Is Just Is. Journey of Fulfillment. 03.06.11

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Guiding Thought

Everywhere fulfillment is, you are. Fulfillment is everywhere. Fulfillment is. You are.

Sharing

The statement “Fulfillment is” is simply matter of fact. It’s solid, tangible, un-questionable. “Where is fulfillment?” “Everywhere.” “It just is.”

Where is Love? Everywhere. It just is.

Where is Oneness? Everywhere. It just is.

Where is Peace? Everywhere. It just is.

Where is God? Everywhere. It just is.

Where am I? I am…Everywhere…One with Love, One with Oneness, One with Peace, One with God. I just am.

We CAN Do This. Journey of Fulfillment. 03.06.10

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Guiding Thought

I am light. My body is light. I am free. I know my fulfillment: I feel it rise within me, expand out from me.

Sharing

Moksha is the Eastern concept of Freedom. This is a spiritual freedom, not a civil/political freedom. For many people who practice Eastern religions or follow Eastern philosophies, Moksha is the goal, the highest attainment. This is a State of Being that we can attain here, now, as human beings.

Human beings were born able to attain this State. We all have the ability. (I am reminded of the idea from A Course in Miracles that says, “Miracles are everyone’s right, but purification must happen first” Principle #7; we are so much more than what we allow ourselves to believe).

In my (humble) opinion, the Christ’s Ascension was the achieving of the state of Moksha.

The body, here-now, this human body, is able to attain Moksha, ascension. Human beings are able to so fully align with highest Divine Love and Light that all of their bodies–mental, emotional, physical, and etheric–take on a Divine State. All of their bodies become Divine Love, Divine Light.

I am light. My body is light. I am free. I know my fulfillment: I feel it rise within me, expand out from me.

Gaining in Letting Go; Listening Within. Journey of Fulfillment: 03.06.08

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Guiding Thought

My motivation is my choice. My intention is my choice. My will is my choice. In Peace, I listen within for guidance so that my actions are motivated by joy, my intentions are love, and my will is simply to share Joy and Love.

Sharing

Two thoughts today.

1.

“My will is my choice.” What about “Thy Will be done“?

So often it seems, people seem to think that “Thy Will be done” means that they must lose, give up, or surrender their personal will. That’s what makes “Thy Will be done” so difficult, yeah? “I don’t want to give up my will. I want my freedom!”

The Journeys are all about aligning with Divine Will, though–allowing Divine Will to come through “me”. And there does seem to be a certain amount of letting go, of surrendering.

Yet, my will is my choice. And I can use my choice to choose Thy Will. Then, I’m not giving up or surrendering; I’m fully utilizing my own free will to choose Thy Will. What’s more, Thy Will holds so much more Peace, Harmony, and All things in Right Order than my little will. Thy Will is so much better for me than my will!

It’s nice to think that even in so-called surrendering to Divine Will, I still have full choice to do or not do, to align with the Divine or decide everything for myself. Life is easier when I make the one small, simple choice to allow Thy Will.

2.

More and more recently, I am listening within for Guidance. It’s not always completely conscious; sometimes I only realize I’ve done it after I have done it.

This is how it happens: I naturally ask questions a lot. Sometimes I am addressing another person, sometimes my questions are in my head. Recently, I’ve “heard” answers to questions that I think are just in my little brain, but the answers are not of my little brain.

Here’s an example. Someone said something to me, and immediately I thought, “Is this B.S., are you lying to me, or are you telling me the truth?” And then all of the sudden, I knew/heard that the answer I was just given was about 70% true, with about 30% exaggeration. Then I immediately asked, “Can I trust this person”? and the answer I got was, “Yes. There is no willful deceit, just trying to make a point”. And this is not the first time something like this has happened.

Now, I am coming to understand that I need to be aware of this question-answer, and to enter into the relationship a little more intentionally, asking questions that I want the answer to, then listening within for the guidance.

I’ll be experimenting with this now!

Peace.

Square One Commencing. Journey of Fulfillment: Day 03.06.07

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Guiding Thought

My joy unifies! Accepting my own joy, acknowledging it, sharing it, and expressing it heals me and others. To be wholly joyful means to be wholly love…means to be wholly my Self.

