” plan for myself, and much of this I have been working on over and over for years. You do not need to go this far in thinking about how to frame your Journey of the Heart; for those just beginning it’s enough to be here, now, with your heart. Bring your attention to your heart, and ask it why it’s important to connect with it. Then write. Keep it simple. Keep it easy.

Here is my Why a Journey of the Heart:

  1. The heart’s intelligence is closest to the energy of infinity, eternity, Divine Love, and Divine Oneness. To walk with enlightenment means to bring that energy connected to the heart out, into the world. I want to walk a path of enlightenment, thus I want to connect with my heart.
  2. Divine co-creation. This is something I have been working on for a while…What is the highest work that I can do in the world? What can I bring and give to serve others with highest Divine Light and Love? Simply put: what is my highest purpose? (Journey of Purpose immediately follows this one!) Connecting with my heart will help me connect with this deepest inner part of me to uncover/discover my Divine Service.
  3. The heart is passionate. I want that. I want that joy and exuberance that comes from knowing that my life and work is the highest possible co-creation currently available to me (refer to #2 above). When I feel trust in that certainty, I can give myself (energy/time/work) with gusto to what I am doing.
  4. Much of my life I have been a highly pensive-thoughtful-mental-intellectual person. It is a fairly big part of my self-identity. I want to continue that, but I want my intellect to be guided by my heart.
  5. I want a better relationship with the Divine, and particularly with Jesus. I was raised Catholic, but I consider myself “inter-faithed”– I think Divine Wisdom can be found in many religions, theologies, and philosophies. I love Jesus, and in the Catholic tradition, there is a practice called “the sacred heart of Jesus”, which focuses on His divine Love for all humanity. That’s a pretty high standard: Divine Love for all humanity. And I strive for that standard. Who better to teach me than Jesus?
  6. Finally, I want to strengthen my joyous-heart celebration-gratitude for the Divine.

That’s not too much, is it?

Take some time today to think about your heart, and what you want from it, what you want to learn. How can this Journey serve your heart-connection, so that your heart-connection can serve the world?

I am so glad you are here!