The Illusion of Chains –Journey of Freedom 02.12.26

Guiding Thought

Through our physical body, we bring Divine Light and Love to the physical universe. We heal unresolved issues through loving thoughts, words, and emotions, and become lighter and brighter. We bring light to all we have denied and we heal our past-present-future NOW. Every day we are lighter and lighter!

Reflection / Contemplation

I practice because I do not recognize the Truth that is before me.

I practice when I do not recognize the Truth that is before me.

Practice slowly severs the chains that bind my mind to illusion.

But, there are no chains, there is no illusion. There is only Truth—

For me to wake up and see,

Which sometimes I do

And then I remember that I exist in Peace, in Unity, in Freedom, in Forgiveness.

All is Clear, Pure, Innocent.

 

Practice makes it possible for me to wake up (until I wake up finally).

But while I am asleep, I must continue to practice—

In the hardest times,

During the most troublesome situations,

In the most distressing circumstances—

Practice !

These times are the ego-mind tightening the chains.

These are the illusion convincing you it is real.

These times are the hardest times to remind myself of the Truth.

But that is why I must !

Gently, lovingly, forgive, and remind myself: I am innocent and Free.

 

The chains I have wrapped around myself,

that I struggle to throw off,

that I chip-away at with practice—

They are of my own making!

I am free!

 

I am free because I am innocent. Chains of punishment are not necessary; I have done nothing to deserve them.  My struggle is with myself, in an elaborate dream of my own making.

In this dream, one side knows I am free, the other wants to keep me in chains. Only one leads to Truth.

In this dream, practice is the battle.  In the depths of illusion I remind myself of Truth. Yet I fight it.  Practice !  “Fight” back!  Gently, lovingly—forgive. And then, let go. And simply remember. Simply be with forgiveness, innocence, and freedom, and Know they are so.

This is the wax and wane of dualistic life. For as long as your physical body exists for the ego and not the Divine Self, I will feel the tightening of chains, I will feel the persuasion of the ego calling me to illusion.

If (when) I feel these chains, if (when) I follow the persuasion, I experience the ego and meet with hard times; I experience distress and trouble, which can either be fought with practice, or succumbed to—and if succumbed to, then the ego wins that battle.

The cycle is broken through practice.  Practice reminds us of the Truth, through hard times, or easy times.  But it is practice in the easy times that gives us strength for the hard times.

Practice strengthens the voice of the Divine Self, over and above the ego.

Vigilance!

Guard your thoughts!

Practice!

But remember:

It is only the ego at war with itself, in a dream of your own making.

The Divine Self defends Truth by existing in Truth, not by attacking an illusion—to attack an illusion is insane.

When (if) you are in “battle” you know  that the ego is fighting only itself. You know this because you are in battle.

As long as there is dualism, there will be these “battles.” There will be conflict. There will be struggle.

 

But that is why you are here.  We (you and I) bring the practice that loosens the chains for all—gently, lovingly, with the strength and power to stand in the illusion and know it’s not real, and “fight” the illusion with the power of Truth and Love and Forgiveness. This is ours because we can withstand the persuasive voice of the ego and return Home for rest between battles.

 

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Letting Go –Journey of Freedom 02.12.25

Guiding Thought

How can we live apart from God? God is indivisible. God is our Source and the Life within us. Our Oneness with All through God was established at our births, at the creation of our being. The realization of this Truth is the foundation of our freedom.

Reflection / Contemplation

Freedom means letting go. People just do not care to let go of everything. They do not know that the finite is the price of the infinite, as death is the price of immortality. Spiritual maturity lies in the readiness to let go of everything. The giving up is the final step. But the real giving up is in realizing that there is nothing to give up, for nothing is your own. It is like deep sleep–you do not give up your bed when you fall asleep, you just forget it. Nisargadatta Maharaj

 

 

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Manifesto of Life –Journey of Freedom 02.12.24

Guiding Thought

Divine energy nourishes us, heals us, and brings God into our minds and bodies. Enlightenment moves us, awakens our Soul, and firmly grounds us in all we do. Our energy creates our life experiences; our being is only Love and Light.

Reflection / Contemplation

I refuse to be subdued by mind-numbing, emotionally draining activities and people. I choose knowledge, and curiosity, and engagement with Life. I think my own thoughts. I utilize the mind I was given to make wise choices, so that the life I live may be filled with love and service.

If I should feel sad, or defeated, grief or  sorrow, pain or disappointment,  I find the music in my heart, and orchestrate it into a melody which laughs, and laughter knows no pain.

I choose to find joy everywhere; grief cannot dissuade me. I am SatChitAnanda–Truth, Existence, and Joyful Bliss. I exist in truth as joyful bliss.

