Commitment and Dedication -Fulfillment (1.6.00)

Today is the day to declare your commitment to the Journey, or to yourself, or to your practice. Commitment sets up the consistency of action. Where in your life would you benefit from greater consistency of action? Consistency of action increases reliability, dependability, trust, and confidence. Where in your life would you benefit from greater reliability, dependability, trust, and confidence?

It only takes 10 minutes a day–5 minutes of reading/contemplating and 5 minutes of writing. Consistency matters more than how much time you spend daily. (I have several practices I commit to, but that is not necessary for you; just decide what you can commit to accomplish and go with that.)

Before I get to the commitment, though, I’d just like to note: I haven’t even gotten to the days of contemplation, and the Journey has already begun. It was like after I wrote the Why yesterday, and talked about how my desires/needs have decreased, and my gratitude has increased…lots of things showed up which increased my desires and decreased my awareness of my gratitude. I started the ball rolling, and every bump that is in its way reared up and reminded me that I have more work to do. Fortunately, I can see those bumps for what they are: pointers to where I need to bring light. I do not need to get caught up in feeling like I have reverted to some “lower” stage; I can be thankful that this process has brought these things into my awareness, so that I can clear them. This may be an interesting Journey (aren’t they always?).


Commitment Statement

I declare, with great enthusiasm and excitement, that on this Journey of Fulfillment, I am committed to increasing my awareness and understanding of the presence of Fulfillment already in my life and my experience! It is my intention to maintain a constant awareness of True Fulfillment, which I experience through my consciousness– through my awareness. I commit to remembering as often as possible every day to be thankful for the Divine Grace that sustains me.

I am committed to contemplating the Guiding Thoughts for at least 5 minutes each day, and to writing my response.

I am also committed to continuing the work I began during Journeys of Healing and abundance, and I commit to continue being gentle, caring, and nurturing to myself.

Further, I commit to being aware of aligning my ideas of fulfillment with practical actions of work, relationships, emotional and mental health, and all aspects of my life.

I commit to these other practices, in addition to this Journey:

  • Daily fire ceremony
  • Daily meditation


I dedicate this Journey to the Oneness and Unity of All. May each step I take serve to uplift all of humanity; may my thoughts, words, feelings, and actions be a vehicle through which God may enter the world to love and serve all life.

Why -Fulfillment (1.6.0)

Welcome to Journey of Fulfillment!

I have not recently put these Journeys in a larger context. Everyone must decide for themselves why they choose to do any one of these Journeys– to elevate their consciousness, to receive greater abundance or health, to open the heart, to practice gratitude, or to understand fulfillment… All together, the Journeys have a Higher Purpose–and that Purpose is why I do these Journeys one after another after another, the slow steady walk on the Path of Higher Purpose.

These Journeys are my ascension path. This is me walking daily with and toward awareness, understanding, and knowledge, through Truth, Simplicity, Love, and Service. Through these Journeys, I remain aware of my highest ideals, my Highest Purpose; each day is a step upward in and to transcendence.

What is your ascension path? Do you know? Are you looking for it? What are the pieces of your personal puzzle right now?  (Really….I’m interested. comment, email me…let’s connect.)

Everyone has an ascension path. Some paths need to be uncovered/discovered, some need to be mapped, some just need to be walked. What are you doing right now, daily, to accomplish your own ascension? Even though many are working on your behalf for this purpose, their work will only get you so far. No one is going to ascend for you.

Why do I do these Journeys, 40 days after 40 days after 40 days? For my ascension–and to whatever degree possible, for yours too. We’re in this together.

Let’s go!


This is the first of two preliminary days, before we begin the 40 days of contemplation. This is the day to reflect on Why you want to do a Journey of Fulfillment; at least, this is the time that I reflect about why I am on this contemplative Journey, and perhaps you will find some inspiration for your own Journey.

Lately, my worldly “wants”, “needs”, “desires” have been greatly reduced.

My gratitude has increased significantly.

My buoyancy has increased. I smile a lot for “no reason”.

I’ve been feeling solid and steadfast in my practices: the practices have become the reward.

I’ve been feeling confident that Truly All is well and Everything happens in Its time. It’s more than “I need do nothing” (ACIM Lessons 136 and 337); it’s that I must do nothing. In order for Divine Perfection to work in Its time, I need not interfere: I must do nothing, and in doing nothing All is well. Everything is fulfilled.

This, then, is Why a Journey of Fulfillment: Because All is fulfilled. All is filled full. I must do nothing. I have no goal, no sense for accomplishment, no want, no desire, beyond recognizing what is.

Fulfillment is. 


