“What you need, you know I’ve got it…”: Journey of Abundance – Day 05

Copyright Tam Black 2015 Designed for susanwithpearls.com
Copyright Tam Black 2015
Designed for susanwithpearls.com

Guiding Thought

My Inner Divine-Love Presence Knows what I need or desire before I do. It is constantly providing me with ideas, material goods, situations, and interactions to fulfill all my needs and desires. I relax and allow the Presence Within to supply me with everything I need.

Sharing

I taught myself very early the difference between a need and a want. I have no idea where I learned about the distinction, or why I latched onto it, but by the age of 10 I was asking myself, “Is this something I need or is this something I want?”

I learned to deny myself wants and to want only what I needed.

It remains a habit for me, fairly ingrained. I am uncertain if I did myself a service or a disservice. I have very few wants or desires, and I want primarily only what I need. I don’t care about having the latest technology (all the cars I’ve owned have been over ten years old and I don’t have the latest smart phone or tablet); I’m not actively climbing any social or professional ladders.

But in denying wants, did I stunt my imagination about what might be possible? Did I suppress opportunities to learn about creating and manifestation? Did I teach myself not to trust myself in wanting? I don’t know.

I do know, however, that the above description applies only to material things. There are things I want, things I aspire to, things that I desire that are not material—Unity, Oneness, Love (the usual!).

The first sentence of the Guiding Thought resonates with the Christian idea of “I knew you before you were born” and “God knows every sparrow that falls”. I used to talk to God, saying, “You know my heart better than I do, You know what I need.” …I still do, talk to Him this way. This, in turn, resonates with the themes of trust and surrender (here & here) that have been weaving in and out of my Journeys. If I am to be consistent with what I say to God, and how I act, then I must trust that all my needs are taken care of and that whatever I have, whatever I experience is for my own good.

“For my own good” is, however, defined by God, not by me. So what this means is that whatever I have, whatever I experience is for recognizing my Unity with Him, my relationship with Him, which is a relationship of Oneness with All, an experience of Divine Love.

A need implies a lack, by definition.1 If I feel any need, it is because I feel a lack, that something is missing. A Course in Miracles says, “Each one acts according to the particular hierarchy of needs he establishes for himself. His hierarchy, in turn, depends on his perception of what he is—that is, what he lacks. A sense of separation from God is the only lack he really needs to correct.”2

The second sentence of the Guiding Thought addresses this: [My Inner Divine-Love Presence] is constantly providing me with ideas, material goods, situations, and interactions to fulfill all my needs and desires.

Yet, Divine Presence does not know lack or limitation. Divine Presence knows only Wholeness and Fulfillment. Thus, Divine Presence is constantly providing me with all the Wholeness and Fulfillment of Itself, in everything I experience.

The “problem” comes because of my own hierarchy of needs. Any time I want something that is defined by my own standards, rather than Divine Love’s, I do not and cannot, experience the Wholeness that is being given to me. I’ve limited the illimitable. I’ve defined myself by “my own best interest;” I’ve defined myself by my lack, rather than by my fullness.

If it’s true that a sense of separation from God is the only lack I need to correct, then I need to shift my own hierarchy, and want only to correct that separation. Then what I desire, what I need, and what I want become aligned with what Divine Love is already giving me, what my True identity is.

At that point, I can relax and allow the Presence Within to supply me with everything I need, because I am no longer at odds with what It is, or with who I am.

I would like to think that my young-self somehow was attuned to this, and was pointing me in this direction from a very early age.

 

 

1A Course in Miracles. Whitecrow Digital Edition, Original Edition. Chapter one, paragraph 89.

2A Course in Miracles. Whitecrow Digital Edition, Original Edition. Chapter one, paragraph 91.

 

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Journey of Abundance – Day 01

Guiding Thought

Divine Love-Light is the Source of All. It is all good, all God. This Source is always seeking expression through me. My awareness of my personal identity as this Source provides me with infinite fulfillment and prosperity.

Sharing

I almost feel like I have a split personality at the moment. I drove to work in an hour of morning traffic, dealt with 8 hours of being on the job, drove home, also in heavy traffic; then when I got home I lit a fire in my back yard fire pit and began the Journey.

Hearing the birds, feeling the sun, watching the wind in the trees, allowing the fire to drain me of the responsibilities of the day, it’s hard to believe that I spend so much time barraged by such superficial, meaningless activity for 8-10 hours of my day at work. I should say, rather, “superficial and meaningless” relative to these quiet moments in touch with something deeper.

The time “on the job” is me, just as this is me…but the distance between the two feels wide. Here, now, all that (the job), seems surreal.

It took me several moments, several readings of the Guiding Thought to even begin to feel it. And when I did, I understood with new clarity: “This is all I want. This is all I seek.”

I seek the quiet moments in communion with God, with my Self, with nature. That is enough. I am enough.

I understand why monks live in silence or in caves. I understand why some choose renunciation. There are so many distractions in the world!

Yet…Divine Love-Light is the Source of All—it is all good, all God. That job-life is as much a part of Divine activity as sitting with the fire.

Or… is it?

I say over and over that these journeys are intended to bring the spiritual to the material… but that does not mean that I am bound to, or imprisoned and at the mercy of a relatively superficial, meaningless material world. That cannot be.

Equally, these Journeys are intended to bring the material to the spiritual. There are higher ways to live and be in the world, ways that lift material experience into Divine Love-Light.

I just really “got this” in a new way. You see, I work really hard at the first aspect, doing my darndest to embody the qualities of love, compassion, kindness, etc.—bringing the spiritual to the material. But it is also about lifting the material up. Instead of just thinking/feeling that I have to simply endure the material with spiritual qualities, it is also my responsibility to change the material so that it is more congruent with the spiritual.

I see this on a cultural scale too. There are greater movements toward ethical business, human rights, planetary, and animal justice. As a species, we are learning to make our material conditions better for all.

If I were to picture my ”split personality” that I described above, I would say that the two “personalities” are beginning to unite, to find the place where the Truth of my Self, my union and communion with God resounds in my life activity, and my life activity is the easy and natural expression of that union.

"I would say that the two “personalities” are beginning to unite...and my life activity is the easy and natural expression of that union. " -Susan Billmaier Ph,D.
“I would say that the two “personalities” are beginning to unite…and my life activity is the easy and natural expression of that union. “
– Susan Billmaier Ph.D.

Welcome to day one! I am glad you are here.

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