Confidence. (Purpose 1.2.34)

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Guiding Thought

My Inner Divine Mind is always expressing itself in all ways through my own Loving Presence. This is Its True Nature, thus this is my True Nature. I turn to my Inner Divine Mind as the Source of my happiness, my purpose and my fulfillment. I allow It to flow through my Own Loving Presence and appear as all my activity, as every visible form and experience I desire.


During Journey of the Heart–which is designed to by-pass the thinking brain, and get to deeper more-subconscious communication with Self–I came up with some pretty wild designs and drawings that I could not replicate today if I tried. I was definitely in tune with that deeper part of myself, and it was flowing through me and into the pictures. But could I interpret them either then or now? Nope. Do I know what they mean, what they were expressing, what they were “saying”, or teaching? Nope.

But I could feel it. I could feel something moving within me, something shifting, changing. I’m different, but I would not be able to put it into words, or explain it, or tell you what has changed, or what about me is different.

I don’t know if those effects of that Journey has maintained momentum through this Journey, or if this Journey is having the same effect, but the feeling is the same.

I’m changing. I’m different. I just feel it. I know it. Unlike Journey of the heart, I do have some words to explain it today.

I feel more confident. I feel like I am able to trust my Self and myself more than I did 6 months ago, a year ago. This confidence feels like inner strength. I feel like I can reach into my inner strength and be supplied; I feel more accepting; I genuinely  like-love practically everybody, and I want to share this strength/confidence with them through the like-love (so I talk to them about “normal” things, but it feels like I am loving them as we talk).

Is this what the Guiding Thought is getting at?

(I think it might be)


The Love You Are (Heart- 1.1.28)

Journey of the Heart – Day 28
©Susan Billmaier for susanwithpearls

Guiding Thought

Love-as-light streams from our hearts to all hearts! We are connected by Love; we are One in Love. Imagine these streams of love-as-light connecting with everyone in time and space. Imagine receiving these streams of love-as-light as they return to you from everyone in time and space. This is enough. We are One.

-Play the Guiding Thought here (loops automatically).
Journey of the Heart audio created by Brad Vanlandingham for Susanwithpearls-


What is Love?

Love is friendship, deep care for one another, great affection, sweet emotions, and respect for one another. (paraphrased from Joseph Barry Martin, Living in Two Worlds)

What is Love?

  • In Heaven, where the meaning of love is known, love is the same as union.
  • Perfect Love is the atonement.
  • Love is guiltlessness.
  • Love is not an illusion. It is a fact…love is wholly without illusion, and therefore wholly without fear.
  • Love is freedom.
  • Love is not learned. Its meaning lies within itself. And learning ends when you have recognized all it is not. That is the interference; that is what needs to be undone. Love is not learned, because there never was a time in which you knew it not. (A Course in Miracles)

What is Love?

Love is a state of complete acceptance–knowing the acceptance of yourself to All of Life, and accepting All of Life as it accepts you. (Susanwithpearls, in response to today’s Guiding Thought)

Be the Love you are; root out anything unlike It and transform those things with the Light of Love.


A Dramatic Juxtaposition (Heart- 1.1.11)

Journey of the Heart – Day 11
©Susan Billmaier for susanwithpearls

Guiding Thought

Your Heart knows how to love. Everything is energy. The most potent energy is love. As you learn love, invite the most powerful energy to express through you, to live as you, to be you! Your heart is Love’s abode. Your heart teaches only love. You are a willing and joyful student!

Play the Guiding Thought here (loops automatically).
Journey of the Heart audio created by Brad Vanlandingham for Susanwithpearls-


Welcome to round 2! The pronouns change from “I” to “you” for this round. For more information, see this page.

One purpose of these Journeys is to give people (myself included) the standing realization of our identity of and with Love. Love is who we are. It is our deepest/highest Self, our true identity, our most natural (and therefore easy) mode of being.

But, we have to remember (and keep remembering), realize (and continue realizing), and allow ourselves to be who we are–naturally and easily.

