“All things are possible”

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Guiding Thought

We allow our physical body to experience itself fully as Light and Love. Our physical bodies embody Light; we are an expanded body of Light and Sound. We move as Light, perceive as Light, behave as Light. We are everywhere—permeating, expanding, unifying, and healing. All things are possible.

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A couple of days ago I was struggling with the concept of “All is as it should be.” Today, I am accepting “All things are possible,” and feeling that really “All is as it should be”. I feel calm, at peace, confident, and assured.

But it’s funny how the mind works.

Shortly after I began accepting both of those statements on a deeper level while reading the Guiding Thought, recognizing I was calm, I thought, but what if it’s not? What if it’s not as it should be? What if what I want to be possible isn’t? And I felt panic rise; it was just a small twitch, but it was an immediate response to that doubt.

I realized I had projected that doubt into the future and had begun thinking about what I want. And as soon as I did, I began thinking about what I don’t want.

I have to remember that “All is as it should be” and “All things are possible” are so much bigger than me. As soon as I made it about me, the peace and calm gave way to panic and dissolved the assurance of now.

I can still feel it, still feel the smallness of wanting to make it about me.

This is a really good realization on this Consciousness Journey. How do I hold myself back? How do I limit myself? How I sabotage the progress? I go through struggles, fumbles, days of intense self-examination, and I get to (finally!) a place of peace and acceptance…and what do I do? I throw a wrench in the gears.

The wrench came from a different place than my struggles, though. When I am struggling, by golly, I know it. And when I know it, I take it head-on. “Bring it! Let me work this out. Let me get through this. Let me transform this.” And I work on it until it’s passed.

Then here I am; passed it, I am feeling good…and then something I wasn’t seeing comes up to get in my way.

At least I noticed. It was like a small crack that begins as you’re walking over an icy pond. You hear it first and just stop. “Is that what I thought it was?” You look down and see the tendrils of a crack. “Yup. I better not take that step.” But even backing up or retracing steps becomes precarious…present danger averted, but now you need to get back to where you know you’re safe; who knows how that small crack compromised the structure of the ice?

Maybe I misspoke (mistyped?) when I called this self-sabotage or holding myself back. Maybe this is really keeping me safe. Maybe the panic is a small, clear warning sign. I alerted myself to the danger of going down the path of doubt and making “it” about me.

Returning to a place of peace and assurance simply means removing the cause of the interruption, thoughts about me and I.

We. Us. Ours. Together. All. IS. Yes.

Thanks for keeping me safe.

Guiding Thought

Allow your physical body to experience itself fully as Light and Love. Your physical body embodies Light; you are an expanded body of Light and Sound. Move as Light, perceive as Light, behave as Light. You are everywhere—permeating, expanding, unifying, and healing. All things are possible.

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This is another one of those thoughts where I slip into, “Ok…but HOW?” I did not begin spinning today though, thank goodness. There are two reasons for not spinning today: 1) Resistance has reared its stubborn head (which meant a certain amount of apathy to figuring out how.) 2) I have an idea of how to do it (or at least how to visualize it).

1) The resistance: today it’s passive, in the form of nonchalance and intellectual lethargy. There’s no inner voice of skepticism, there’s no aggravated opposition, there’s no mind trying to figure it out (which is the only reason there is no spinning). Instead it’s more like I’m just blank, like curling up under the covers, not wanting to think about it, figure it out; like if I wait long enough it will just go away. It’s much more passive indifference/numbness/disconnected. I did not feel attuned at all to today’s Guiding Thought; there was no acceptance of even the potential of Oneness with the idea, no acceptance of the thought that I can experience Light in the way that it describes.

The resistance lifted however with every reading of “All things are possible.” That raised my optimism momentarily, until I repeated the first sentence. It felt really good to think, “All things are possible.” I don’t know what “things” I want to be possible, but it felt as though if I did know, I’d be very optimistic about it!

2) Having an idea of how to do it: If I weren’t curled into a figurative ball under the covers, I would have been able to visualize today’s Guiding Thought. It is basically a guided visualization—very basically. But if I were to simply do what it says, to the best of my ability, bringing awareness to my body and bringing light into it, I would be answering the question, “How do I do it?” You see?

I think what I am most disturbed by is that with all of my effort to feel over the past few days, to get it, I actually feel less than I have during the past few days. I mean: numb? There is not much more unfeeling than that. I did the exercise. I read the Guiding Thought. I am writing. But today it feels mechanical “totally in my head” as the saying goes. Normally, I at least have enough of a connection with my feeling-nature to feel silly, or confused, or annoyed…or creative, or receptive, or appreciative…or something. Today—blank. I feel so blank I don’t even care about feeling blank. I wonder if I’ve just overwhelmed myself?

There was one little bit of a bright ray within the practice this morning. I thought, “I’m learning.” It was that simple, I’m learning. And I knew and felt (felt!!) deeply that this was true. I don’t know what I am learning; I don’t know how I’m learning…but I am learning something, and it’s in there, working. Maybe this is the cooling off time. The preparation work is done; the ingredients have been put together; the baking is done; the pie is out of the oven, sitting on the rack. Waiting. There are good things to come when it’s cool enough to eat, but for now, it just sits, waiting.