Logical inconsistencies exposed–Journey of Gratitude 2017, day 35

Don’t let the title throw you. This is more about the exposure, than about logic. In this case, the exposure is both a vulnerable place, as well as an encouragement: Vulnerable because there is fragility in feeling out of control; encouragement, because within that there’s a higher purpose.


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Copyright Tam Black 2015
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Guiding Thought

When I am aware of my Self of Love, I see the world through new eyes. Love is the Source of all I see, all I experience; it is the very activity of Life itself. I place my faith in the principle of Love and receive with gratitude all my experiences.


What do I say I believe? … vs … What do I think about what I experience?


What do I want to believe …vs … How I behave

For example, if I say I believe, or want to believe Love is the Source of all I see, all I experience


If I if I say I believe, or want to believe that Love is All Good, Only good


I must think and behave as though all I see, all I experience is All Good, Only good

In this, I have been both challenged and assured lately.

I’ve had several experiences that have felt like my world is falling apart: tumultuous, out of control, chaotic. I thought very hard about how I was perceiving and what I want to believe, knowing that I want to believe in (have faith in) the principle of Love.

There was inconsistency. I was experiencing chaos, turmoil, which is not compatible with fully believing in (trusting) Love.

So, I prayed. “You who knew me before I was born, in thy infinite grace, mercy, love, and kindness…assure me, help me to understand, help me to have faith in You as Love, as the Source of All Good”. Well…. if emotions had words, that’s a near-proximity of what the words would have been.

What I “heard” in response was, “Trust that everything I send you…everything…is for your highest good, your highest spiritual development.” It was more than “hearing”, it was feeling the truth behind the words.

Relief! In that moment, I experienced I place my faith in the principle of Love and receive with gratitude all my experiences. I saw how every encounter is perfect, and how gratitude for everything is the absolutely perfect response.

In my experience, I felt and experienced a shift. Love does work miracles.

As with so many things (in my experience) on the spiritual path, those moments of relief come, wash over me, give me that relief, then pass…and leave me with a memory of the feeling: just enough to hold on to, enough to motivate me, to inspire me, to make me keep going toward that feeling, so that I might merge with it again, intentionally, consciously.

Now, I am between these two states: still fragile in the face of what I perceive as chaos, turmoil, and strife with remnants of the inspired moment, I am neither fully free of my own perceptions, nor fully enveloped in the faith of love.



But Wait! There’s More! Journey of Courage – Day 36

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Copyright Tam Black 2015
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Guiding Thought

I am responsible! I am able to respond with and through conscious awareness of my inner-centered, silent knowingness. I practice Knowingness moment by moment. Anchored in my inner-harmony, I have the courage to face my own thoughts and actions.


The insights of how this Journey is subtly teaching me continues! On several previous Journeys, I’ve had inklings of the gradual progression with each step Journey takes, which leads me to greater understanding. This, however, is the first time I am seeing the progression this clearly—seeing how the days “fit” together, and also “fit” into the combined bigger picture of the entire, overall Journey.

Yesterday, and the day before, I explained how Love gives us assurance of Itself, calls us to Itself, and helps us (gently) to understand It is where we really want to be. In doing so, It helps us want to lay aside anything that gets in the way of being with It. This is one of many ways Love gives us courage.

Today (the 6th day of each round) addresses our co-relationship with Love: Love is within us and all around us, but it’s up to us to allow It to express through us. Allowing Love is our responsibility. Love gives us free will to choose It, or not. It gives us every aid and encouragement to follow Its lead, then sits back and says, “What are you going to do? What do you want?”

Being responsible with Love, for Love, and to Love means choosing Love’s lead…as much as I can, as often as I can, and ultimately, choosing It completely, 110%, all of the time.

This takes practice. This is the practice of connecting daily with the inner-centered, silent Knowingness, the Love within, and being willing to allow that Love into Being.

The more I practice this, the greater I reinforce the assurances Love has given me, for example for the first 5 days of this Journey. This becomes the anchoring.

Anchoring gives solidity and firmness from within. It’s that unshakeable place within that can handle anything that comes up. And it can handle anything that comes up, because through practice, we learn our own strength in and with Love.

In the practice of choosing Love, and feeling anchored, my confidence in “handling life” increases. Also, in that confidence I can find and clear-away even more that might be hindering my experience of Love. In this anchored place there is constant increase (of Love) and constant clearing away (of things not-Love). These two things work together, like a scrub-brush and a broom: one loosens the dirt, the other sweeps it away! All of this gives me a fuller experience of Love in Life, of Love and Life expressing in me, through me, as me! Oh what a joy it is!

Journey of the Heart – Day 16

We are on Round 2 of our Journey! For those of you new to this, there are 10 Guiding Thoughts, which we repeat in four rounds, for a total of 40 days. With this round, instead of hearing the guiding thoughts in the first person, the subject of the Guiding Thought will be “you”. For example, instead of saying, “My heart knows how to love”, we will be saying, “Your heart knows how to love.”  (For further explanation see Journey of the Heart – Day 11)


Spend about 15-20 minutes with the guiding thought, and then let your heart speak through words, pictures, colors, shapes, whatever feels right. I’ve supplied a link below to an audio of me doing the guiding thought–use it if you like to create, while listening to it play on a loop (that’s what I do). Scroll to the bottom for my sharing…

Day 16 Guiding Thought

Listen to your heart and with your heart.

Your heart pays attention to others, listening to their inner voice, their unspoken words.

You care and attend, with love, to their deeper, silent needs, asking their heart, “How may I strengthen you and raise your energy?”

Click here to access the audio file.

You can download this and play it in a loop while you allow your heart to speak to you 🙂   I suggest Windows Media Player (I have not tested other players).


Journey of the Heart - Day 16 Susan Billmaier for susanwithpearls
Journey of the Heart – Day 16
Susan Billmaier for susanwithpearls

There are infinite hearts waiting for you, waiting to connect with you, waiting for your strength, waiting for union with you.

So many people’s hearts are hurt, are timid, are afraid of being shunned, of being betrayed, of being devalued. This is why it is so important to listen with your heart. When a heart listens, it creates a safe space for another heart to speak. And if your heart is timid or afraid, it gains strength when it gives to another heart.

All of this happens under the surface. It is not with words or with actions! It is on-top-of, but also underneath words and actions. Sit and have a cup of coffee with a friend. Talk like you always talk…but in your heart… listen. In your heart, offer strength and assurance, just by moving your own attention into your heart and visualizing your heart connected with another’s. Visualize love as light, connecting your hearts. The love as light carries your heart’s thoughts to the other heart, bringing not just love, but courage, encouragement, and assurance as well.

So many hearts need you, need us! So many people are so hurt and timid and afraid. We give them strength by overcoming our own hurt and fear, by sharing our hearts.