Sharing

I know from experience that the Guiding Thought is correct. I’ve verified it for myself. I’ve experienced situations where joy has unified, where it has lifted and healed. I understand that Joy is a True Expression of the Self.

These are cognitive recognitions and memories of a time. Currently, I neither feel this Truth, nor know how to access it cognitively. >sigh<

Here’s why: I’ve felt really stressed out and overwhelmed the past two weeks. It had been building for a bit before then, but these past two weeks I have felt the walls closing in. Pressure. (This is being reflected in my physical body by headaches and sinus pressure).

I could talk about what it is that is happening; I could tell you the psychology going on; I could tell you some of the things I’m “working on” that are contributors…but what would that accomplish?

I’d rather share what I’m doing about it (so here it is). This was my realization today:

Earlier on in the Journeys, I had to remember to remember my Divine Self. I would do the Journey, meditate, and feel like, “OK I got this”. Then I’d go out into the world, where there was vulnerability to noise, chaos, and distraction and I would forget. So I had to learn to remind myself to remember my Divine Self, so that amidst the noise, distractions, and chaos, I could still center my attention on my Divine Self.

This remembering has gotten much, much better. I now often remember my Divine Self, and call It forth. But now I have something new that I need to remember to remember, another layer shall we say.

That new thing is: my Divine Self does not need to take my human crap, and I can tell my human self “NO MORE”. NO more with the stress. No more with the overwhelm. No more with the pressure. No more playing tired, playing small, playing defeated. NO MORE. I Can Choose. I am a Divine Being, created with Love, with full access to ALL that Love has to offer. I direct my mind and actions with Love, by Love, through Love, and I decide for my highest good (which incidentally has naught to do with stress, pressure, or overwhelm).

What does this mean in practical terms?

In the moment I must recognize that I am feeling/behaving as less than a Divine Being and I must call forth the full Power and Authority of God I Am to take dominion over all my thoughts-actions. I must align with the Divine Will of All Good, All God, and be in Harmony with the Law of Love–the only Law of Power, Expansiveness, and Harmony, dismissing any thought-emotion-action that is less than the Law of Love.

Square One Commenced.

Brain Modification: Journey of Fulfillment 03.06.06

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Guiding Thought

Why would I choose to limit my Self? Or choose to limit my reality? All of reality is mine, and mine to give! In giving and sharing, my joy increases, expanding my Love, expanding Life!

Sharing

I feel like this Guiding Thought is a backdoor. It asks questions to which my conscious brain would pretty obviously respond, “I wouldn’t!” or “Right!? why would I choose to limit myself or my reality??”. The point is that no one in their conscious brain would choose to limit themselves.

So why does the Guiding Thought begin here? If it’s a “case closed” scenario, why mention it?

I suspect that the point is twofold. 1) To get very solid buy-in from the brain that “I” would never choose to limit myself 2) To point out that maybe, just maybe, there are places where I do limit myself.

I know there are places where I feel limited. And if I feel limited, there is no one limiting me except me. So, if I am actually limiting myself, why am I choosing that?

And this can feel really overwhelming. On the one hand I am telling myself that I would never limit myself, on the other hand, there are recognitions of limitation that I have “done” to myself.

That contrast could really feel self-defeating.

But the Guiding Thought does not leave me with this self-defeating spin. It gives me a way out. It assures me All of reality is mine, and mine to give!

Then it tells me how to experience this, and “have it all”: In giving and sharing, my joy increases, expanding my Love, expanding Life!

Journey of Fulfillment 03.06.05

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Guiding Thought

In Divine Mind, I am already filled full! In my mind I see mere shadows, slight glimpses of true fullness. I remember how much I do not Know! I am determined to fulfill my purpose, to know my Self as Divine Love, and to share the fullness I am.

Sharing

The first two lines of today’s Guiding Thought contrast Divine Mind (in which I am already filled full) and my mind (in which I see mere shadows and glimpses of true fullness).

This is really striking a chord for me today, this contrast.