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Journey’s at an End -Abundance (1.5.40)

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Guiding Thought

The Divine Presence of Love is the most natural energy in the world and beyond. Through the wisdom of Love, I understand Love as True wealth as an expression of my Divine nature, to be cultivated in my consciousness, expressed, and shared. My love is infinite. My wealth is infinite. I realize this as my reality and circulate wealth with joy and gratitude.


Welcome to day 40! How are you doing? How did you do?

As for me, I feel like everything in the Journey came together today–and it was as though I was hit with the full force of a tidal wave. I’m emotionally exhausted and wiped out! thank goodness today is day 40, and I can take a bit of time to recover.

It’s funny…I did not think the previous 39 days were all that strenuous. I was just doing the work, plodding along like I always do. The potential energy must have been building each day, though, and it released today as moving energy, and it shifted me big time.

The big themes, in brief:

  1. Revisiting old lessons in a new way.
  2. What do I really want?
  3. Getting down to a new layer of the “onion”
  4. What is abundance? How do I receive and give abundance, if I don’t a) know what it is and b) first feel abundant?
  5. Related to #5: How do I give and receive caring/sustenance/nurturing if I don’t a) know what they are and b) first feel them?

Revisiting old lessons in a new way. 

This is the spiral: we are always learning the same lessons until we no longer need to learn that lesson…then it just drops away. We are always returning to the lesson. But not like a cycle or circle, because we never return to the same point on the diameter. Between points, we traverse a slightly inclined path, which traces a spiral. We return to the same point, but on a diameter just above the one we last visited.

What do I really want

This is the lesson I have been revisiting. What I really want is Divine Truth (Om Tat Sat; Hari Om Tat Sat), and to Be That Truth, so that all of my expressions (mental/physical/emotional) are That Truth.

What the lesson this time has reminded me is that when I want something that is Truth, or is of Truth, Truth burns away anything unlike itself. Sometimes Truth is gentle, burning away those things in my consciousness or in my bodies that oppose It. Sometimes It leads me gently down a meandering path, and I suddenly find myself in a sunlit meadow. Sometimes It sends a tidal wave to bowl me over.

The other thing that I am reminded of is that I ask for this. I want this. It may be draining and exhausting sometimes, but above all else…I want Divine Truth.

Getting down to a new layer of the “onion”

This contemplation work of ascending up the spiral is emotional…it’s mental…and sometimes those things have physical ramifications (like today, how wiped out I feel). But the work of digging in to the mental/emotional layers is what peels back that layer.

Sometimes the layers come off easily. Sometimes you are working on something from a different angle (like during a Journey of Gratitude, you realize how gratitude brings with it an openness to abundance!). And from that angle, the emotional work is like a light sandpaper, barely perceptible. But then sometimes, the work hits you hard, like a chisel, and a whole section of layer breaks off. Guess which happened today? [I know you are wondering what sand paper and chisel have to do with an onion metaphor…for all you grammar gals and guys, I apologize for my mixed metaphor).

What is abundance? How do I receive and give abundance, if I don’t a) know what it is and b) first feel abundant?

Related to #5: How do I give and receive caring/sustenance/nurturing if I don’t a) know what they are and b) first feel them?

I’ll address these two together, because at their core, they are similar.

Here’s what I realized today: In today’s world, we do not know what abundance Truly is. We do not live it, we do not understand it. The same with caring/nurturing/sustaining. These are all qualities of the Divine Feminine, which have been lost over the eons.

There used to be a time, when the earth (as Divine Mother) completely provided for, cared for, nurtured, and sustained her children.

At that time, people would pray and make offerings with such pure love and gratitude! They were able to do this so purely, because every day they were having the experience of having all their needs fulfilled.

Then people distorted the Divine Feminine, and the Divine Masculine. Instead of being two energies that worked together in perfect union (Sri Bhagavati Sametha Sri Bhagavate Namaha) to provide all for all, one became “dominant” and overpowered the other. The one that was overpowered receded, and with it all nurturing, care, sustenance.

Now this has deteriorated into people so disconnected from care, nurturing, and love that everyone is inwardly screaming, and praying for help, to be saved, to have this suffering removed.

There is nothing the Divine Mother wants more than to provide for us, to care for us, to give us abundant lives. But we must correct our distortions. We must invite Her back. We must begin again to give thanks for the abundance that She supplies.

Our approach is so important. She’s waiting for our loving approach, so that she may shower us with everything that withdrew when She became oppressed.

