Authentic Love

Copyright Tam Black 2018
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Guiding Thought

My Inner Divine Mind is always expressing itself in all ways through my own Loving Presence. This is Its True Nature, thus this is my True Nature. I turn to my Inner Divine Mind as the Source of my happiness, my purpose and my fulfillment. I allow It to flow through my Own Loving Presence and appear as all my activity, as every visible form and experience I desire.

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During Journey of the Heart–which is designed to by-pass the thinking brain, and get to deeper more-subconscious communication with Self–I came up with some pretty wild designs and drawings that I could not replicate today if I tried. I was definitely in tune with that deeper part of myself, and it was flowing through me and into the pictures. But could I interpret them either then or now? Nope. Do I know what they mean, what they were expressing, what they were “saying”, or teaching? Nope.

But I could feel it. I could feel something moving within me, something shifting, changing. I’m different, but I would not be able to put it into words, or explain it, or tell you what has changed, or what about me is different.

I don’t know if those effects of that Journey has maintained momentum through this Journey, or if this Journey is having the same effect, but the feeling is the same.

I’m changing. I’m different. I just feel it. I know it. Unlike Journey of the heart, I do have some words to explain it today.

I feel more confident. I feel like I am able to trust my Self and myself more than I did 6 months ago, a year ago. This confidence feels like inner strength. I feel like I can reach into my inner strength and be supplied; I feel more accepting; I genuinely like-love practically everybody, and I want to share this strength/confidence with them through the like-love (so I talk to them about “normal” things, but it feels like I am loving them as we talk).

Is this what the Guiding Thought is getting at?

(I think it might be)

Copyright Tam Black 2016 Designed for susanwithpearls.com — Copyright Tam Black 2016
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Guiding Thought

Love yourself for the Truth within you. The Truth within you Knows you for who you are—Pure Love, Only Love, beyond all valuing of the world. In Love all are equal, for we are One. This is how Truth Knows you—Pure, One, and Free. This is your Truth; this is our Truth; this is the Self you love.

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I’ve been learning so much about Love lately. I want pure love, real love, authentic Love. Yet, I also wonder what pure, real, authentic Love is. (You know me, I always ask, how do I know?)

In my stubbornness to accept only pure, real, authentic Love, I tend to dismiss or deny a feeling that could be Love, but I don’t know for certain. If I don’t know, then (maybe) it isn’t pure, real, and authentic. I want that Love that is so certain it is absolute. 100%. I don’t even need to think about what it is or how I know, because it’s just there, surrounding me, flowing through me, bubbling up in me unprovoked and unannounced.

Well. For a while now, I have been feeling empty (or, more specifically, numb). It’s that kind of empty that is on the verge of a breakthrough. The emptiness of making room for more, the emptiness of clearing away the dross, to replace it with the Divine. But it still feels empty, and that can be a difficult space for lengths of time.

There have been a couple of things that have happened over the past week that have given me the gift of feeling so much love for people, all people; my heart has opened, love pours out. The first thing that happened was a conversation with a former-monk who really knows how to be this thing called love. If you have never spent any time with someone who has simply practiced love…I recommend it; their very presence moves and shifts how you feel, and opens you to Love in a way other people and situations do not. I aspire to being that for others.

The second thing that happened was a dream I had of my “first love”. Do you remember your first love? For me, it was a complete and total submission to and immersion in love. It was fully enveloping. It was unconditional. It was all-encompassing. I had forgotten that feeling–my first love was a long, long time ago, but in this dream it all came back. The joy! The freedom! The purity! The innocence!

Both the conversation with the ex-monk, and the dream have reminded me of what Love is and that this Love is not “mine”, but it’s something that flows through me of its own accord. I am reminded what It feels like, what It truly is, and how joyous it feels to simply love and to love simply, to love purely, innocently, unconditionally–beyond all valuing of the world. I am so humbled and grateful for these lessons, for the memories, for the experiences.

And now, I just want to love everyone…all the time. The emptiness is gone, as though it never was, because in Truth, it never was.