Everywhere, each person has a mind in which there are shadows and glimpses of true fullness. Every person we meet sees shadows and glimpses.

People act, react, and interact with each other through their own shadows and glimpses…Sometimes while thinking or believing that their shadow or glimpse is the true and correct shadow or glimpse. How shadows and glimpses can be so staunchly defended!

I almost always have two-layers happening these days as I do the Journeys. There is the layer the acknowledges the “what is“, which is what we are currently seeing and experiencing in the world, in our lives (which for many people is chaos, tumult, anxiety, uncertainty).

The second layer reflects the optimist in me. What is is not what is going to be. The Being of now creates a new Being through its own becoming. In other words, this is a transition. What we are seeing and experiencing is real for today, but it may not be real tomorrow.

The optimist in me also believes that more and more, people are remembering how little they know, and remembering their Self, which is Divine Love.

The more each person remembers this now, in this moment of Being, the more each person’s –and our collective–becoming will reflect the Fullness of Divine Being.

Seek no More: A Journey of Fulfillment: 03.06.03

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Guiding Thought

What is fulfillment but knowing my Self as an expression of Divine Love? My Self wills to create! My Self wills to share! My Self wills to extend itself! My fulfillment is creation; my joy is sharing; my peace is extension.

Sharing

Last night I did a meditation on my Soul’s True Purpose. It took me “down” within, to where my highest purpose resides, where no outer disturbance can reach it, and then aligned my outer world with that purpose.

During this process, I had a series of thoughts that came all together, as they do sometimes in meditation. Here is the summary of those thoughts, “Yeah, what is my true Purpose? I used to know my purpose– my purpose used to be focusing on seeking God, seeking the Divine. I’ve spent almost my entire life seeking the Divine, becoming an individualized expression of the Divine. My “I”dentity has been colored by the seeking. Who am I as someone who has found the Divine?”

It was an “I”dentity crisis of sorts. Who am I now? Who am I without seeking?

What is my purpose, now, if not to seek? What is my purpose now without the seeking?

But that is what I am now telling myself to do: Seek no More. Find. Know. Be.

 

 

Ordinary Miracles: Journey of Fulfillment 03.06.02

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Guiding Thought

I now invite, welcome, and receive the effects of Divine Love, and I am Truly grateful.

I experience Divine Mind as I experience these effects, and Divine Presence confirms itself in my life, activities and affairs.

 

Sharing

I wrote this Journey in 2014. At that time, I had only just begun thinking how important it is to invite Divine Love and Divine Presence into my life and affairs. Now, six years and 3 Fulfillment Journeys later, after I’ve been using the phrase, “I invite, welcome, receive…” regularly, frequently, and I look back and remember there was a time when seeing the effects of the Divine in my life was not a regular, common occurrence.

Leonard Orr used to say, “the Divine is so ordinary It’s often overlooked”.

When I was studying with Leonard, 25 years ago, I took this to mean that I should pay more attention to ordinary, common things that I would often overlook in order to become more aware of the Divine in my Life. It became a mindfulness practice, to notice the Divine, to find the Divine in small things, in the base happenings of my life.

Now I understand this phrase very differently, and I am certain that it has to do with consciously inviting the effects of Divine Love into my normal, ordinary, base life more and more frequently over the past 6 years.

The way I now understand Leonard’s phrase is very akin to the Sixth Principle of Miracles, “Miracles are natural. When they do not occur something has gone wrong.”

I experience miracles every day. It’s hard to explain; it’s not like big things are happening. It’s not like time stands still or the heavens open, or I am “cured” of anything, or anything like that. There are basically 3 categories that I notice “miracles” in my life:

  1. Something potentially really tragic or dangerous unfolds in front of me and I meet it with Peace, clarity, and equanimity. For example: When I was on the highway at 70mph and the truck ahead of me lost it’s tire, with one huge piece flying at me and several smaller pieces flying every which way. I just notice, breathe, and “see” where I can drive safely and do so. Or, another driving example: It was a dark and stormy night (yes, really), I was driving up Route 1 (NJ), with people in a hurry all around me going 50-55 bumper-to-bumper traffic. A car on my right cuts me off to pass the guy in front of him, then immediately slams on his brakes because traffic ahead is slowing down. Just before that happened, I “knew” he didn’t see me, knew he was going to cut me off, and I was prepared and slowed down in advance–he still almost hit my front bumper… I have several more of those kinds of stories. I always know that I am safe, that all is well, and–sometimes–I feel like I was put into those kinds of situations to remind people to slow down with “near misses”, to help them avoid a much worse situation in their future.
  2. My life works…perfectly. What I mean is that big things in my life work out perfectly. Moving. Job. Finding a place to live. Meeting “the right” people. This is why/how I know that whatever happens with my relationship, it will be perfect. All is well. (This is not to say that I am immune to tough emotions, mind-disturbances, or uncomfortable situations–I have these, too, and I simply remain vigilant in keeping my mind focused as best I can on the Divine through these situations).
  3.  I notice that when I do have disturbed thoughts or feelings, or am in a disturbed situation, when I change my mind to invite the Divine, I handle the situation better than “I” could ever handle the situation. I’ve experienced this over and over. I turn my mind to God in the moment, and all is well. The situation smooths out, tensions dissipate, emotions reconcile, the other person becomes more peaceful. “Om Namah Shivaya”.

When the effects of Divine Love become usual, common, and ordinary, Miracles are experienced naturally, as life. When Miracles are experienced often, usually, as common, daily, ordinary interactions, it’s easy to “overlook” them. One way I notice the miracles in my life is by reminding myself, that others don’t experience life the way I do; other people have hardship and struggle. My life is good. So very good.

And one day, this will be the experience of everyone. Miracles are natural. Divine Love is Who We ARE. Divine Perfection is what we can expect. Always. All ways. This is Life.

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I just had an unrelated thought that I’d like to share:

I’ve always thought of A Course in Miracles to mean something like, “A class-type format, which through study will teach a person what miracles are and how to live a miraculous life”. And, it is that.

My new thought changes the meaning of the word “course”, to mean “a route”, a path, a direction. So not only is A Course in Miracles a learning format, but it is also a course/route to Miracles. Not much different than a Journey, eh? 🙂

 

 

Why a Journey of Beauty 02.10.0

Why Beauty?
Thus begins my exploration into the interior states of Beauty. Certain family members and close friends have heard me say, on multiple occasions, that I must be exposed to Beauty every day. My soul/being requires such, whether it is something I observe or experience outside of myself or something that I create. Why does my soul place such a demand on me? Or have a loud enough voice that tells me that if I do not pay attention to this, that my inner light will diminish? 
I am not quite sure how many times I have made this claim, but enough so that if I say it once again, its meaning will drop to the level of triteness and the important folks in my life will look at me with eyes glazed over. So what does it really mean to me when I say that I must be exposed to Beauty daily? It’s time to pony up.
What I know right now, or rather what is true for me now, is that my experience of Beauty is relational: giving and receiving, or rather, receiving and then giving.
My experience of and with Beauty gives me a sense of “Awe”, access to something that is bigger than me. I am not alone in this Universe. What flows from my experience of Awe is gratitude or appreciation for whatever has been offered to me, be it by way of a visual, sound, physical, or taste experience. Even an idea or a conversation can be beautiful to me. Something inside of me gets jostled and stirred. I am different for or because of my experience and I am grateful for it.
I am old enough, curious enough, and introspective enough to know these things about myself: I have to be in relationship.  I have to be in relationship with something greater than myself. I like to stir and be stirred, especially in relationships. I have to be in relationship with that which makes me a better, more conscious human being.
Beauty attends to these requirements; at least I believe it does
What I do not know and am not so clear in expressing, is why this drives me so. Is Beauty a want or a need? Why or how does Beauty invoke the “Awe” response in me? I am willing to be engaged and challenged by this upcoming process.
Let the adventure begin!

