Reality is More Fun: Journey of Peace 2017– Day 35

Copyright Tam Black 2017
for susanwithpearls

Guiding Thought

I am now aware of my complete harmony with All of Life. I choose to carry the harmony of Oneness with me in all areas of my life. Awareness of Oneness brings immediate peace to all my relationships and interactions. I choose Peace. I choose recognizing Unity with All. I choose Oneness with All.


I am One with All, whether I choose it or not.

Choosing It merely makes me an active participant in something that already exists.

Choosing Oneness sends the signal to my mind/body/brain to be on the lookout for It.

Seek and find: When I choose Oneness I make a decision about what I am looking for.

Most humans (at this point in time) default to seeking sense-perception experiences.

All sense-perception experiences are a) of the body, not of the Soul b) rely on human (not Divine) perception, which is prone to misinterpretation c) feed the ego-identity d) encourage categories, divisions, separations of the various perceptions.

Since the default is sense-perception, unless a person consciously, intentionally chooses differently, the experiences sought-after will be sensory perceptive experiences.

Oneness is not of the senses, not of human perception. If seeking sense-perception experiences, Oneness will never be experienced, never be known.

Choosing Oneness–telling your brain/mind what to look for–is the first step to experiencing it in the outer world. Our Divine Self perceives Divine Ideas differently than our body’s perceptions.

We are One through our Divine Self, our I AM Presence, the Holy Spirit. It’s ok to ask for help. In fact, it’s encouraged:

I Am my I Am Presence and I am One with the I Am Presence of every man, woman, and child. I ask my I Am Presence to shine the Divine Light of Wisdom into my mind/heart-thoughts/emotions, that I may Know my Oneness with All of Life. 

Eventually, we all must become active participants with our Divine Self; it is after all more fun to experience reality than perceptive misinterpretations.

Making Fear Obsolete: Journey of Courage 2017 – Day 02

I am feeling very committed, very determined today. There is no wishy-washy in my determination to accomplish this Journey. Too much is going on in the world not to give absolutely, completely, 100% to Love, Peace, Harmony.

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Guiding Thought

When I attune my mind to the Oneness that is All of Life, I understand my place in Wholeness. I am the very Presence of Life, and this Presence of Life is me. I am blessed through this understanding. In return, I bless all I encounter.


I am very excited about beginning this Journey. I’ve never been prone to panic or anxiety attacks, but recently (ok, let’s be honest, since November 9, 2016), I’ve had bouts of feeling overwhelmed with near-panic and worry. It does not happen often, or regularly, but when it does, I can’t even say what triggers it, or why. It just “comes upon me”. This morning was such a time. I thought, “this feels bigger than me”. And what was implied in that was, “I don’t know how to handle this, or even if I can”.

This is why I need a “Journey of Courage” just now.

Three  days ago, I wrote “[Daniel, Shadrach, Meshach, and Abednego] were so filled with trust in God, in His plan, that whatever the outcome, their Peace was unshakable”. Putting courage in the context of unshakable Peace, really makes courage unnecessary. Peace goes first into everything, clearing out any doubt, fear, or worry, which would otherwise require courage to face.

This is why I need a “Journey of Courage” just now: I want the idea of courage to become obsolete, as fear, doubt, and worry dry up, evaporate, become as dust to be blown away in the gentle breath of Peace.

This Journey does not focus on strengthening courage. Instead of strengthening the tool to use against fear, this Journey aims to eliminate the fear, so the tool is not necessary.


Unshakable Peace.

We can get there.

What do you want? How badly do you want it? When I woke up this morning, with that lump in my chest from nowhere, thinking, “this feels bigger than me”, I was so glad that I had just written this two days ago:

I declare that I know my Divine Self is bigger than my fears. I know that I am connected with a Power greater than myself which flows through All, connecting each with ALL, and providing All Good to All, at all times. Thus when I am aware of, understand, and Know this Power through me, as me, I am able to walk in Peace and Harmony with All, approaching All with Love. I am committed to realizing this Power through me, as me, in every aspect of my life.

My near-panic may feel bigger than me, but the power I AM is even bigger.


On and On: Journey of Courage – Day 07

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Guiding Thought

Love is strong! Powerful! I embrace Love and wield it through my awareness of Oneness. Oneness destroys the illusions of the mind, of the past, and of the material world. I move forward courageously with Peace in the Truth of Love and Oneness.


Sometimes “wielding Love” provokes a fear-response.

I feel many layers/levels responding to this Guiding Thought today. One level is a deep, all-pervasive calm and peace. It feels like the observer, the stillness of Knowing, which is devoid of reaction, devoid of feeling anything is “right” or “wrong”.