“Getting” and “having” can be pleasurable experiences—but they are not my sine qua non, nor are they that toward which I strive. I have outwitted the desire to get or to have by seeking to get and have only SatChitAnanda , the Truth of me. All that I then possess fulfills All of me, and is not mere whim or fancy.

Tears are for me when I feel deepest gratitude or am cleansing or releasing lower emotions, but I like laughter better, and it, too, moves me into higher states of being.

I cultivate beautiful friendships with the spirit of kindness. All the world may be my friend, merely open your heart.

If so-called failure threatens, I adapt the lessons into my own philosophy of success and use that in greater service to others. Through my lessons, may others learn the joy and laughter of the truth of their being.

 

 

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How Little we Know–Journey of Freedom 02.12.23

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Guiding Thought

Everything is energy. Everything is energy connecting everything! A shift in energy in one place shifts energy other places. We lift our energy to the vibration of Love and Light, to God, to all that is Divine. We are responsible for our energy; we choose to free it by releasing the Divine Love within us.

Reflection / Contemplation

“The greatest gift you can give humanity is the purity of your own presence”. ~Leonard Orr

How little we know, o humans!
Contemplate infinity. What can we know of infinity?
Contemplate eternity. What can we know of eternity?
Contemplate the miracle of your body. What do you know if it?
Contemplate your brother or sister. What do you think you know?

Contemplate history…
Contemplate nature…
Contemplate the universe…
Contemplate yourself…

When set side by side–what we know, and all there is to be known–
how little we know!

Nothing can be as we think it is,
there are too many gaps in our knowledge.

Nothing can mean what we think it means,
each meaning depends on our context,
and each context is limited to what we know.

Avidya (ignorance) is quite literal.
We do not, can not, know beyond our own limits.
How can we make “good” decisions in the face of such ignorance?
How can we know what is “right” for someone else, much less for ourselves?
How can we “shift energy” in such a way to serve All, if we cannot know how best to serve one?

Yet, we are responsible.
How can we be responsible, knowing how little we know?
How are we not frozen, immobilized, with the thought of responsibility? (Maybe we are…)

What can we do to act responsibly without knowing–really–anything?

All we can do
All we can do
is our best
to lift our energy to the vibration of Love and Light, to God, to all that is Divine
each and every moment;
to choose to free that Love by releasing It,
and sharing it, Being the Purity of the Presence of Love.

 

 

 

 

 

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A Loving Tribute to Leonard D. Orr –Journey of Freedom 02.12.22

Leonard Orr
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Guiding Thought

We freely release patterns, habits, and thoughts that inhibit our Freedom! We allow our thoughts and feelings to transform through remembrance of Freedom through Love. We were born with everything we need to be free in Love. We allow Love to lead us. We trust Love and surrender to its wisdom.

Reflection / Contemplation

Leonard Orr, who passed away earlier this week, was my second Spiritual teacher (my first was my Reiki Master, Penny Gnesin, who passed earlier this year). I worked with him directly from 1994 – 1998, then on and off again until 2017, the last time I visited him at his home in Virginia and gave him and Elvi Jharra. I would not say that Leonard and I were close, but–like so many others–his teachings deeply influenced me.

Babaji – Angel of the Lord
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You will see his influence all over these pages: when I write about Babaji (Leonard lead me to Babaji); when I write anything about earth, air, water, or fire; when I write about spiritual community, loving relationships, or spiritual purification. I can’t say that I always agreed with Leonard, but he was a “big idea” guy, and certainly provoked me to stretch my thinking. I am very grateful for Leonard; I would not be doing half of what I am doing today, if it weren’t for him.

It’s quite apropos that today’s Guiding Thought is about releasing patterns and habits– this, too, was something that Leonard taught. In a nutshell, his teaching on daily habits is “you’re only as good as your habits; keep improving your habits, keep improving yourself”. It’s the minutia of daily living that adds up to the quality of a life: every thought, every action, every intention…it all matters in the makeup of the big picture of who you are and the life you lead.

Leonard wrote the book, Breaking the Death Habit: The Science of Everlasting Life, in which he outlines the highest habits he has discovered to release the emotional energy pollution, keep the mental-spiritual-emotional-physical bodies clean from energetic impurities, release Karma, and live in health and wellness. These practices, too, have been highly influential in my life. It was through these practices that I learned to feel when my energy became “polluted” and it gave me the tools to cleanse it and return to a lighter state. I have also learned how it feels to release karma, and the benefit of doing practices that do so.

Leonard was the first person who I heard say, “I had to learn to practice Love, so I spent several years opening my heart chakra”. That motivated me to learn to love, and subsequently, I spent several years opening my heart chakra.

