A “Free Your Mind” Moment: Journey of Freedom 2017–Day 17

Copyright Tam Black 2015
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Guiding Thought

Allow your physical body to experience itself fully as Light and Love. Your physical body embodies Light; you are an expanded body of Light and Sound. Move as Light, perceive as Light, behave as Light. You are everywhere—permeating, expanding, unifying, and healing. All things are possible.

Reflection

For the first time in a while, I felt that surge of energy-understanding while contemplating the Guiding Thought. It’s that wave of understanding that is beyond both words and emotions, beyond mind, beyond the body, yet experienced by both the mind and body.

In order to get to the place beyond mind though, I (paradoxically) had to engage my mind. My mind had to follow instructions: Allow your physical body to experience itself fully as Light and Love.

My mind balked a little bit, “How is my body going to experience itself fully as Light and Love—bah!”

But then my mind did what it was told and allowed my body to begin feeling.

Every moment of the contemplation from that point on went something like this:

Mind: this can’t work. The body is material, not light…

Feeling of energy surge that the mind can’t ignore.

Mind: the body can’t expand, bah!

Feeling of expansion

Mind: How does light move, anyway!? (but what if it could?)

Feeling of movement through the body.

Mind (with the energy surge still happening): The body can’t behave like light! (but what if it could?)

Mind: Maybe this is what transfiguration is about?

Mind: Maybe this is how healing happens…

Mind: What if it is possible? (while reading, “All things are possible”).

It was almost as though the mind could not contradict or deny what it was recognizing as a physical experience. It did not want to believe it; it wanted to remain skeptical and doubtful, yet there was this energy it could not explain. In the end, it had to concede…at least a little bit.

With that energy there also came confirmation that something was happening beyond the mind—like wind blowing the trees off in the distance while an observer stands where it’s perfectly calm. There is no denying that something is moving those trees, but the person just isn’t experiencing it from the vantage point where they are. But something is happening.

My mind was able to recognize and admit to something it could not explain or experience. That’s important: my mind was able to…!

I felt like this was a “free your mind” moment. The mind is trapped by its own definitions of experience. When there is an experience that defies one of its definitions, it must either rationalize it away (potentially creating internal conflicts or confusion), or re-think that definition to account for the new experience.

I am so proud of my mind–it expanded! Big day today, on a very subtle level!

The Journey is not What You Think: Journey of Freedom 2017–Day 16

Copyright Tam Black 2015
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Guiding Thought

Through your physical body, bring Divine Light and Love to the physical universe. Heal unresolved issues through loving thoughts, words, and emotions, and become lighter and brighter. Bring light to all you have denied and heal your past-present-future NOW. Every day you are lighter and lighter!

Reflection

I would like to acknowledge that with these Journeys, there is always more going on than you think. The Journeys appear to be very mental—the Guiding Thoughts are words that correspond to concepts which you then think about.

But as you are thinking, and exercising your mind, and asking yourself to understand, there is more going on under the surface.

Contemplation in this way is a spiritual practice. With spiritual practices, you engage a deeper part of yourself which is beyond words, beyond concepts, beyond understanding.

My point is:

  • Whatever you think you understand, there is always more to it.
  • If you think you don’t understand, a part of you really does.

Think of it this way:

The way you can go isn’t the real way.

The name you can say isn’t the real name.

Heaven and earth begin in the unnamed: name is the mother of ten thousand things.

So the unwanting soul sees what is hidden, and the ever-wanting soul sees what it wants.

Two things, one origin, but different in name, whose identity is mystery.

Mystery of All Mysteries! The door to the hidden.

Tao Te Ching, translation by Ursula Le Guin.

The Groundwork: Journey of Freedom 2017–Day 15

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Guiding Thought

How can you live apart from God? God is indivisible. God is your Source and the Life within you. Your Oneness with All through God was established at your birth, at the creation of your being. The realization of this Truth is the foundation of your freedom.

Reflection

My one “big” realization with today’s Guiding Thought is that the goal of the Guiding thought is to realize the realization in the last line.

The first three lines are not there as a puzzle or a prelude; they are there because they are the preparation, the groundwork, the foundation to have the realization.

Words are just words. I had lunch with a friend yesterday who is pregnant. I know what the word pregnant means. We talked a bit about what she was experiencing, how she felt being pregnant, and I understood those words, too.

But there is no way I, who have never been pregnant, can fully understand what that word means. I have never had anything to associate with the word, except more words.

Right now, the same is true about this Guiding Thought. It’s just words that I have not experienced in any way except through words.