As I sat with/in this space, I found I wanted to go deeper into some questions, concerns, and doubts. After all, if I am in a space of non-judgmental peace, I can look at “stuff” (supposedly) without a harsh reaction from my mind and emotions…so…that is what I did.

I looked with greater analysis and assessment of my thoughts and actions regarding several aspects of the expression of my Divine Self.

Part of being self-aware and of moving consciously in the world, expressing my Divine Self, is to ascertain whether or not I “walk my talk”. Thus, I look at—analyze and assess—what I say and what I do. I look for:

  • Consistencies—where I think I am aligned within and without. These help me acknowledge I am on the right track.
  • Inconsistencies—where what I say and what I do are out of alignment. These help me know where I am still experiencing the illusion of separation.
  • Those things that are not misaligned but that are things I can do better. I always find things I can do better.

That’s a large part of what these Journeys are for me: continual assessment and analysis of staying the path, becoming more consistent, going deeper, and aligning every single thing I come upon into Divine Oneness.

Acceptance and forgiveness are very important in this process. As long as my mind is involved, it will always find those places of apparent inconsistency and “need to do better”, which require me to relax and forgive, lest I drive myself (or the people around me) crazy.

Also very important is entering and being-with the all-pervasive calm and peace. “Oneness destroys the illusions of the mind, the past, and of the material world”.

As I said, in my state of peace, I began to look at, in a deeper way, my thoughts and actions. My focus was spiritual:

  • What is devotion?
  • Am I devoted enough?
  • Do I pray with heart-felt sincerity?
  • How pure are my intentions?
  • Do I have inner and outer integrity?
  • Do I praise and respect the Divine in/as All?

What I found is that even though I am doing OK with being consistent, my standard is rising. I want to be more devoted; I want greater sincerity, purity, and integrity.

With an increase in the standard, I felt more of the “I can do better”.

With that, I needed to invoke acceptance and forgiveness.

As all of this was happening, I also seemed to feel confused and frustrated. How am I supposed to do more? I was not unwilling, but I felt exasperated and small.

It was good!

Love lifts us to itself. When we are ready, it gives us more. Then we work through our responses to it (with gentleness, patience, and forgiveness), and raise ourselves to its standard. We become more congruent and consistent on a new level.

And on and on…until we finally Know Oneness together.

Journey of the Heart – Day 15

We are on Round 2 of our Journey! For those of you new to this, there are 10 Guiding Thoughts, which we repeat in four rounds, for a total of 40 days. With this round, instead of hearing the guiding thoughts in the first person, the subject of the Guiding Thought will be “you”. For example, instead of saying, “My heart knows how to love”, we will be saying, “Your heart knows how to love.”  (For further explanation see Journey of the Heart – Day 11)


Spend about 15-20 minutes with the guiding thought, and then let your heart speak through words, pictures, colors, shapes, whatever feels right. I’ve supplied a link below to an audio of me doing the guiding thought–use it if you like to create, while listening to it play on a loop (that’s what I do). Scroll to the bottom for my sharing…

Day 15 Guiding Thought

Bring your awareness to your heart and resonate with its love.

Naturally and easily your heart-love radiates through you.

Love is present now—rippling in to the future, releasing the past.

Click here to access the audio file.

You can download this and play it in a loop while you allow your heart to speak to you 🙂   I suggest Windows Media Player (I have not tested other players).

Journey of the Heart - Day 15 Susan Billmaier for susanwithpearls
Journey of the Heart – Day 15
Susan Billmaier for susanwithpearls


I really wanted to bring out the feeling of “naturally and easily” with my picture today. The colors I chose are what did that for me.

There’s this idea that we are Divine beings, that our True Self is holy, full of love and peace. The thing is…how often do people really feel this way naturally and easily?

When something is natural and easy, there is no promoting it, no chest-puffing, no need for competition; there is only the fact: this is. So, when I am my natural Divine Self, it is so easy that there is no thought about it. This is at the heart of the whole thing people are saying so much these days, “Just be.” But how often does that really happen? How often do I “just be” in the sense of being my True Self? How often does it happen that I am naturally and easily my Divine Self? Because…if there is any thought about it…if there is any trying to prove it, or any defense of it… if there is any insistence in it…then, it is not, and therefore, I am not.

The more I am able to connect with my heart, which is closer to my Divine Self than my mind, the more I can feel when I am close to being naturally and easily my Divine Self. The flip side of that, though, is I can also feel when it is distant, when I am not being my highest, truest, most natural Self. And that is when I get frustrated, when I do not understand why I get in my own way, why I cannot just be. Truly, that is one of my biggest frustrations. Knowing where I should be, but also knowing I am not… but also… knowing that at my deepest/highest most true place, I still am. It is truly mind-boggling at times.