Leonard taught physical immortality: the idea that people can live for as long as they like in their physical body, until they choose to leave, merging the life of the physical body with the life of the Holy Spirit. Everything about Leonard’s teachings were geared toward this “bottom line” teaching. He was an explorer, a scientist, a researcher in this regard: he was his own most faithful student. To this end, he used other people’s deaths as “research”–asking the questions: What did they or did they not do? What could they have done differently? what are the minimum practices that are necessary to maintain human Life? And the related question: what can maintain our abundance of aliveness and joy of Life?  Do people choose misery and the pain of emotional energy pollution because they never learned the practice of fire purification, or do they just enjoy their own bad habits? Why do people doing the practices die? Leonard used to say that the gift people give you by dying is more information for your own research on how you can prevent your own death.

So today, I offer the Guiding Thought to you in this context, in honor of Leonard. What patterns, habits, and thoughts can you see in others right now, that you can release in yourself for greater Freedom? How often today can you remember the Love, which sets you free, and allow your thoughts and feelings to transform? Right now, you are free in Love…until you prove otherwise. Allow Love to lead you. Trust Love and surrender to its wisdom…

And here’s an article by Leonard that brings all of this together in his own words.

 

 

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Not Warm and Fuzzy –Journey of Freedom 02.12.21

Welcome to day 21, the first day of Round 3! How are you doing? How’s your brain holding up, maintaining a daily focus on Freedom? In the third round, the subject of the Guiding Thought is “we”. This is the “unifying round”. I am not just I, you are not just you. We are we, together, all One. Think of this as “society” or a social complex, if that fits for you; “we” are a collective of people. I cannot be in this by myself or for myself; I can only be with you and for you, equal to myself. This round serves to expand your notion of “I” and “you” into this unity of “we”.

Guiding Thought

Love is our natural state; In Love we remember who we truly are; we remember our holiness, our innocence, and our infinity. Love enlightens our minds and lifts our hearts. We feel buoyant and expansive! We are now aware of our Self as Infinite Love, unbounded and free.

Reflection / Contemplation

I have to come clean: I haven’t done a very good job sharing my frame of mind on this Journey. I’ve been doing the Journey, and outwardly the appearance is (I presume) that “all is well”–which it is, yet there are also things further underneath the surface that I have not shared. One of the big reasons I began sharing these Journeys publicly was to show, to demonstrate, the day-to-day process of shifting one’s consciousness, of progressing on the path. I want people to see that lifting one’s consciousness into higher levels of love, light, and Being is not always linear, it’s not always “fun”, it’s not just warm and fuzzy all the time. Doing this work is work. It’s work that cultivates the strength, courage, tenacity, and skills to do more of the work–and doing more of the work means having stuff come up to deal with in deeper/higher ways.

 

Recently, I have not been experiencing seriously f’d up shit–but certainly over the past 6 years of doing the Journeys I have. Sometimes I look back on things I have experienced and wonder how I made it through…but I didn’t just “make it through”…I made it through free of attachments or “negative” emotions. I am bouyant and expansive–and I owe it to doing this work (and a supportive relationship, and the Jharra, and the Havan, and prayers, and the Grace of God…).

That was all just a long preamble to my coming clean. Here is what’s going on beneath the surface for me while doing this Journey: I have not felt like I am focused on Freedom at all. My mind feels all over the place, everywhere except freedom. It feels like Freedom is too big for me to handle right now, so I am working on something much smaller, something I can handle, a much smaller “bite”.

But I am not sure what that bite is. It’s not like there is a focus, a theme, or a script. I am just doing the Journey as best I can, thinking about Freedom as best I can, and doing my best to notice, to be aware of what’s going on within me and around me.

I feel pretty certain that All is well. But I also feel a bit unanchored, “loose”, untethered, not understanding how pieces fit together. I don’t know where I’m going. Neither are these unusual or foreign feelings on a Journey–I just haven’t been telling you about them on this Journey.

I do know that the Journeys always get me to the right place–the next step for the evolution of my consciousness for it/me to progress further/higher/deeper.  It’s not “fun”, but I do love the work, and I love the anticipation of seeing where I’ll be “next”.

Peace to you. I am glad you are here. Thank you for the work that you are doing.

 

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Scratching the Surface –Journey of Freedom 02.12.20

Guiding Thought

Focus your mind and thoughts on your Inner Divine Self, your Self of Peace, your Self of Joy, Your Self of Infinite Being and Intelligence. When you are aware of your Inner Divine Self, you radiate these qualities, expressing the freedom of Being in Life!

Reflection / Contemplation

What is the Truth of you?
Who are you?
Are you that body?
Are you these thoughts?
There is something of you more than that body because there is something thinking about that body;
There is something more than those thoughts, because there is something aware of the thoughts.
There is something aware of you that you are also aware of.

How aware can you be of its awareness of you?
Try it.
Every motion, every thought
Be aware of the awareness behind your awareness.

Then you begin to scratch the surface of the Truth of you.
Barely.

 

 

 

 

 

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