Few people alive today know the true meaning of abundance, caring, sustenance, or nurturing. Few people feel Truly abundant. Few people can Truly give. But we must begin to recapture what was lost, so that we may bring it forth again in the world. We must bring attitudes of abundance, care, nurture forth to each other, to the best of our ability, and Divine Mother will use our ability to provide that much more for us. Then we must thank the mother for those provisions, and we must do it again, and again, and again.

The Journey is ended! I hope you feel accomplished, as I do. I will see you here again in a few days for the afterword. Then, we begin Journey of Fulfillment!

I AM, but who am I? -Abundance (1.5.39)

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Guiding Thought

Divine Abundance expresses infinitely through my own Divine Presence. When I identify with my Divine Presence, I open the floodgates and Divine Abundance flows naturally, easily, and effortlessly through me, materializing all good in my life and affairs.


I am my I AM Presence.

I am my Christ Presence.

I am my Divine Presence.

Koham?” is Sanskrit for “Who am I?”

The answer to this question is “Soham“, which means “I am That“. “That” means the Self of the self, the Universal Self, the Christ Self. I am the “That” which is everywhere, and belongs to everyone; the oneness of humanity, Love, the Oneness of All that Is.

My Divine Presence is the abundance of the universe, because I am that universe, and that universe is me.

All I have to do is understand this…and be it. 

It sounds so simple. It feels so right…and at that level of feeling right, it makes so much sense.

All I have to do is be it. Then, effortlessly, the floodgates open.


Because I AM that abundance and that abundance is me.

I think the part that trips me up is a language/concept problem, having to do with I.

When people say “I”, their reference–for most people, most of the time–is the non-Divine I, the non-Christ-Presence-I. It is the I which identifies with a single body, instead of with the Universe, or ALL “bodies”; it is the I which identifies with being time-bound (and associated with that single body, which lives and dies), instead of with Eternity; it is that I which thinks of itself, instead of Its Self.

So that when people say, “I am >fill in the blank<“, their identity is with that lower/smaller/lesser I.

Even when people say: I am my I AM Presence. I am my Christ Presence. I am my Divine Presence, their concept of is with that lower/smaller/lesser I.

The whole point of saying/thinking I am my I AM Presence or I am my Christ Presence or I am my Divine Presence is to shift our concept of “I”.

To think about “I” in these terms– “I” am all that is. “I” am the Presence of Love. “I” am the very Divine Presence– means to identify with that which lives in everyone, and is present here, now, in this body, through this body, as this body, living in time and space, yet not of time and space, living through this body, but not being this body.

Do you see?

You are not that body. You are not those thoughts. You are not those feelings. You are your Divine Presence. You are the presence of Love that fills the universe. The universe is also the presence of Love, which fills you, which fills itself. We are. We are ALL. Always. Now. Forever. Here. Everything. Love.

You are the Love -Abundance (1.5.38)

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Guiding Thought

My mind and heart focus entirely on the Divine Presence I am. I think, I speak, and I act in accordance with Divine Will, releasing Divine Substance into all my activity and ordering all my financial affairs.


Focusing on the Divine Presence I am is another way of saying to focus on the Divine Presence within. Everything God is, you are. Everything God has is yours. God only wants for you to be Truly Happy–and Truly Happy means living in Love and with Love, sustained by Love, and giving Love.

Love is Divine Will. Love is what you are. Love is your Divine Presence.

To align with Divine Will is to align with what you are. Aligning with Divine Will is aligning with your own Divine Presence.

When you live this truth…then you don’t have to think about speaking or acting in accordance with Divine Will. You are already realized in Divine Will, as Love. You are It, It is you. You are Divine Love, as fire is hot.

This is your natural state. This is what you were born to.

You are the substance of Love. When you “release” that substance (or, in other words, when you be your Self), Love is literally what creates all the other substance you experience. because Love can only create as Love, with Love.

You are that Love. Feel It. Know It. Be It.

Fig Tree and Mountain -Abundance (1.5.37)

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Guiding Thought

My consciousness is the gateway through which Divine Love flows, materializing my infinite Supply. I am now conscious of my own Inner Divine Presence—Infinite Love—expressing through me, providing me with the means to be aware, to understand, and to know It as my Self– more and more!


For assuredly, I say to you, whoever says to this mountain, ‘Be removed and be cast into the sea,’ and does not doubt in his heart, but believes that those things he says will be done, he will have whatever he says. Therefore, I say to you, whatever things you ask when you pray, believe that you receive them, and you will have them. (Christian Bible, Mark 11:23, 24)

I was thinking about the fig tree earlier today, (the verse immediately preceding the above, in which Jesus withers the fig tree on command…), and how it relates with abundance.

