New Themes– Worth (1.3.24)

Copyright Tam Black 2018
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Guiding Thought

Our worth is inestimable, beyond compare!

We always know we have everything to give—thus, we may always give freely! We know our worth and we give it; we give it freely, and Know in the giving!

As we give, we learn, allowing Joy and Peace to lead and to guide us. We follow willingly for we know: Where there is Joy and Peace, there is Love; where there is Love, we are; where we are, we are giving our inestimable worth.


Quick update: The panic is over again. It’s just weird to me that this cycle–in and out of panic–has gone on this long. I continue to do mantra, prayer, and fire ceremonies, which always move me out of it and/or help maintain balance and calm. Onward!

Themes for this Journey so far: Change/transformation and connection.

I’m going to add a third and fourth theme too: forgetting/remembering and holding on/release.

Holding on/release: I am adding this because when there is change and transformation, there is an inherent letting go of something in order for it to transform into something else. I am going to keep this in mind for the rest of the Journey, because–especially with my panic episodes–I have to look at, or be aware of, what I am holding onto, and not wanting to give up. Why am I afraid? Why am I afraid of letting go? What do I cling to?

Forgetting/remembering: I am adding this because as I was reading the Guiding Thought today, it came up for me for the second time today. Though this has been a minor theme so far (see days 1, 11, 21), I am going to bring it greater awareness for the rest of the Journey. It seems like since day 21, my sensitivity to the gap between remembering and forgetting has increased. What I mean by that is I feel more of a tug at my consciousness that says, “you know this, you just need to remember“. In other words, I am more aware of my forgetting, which is pointing me toward remembering.

I was walking, listening to birds, feeling the breeze, watching the trees, and I thought, “I am part of this. I am connected to all of this. I know I am…why don’t I feel it more? What do I need to do to feel it more”. It’s like remembering a memory, without the details, “I know this happened… but what exactly happened”?

So I am keeping on. More to do, more to learn, more to remember, more expansion, more growth, more love, more light, more life.

Love to you. I hope your Journey is going well. Thank you for being here, supporting this Journey with your energy. We’re all in this together.

Peace, peace, peace.

I Can Change– Worth (1.3.20)

Copyright Tam Black 2018
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Guiding Thought

If you are to be your Self in the world, you must be for others as well as yourself. There is no other. Be willing to receive the Infinite Love of All. Be willing to understand how to rise above the struggles and pains of the world. Be willing to rise again and again with each call for help, each outstretched hand. Be willing to be the one to choose to change. Offer your pain, suffering, guilt, and blame up for transformation, into the light of Love that you may see and give only the light of Love always.


What’s the difference between change and transformation?

“Be willing to be the one to choose to change. Offer your pain, suffering, guilt, and blame up for transformation

There’s a lot that can be said about this, a lot of things to consider, but for current discussion, this phrase gives a clue to what I currently find significant: choose to change.

Here’s the difference: Most of the time it feels like change happens. It feels like change is happening “out there” or “to me”. Change just happens. I have to “go with it”, deal with it, but I can’t direct it or control it. …Unless I choose to change. Then it’s different; then I have a say; I have some semblance of control (or so I think).

Transformation first of all feels intrinsically bigger than change. Transformation is magical, mystical, alchemical; it’s something that happens deeply, thoroughly, completely. Transformation feels intentional (which corresponds to choosing to change).

Change has been a big part of the Journey so far, and it continues!

On day 8, I described how I recognized some thoughts that were creating a situation that I found unhealthy for me, and which I was interested in changing; I listed those thoughts, then I listed the thoughts that I was going to change those thoughts to, whenever I noticed the first thoughts coming up.

I’ve still been doing that. Recently, however, I’ve noticed that more, different, “destructive” (non-life-affirming) thoughts were coming up. These thoughts feel like they are at a new layer or level of release and healing.

At first, I still felt some resistance and denial when the new stuff came up. The work is so constant; there’s always more to heal, release…transform. Sometimes I get tired of it…but not for long, because I know that staying in a destructive mind frame will only make it worse. And besides, it has gotten easier and easier to shift my mind into love, light, healing, transformation (thank God).

I believe in Light. I believe in Light as Healing, as Love, as transformative, as a connection to the Divine.

I don’t know what Light does or how It does it. I just know that when I think Light, my mind changes; my situations change; my emotions about the situations change, and I have more peace, calm, trust overall.

In my recent-new level of stuff bubbling to the surface for healing, I’ve been using this thought as the replacement to the non-life-affirming thoughts:

Transmute, transmute by Violet Fire, all causes and cores not of God’s desire. I am a being of Cause alone; that Cause is Love, the sacred tone.

I am choosing to change. I am offering my pain, suffering, guilt, and blame up for transformation, into the light of Love.

I’m not a victim of change. I am not at the mercy of my thoughts. I am not a victim to suffering. I can change. I choose to change.

And it is so.