Affirming. Worth (1.3.5)

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Guiding Thought

There is only one Will. That Will is Love: your Love, my Love, our Love, together. Only when I will in Love is the outcome assured in Love. Only when I will in Love do I know the results are truly beneficial to all, including myself. Only when I will with Love am I Free, and I affirm with certainty “All is as it should be”.


Can I affirm with certainty “All is as it should be”?

If the answer to that question is “no”, then I have not Willed with Love.

If the answer to that question is “yes”, then I have Willed with Love.

How often do I feel the peace of knowing all is as it should be?

Sometimes, but not that often. I have felt it; I know I have. But most of the time, I am caught up in something else that is probably best described as “just getting through life”–going here and there, doing this and that. It’s like constant preoccupation.

How do I go from constant preoccupation and not knowing all is as it should be to the constant preoccupation and knowing all is as it should be? In other words, how does it happen that I live life, going here and there, doing this and that, and know constant peace, in the constant union with Divine Will?

The obvious answer is, “will in Love”, all the time. Yeah. I’m working on it. Not there yet, but working.



Why A Journey of Worth (1.3.0)

Greetings, and welcome to the first day of Journey of Worth! Whether you are here for the long-haul, or just stopping by, I am glad you are here. Perhaps something within you is beckoning to you to seek/find your greatest worth and its expression?

For those of you who are new here, this is a Consciousness Journey: a way to communicate with your Inner Divine Self, to gain deeper connection with your Highest Self, your Divine Self, and thereby enrich your relationship with God. This is done through a series of contemplation exercises (40 days!).

The Journeys are not rooted in any religious tradition; the idea is to connect with God through you, through yourself–your mind, heart, and will, however, whatever, God is to you. I have kept the Guiding Thoughts non-specific (non-religious) in this regard, but feel free to substitute words that you like better (for example, if you don’t like when I use “Inner Divine Self”, you might use “best self”, or “highest self”)–what matters is that the words pull you toward your “best self”.

Today we begin with a little reflection about why we want to contemplate worth for 40 days. 40 days is a long time…might as well start with some clarity, don’t you think?

What follows is my own reflection. Pull out your journal to write, or get some crayons to draw, and spend some time reflecting on worth. What is self worth? What defines it? How does a person express it? Do you have it? How can you get more of it? Etc.

Ready? Here we go!


Yesterday I wrote a bit about finding purpose (from the previous Journey) in strengthening my relationship with the Holy Spirit. Now, this purpose is a foundation stone to this Journey: my relationship with the Holy Spirit is key to understanding my worth, and increasing my awareness of it.

Here is how this realization happened for me: I am constantly working on uniting my will with God’s will–I’ve gone through lots of phases/stages/levels, including issues of trust, submission, letting go, faith, courage, etc.

As I was better-acquainting myself with the Holy Spirit during the last Journey, I more-or-less had a feeling/understanding that working with the Holy Spirit was another level of cooperating with Divine Will. It was as though I had passed through all of the tension-fear-uncertainty of “submitting” and “letting go” and I had entered the phase beyond those–where trust is the fact, not an issue to be worked through.

I’ve been praying to and thinking about the Holy Spirit fairly regularly on a daily basis, increasingly for about 6 months (so, yes, Journey of Purpose began with some momentum in this regard).

Just a few days ago, I was musing about my life, what I wanted from it, where I want to go, while also connecting my mind/heart with the Holy Spirit. All of the sudden, out of the blue, I thought, “I want a life worthy of You (meaning the Holy Spirit)”. Immediately, of course, the word “worthy” caught my attention because I knew I would be starting this Journey.

So, I thought about that. What does it mean to have a life that is worthy of the Holy Spirit? What does that look like? How do I do that? I realized that having a life that is worthy of the Holy Spirit is the only kind of life worth having. And that kind of life is the only life worthy of me.

So there it is: Why a Journey of Worth? To expand my consciousness that I might live a life worthy of the Holy Spirit and my Self, through myself.

Thank you for being here. I look forward to the Journey with you. Love to you…


“Giving Effort And Patience The Finger”: Journey of Worth 2.0 – Day 38

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Copyright Tam Black 2016
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Guiding Thought

I am worth the effort it requires to move my mind to Love. I am worth the time of waiting, in patience, for Knowing to arrive. Every moment, every second that I open to simply being willing for Love to enter is a moment offered to Eternity; a moment offered to healing, a moment offered to Unity.

Love simply settles slowly, quietly, gently, beyond sense-perception. So I must wait in patience and take the effort to move my mind to join the quiet stillness of Love. Here I rest. Here is Peace. Here is all I want and need.



Tam asked me recently if I was getting burned out on the Journeys. I responded, that sometimes I go through a period within the Journey where I feel pretty numb, brain-dead, deflated, or exhausted, but I just consider those days as part of the Journey–it comes; it goes. No, I am not getting burned out on the Journeys. If anything, I wish I had more time to give them; when I really get into them, they energize and refresh me. When I started the Journeys in 2013, I was doing a lot of research in conjunction with them, looking for lots of different perspectives on what “worth” or “healing” or “purpose” mean in different traditions, cultures, or thought systems. If anything, I want to do more of that–I want to get back to doing that kind of research for each of the Journeys, looking for more detail, understanding, interconnections, or more refinement. I am just one voice; there are lots of things to say about these topics, lots of ideas to explore–I’d like to be able to bring those to you as I trek along.

This is relevant to today’s Guiding Thought because in many ways the Guiding Thought is about allowing Divine Order, in Divine Time–waiting in patience. The worse I “do” patience, the more it seems like the universe makes me wait. I really want the time to do these Journeys (and more of all I do), more. But it’s not time, it seems, so I keep going as I am.

Recently a kindred soul wrote:

“If the Universe were to TRY to keep up with what YOU THOUGHT was the “RIGHT” timing, it would throw complete chaos into a perfectly running system.  We think we REALLY want something – BUT give us 20 minutes, or a day, or a month, and we’ve already changed our perspective, or altogether moved on to something else.

The Universe only does what We should do –  focus on IT’S Intent. IT’s been here a lot longer than any of us.  It holds Galaxies together!  It made sure YOU were the winning sperm and egg out of millions, didn’t it!!   IT knows when conditions are best for ALL parties involved!” (see: Momentum Mikey, Intention and the Finger)

He’s so right! This is why “I am worth the effort it requires to move my mind to Love. I am worth the time of waiting, in patience, for Knowing to arrive.” –Because the Universe knows what it is doing a heckuva lot better than I do.

Don’t confuse waiting with passivity, however. There is activity in waiting. The activity is “moving my mind to Love” or, in Momentum Mikey’s case, focusing on the intent of the Universe. The mind is active, while the body waits. The mind is developing, getting clearer, allowing Love and Intent. The mind is applying effort to meet the Universe where IT is.

Why am I “worth” this effort? Because Divine Will (or the Intent of the Universe), is the ONLY thing that will satisfy me. Momentum Mikey says, “We think we REALLY want something – BUT give us 20 minutes, or a day, or a month, and we’ve already changed our perspective, or altogether moved on to something else.” This is because even though those things might be easy and require little effort there is nothing except Divine Will, or the Intent of the Universe, that will satisfy us. Chasing anything less than the Divine ultimately ends in disappointment.

Either put in the effort to align yourself with Divine Will, or exhaust yourself in vapid, meaningless pursuits.