Guest Contributor Lita Artis

 

 

 

 

 

 

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Here is the schedule:

Apr 18 Preliminary day Introduction: Why A Journey of Beauty (02.10.0)
Apr 19 Preliminary day Commitment and Dedication (02.10.00)
Apr 20 – 29 Days 01-10 Round One (02.10.01-10)
Apr 30 – May 9 Days 11-20 Round Two (02.10.11-20)
May 10 – 19 Days 21-30 Round Three (02.10.21-30)
May 20 – 29 Days 31-40 Round Four (02.10.31-40)
May 30 – June 8 Reflection days Gently care, de-fuse, and write one day of reflection on the Journey (02.10.41)

“Bursting My Own Bubble”: Journey of Fulfillment 2.0 – Day 38

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Guiding Thought

My motivation is my choice. My intention is my choice. My will is my choice. In Peace, I listen within for guidance so that my actions are motivated by joy, my intentions are love, and my Will is simply to share Joy and Love.

 

Sharing

I’ve figured it out.

When I begin each Journey, I write down an intention, to (attempt to) get clear about what I hope to accomplish for the particular Journey. Then I spend about 35-40 days with that intention, that “goal”, working itself out in my subconscious. You have seen it: the path is not linear, it’s not obvious, and sometimes it seems like I am straying far away from the purpose, the path.

This is how I think of it (please note this is as much my imagination as it is “fact”, and probably more my imagination): My brain has been receiving sensory input since before I was born. All of that sensory input was translated into electronic impulses, which moved through my brain over synapses, creating “neural networks”. A “network” is a bundle of impulses. So, for example, I have a bundle of impulses that tells me how to type on a keyboard, a bundle that is associated with petting my cat; I have a bundle associated with doing the dishes. But, I also have a bundle that is associated with typing on a keyboard while listening to music. And I have a bundle for typing on the keyboard, while my cat is vying for my attention. And I even have a bundle for doing the dishes while listening to music, while my cat vies for my attention.

Each of these that have common elements which are all intertwined in these networks, tangled, entangled. When you throw the neural networks of emotions, beliefs, or subconscious impressions in there, you really get some tangled-ness, going back to all of the emotions, beliefs, and impressions I’ve had since before I was born.

For example, there was the time when I was doing dishes, with the cat underfoot vying for my attention while I was listening to REO Speed Wagon after having just broken up with my high school sweetheart when the dog came galloping in, chased by my brother who was shouting and carrying on, which scared the cat so that it jumped up and scratched my face, in turn, causing me to spill hot coffee down my front. After that, it took a long time to be nice to the cat, listen to REO, not be mad at my brother for chasing the dog, or even smell coffee. (This is all fiction, by the way, meant to entertain you while giving an example.)

Each of the neural associations had lasting conscious effects. While I may recover from this scenario consciously, there are still neural pathways, neural networks, that were created, which may still create some emotional stress from the trauma of it.

The individual Journeys unravel the neural networks that are associated with their topic (in this case, Fulfillment). Since most of my neural associations that are entangled are completely sub-conscious (or unconscious), the Journeys take me through a convoluted path to dis-entangle the networks in my brain. At least, the path seems convoluted, because I do not consciously have access to all of that disentanglement process.

This is what I figured out:

When I started the Journey, you may recall (WHY), I listed a bunch of affirmations that I have been working with regarding my purpose and its fulfillment.

At the beginning of the Journey, I was attached to the affirmations, and achieving their outcome.

You may be aware of some of the ideas regarding attachment (and non-attachment). If you are not, here is a lengthy, but easy-to-read essay by a source I trust. http://www.lamayeshe.com/article/chapter/chapter-six-every-problem-earth-comes-attachment

Most often attachment associated with enlightenment has to do with ego­-attachment. But people tend to be attached to things as well: families, friends, clothing, cars, good food, a job, etc., which of course is all just an expression of the attached ego.

I was attached to the affirmations: these will get me what I want. I want this particular outcome. If I just say these affirmations, I will get what I want. I want.  I want. I want. Do you see?

The Journey (and God knows…I don’t know how), showed me how my attachment to the affirmations was exactly what prevented their fulfillment, and what’s more, through the Journey, the attachment was released. For 37 days, the bubble rose; hitting the surface, it burst, releasing what was trapped within.