The difference is that the more I read the words of the Guiding Thought, the more I allow them to seep into my mind (understanding) and my emotions (intuition), the more I am inviting the experience of the words.

The experience of the words is their realization.

That realization is the beginning of (the foundation for) freedom. This Guiding Thought gets you there…eventually.

Wiser Self to the Rescue!: Journey of Freedom 2017–Day 14

Copyright Tam Black 2015
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Guiding Thought

Divine energy nourishes you, heals you, and brings God into your mind and body. Enlightenment moves you, awakens your Soul, and firmly grounds you in all you do. Your energy creates your life experiences; your being is only love and light.

Reflection

I want to live in the space of this Guiding Thought. I want this description to be how every moment of my life is.

I feel like it can be; I feel like I am on an edge, where it’s possible. Yet, I am pulled constantly into the “reality” of fluorescent lights, chattering, and computer screens (or phone, or tablet…).

I feel like I am in a tug-o-war. On one side pulling me is the energy of enlightenment, and on the other stands the humdrums of “life”.

Even though the Guiding Thought says that “Enlightenment…firmly grounds you in all you do”, I feel instead like “all I do” distracts me from enlightenment.

At least today. I do not always feel this way. It has been particularly strong, this feeling of distraction, the past few days.

Am I “trying to escape” something? Am I just bored? Whatever “it” is, I am neither fully “in” one thing, nor fully “in” another. And that feels distracting too, as well as aggravating.

I am in this gray in-between space, I feel the pull of where I want to be (let’s call it Love and Light), but cannot follow it, because following it would mean closing my eyes and going within to feel it (which I can’t do while I am, for example, driving, at the store, or trying to fill out databases).

Yet it does not “seep” into my activity—it sits there on the edge of my consciousness, beckoning to me to pay attention to it.

Feeling divided in this way is wearying.

I know it’s all in my head. I know it’s just a “state of mind”. I’m not sure why exactly I stay in this state.

Even now, writing this, I am coming out of it. I can feel the difference—I am more alert, more able to feel the love and light coming through. Why am I not able to do this all the time? (I can feel a part of myself saying (screaming, really) what is wrong with me!? I am simply acknowledging this voice… no judgement!)

I am glad that I know to be patient with myself. I have it written down, in fact! “Your brain may resist and object, and try to muddle your understanding, getting you to give up. Just acknowledge this, write about it, and move forward.”

It’s so funny to me. I wrote those words to myself weeks ago, and have not looked at them really until today. But there they are, saying exactly what I need to hear, when I need to hear it. What is also funny, is that I took the advice: Today’s whole theme is “acknowledge, write, more forward…” before I found the words reminding me how to handle such a situation.

Thank goodness for my wiser self who looks after me! Thank goodness for my Self who listens!

Butterfly-Condor Effect: Journey of Freedom 2017–Day 13

Copyright Tam Black 2015
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Guiding Thought

Everything is energy. Everything is energy connecting everything! A shift in energy in one place shifts energy other places. Lift your energy to the vibration of Love and Light, to God, to all that is Divine. You are responsible for your energy; choose to free it by releasing the Divine Love within you.

Reflection

This felt like a below-average day regarding my understanding and application of the Guiding Thought.  It’s not that I felt any frustration or impediments…it’s more like I felt blank, as though nothing was going on—no thoughts, no feelings, no images, no insights.

Even though I understood the words of the Guiding Thought, I felt like there was something I was missing.

Let me walk through it with you, ok?

Everything is energy. Everything is energy connecting everything!  Check. I get this. This is a basic re-statement of E=mc2. I understand it conceptually, and I can even agree that it’s most likely true; I don’t have the scientific background to prove it, but I am happy to believe Einstein, and my own intuition.

A shift in energy in one place shifts energy other places. Check. Got it. This statement follows logically from the first two. If everything is energy, and energy connects everything, then it only stands to reason that a change of energy in one place will affect energy in other places.  

Lift your energy to the vibration of Love and Light, to God, to all that is Divine. Here is where it got a bit fuzzy for me. What is the relevance of this to the first three sentences? What is their connection?

If everything is energy, then words are also energy. If energy connects energy to itself then the words from the first three sentences are connected to the fourth sentence, energetically. I am just not sure how or why, or what difference it makes.

The one thing I can think regarding this, that would be relevant to Journey of Freedom, is that when I lift my energy to Love, Light, and God, the effects of that would be “bigger”, more intense (maybe?), more widespread (maybe?).