There is a poignant passage from A Course in Miracles which describes what it is like to live not as the Love you Are:

What could [the world] be but vicious and afraid, fearful of shadows, punitive and wild, lacking all reason, blind, insane with hate?

What have you done that this should be your world? What have you done that this is what you see? Deny your own Identity, and this is what remains. You look on chaos and proclaim it is yourself. There is no sight that fails to witness this to you. There is no sound that does not speak of frailty within you and without; no breath you draw that does not seem to bring you nearer death; no hope you hold but will dissolve in tears.

Deny your own Identity, and you will not escape the madness which induced this weird, unnatural and ghostly thought that mocks creation and that laughs at God. Deny your own Identity, and you assail the universe alone, without a friend, a tiny particle of dust against the legions of your enemies. Deny your own Identity, and look on evil, sin and death, and watch despair snatch from your fingers every scrap of hope, leaving you nothing but the wish to die.

Ok, maybe it’s a bit dramatic and extreme.

Yet, there’s a part of me that understands what it’s saying. I don’t always feel frail, depressed, friendless, fearful, blind, or insane. But looking around the world right now, it’s tough not to recognize those things everywhere, somehow.

Sometimes I need a severe juxtaposition to understand how far I have yet to go–until the world is healed fully, I still have a job to do. And it feels like a long way to go.

Here (on the Journeys), I get my daily dose of realization/reminder of my true identity, my union with Love (the most powerful energy!). Here, I counter the frail, depressed, friendless, fearful, blind, insane world, for whatever I can see “out there”, is also “in here”; when I heal myself, I heal the world. Is there a better gift to the world than freeing myself from it?

They must await your own release. They stay in chains till you are free. They cannot see the mercy of the world until you find it in yourself. They suffer pain until you have denied its hold on you. They die till you accept your own eternal life. (full text here)



Creation Happens: Journey of Creation – Day 10

Copyright Tam Black 2017
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Guiding Thought

There are no degrees of Love. Love is Whole, Full, and Perfect. Love in action is Creation; Love’s creations are Whole, Full, and Perfect. When I express Love, I am being creative in its Truest sense. Creativity is Love in action, and produces activities, relationships, and experiences which are Whole, Full, and Perfect.


Imagine, if you can, all your life activities flowing perfectly: every event and interaction fitting perfectly together, everything you could possibly need, want or desire arriving before you are even aware that you need, want, or desire it.

There you are, in the middle of your life, watching the most perfect, synchronous, elegant, beautiful dance happening all around you.

This corresponds with yesterday’s reflection: creation happens. I do not make creation happen, nor do I actually create anything. Creation is Love’s natural expression. When I allow Love, all of Love’s perfection, wholeness, and fullness is freed simply to do what it does. All I need to do is maintain my awareness of Love, and continue to provide the vehicle for its expression.

How practical Love is!

I can feel how beautiful and easy life becomes when Love leads or is in control. Everything makes sense, everything has a purpose, and everything is part of a bigger picture.

It’s not that “bad things” don’t happen (but they do become greatly reduced, in my experience); it’s that all things are seen with new eyes, the eyes of Love. The perception changes and those “bad things” have a new context, surrounded now by a higher purpose, and an understanding of its Oneness with All.

Love does not see the “bad thing”. It sees only the beautiful Soul beneath the “thing” (even if it is not “bad”), and reaches out through Itself to aid that Soul on its journey.

This is how Love is both the Journey, and its end. In Love, we are all perfect, whole, and complete (tip o’ the hat to Louise Hay), but our perceptions (not Love’s!) limit how we experience that Love.

The more we free our perceptions, and allow Love to flow through us, the more that Love can reach out to Itself through our activities, relationships, and interactions. In doing so, Love strengthens Itself in our perception, and in the perception of those we interact with. Until…slowly…we all reach 100% full total awareness-understanding-Knowing of the Whole-Full-Perfect Love we are.

How fun!