I am sure I am not the only one to ask, “how does this stuff (Jesus’ miracles) work“? Faith the size of a mustard seed…speaking…believing in one’s heart….believing you have received what you ask for…people puzzle over these, and how they work together (I don’t know of a better phrase), to accomplish such things as Jesus did. What does it take? How did He do it?

As an aside…has anyone ever wondered why Jesus withered the fig tree, instead of asking it to produce figs for him? I mean, if he can feed the thousands on a few loaves and fishes, he can make a fig tree produce figs, right?

One thing I realized, when thinking about the fig tree and the mountain, is that Jesus spoke directly to the fig tree and the mountain. Just like when He raised Lazarus from the dead–he spoke to Lazarus. He did not speak to God; he did not ask God to wither the fig tree; he did not say to his disciples, “ask God to move the mountain for you”; he did not ask God to raise Lazarus. This is a clue that I have never before considered. His directive is to speak, as though commanding, to the person, tree, mountain, or situation.

[Which, BTW, makes me wonder about the loaves and fishes…did he actually command them to multiply, and we just don’t get that side of the story? or was his prayer, and asking for God’s blessing of the loaves and fishes, the vehicle for that miracle?]

Having “no doubt” in the heart comes first–having faith, then the words. I think what actually happens, internally, is that when there is faith, everything else just flows naturally. Faith is the power: it’s the power behind the speaking, it’s the power behind the command; it’s the power to not even have to consider what to say or how to say it. Faith is the knowing confidence that directs words through you, so you don’t even have to think. When you have faith, you don’t need to formulate a command, it just flows out of you, because what you know in your heart (and here’s the kicker) is aligned with the Will of God, and when it flows out of you, it produces the results that you’ve spoken because those results are Divine Will.

And this is how it fits with Journey of Abundance: Aligning the consciousness with Divine Love brings a person closer to the Truth–Divine Will. When that person is aligned with Divine Love and Divine Will, those things materialize easily, naturally, and infinitely.

“I” am the vehicle through which Divine Love and Divine Will flow. This is how I “know” It as my Self–It comes through me, but is not me, but “I” must create the conditions for It to come through me.


More than Attitude, ACTION -Abundance (1.5.36)

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Guiding Thought

Increasing my thoughts of Love and my attitude of service dispels all fear of lack and limitation. As I serve more people with Love, money and wealth flow abundantly to me. I use money and wealth with love and wisdom to create a life I love through my highest vision.


Check. I have been increasing my thoughts of Love and my attitude of service. I mentioned a few days ago about opening my heart; this has meant increasing the love I am able to feel and give–specifically opening my heart and love to God. I’ve also been increasing my attitude of service. I have several ways that I can serve people, and I have been developing and increasing my ideas about how to let people know that I am here to serve.

So here’s the sticking point: It’s easier to develop an attitude of service than it is to serve; what I mean is, “it’s easier said than done”. Please note, I do not mean that it’s difficult to serve people. I love serving people. The problem (I think) is that I am one of those air signs that likes being in my head better than being grounded on the earth (ideas as opposed to action).

I am well able to take action, and I love to take initiative.

The sticking point has to do with what it means to put myself out there–or, to be very clear, it’s what I think it means to put myself out there. It means marketing and “selling”–not things that I have much interest in doing.

Plus, as I mentioned on day 16, Love is great, but it does not pay the bills. And I have yet to reconcile wanting to truly serve with purity, and asking for money for spiritual services.

The point is that the Guiding Thought does not address the very practical leap from Love to money. Don’t get me wrong–the Guiding is correct, there is just a gap that I have yet to cross, and until I do, the Guiding Thought does help me cross it (that’s what the rest of the Journey if for).

So, yes, increasing my thoughts of Love and my attitude of service dispels all fear of lack and limitation. That’s true and correct, but in my current state, I also need more than an attitude of service. I need to serve, in Truth and Purity, and be open, willing, and able to receive money for that service.

And, yes, as I serve more people with Love, money and wealth flow abundantly to me. However, this statement presumes that the service is accompanied by money, in exchange for that service. Until there is a natural and easy exchange of money, as representative of the Love and energy that is exchanged, then at least the money part of the Guiding Thought will not materialize practically.

And, yes, I use money and wealth with love and wisdom to create a life I love through my highest vision. In this context, there is no need for a direct exchange of money for service–I can use any money in the service of my highest vision; it does not need to be directly connected with a service I am providing (and this is how I use my income from my j-o-b). This part of the Guiding Thought simply points out that any money used to create a life I love through my highest vision will be used in such a way to open me to more of that money (I explained how this works on day 4).

I am getting close to getting this. I can feel it.