California Condor
Photo Source: Wikipedia

You’ve heard of the butterfly effect, right? The idea is that when a butterfly flaps its wings, it “causes” a hurricane someplace else on the planet. The idea is similar to “Everything is energy connecting everything!”  Of course, the butterfly starting a hurricane is merely symbolic, but using that symbolism let’s consider:

If the effect of a butterfly’s wings is a hurricane, what would the effects of a condor’s wings be? A butterfly wingspan is about 3 inches; a condor’s wingspan is about 8.5 feet—102 inches…that’s almost 40 times bigger than a butterfly.  Wouldn’t the effects of a condor flapping its wings be 40 times bigger than a hurricane?

In this example the condor represents Love, Light, and God.

This is “why” lifting your energy to Love matters: the effects of Love are stronger, more powerful, and more far-reaching than other energies.

Finally: You are responsible for your energy; choose to free it by releasing the Divine Love within you.

It seems to me that if energy is all connected, and we lift our energy to Love, and Love is stronger, more powerful, and more far-reaching, then the effects of Love have to do with Freedom for ALL. When you free your own energy through Love, the “wave” ripples out to everyone. No one in free, when others are bound. This is the only way we reach freedom: together.

Come, Play!: Journey of Freedom 2017–Day 10

Copyright Tam Black 2015
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Guiding Thought

I focus my mind and thoughts on my Inner Divine Self—my Self of Peace, my Self of Joy, my Self of Infinite Being and Intelligence. When I am aware of my Inner Divine Self, I radiate these qualities, expressing the freedom of Being in Life!

Reflection

It was another good day of focus and concentration today. After my bath this morning, I had this thought: “I want to radiate the qualities of joyfulness, playfulness, and Lovingness, and their infinite accessibility through me”. I “saw” myself in every-day situations, where I radiated these qualities, and people seemed to respond to them.

I kept thinking about that as I did my fire ceremony, then made coffee, and cleaned the kitchen. I liked the idea so much that I wanted to keep thinking about it!

As I kept thinking about it, I added little elements to it. I “saw” different colors of light pouring down into me through my crown chakra, charging all my chakras, then radiating out. I played with “seeing” spinning pyramids of light in my third-eye and heart chakras, creating spherical light-pulses emanating from me.

With all of this spectacular light stuff going on, there was a flash of an image of me as a clown, with bubbles and streamers of light all around, because it was all so ridiculous.

I guess that’s what happens when you focus on the Infinite Playfulness Within. In Sanskrit there is a term, lila, which means, “the Play of the Gods”, LI meaning the gods and LA meaning play or dance. In the Lila Paradigm, a non-physical Ultimate Reality (God, gods) appears as our physical Universe.* This morning I felt like I understood lila a whole new way—just God dancing and playing in this (ridiculous) thing we call life.

All this, before coffee.

Then I sat down with my cup of “coffee” (I just call it coffee, out of habit, it’s really a non-caffeinated herbal drink…) to focus on the Guiding Thought.

I focus my mind and thoughts on my Inner Divine Self—my Self of Peace, my Self of Joy, my Self of Infinite Being and Intelligence. When I am aware of my Inner Divine Self, I radiate these qualities, expressing the freedom of Being in Life!

It was so easy to concentrate on the Guiding Thought, because it seemed a natural extension from the thoughts that I was already having!

The qualities are a bit different—that is true, but the feeling is the same. It’s all about radiating the Divine Self! Since my Self is a Self of Infinite Being, then playfulness is definitely part of that infinity!

I think it was Abraham Lincoln who said, “People are about as happy as they make up their minds to be”. Today, I felt like I was making up my mind to be ridiculously joyful and playful. I “saw” these qualities as infectious, as influencing everyone around me to have their spirits lifted. Everyone was smiling with me!

It occurred to me that even though I originally had added, “lovingness” to the qualities I wanted to embody, in a way it’s redundant: Joyfulness and Playfulness are expressions of Love. Joyfulness and Playfulness lift people out of the hum-drum, out of their seriousness (and believe me, I know about seriousness).

In this state of Joyfulness and Playfulness, everything is OK. Everything is just fun. “Don’t worry about it”—it’s all impermanent anyway. It’s like that ridiculous, Divine Self Knows the permanency of what is really real, and it simply laughs in the face of the seriousness of worldly strife. It was all very freeing.

*Quoted from: http://www.lilaparadigm.org/

Laser Glide to Freedom: Journey of Freedom 2017–Day 12

Copyright Tam Black 2015
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Guiding Thought

Freely release patterns, habits, and thoughts that inhibit Freedom! Allow your thoughts and feelings to transform through remembrance of Freedom through Love! You were born with everything you need to be free in Love. Allow Love to lead you. Trust Love and surrender to its wisdom.

Reflection

Three “big” things happened today while contemplating the Guiding Thought. Though I’ve had similar things happen none of them have ever happened quite like this before.

First, I started the Guiding Thought, as usual, reading the words, going along, clear and connected for about two minutes; everything felt “right”. But then, I realized (it was as though someone literally pointed this out to me), that “just reading the words” was not the same as directing the words to a subject, “you”. The difference felt like either lying on my back, on a raft floating down a lazy river, versus sculling a fine boat. The first is a lazy drift, going where the river and wind take you; the second is speedy, effortless glide toward a laser-guided destination.

I stopped immediately and re-comported myself. I wanted the laser-guided destination, not the lazy drift.

I said a little prayer, asking my Christ-presence to mediate my visualization for all humanity, for the highest, divine benefit of all, in their own unique way. And I started my contemplation over.

The prayer and re-comportment shifted my experience of the Guiding Thought completely. It became just like that laser, connected with everyone, in a way I’ve never felt before.

Second, I felt the patterns, habits, and thoughts that inhibit Freedom releasing, really releasing.

There were three images that came to mind: evaporation, heat off the pavement, and thermal equilibrium—and the release felt like all three of these.

With the feeling of evaporation, there was a mild feeling of energy dispersion. Then the dispersion became more intense, and I could “see” the “evaporation”, like heat off the pavement–all the patterns and habits lifting slowly out of my body and mind. Then that became more intense, and it was like a pulling, or a drawing out of the patterns, habits, and thoughts. The visual for this is, for example, putting something frozen in a bowl of lukewarm water: the warm water “pulls” the cold out of the frozen item, to equalize the temperatures; or, like a draft from a crack in a door, pulling air in to a warm house. In the same way, my old energy patterns were being pulled up through and out of me.

What was really neat about these images is that I was not creating the image to instigate a release; the release was happening, and I was a by-stander, observing through these images.

There was emphasis in my observation that the words “freely release” from the Guiding Thought definitely apply. Somehow, I was not even capable of holding anything back; the process was so natural (so “free”), it was occurring as naturally as evaporation, or the law of thermal equilibrium. Pretty cool.

Finally, the third thing that “happened” was that about ¾ of the way through the (second) contemplation time, as I was directing the Guiding Thought to all of humanity, I could also feel the the Guiding Thought being spoken to my mind. “Being spoken”–because “I” was not doing the speaking.

It wasn’t “me”, and my mind was different.

I know this sounds weird, but that’s because it was, and I am not really sure how to explain it.

The best way I can describe it is that my Christ-Self was talking to my Higher Mind.

Let me explain that: I have a Christ-Self; you have a Christ-Self; we all have a Christ-Self. All of our Christ-Selves are united as One, and They all communicate with each other as One. While they are all “up there” communicating with each other as One, each of them is also communicating with me, with you, with everyone individually “down here”. They do this through our Higher Mind, which is unique to each of us as individuals; the Higher Mind is the interpreter of the Christ-Self for each of us, and It communicates with us in a way that we each can best understand It, and thereby understand the Christ-Self.

What I experienced was the communication between The Christ-Self and my own Higher Mind. As with the evaporation and thermal equilibrium, I experienced it as an observation. It was like “they” were working together to release my patterns, habits, and thoughts that inhibit Freedom. I was just watching.

The reason I think it was this is because my mind (my “Higher Mind”) was perfectly agreeable and cooperative (which “my mind” isn’t usually). This is also why I said above that my mind was “different”. It was my mind, but not the one that associates itself with my body. It was my mind, associating itself with the Christ-Self.

With this, I felt a shift in my (lower) mind. I felt like it was being reassured to Allow Love to lead you. Trust Love and surrender to its wisdom. I felt like it was being reassured to let go, and let the Higher Mind be in charge. There was no resistance from my lower mind.

My mind, during this time was (in addition to all of humanity) the subject being spoken to, the “you” of the Guiding Thought. I had an awareness of The Christ Self communicating to all the Higher Minds in Oneness, of which my mind is part, and I was simultaneously experiencing the “part” that is “my mind”, while experiencing the Oneness of all the Christ Selves.

All in all, a fun day. And, then again, judge nothing!